Written 12/22/08
I dreamed about the star kids again last night. Some of this was in Fairbanks and some was in other areas. Once again I took My cabin with Me wherever I traveled and it hooked up to whatever building I was visiting. This dream was similar to the dreams of gatherings, yet different.
The kids were mostly high school age and some college age. "They" were kind of rebelling, but mostly just being kids. The thing is "they" weren't doing what the "authorities" thought "they" should be doing. "They" were having fun, lots of fun and many different types of fun. Basically anything fun You can think of to do, the kids were doing it.
This was All going on at the high schools. The faculty and staff saw it as open rebellion, imagine the very idea of students having fun in school instead of studying and taking tests. Because of the sheer numbers of students vs. faculty, there wasn't anything the administration could do to stop the kids from playing. Therefor the administration called in the police.
Still, the students far outnumbered the police. So the SWAT team was called in. At this point I went out to talk to the police. I was saying something about the kids are just having fun and there really is a large number of "them". (somewhere in there the kids were calling friends from other schools and colleges and nearby towns on "their" cell phones and more and more kids kept showing up to play)
I continued to point out that if the police became aggressive, think about what it would be like if All these kids turned aggressive in return. This convinced the police to just stand by in case any actual trouble started.
More and more kids showed up and joined the game. This became so popular that the kids started living at the school. Classes were allowed to continue, but the teachers could not "require" any work be done or tests taken. Attendance became voluntary and All the instruction had to actually be done in class rather than assigning homework. If the students wanted to take a test to measure what the teacher had actually taught "them" that was allowed. However, these tests graded the teacher's performance rather than how much the student could cram in "their" head the night before a test.
This concept spread to other areas and I visited many other schools. I know that at some points I was high school age again and at others I was My waking age. Wow, just the thought of actually having fun at high school, enjoying All the classes. That sure feels different.
This IS what We ARE doing
THIS IS WHAT WE ARE DOING (Picture found on Facebook, artist unknown)
Monday, December 22, 2008
Dreams #45
Written 12/21/08
I know I had several, but the One(s) I remember was a reality still very much like this One.
I was living here (in Fairbanks, AK.) but I was living with My parents in a house with running water, and I was much younger than I Am now. (for those who don't know, My parents are dead and I live in a 1 room cabin without running water)
For some reason I brought home a car (from some friends of My parents) that wasn't running right. This car looked a lot like One I All-ready owned but was a different brand.
I was quite disoriented in the dream, I was also observing MySelf as well as participating in the dream.
I had a spot where I usually parked My cars so it was easy to plug in. (We have electric heaters on Our cars to warm "them" before starting at sub-zero temperatures.) I noticed that I had not parked any of My cars (I now had 3) in My usual spot and so I had to run an extension cord to each One to warm "them" up. (Remember the Me in the dream is disoriented) I took a garden hose and ran it out to One of the cars and started running water into the engine. When water started spewing from the tail pipe I knew something was wrong.
The Me in the dream was very frustrated and immediately wondered why I had ever started running water into the engine. I was glad to remember that I had 2 other cars I could drive but was actually torn between trying to start the water logged car or let it dry. The Me that was observing found it All very humorous.
We both real-eyesed that I was pushing MySelf to do something (work on My car) when I really wasn't present enough to focus.
I know I had several, but the One(s) I remember was a reality still very much like this One.
I was living here (in Fairbanks, AK.) but I was living with My parents in a house with running water, and I was much younger than I Am now. (for those who don't know, My parents are dead and I live in a 1 room cabin without running water)
For some reason I brought home a car (from some friends of My parents) that wasn't running right. This car looked a lot like One I All-ready owned but was a different brand.
I was quite disoriented in the dream, I was also observing MySelf as well as participating in the dream.
I had a spot where I usually parked My cars so it was easy to plug in. (We have electric heaters on Our cars to warm "them" before starting at sub-zero temperatures.) I noticed that I had not parked any of My cars (I now had 3) in My usual spot and so I had to run an extension cord to each One to warm "them" up. (Remember the Me in the dream is disoriented) I took a garden hose and ran it out to One of the cars and started running water into the engine. When water started spewing from the tail pipe I knew something was wrong.
The Me in the dream was very frustrated and immediately wondered why I had ever started running water into the engine. I was glad to remember that I had 2 other cars I could drive but was actually torn between trying to start the water logged car or let it dry. The Me that was observing found it All very humorous.
We both real-eyesed that I was pushing MySelf to do something (work on My car) when I really wasn't present enough to focus.
Dreams #44
Written 12/21/08
Yesterday I woke knowing I had thoroughly enjoyed My dreams but with absolutely no memory of what I had dreamed.
I decided to spend a little time updating My blog, moving dreams I had written from My email files to My blog site. I came across a dream from August that reminded Me of My dream the night before.
For a fairly long time now I have been working on remembering a reality/world where We remembered We are One from the very beginning. For Me this particular reality would still be about exploring separation/limitation but also remembering that We are actually One as We explore being individuals.
I have felt this would help Me experience this world transitioning into a world/reality where We continue to explore separation/limitation and remember that We are connected at some level (more than connected actually).
The dream I remembered was this world transformed or probably well into the process of transforming. It was delightful. I have All-ways wondered how it would work, what it could possibly look like. This was only One version (of course) but I liked it a lot.
The businesses that remained were places to come for recreation and/or learning. "They" were places to play, where We could easily find other people to play with at any time. We could go there as groups or alone and often We would find and make new friends this way.
EveryOne created/manifested whatever We needed/wanted so the businesses (remember places to play) had no reason to charge and no need to pay employees or rent or utilities or taxes (YAY). If anyOne did not know how to manifest/create what "they" needed there were businesses that taught this and businesses where the people there freely created for those who did not know/remember how.
Obviously owning a business took on a very different meaning than it does now. Owning a business was about serving others, there was no personal gain other than the enjoyment of doing whatever We were doing. The business owners may or may not have been the same owners as before and during the transition. My feeling is that some were and some were not. If a person wanted to start a business there were empty places which the previous owner had abandoned, or if not We could simply (mentally) push 2 buildings further apart and put in a new One. There would be many variations on how this works, but this is a quick and simple description.
The owners and helpers/workers were there because "they" wanted to be. We were All doing and sharing what We wanted, what We enjoyed. When We got tired We would go home or to another place to play and learn for as long as We wanted. We followed Our passion and if We didn't know what that was, We had lots of places to try different things until We decided what We were passionate about. Any time We changed Our mind or Our passion, We moved on.
For those who discovered there was no existing business to express "their" passion "they" started a new business. It "they" needed help there were businesses that helped new businesses get started.
In this reality We had transitioned into people who truly cared about each other, about every other and shared freely. We knew We would never lack, We knew that We truly are abundance.
I feel that as heavenly as this sounds to Me, Once We got there We could see that there was more to explore, more and even greater things to transition into. We know that We are free of limits, We are infinite and eternal.
Yesterday I woke knowing I had thoroughly enjoyed My dreams but with absolutely no memory of what I had dreamed.
I decided to spend a little time updating My blog, moving dreams I had written from My email files to My blog site. I came across a dream from August that reminded Me of My dream the night before.
For a fairly long time now I have been working on remembering a reality/world where We remembered We are One from the very beginning. For Me this particular reality would still be about exploring separation/limitation but also remembering that We are actually One as We explore being individuals.
I have felt this would help Me experience this world transitioning into a world/reality where We continue to explore separation/limitation and remember that We are connected at some level (more than connected actually).
The dream I remembered was this world transformed or probably well into the process of transforming. It was delightful. I have All-ways wondered how it would work, what it could possibly look like. This was only One version (of course) but I liked it a lot.
