Dreams and thots

Written 11/15/08

After sending My last dream email I kept feeling into that message.
We All have a hidden side, a side or sides/aspects that We rarely reveal to anyOne. For most if We do reveal this side, We reveal it to strangers (think of All the implications and ramifications of this).
This refers to the first thing most of Us feel when We come to AA: "If You really knew Me, You wouldn't love Me." This feeling is not unique to alcoholics and addicts (of any type), the solution however is basically unique to the program. Plus I would venture to say that this solution is possibly unknown even to many program groups. The solution is many-fold but some parts are that everyOne is just as ugly and unlovable as anyOne else (at least in this hidden part/persona even in the beautiful people). Also, what We judge as bad (character defects) are often Our strongest assets.
So, then I was doing some mental contact with youngstars, having a conversation with some, telling "them" I want to accept and support "them" as "they" are totally. The thing is I was raised the same as "them" and yes, I do have negative judgements of some of the behaviours. But, I want to get through this. I want to accept and support "them" even in stuff I consider "bad".
Then I had a dream of a large group of youngstars accepting Me and inviting Me to join "their" party. Actually, it wasn't even an invitation, "they" simply included Me. And I accepted "them" as "they" were without reservation. This group included many who (by society's standards) would be considered very "bad". This was similar to the acceptance dream/encounter I had when I first started dreaming of starkid gatherings, but it was even more. Also, My acceptance of "them" without judgement was much improved.