The businesses that remained were places to come for recreation and/or learning. "They" were places to play, where We could easily find other people to play with at any time. We could go there as groups or alone and often We would find and make new friends this way.
EveryOne created/manifested whatever We needed/wanted so the businesses (remember places to play) had no reason to charge and no need to pay employees or rent or utilities or taxes (YAY). If anyOne did not know how to manifest/create what "they" needed there were businesses that taught this and businesses where the people there freely created for those who did not know/remember how.
Obviously owning a business took on a very different meaning than it does now. Owning a business was about serving others, there was no personal gain other than the enjoyment of doing whatever We were doing. The business owners may or may not have been the same owners as before and during the transition. My feeling is that some were and some were not. If a person wanted to start a business there were empty places which the previous owner had abandoned, or if not We could simply (mentally) push 2 buildings further apart and put in a new One. There would be many variations on how this works, but this is a quick and simple description.
The owners and helpers/workers were there because "they" wanted to be. We were All doing and sharing what We wanted, what We enjoyed. When We got tired We would go home or to another place to play and learn for as long as We wanted. We followed Our passion and if We didn't know what that was, We had lots of places to try different things until We decided what We were passionate about. Any time We changed Our mind or Our passion, We moved on.
For those who discovered there was no existing business to express "their" passion "they" started a new business. It "they" needed help there were businesses that helped new businesses get started.
In this reality We had transitioned into people who truly cared about each other, about every other and shared freely. We knew We would never lack, We knew that We truly are abundance.
I feel that as heavenly as this sounds to Me, Once We got there We could see that there was more to explore, more and even greater things to transition into. We know that We are free of limits, We are infinite and eternal.
Dreams #43
Written 12/15/08
Last night I dreamed I was working in an R.V. Park and campground. It was a very military or even prison type atmosphere.
I was with a couple who were very playful and "they" worked in or owned some type of communal living, maybe a hostel. We were having fun but We talked about how I should get back to work because My bosses were very demanding and unreasonable.
We started strolling through the R.V. park discussing how important the lush green lawn and other foliage was.
The park/campground transitioned into a Renaissance type theme and there were strolling minstrels who acted as security guards and a shire sheriff who could be called if there was any actual trouble. SomeOne walked thru the park wearing a wooden yoke with a pot of soup or stew hanging from One end and a pail of hot, homemade biscuits hanging from the other.
This food was provided free to everyOne and someOne else was walking around selling alcohol at very low prices and the campers wanted that to be free also. SomeOne explained why the alcohol had to be sold at minimal prices and everyOne was happy and having a good time.
I think I was One of travelling minstrels or bards. I know that I enjoyed working in this park much more than in the first One.
Last night I dreamed I was working in an R.V. Park and campground. It was a very military or even prison type atmosphere.
I was with a couple who were very playful and "they" worked in or owned some type of communal living, maybe a hostel. We were having fun but We talked about how I should get back to work because My bosses were very demanding and unreasonable.
We started strolling through the R.V. park discussing how important the lush green lawn and other foliage was.
The park/campground transitioned into a Renaissance type theme and there were strolling minstrels who acted as security guards and a shire sheriff who could be called if there was any actual trouble. SomeOne walked thru the park wearing a wooden yoke with a pot of soup or stew hanging from One end and a pail of hot, homemade biscuits hanging from the other.
This food was provided free to everyOne and someOne else was walking around selling alcohol at very low prices and the campers wanted that to be free also. SomeOne explained why the alcohol had to be sold at minimal prices and everyOne was happy and having a good time.
I think I was One of travelling minstrels or bards. I know that I enjoyed working in this park much more than in the first One.
Dreams #42
Written 12/13/08
I've noticed in My dreams a few times lately that I Am running "them" back and doing things differently and that often I bring people, places and/or events from My passed into My present. I had a dream a few months ago (that I wrote about) that was in the same house this dream was in, which was sold out of the family many years ago.
It was definitely present day but the house I was in was more like My grandmother's house than My cabin that I live in now. SomeOne was breaking into the house and I held My dog (Shadow, same dog as now) as We watched this guy come out of the basement. The guy saw Us and ran out the back door and We just watched him run away.
Then I ran it back and sent Shadow to attack him as he came out of the basement. (Shadow is definitely not an attack dog but he's quite big and would look and sound scary to a stranger) The guy ran from Shadow and Shadow (thinking it was a game) chased him out the door and into the back yard. I was yelling "get him, get him" and Shadow did manage to knock the guy down (mostly by accident). In the process the guy's backpack came off and spilled everything on the ground. I came up and started breaking things in his pack even tho he had not actually taken anything from Me.
Then I ran it back and started picking things up from his pack and looking at "them". I said: "This is everything You have in the world isn't it?" The guy nodded. I said: "You are hungry aren't You?" He nodded again. "Even tho I don't appreciate You breaking into My house, I'll take You inside and feed You."
Then I woke.
I've noticed in My dreams a few times lately that I Am running "them" back and doing things differently and that often I bring people, places and/or events from My passed into My present. I had a dream a few months ago (that I wrote about) that was in the same house this dream was in, which was sold out of the family many years ago.
It was definitely present day but the house I was in was more like My grandmother's house than My cabin that I live in now. SomeOne was breaking into the house and I held My dog (Shadow, same dog as now) as We watched this guy come out of the basement. The guy saw Us and ran out the back door and We just watched him run away.
Then I ran it back and sent Shadow to attack him as he came out of the basement. (Shadow is definitely not an attack dog but he's quite big and would look and sound scary to a stranger) The guy ran from Shadow and Shadow (thinking it was a game) chased him out the door and into the back yard. I was yelling "get him, get him" and Shadow did manage to knock the guy down (mostly by accident). In the process the guy's backpack came off and spilled everything on the ground. I came up and started breaking things in his pack even tho he had not actually taken anything from Me.
Then I ran it back and started picking things up from his pack and looking at "them". I said: "This is everything You have in the world isn't it?" The guy nodded. I said: "You are hungry aren't You?" He nodded again. "Even tho I don't appreciate You breaking into My house, I'll take You inside and feed You."
Then I woke.
Thots 12/10/08
I was also dreaming about this thing regarding what are people gonna do when We real-eyes We are All of it. We (most of those awakening) expect to find something better. I think most will be quite shocked to find everything, the better and the worser. I don't think it will really be better or worse, it will simply be All and if We carry judgement then it will look like better and worser.
I have been feeling that some big (huge) change is very near. It feels like fixing the dragon is really un-important and that feels related to this change. Or, maybe it's more that taking My time is more important, which is what I have been doing. Usually I would be trying to get done in One day, it's been a week and will probably be next weekend before I finish. I may even put off putting some stuff back together until spring. I'm much more relaxed than usual (about the car repair). I Am more focused on the physical than usual which is the big reason why I do want to finish.
There is definitely stuff about All these different realities, and what is or is not important.
I keep thinking about this big change that I feel is very near.
I have been feeling that some big (huge) change is very near. It feels like fixing the dragon is really un-important and that feels related to this change. Or, maybe it's more that taking My time is more important, which is what I have been doing. Usually I would be trying to get done in One day, it's been a week and will probably be next weekend before I finish. I may even put off putting some stuff back together until spring. I'm much more relaxed than usual (about the car repair). I Am more focused on the physical than usual which is the big reason why I do want to finish.
There is definitely stuff about All these different realities, and what is or is not important.
I keep thinking about this big change that I feel is very near.
Dreams #41
Written 12/6/08
Some really cool parts of My dreams last night:
I noticed I was very happy visiting hives/colonies/communes for short visits. Lately I have been taking My cabin with Me on My journeys and it seems to hitch up nicely to these collectives and then unhitch and move on quite nicely. So, I like to visit for a few days (dream time) and then move along.
I noticed how this could tie in to the Clans and Tribes stuff maybe a bit in reverse. DJ spoke of meeting in One location and then taking info/energy back to Our clan/tribe. (Forgive Me if I get any of this in-accurate as it is totally from memory of reading the info. several years ago.) I seem to bee a bit more like a bee going from flower to flower (only the hives are the flowers) and cross pollinating???????? Now, We know in the physical One cannot go from hive to hive, but this is NEW energy here.
Next, I was thinking about living in a community. It took a lot but I didn't flee the dream screaming. This has some grandiose parts, so dive right in.
If I could live basically as a Shaman, I could do it. If it was accepted that My place was to dream and work there I could live in community. I saw people serving Me, and allowing Me My space to do My work. Servants (so to speak) would come in to do "their" service ("they" would choose what this was according to "their" desire and passion) then "they" would leave. (yes, don't let the door hit You in the ass)
I have never seen MySelf living as a Shaman because in All cultures I Am aware of Shamans are also doing physical healing and that is NOT My thing. (see My "What IF?" on healing if there are any questions.)
It would definitely take a very NEW new age community for this to work, and I would have to accept that there are many paths and even within a specific community there could be great divergence. Also, I would have to continue visiting other communities and do whatever it is I might do there. There would be times when My absence would be noticed and times when it would not.
It's pretty exciting right now for Me, even tho I Am putting off working on the dragon wagon to do this dreaming and write about it. I feel very strongly this is much more important today. To be able to feel this way, and not feel OMG disaster will happen if I don't fix My car is major progress for Me. I'm very relaxed about it and feel I Am acting in perfect accord with My intuition.
Some really cool parts of My dreams last night:
I noticed I was very happy visiting hives/colonies/communes for short visits. Lately I have been taking My cabin with Me on My journeys and it seems to hitch up nicely to these collectives and then unhitch and move on quite nicely. So, I like to visit for a few days (dream time) and then move along.
I noticed how this could tie in to the Clans and Tribes stuff maybe a bit in reverse. DJ spoke of meeting in One location and then taking info/energy back to Our clan/tribe. (Forgive Me if I get any of this in-accurate as it is totally from memory of reading the info. several years ago.) I seem to bee a bit more like a bee going from flower to flower (only the hives are the flowers) and cross pollinating???????? Now, We know in the physical One cannot go from hive to hive, but this is NEW energy here.
Next, I was thinking about living in a community. It took a lot but I didn't flee the dream screaming. This has some grandiose parts, so dive right in.
If I could live basically as a Shaman, I could do it. If it was accepted that My place was to dream and work there I could live in community. I saw people serving Me, and allowing Me My space to do My work. Servants (so to speak) would come in to do "their" service ("they" would choose what this was according to "their" desire and passion) then "they" would leave. (yes, don't let the door hit You in the ass)
I have never seen MySelf living as a Shaman because in All cultures I Am aware of Shamans are also doing physical healing and that is NOT My thing. (see My "What IF?" on healing if there are any questions.)
It would definitely take a very NEW new age community for this to work, and I would have to accept that there are many paths and even within a specific community there could be great divergence. Also, I would have to continue visiting other communities and do whatever it is I might do there. There would be times when My absence would be noticed and times when it would not.
It's pretty exciting right now for Me, even tho I Am putting off working on the dragon wagon to do this dreaming and write about it. I feel very strongly this is much more important today. To be able to feel this way, and not feel OMG disaster will happen if I don't fix My car is major progress for Me. I'm very relaxed about it and feel I Am acting in perfect accord with My intuition.
More thoughts 12/6/08
This is a perfect example of what I Am feeling. Let people play baseball on the baseball fields and football on the football fields.
It gets tricky for Us because We are open to All the games, and that invites argument and dissent from those who continue to only want 1 version. Regardless of whether "their" version is naughty or nice, "they" tend to want to argue against the other version. We/Reconnections want to integrate as many as possible.
Another thing I felt strongly that I forgot to mention is: "It takes eternity to explore infinity."
It gets tricky for Us because We are open to All the games, and that invites argument and dissent from those who continue to only want 1 version. Regardless of whether "their" version is naughty or nice, "they" tend to want to argue against the other version. We/Reconnections want to integrate as many as possible.
Another thing I felt strongly that I forgot to mention is: "It takes eternity to explore infinity."
Thots about some dreams
Written 12/6/08
The last couple of days, especially last night I've been getting stuff about the multiplicity of it All. I'm not sure if this is connected to what N is feeling about things heating up in December or not.
I've been dreaming about lots of different realities, mostly normal but All different. I've also been getting lots of feelings about the variations of reality felt throughout the new age community.
To Me the bottom line is what the Reconnections have All-ways taught: It's All real.
Here is One example of what I got last night. You know how many think the Ashtar Command etc. are advanced beings. Now obviously if "they" have perfected space travel "they" are somehow advanced. Yet, "they" still seem focused on fighting and destroying the dark (tho this is shifting recently). OK, so what if "they" are advanced on One hand and yet are just now getting the idea of balancing/accepting the dark and light, integrating the polarities etc. And, what if "they" (these advanced beings whatever name We want to call "them") are getting this from Us??????????
Of course there are also realities where the Galactic Federation is still trying to destroy the bad, and everything in between and beyond.
For Me, both points are very important. The advanced beings getting the idea of balance from Us and the honoring All uni-verses. I Am like driven to explore limitlessness, I crave it. All-ways have. Yet, I too want to see a world of peace and caring. That is the world I would like to spend some time exploring, but it is another form of limitation. So, I want to live there but visit other worlds as well.
However, I still have trouble accepting much less honoring those who want to fight. My Own cherished version of limitation: "Stop fighting."
Plus I want everyOne to be open to multiplicity and not stay stuck in limitation. That is as limiting as wanting a cotton candy world.
I just gotta open up to and honor All of it. I don't have to participate in All of it, but I gotta be OK with anyOne playing in whatever game "they" choose.
So, N may be sensing this diversity coming up, or he may be sensing a world of some type of controversy coming up or a world of unity being born. I think some are sensing this diversity of choices ahead and looking for the highest drama available, while others are looking for a lightening quick move into integrating polarities.
I/We gotta recognize and honor All these possibilities. Even encourage those I/We disagree with. I don't know if this appeals to each of You or not. It is the path I choose.
The last couple of days, especially last night I've been getting stuff about the multiplicity of it All. I'm not sure if this is connected to what N is feeling about things heating up in December or not.
I've been dreaming about lots of different realities, mostly normal but All different. I've also been getting lots of feelings about the variations of reality felt throughout the new age community.
To Me the bottom line is what the Reconnections have All-ways taught: It's All real.
Here is One example of what I got last night. You know how many think the Ashtar Command etc. are advanced beings. Now obviously if "they" have perfected space travel "they" are somehow advanced. Yet, "they" still seem focused on fighting and destroying the dark (tho this is shifting recently). OK, so what if "they" are advanced on One hand and yet are just now getting the idea of balancing/accepting the dark and light, integrating the polarities etc. And, what if "they" (these advanced beings whatever name We want to call "them") are getting this from Us??????????
Of course there are also realities where the Galactic Federation is still trying to destroy the bad, and everything in between and beyond.
For Me, both points are very important. The advanced beings getting the idea of balance from Us and the honoring All uni-verses. I Am like driven to explore limitlessness, I crave it. All-ways have. Yet, I too want to see a world of peace and caring. That is the world I would like to spend some time exploring, but it is another form of limitation. So, I want to live there but visit other worlds as well.
However, I still have trouble accepting much less honoring those who want to fight. My Own cherished version of limitation: "Stop fighting."
Plus I want everyOne to be open to multiplicity and not stay stuck in limitation. That is as limiting as wanting a cotton candy world.
I just gotta open up to and honor All of it. I don't have to participate in All of it, but I gotta be OK with anyOne playing in whatever game "they" choose.
So, N may be sensing this diversity coming up, or he may be sensing a world of some type of controversy coming up or a world of unity being born. I think some are sensing this diversity of choices ahead and looking for the highest drama available, while others are looking for a lightening quick move into integrating polarities.
I/We gotta recognize and honor All these possibilities. Even encourage those I/We disagree with. I don't know if this appeals to each of You or not. It is the path I choose.
Dreams #40
Written 11/29/08
As I was writing that dream out I was also chatting a couple of on-line friends. We were discussing the dream. One was asking about the kids individuating from the hive to come here, and from the sounds of My dream some were not doing so well, and how many are suicidal today from the pain. We discussed how easy it is to feel trapped here.
The other friend was feeling suicidal. I told him about the dream but he couldn't see how it might relate to him at All. He's had OBEs but couldn't imagine using those to go where he could be comforted. I mentioned how I used to feel trapped and he glommed onto that like I had hit pay dirt.
Then it was time to go to work.
When I returned home from work I dreamt I was on some type of journey or quest (N is on a vi son quest). I had collected several totems or fetishes and was trying to leave a city or very large house. But I could not leave through the gates for some reason. I tried scaling some rocks around the base of a bridge that crossed a raging river which bordered this house or city. I thought I could climb the rocks and get up to the bridge, bypassing the gate.
I dropped some of My totems in the water and had to swim out to get "them" ("they" had gotten swept into a small whirlpool out in the river). When I realized I could not scale the rocks someOne (a guide of some type) asked Me what I was doing. I explained and he said that to exit through the gates I must arise at exactly 5 A.M.
At that point an old woman passed by and the guide said that if I woke and got up at exactly 5 A.M. she would let Me out the gate.
As I was writing that dream out I was also chatting a couple of on-line friends. We were discussing the dream. One was asking about the kids individuating from the hive to come here, and from the sounds of My dream some were not doing so well, and how many are suicidal today from the pain. We discussed how easy it is to feel trapped here.
The other friend was feeling suicidal. I told him about the dream but he couldn't see how it might relate to him at All. He's had OBEs but couldn't imagine using those to go where he could be comforted. I mentioned how I used to feel trapped and he glommed onto that like I had hit pay dirt.
Then it was time to go to work.
When I returned home from work I dreamt I was on some type of journey or quest (N is on a vi son quest). I had collected several totems or fetishes and was trying to leave a city or very large house. But I could not leave through the gates for some reason. I tried scaling some rocks around the base of a bridge that crossed a raging river which bordered this house or city. I thought I could climb the rocks and get up to the bridge, bypassing the gate.
I dropped some of My totems in the water and had to swim out to get "them" ("they" had gotten swept into a small whirlpool out in the river). When I realized I could not scale the rocks someOne (a guide of some type) asked Me what I was doing. I explained and he said that to exit through the gates I must arise at exactly 5 A.M.
At that point an old woman passed by and the guide said that if I woke and got up at exactly 5 A.M. she would let Me out the gate.
Dreams #39
Written 11/28/08
Quite a wild ride last night. I was in bed 8 hours but I don't know if I slept or not. Had an ongoing dream/vision of a hive/colony. I don't know if it is related to N or not, but it seems to apply.
Some of the members of the hive were in physical bodies, some were spirits/souls/energy. Many went into out-of-body and astral projected "themSelves" to the hive to escape the physical and emotional pain of this life. One in particular kept coming to Me to be held for comfort. Compassion was an ongoing theme.
Later I had the distinct impression that the hive itSelf was a living being/organism.
Quite a wild ride last night. I was in bed 8 hours but I don't know if I slept or not. Had an ongoing dream/vision of a hive/colony. I don't know if it is related to N or not, but it seems to apply.
Some of the members of the hive were in physical bodies, some were spirits/souls/energy. Many went into out-of-body and astral projected "themSelves" to the hive to escape the physical and emotional pain of this life. One in particular kept coming to Me to be held for comfort. Compassion was an ongoing theme.
Later I had the distinct impression that the hive itSelf was a living being/organism.
Ponderings 11/21/08
This is something that's been running in My mind the last couple of days:
Imagine that You are high up in the mountains,
You are so high up that You are in the clouds.
The clouds actually reach All the way down and touch the ground.
A short distance ahead is the edge of a cliff.
The clouds are much thicker at this edge.
The clouds cover the ground at this edge.
In truth, this may be the edge of a cliff,
Or it may be a trick of the eyes,
Because the clouds cover the ground.
You stand in the clouds,
High in the mountains,
Are You standing at the edge of a cliff?
Or are You simply standing at the edge of a cloud?
Does the ground end at the edge of this cloud?
Or does the ground continue on smooth and safe inside the cloud?
The following is from "Dune" the Sci Fi channel movie version:
Paul: "There are things still hidden from Me, places I can't go, things I can't see."
Chani: "Do You ever worry that just trying to see the future changes things?"
Paul "We're speeding toward the abyss Chani, I have to see a way around it."
This is where I feel We (the All) are at.
We stand at this place, this edge.
No One really knows for certain what is ahead.
There are many reasons for this.
This is uncharted territory.
This is a place called choice.
The clouds could be called the Faerie Mist,
Or the veil of forgetfulness,
The Reconnections call this place where We stand
Grand Central Station.
We must choose where We will go,
What journey We wish to explore.
What lies ahead is a mystery,
Because what is next has yet to be written.
The prophets and ascended masters,
Those who have come before and those who will follow,
Wait to read what We will write.
Imagine that You are high up in the mountains,
You are so high up that You are in the clouds.
The clouds actually reach All the way down and touch the ground.
A short distance ahead is the edge of a cliff.
The clouds are much thicker at this edge.
The clouds cover the ground at this edge.
In truth, this may be the edge of a cliff,
Or it may be a trick of the eyes,
Because the clouds cover the ground.
You stand in the clouds,
High in the mountains,
Are You standing at the edge of a cliff?
Or are You simply standing at the edge of a cloud?
Does the ground end at the edge of this cloud?
Or does the ground continue on smooth and safe inside the cloud?
The following is from "Dune" the Sci Fi channel movie version:
Paul: "There are things still hidden from Me, places I can't go, things I can't see."
Chani: "Do You ever worry that just trying to see the future changes things?"
Paul "We're speeding toward the abyss Chani, I have to see a way around it."
This is where I feel We (the All) are at.
We stand at this place, this edge.
No One really knows for certain what is ahead.
There are many reasons for this.
This is uncharted territory.
This is a place called choice.
The clouds could be called the Faerie Mist,
Or the veil of forgetfulness,
The Reconnections call this place where We stand
Grand Central Station.
We must choose where We will go,
What journey We wish to explore.
What lies ahead is a mystery,
Because what is next has yet to be written.
The prophets and ascended masters,
Those who have come before and those who will follow,
Wait to read what We will write.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Dreams #38
Written 11/17/08
I'm continuing to spend the night in vampire colonies. Last night I got the impression that some in these colonies are werewolves.
The main focus last night was on helping each other, All-most serving each other and healing (which seems to have carried into 3D as I went to bed with a sinus cold and woke with it All-most gone)
There was a small group of Us that travelled from colony to colony, definite sensation of flying like birds from colony to colony. Whatever colony We visited We were welcomed and We immediately began assisting "them" in whatever ways We could and "they" gave Us whatever help/comfort We needed.
I also got the feeling that as the moon wanes these particular dreams/activities will diminish.
I'm continuing to spend the night in vampire colonies. Last night I got the impression that some in these colonies are werewolves.
The main focus last night was on helping each other, All-most serving each other and healing (which seems to have carried into 3D as I went to bed with a sinus cold and woke with it All-most gone)
There was a small group of Us that travelled from colony to colony, definite sensation of flying like birds from colony to colony. Whatever colony We visited We were welcomed and We immediately began assisting "them" in whatever ways We could and "they" gave Us whatever help/comfort We needed.
I also got the feeling that as the moon wanes these particular dreams/activities will diminish.
Dreams and thots
Written 11/15/08
After sending My last dream email I kept feeling into that message.
We All have a hidden side, a side or sides/aspects that We rarely reveal to anyOne. For most if We do reveal this side, We reveal it to strangers (think of All the implications and ramifications of this).
This refers to the first thing most of Us feel when We come to AA: "If You really knew Me, You wouldn't love Me." This feeling is not unique to alcoholics and addicts (of any type), the solution however is basically unique to the program. Plus I would venture to say that this solution is possibly unknown even to many program groups. The solution is many-fold but some parts are that everyOne is just as ugly and unlovable as anyOne else (at least in this hidden part/persona even in the beautiful people). Also, what We judge as bad (character defects) are often Our strongest assets.
So, then I was doing some mental contact with youngstars, having a conversation with some, telling "them" I want to accept and support "them" as "they" are totally. The thing is I was raised the same as "them" and yes, I do have negative judgements of some of the behaviours. But, I want to get through this. I want to accept and support "them" even in stuff I consider "bad".
Then I had a dream of a large group of youngstars accepting Me and inviting Me to join "their" party. Actually, it wasn't even an invitation, "they" simply included Me. And I accepted "them" as "they" were without reservation. This group included many who (by society's standards) would be considered very "bad". This was similar to the acceptance dream/encounter I had when I first started dreaming of starkid gatherings, but it was even more. Also, My acceptance of "them" without judgement was much improved.
After sending My last dream email I kept feeling into that message.
We All have a hidden side, a side or sides/aspects that We rarely reveal to anyOne. For most if We do reveal this side, We reveal it to strangers (think of All the implications and ramifications of this).
This refers to the first thing most of Us feel when We come to AA: "If You really knew Me, You wouldn't love Me." This feeling is not unique to alcoholics and addicts (of any type), the solution however is basically unique to the program. Plus I would venture to say that this solution is possibly unknown even to many program groups. The solution is many-fold but some parts are that everyOne is just as ugly and unlovable as anyOne else (at least in this hidden part/persona even in the beautiful people). Also, what We judge as bad (character defects) are often Our strongest assets.
So, then I was doing some mental contact with youngstars, having a conversation with some, telling "them" I want to accept and support "them" as "they" are totally. The thing is I was raised the same as "them" and yes, I do have negative judgements of some of the behaviours. But, I want to get through this. I want to accept and support "them" even in stuff I consider "bad".
Then I had a dream of a large group of youngstars accepting Me and inviting Me to join "their" party. Actually, it wasn't even an invitation, "they" simply included Me. And I accepted "them" as "they" were without reservation. This group included many who (by society's standards) would be considered very "bad". This was similar to the acceptance dream/encounter I had when I first started dreaming of starkid gatherings, but it was even more. Also, My acceptance of "them" without judgement was much improved.
Dreams #37
Written 11/15/08
I just woke from a very unpleasant dream. As soon as I woke I immediately felt it was about how many of the youngstars feel. This as I was thinking "Yuk, that is sooo not Me" but not thinking about anyOne/anything else.
As I was drifting off to sleep but still awake I had this sensation of a huge storm.
Then in My dream My mother and sister had to stay with Me in My cabin. It didn't look like this cabin, it was "cuter" more showy. My cabin is practical, not pretty, in the dream it was fancy etc. and it could grow bigger at need (I like that part- the magik)
So, because of a storm (same One from before dreaming???) several people were staying with Me. Apparently the storm died down and people left. It was just Me and My mom there and I asked: "So, it's not so bad here is it?" She replied with a very sarcastic and negative reply.
I totally went off, I was raging and yelling: "Fuck You BITCH" (here is the sooo not Me part)
Then it got worse, I screamed: "I love My cabin and I love MySelf since I moved here. I never loved MySelf when I lived in Your house and You never loved Me."
OK, now this has truth in it, but I can not imagine Me ever saying this to My mother, even if she were alive. And I really did not/do not like the way I felt with All this anger.
But, I think this dream is about how many kids feel.
My mom asked Me why? I said it was because I was never what "they" (parents) wanted Me to be and I could not be who I wanted to be in "their" house. I was not accepted or encouraged to be Me.
On the surface, this was not the case but at a deeper level it was and is for most of Us. This was about being totally true to MySelf and the magik stuff, the imaginary stuff that We were All (with few exceptions) taught to deny.
This would be hard for any parent to see and accept. It is however very much the seed of where many kids are coming from.
We are accepted if We are good, but what if We wanna be bad??????? Nobody encourages "their" child to be naughty. So, how does a child who wants to be naughty feel about "themSelves" and "their" parent. This feeling is embedded from infancy and is carried into old age. It is an underlying seething anger at rejection. It comes out in rage. It is an anger I was never before aware of. It is an anger that infects Us and creeps into every area of Our life if it is not acknowledged and released.
I definitely feel this dream was sent. If not from C, from someOne who knows how he feels and wanted to show Me. "They" wanted to show Me how I feel (and did not recognize) and how many others feel.
I just woke from a very unpleasant dream. As soon as I woke I immediately felt it was about how many of the youngstars feel. This as I was thinking "Yuk, that is sooo not Me" but not thinking about anyOne/anything else.
As I was drifting off to sleep but still awake I had this sensation of a huge storm.
Then in My dream My mother and sister had to stay with Me in My cabin. It didn't look like this cabin, it was "cuter" more showy. My cabin is practical, not pretty, in the dream it was fancy etc. and it could grow bigger at need (I like that part- the magik)
So, because of a storm (same One from before dreaming???) several people were staying with Me. Apparently the storm died down and people left. It was just Me and My mom there and I asked: "So, it's not so bad here is it?" She replied with a very sarcastic and negative reply.
I totally went off, I was raging and yelling: "Fuck You BITCH" (here is the sooo not Me part)
Then it got worse, I screamed: "I love My cabin and I love MySelf since I moved here. I never loved MySelf when I lived in Your house and You never loved Me."
OK, now this has truth in it, but I can not imagine Me ever saying this to My mother, even if she were alive. And I really did not/do not like the way I felt with All this anger.
But, I think this dream is about how many kids feel.
My mom asked Me why? I said it was because I was never what "they" (parents) wanted Me to be and I could not be who I wanted to be in "their" house. I was not accepted or encouraged to be Me.
On the surface, this was not the case but at a deeper level it was and is for most of Us. This was about being totally true to MySelf and the magik stuff, the imaginary stuff that We were All (with few exceptions) taught to deny.
This would be hard for any parent to see and accept. It is however very much the seed of where many kids are coming from.
We are accepted if We are good, but what if We wanna be bad??????? Nobody encourages "their" child to be naughty. So, how does a child who wants to be naughty feel about "themSelves" and "their" parent. This feeling is embedded from infancy and is carried into old age. It is an underlying seething anger at rejection. It comes out in rage. It is an anger I was never before aware of. It is an anger that infects Us and creeps into every area of Our life if it is not acknowledged and released.
I definitely feel this dream was sent. If not from C, from someOne who knows how he feels and wanted to show Me. "They" wanted to show Me how I feel (and did not recognize) and how many others feel.
Dreams #36
Written 11/8/08
This was One of those dreams where every time I woke and went back to sleep, I returned to this reality. When I returned, some time had passed, like it was another day or week. I don't know if I had been there during the time that passed, these days or weeks during which I lost awareness of being there, but I did not feel like I had been gone and returned and no One seemed aware of My coming and going.
In the first segment I contacted some guy who was a promoter/organizer about an idea/plan for people helping people. This was a way of being community, a way of living and taking care of OurSelves rather than relying on church or government to take care of Us. There was a definite focus on helping families with autistic children.
I really don't remember what the idea was, but it felt like an Aquarian age way of living. An interesting point here is that several month's ago I was focusing on remembering a reality/world that was able to shift from Our current focus of greed and need to a society based on sharing and caring. In recent month's I have forgotten that focus except on a few occasions.
This promoter I contacted was some type of big business man, like a representative of corporations. He was so excited that he organized a public meeting in less than two weeks. There were around 70 people who attended and "they"/We were transported in buses(???). At this meeting he explained My plan and asked the people not to commit now, but go home and think on this.
It was very different from the normal pep rally, revival, motivational meeting that We are used to. The energy was definitely more My energy: subtle, contemplative and calm. I did not speak nor was I introduced, yet this guy was definitely emoting My type energy rather than a charismatic, fired up "let's go get 'em" type of energy.
As the people were leaving I was talking to One of the promoter's friends/staff who said: "I think Dave (or Dick not sure now) was too low key." I replied: "No way, it was perfect. Do You real-eyes what he has done in less than 2 weeks since he first heard of My idea?"
Jump forward to the next (or maybe third or hundredth) public meeting. The crowd filled a huge stadium. Again the energy was very low key and I was simply part of the audience. There were lots of families with young children at this meeting. I remember children sitting backwards in "their" seats looking at the crowd, noticing the other people. There was some type of feeding the people in a loaves and fishes type way. A single quiche was served and the pieces were passed from the back of the crowd to the front and everyOne got to eat.
Again, the people were asked not to commit now, but to go home and think on this.
As the promoter was leaving, he stopped and told Me he would be asking his board of directors to put My name and email in the corporate digest. He said I should be prepared to be bombarded with lots of emails and All would need to be answered and All the questions addressed. He was confident that many people would be beginning to live this way.
This was One of those dreams where every time I woke and went back to sleep, I returned to this reality. When I returned, some time had passed, like it was another day or week. I don't know if I had been there during the time that passed, these days or weeks during which I lost awareness of being there, but I did not feel like I had been gone and returned and no One seemed aware of My coming and going.
In the first segment I contacted some guy who was a promoter/organizer about an idea/plan for people helping people. This was a way of being community, a way of living and taking care of OurSelves rather than relying on church or government to take care of Us. There was a definite focus on helping families with autistic children.
I really don't remember what the idea was, but it felt like an Aquarian age way of living. An interesting point here is that several month's ago I was focusing on remembering a reality/world that was able to shift from Our current focus of greed and need to a society based on sharing and caring. In recent month's I have forgotten that focus except on a few occasions.
This promoter I contacted was some type of big business man, like a representative of corporations. He was so excited that he organized a public meeting in less than two weeks. There were around 70 people who attended and "they"/We were transported in buses(???). At this meeting he explained My plan and asked the people not to commit now, but go home and think on this.
It was very different from the normal pep rally, revival, motivational meeting that We are used to. The energy was definitely more My energy: subtle, contemplative and calm. I did not speak nor was I introduced, yet this guy was definitely emoting My type energy rather than a charismatic, fired up "let's go get 'em" type of energy.
As the people were leaving I was talking to One of the promoter's friends/staff who said: "I think Dave (or Dick not sure now) was too low key." I replied: "No way, it was perfect. Do You real-eyes what he has done in less than 2 weeks since he first heard of My idea?"
Jump forward to the next (or maybe third or hundredth) public meeting. The crowd filled a huge stadium. Again the energy was very low key and I was simply part of the audience. There were lots of families with young children at this meeting. I remember children sitting backwards in "their" seats looking at the crowd, noticing the other people. There was some type of feeding the people in a loaves and fishes type way. A single quiche was served and the pieces were passed from the back of the crowd to the front and everyOne got to eat.
Again, the people were asked not to commit now, but to go home and think on this.
As the promoter was leaving, he stopped and told Me he would be asking his board of directors to put My name and email in the corporate digest. He said I should be prepared to be bombarded with lots of emails and All would need to be answered and All the questions addressed. He was confident that many people would be beginning to live this way.
Dreams #35
Written 11/6/08
Cool dreams last night. First a dream about only getting clear communication from God (higher Self/whatever) every other night. It was about being some kind of prophet and I couldn't get information every night because it took time to process.
Then I was trapped (kind of) in a quaint little cartoon type town that was a maze. The only way out was on the train to nowhere which came through everyday. I had a tablet and whatever amount I wrote on it was how much money/value it had. The station master ticket agent was like a riddler and kept Me talking and bargaining until the train left the station and I vowed I would beat him at his game. (lots of symbology and ties to this life in that One)
Then My cousin and I (haven't seen since My teens) met up. He was in need of help but kept falling asleep. We turned into snakes. Then I remembered when I woke that We are entering the serpent (astrology) in a few days.
Cool dreams last night. First a dream about only getting clear communication from God (higher Self/whatever) every other night. It was about being some kind of prophet and I couldn't get information every night because it took time to process.
Then I was trapped (kind of) in a quaint little cartoon type town that was a maze. The only way out was on the train to nowhere which came through everyday. I had a tablet and whatever amount I wrote on it was how much money/value it had. The station master ticket agent was like a riddler and kept Me talking and bargaining until the train left the station and I vowed I would beat him at his game. (lots of symbology and ties to this life in that One)
Then My cousin and I (haven't seen since My teens) met up. He was in need of help but kept falling asleep. We turned into snakes. Then I remembered when I woke that We are entering the serpent (astrology) in a few days.
Dreams #34
Written 10/31/08
Just woke from dreaming about being evil, well, more accurately about being judged as evil. I think this was a continuation of the vampire stuff.
The things We (My friends and I) were doing was pretty normal stuff, not what would be considered evil actions, but We knew We were thought of as evil. In fact, this was so predominate that We basically thought of OurSelves as evil and We were OK with it. All-most like We just assumed We were evil and didn't actually think about it All. A bit like breathing, just part of life.
The thing I noticed was that what We were doing would be considered "good" by most. We were musicians so of course We were making music, making people happy with Our music. We were making friends, and just generally happy. It was an interesting feeling to be doing "good" things and yet know that I Am/We are evil.
After waking I did think of how the mainstream churches consider Us (those who believe in metaphysics etc) as evil. And especially those of Us who believe We are God, We are especially evil incarnate of the worst kind. So, I guess this was a reflection of My acceptance of that in My every day life.
There was a lot of stuff about friendship and bonding, having good times together. It was a very cool reality. It was just kind of strange, and I don't know how to better explain it, to just know that I Am evil. It took a while to real-eyes this was others judgement that I had accepted and even owned it.
At first (in the dream) it was simply knowing this, but then as the action began it was confusing because We weren't doing what anyOne would think of as evil things. I guess I expected to be doing mean and angry things, but that was not the case at All.
Just woke from dreaming about being evil, well, more accurately about being judged as evil. I think this was a continuation of the vampire stuff.
The things We (My friends and I) were doing was pretty normal stuff, not what would be considered evil actions, but We knew We were thought of as evil. In fact, this was so predominate that We basically thought of OurSelves as evil and We were OK with it. All-most like We just assumed We were evil and didn't actually think about it All. A bit like breathing, just part of life.
The thing I noticed was that what We were doing would be considered "good" by most. We were musicians so of course We were making music, making people happy with Our music. We were making friends, and just generally happy. It was an interesting feeling to be doing "good" things and yet know that I Am/We are evil.
After waking I did think of how the mainstream churches consider Us (those who believe in metaphysics etc) as evil. And especially those of Us who believe We are God, We are especially evil incarnate of the worst kind. So, I guess this was a reflection of My acceptance of that in My every day life.
There was a lot of stuff about friendship and bonding, having good times together. It was a very cool reality. It was just kind of strange, and I don't know how to better explain it, to just know that I Am evil. It took a while to real-eyes this was others judgement that I had accepted and even owned it.
At first (in the dream) it was simply knowing this, but then as the action began it was confusing because We weren't doing what anyOne would think of as evil things. I guess I expected to be doing mean and angry things, but that was not the case at All.
Dreams #33
Written 10/30/08
I had more dreams about how We All reflect each other (whether We recognize this as vampire or not). And more about how We reflect Our God Selves to each other. No wonder We (the masses) want to kill each other. Who wants to face "their" godliness?????
At least that is the way of the past, the way of separation.
I had more dreams about how We All reflect each other (whether We recognize this as vampire or not). And more about how We reflect Our God Selves to each other. No wonder We (the masses) want to kill each other. Who wants to face "their" godliness?????
At least that is the way of the past, the way of separation.
Thots 10/29/08
Last night I had waking dreams about vampires and this afternoon I read Celia Finn's last 2 earth logs: http://www.starchildglobal.com/ (then navigate to Oct. 2oo8 earth logs). I see a connection between what I was getting and what she is saying.
Mostly what I was getting was just a furtherance of many things I have said before. Here is the starting point that began the flow for Me: The reason people fear and reject vampires as evil is that vampires show people who "they" really are, and Our time to Once again begin showing people who "they" really are is just about upon Us. I think this is exactly the same as what Celia is saying about what she feels is coming very soon.
As I have said before a vampire does not cast a reflection because it is THE reflection. If a person looks at "themSelf" and a vampire, in a mirror, All "they" see is "themSelf" because that is what the vampire is showing "them", that is All that is there.
The vampire shows people (thru experience) that We are immortal. The vampire show Us that We don't need what We think We need to live (and to live eternally) by draining the blood and thereby giving eternal life. We see this as evil because We do NOT want to be Gods.
We want to live in denial and separation and limitation and vampires unite Us and live as a connected collective. Many beings but One organism. Again, this is very threatening to those wishing to remain in separation.
As I said, I felt strongly that it was fast becoming the time that We (I was part of a vampire coven) would begin showing people who "they" really are. I saw MySelf and others standing in front of people and these people could see the God in "themSelf" reflected in Us. Of course this had many reactions, but many people actually recognized "themSelves" in Our faces. Some of course were angry, but powerless to harm Us. For again, All that was there to harm was "themSelf".
I think I'll wait a while (years/lifetimes) before posting this even on Our boards.
Mostly what I was getting was just a furtherance of many things I have said before. Here is the starting point that began the flow for Me: The reason people fear and reject vampires as evil is that vampires show people who "they" really are, and Our time to Once again begin showing people who "they" really are is just about upon Us. I think this is exactly the same as what Celia is saying about what she feels is coming very soon.
As I have said before a vampire does not cast a reflection because it is THE reflection. If a person looks at "themSelf" and a vampire, in a mirror, All "they" see is "themSelf" because that is what the vampire is showing "them", that is All that is there.
The vampire shows people (thru experience) that We are immortal. The vampire show Us that We don't need what We think We need to live (and to live eternally) by draining the blood and thereby giving eternal life. We see this as evil because We do NOT want to be Gods.
We want to live in denial and separation and limitation and vampires unite Us and live as a connected collective. Many beings but One organism. Again, this is very threatening to those wishing to remain in separation.
As I said, I felt strongly that it was fast becoming the time that We (I was part of a vampire coven) would begin showing people who "they" really are. I saw MySelf and others standing in front of people and these people could see the God in "themSelf" reflected in Us. Of course this had many reactions, but many people actually recognized "themSelves" in Our faces. Some of course were angry, but powerless to harm Us. For again, All that was there to harm was "themSelf".
I think I'll wait a while (years/lifetimes) before posting this even on Our boards.
Dreams #32
Written 10/21/08
This has been an ongoing dream All night for a couple of nights.
We were a street gang. (I didn't recognize these friends from this life) We were non-violent but We roamed the streets and We lived on the streets, at least for the most part. We were All in Our late teens or early 20's and it is the future.
Other gangs would try to fight Us but We would ward off "their" blows/attacks/weapons with Our hands. We could even wave aside bullets with Our hands.
Then, when these others got close enough for Us to touch "them" We would absorb/integrate "them" into Our bodies. Once "they" were part of Us it was "their" choice to stay or move on. Most recognized that "they" are part of Us and stopped fighting. Some chose to remain as One with Us others chose to go "their" Own way. Of course some also chose to refuse to see any connection.
Some of other gangs were average/normal looking, some were grotesque and some were like movie stars. Some were from groups recognizable from this reality, like One gang was All wearing Boy Scout uniforms. Not All were human but I don't have specific memories of what else was represented.
I feel this is both literal and symbolic. I believe there are realities where We can and do actually do these things and that I have been visiting these. I think it is also symbolic in showing Me that I Am accepting and integrating My rejects and cast aways. I have been consciously working on this for some time and tho I basically feel successful, I still have some doubts.
As We have discussed before, it is as hard for Me to accept the beautiful people (and/or My goodness) as Me as it is to accept the ugly (and/or the bad). So, yes in some of these dreams I absorbed and was absorbed by other members of My gang.
This has been an ongoing dream All night for a couple of nights.
We were a street gang. (I didn't recognize these friends from this life) We were non-violent but We roamed the streets and We lived on the streets, at least for the most part. We were All in Our late teens or early 20's and it is the future.
Other gangs would try to fight Us but We would ward off "their" blows/attacks/weapons with Our hands. We could even wave aside bullets with Our hands.
Then, when these others got close enough for Us to touch "them" We would absorb/integrate "them" into Our bodies. Once "they" were part of Us it was "their" choice to stay or move on. Most recognized that "they" are part of Us and stopped fighting. Some chose to remain as One with Us others chose to go "their" Own way. Of course some also chose to refuse to see any connection.
Some of other gangs were average/normal looking, some were grotesque and some were like movie stars. Some were from groups recognizable from this reality, like One gang was All wearing Boy Scout uniforms. Not All were human but I don't have specific memories of what else was represented.
I feel this is both literal and symbolic. I believe there are realities where We can and do actually do these things and that I have been visiting these. I think it is also symbolic in showing Me that I Am accepting and integrating My rejects and cast aways. I have been consciously working on this for some time and tho I basically feel successful, I still have some doubts.
As We have discussed before, it is as hard for Me to accept the beautiful people (and/or My goodness) as Me as it is to accept the ugly (and/or the bad). So, yes in some of these dreams I absorbed and was absorbed by other members of My gang.
Dreams #31
Written 10/13/08
I've been dreaming a lot of alternate realities lately. The only thing really remarkable has been the number of realities I visit a night (and remember even if only vaguely). Most are very close to this reality (or what I think of as "this"). In some I Am high school age again only it isn't the past, it is present day and I'm not going to high school. I like that part, ha ha.
You may have noticed that multiple realities, alternate realities, expanded realities have been a focus for Me lately. Actually, that's been the case for many years. Recently I have begun to believe that I/We really can live in and be aware of more than One reality at a time.
Last night was like a beginning for Me. I visited several realities like usual but I woke up remembering a familiar ongoing alternate reality.
Many of You know I Am an ex-smoker of 7-8 years or more. I quit cold turkey (from 4 packs a day) and it was literally the worst year of My life. I do not recommend that anyOne quit. The One thing I Am certain of is that I will never quit again. Therefore I have not had another cigarette since that day I went cold turkey. At least in the reality I call most familiar.
The reality I woke remembering is One where I occasionally smoke cigarettes. From time to time I buy a pack and smoke "them". I assume I smoke the whole pack, but I'm not certain. Apparently in this reality I Am not addicted to cigarettes, because I don't smoke All the time and don't have withdrawals. I would say I don't have cravings, but is there a difference between desire and craving? Well, to Me, yes there is. In this reality, when I desire a cigarette I buy a pack. Like I said, this is only occasionally.
When I woke remembering this I was asking MySelf: I thought I quit? I didn't think I ever had another cigarette. I had to really focus on remembering that I had quit and never had another cigarette, finally that memory returned but I also kept the memory of a reality where I occasionally smoke.
This alternate reality is very real. I don't remember dreaming it before, I remember living it. For those familiar with dreaming I'm sure You know the difference I speak of. OK, I do believe All dreams are real, but it is the feeling, the conscious awareness I Am speaking of.
This is the first time I have had such a conscious clear memory and awareness of living in 2 realities with a clear and distinct difference between "them" and both are ongoing.
I have experienced shifting from One reality to another but the differences are so subtle it is easy to forget there is any difference. Plus those experiences don't feel like I Am in both or multiples simultaneously. That has been My belief: that I Am/We are in multiple realities at the same time, but this is My first experience of it.
My dreams of alternate realities have been like snapshots, a One time shot/experience and then on to another. This is more like the full length movie, and it's a saga.
Another interesting point is that I woke with these memories over 12 hours ago and this is the first time I have written it down at All. I do not usually remember dreams that long unless I write "them" down right away.
I have a lot of vague memories of basically everyday life in this other reality. There is nothing remarkable in it except this smoking difference and no addiction. I Am a person who gets addicted to anything and everything. If it's good, a lot more is better and too much is never enough. At least that is how I remember Me most of the time. Now I have a new memory of Me coinciding this reality.
I've been dreaming a lot of alternate realities lately. The only thing really remarkable has been the number of realities I visit a night (and remember even if only vaguely). Most are very close to this reality (or what I think of as "this"). In some I Am high school age again only it isn't the past, it is present day and I'm not going to high school. I like that part, ha ha.
You may have noticed that multiple realities, alternate realities, expanded realities have been a focus for Me lately. Actually, that's been the case for many years. Recently I have begun to believe that I/We really can live in and be aware of more than One reality at a time.
Last night was like a beginning for Me. I visited several realities like usual but I woke up remembering a familiar ongoing alternate reality.
Many of You know I Am an ex-smoker of 7-8 years or more. I quit cold turkey (from 4 packs a day) and it was literally the worst year of My life. I do not recommend that anyOne quit. The One thing I Am certain of is that I will never quit again. Therefore I have not had another cigarette since that day I went cold turkey. At least in the reality I call most familiar.
The reality I woke remembering is One where I occasionally smoke cigarettes. From time to time I buy a pack and smoke "them". I assume I smoke the whole pack, but I'm not certain. Apparently in this reality I Am not addicted to cigarettes, because I don't smoke All the time and don't have withdrawals. I would say I don't have cravings, but is there a difference between desire and craving? Well, to Me, yes there is. In this reality, when I desire a cigarette I buy a pack. Like I said, this is only occasionally.
When I woke remembering this I was asking MySelf: I thought I quit? I didn't think I ever had another cigarette. I had to really focus on remembering that I had quit and never had another cigarette, finally that memory returned but I also kept the memory of a reality where I occasionally smoke.
This alternate reality is very real. I don't remember dreaming it before, I remember living it. For those familiar with dreaming I'm sure You know the difference I speak of. OK, I do believe All dreams are real, but it is the feeling, the conscious awareness I Am speaking of.
This is the first time I have had such a conscious clear memory and awareness of living in 2 realities with a clear and distinct difference between "them" and both are ongoing.
I have experienced shifting from One reality to another but the differences are so subtle it is easy to forget there is any difference. Plus those experiences don't feel like I Am in both or multiples simultaneously. That has been My belief: that I Am/We are in multiple realities at the same time, but this is My first experience of it.
My dreams of alternate realities have been like snapshots, a One time shot/experience and then on to another. This is more like the full length movie, and it's a saga.
Another interesting point is that I woke with these memories over 12 hours ago and this is the first time I have written it down at All. I do not usually remember dreams that long unless I write "them" down right away.
I have a lot of vague memories of basically everyday life in this other reality. There is nothing remarkable in it except this smoking difference and no addiction. I Am a person who gets addicted to anything and everything. If it's good, a lot more is better and too much is never enough. At least that is how I remember Me most of the time. Now I have a new memory of Me coinciding this reality.
Dreams #30
Written 10/6/08
I had a lot of 'em. But One was a processing dream, I examined some of My feelings and got some new perspectives. I know the Reconnections have spoken of much of this before, but this dream seems to have cemented some more of into My belief system. Sometimes I read something that is true and say/feel: "Oh yes, that's right." But it takes time and life and processing to make it function in My mind and life.
This dream started with travelling and went to vampires. Again I was examining the reason why vampires are known to be wealthy. Then I went to the immortals, All of whom feel to also be wealthy whether this is known or not. Why?
The immortals spend years and years, eons and millenniums learning and practicing how things really work. Most of Us spend a few years learning and then fall asleep and forget everything then awaken to start All over again at square One. The immortals truly have the resources of the multi-verse at "their" disposal, and "they" know it and believe it and use it. We (the masses) have simply forgotten this over and over and over.
This led to looking at Our current wealthy and powerful people. Who are "they"? These people who have All the money and power on this earth, who are "they"? Oh shit, "they" are immortals.
The rich and powerful are actually very old souls who know how this system really works and yes "they" manipulate it. So why do "they" appear evil, greedy, mean etc? Because that is the role We gave "them" and "they" accepted. For many of these it is actually painful to do the things "they" do, but "they" know it is part of the game, the theatrical production and the process of waking the sleepers.
Soon, very soon it will be time for the curtain call and We will be applauding these fine actors and actresses whom We (only a short time ago) envied and cursed. Many of Us even wanted to destroy "them" and that too was part of the waking.
We have choices to make. Will We applaud and honor these who played demons or will We throw rotten tomatoes and become the persecutors in another uni-verse? We who have believed OurSelves to be victims and persecuted, what do We choose from here?
I had a lot of 'em. But One was a processing dream, I examined some of My feelings and got some new perspectives. I know the Reconnections have spoken of much of this before, but this dream seems to have cemented some more of into My belief system. Sometimes I read something that is true and say/feel: "Oh yes, that's right." But it takes time and life and processing to make it function in My mind and life.
This dream started with travelling and went to vampires. Again I was examining the reason why vampires are known to be wealthy. Then I went to the immortals, All of whom feel to also be wealthy whether this is known or not. Why?
The immortals spend years and years, eons and millenniums learning and practicing how things really work. Most of Us spend a few years learning and then fall asleep and forget everything then awaken to start All over again at square One. The immortals truly have the resources of the multi-verse at "their" disposal, and "they" know it and believe it and use it. We (the masses) have simply forgotten this over and over and over.
This led to looking at Our current wealthy and powerful people. Who are "they"? These people who have All the money and power on this earth, who are "they"? Oh shit, "they" are immortals.
The rich and powerful are actually very old souls who know how this system really works and yes "they" manipulate it. So why do "they" appear evil, greedy, mean etc? Because that is the role We gave "them" and "they" accepted. For many of these it is actually painful to do the things "they" do, but "they" know it is part of the game, the theatrical production and the process of waking the sleepers.
Soon, very soon it will be time for the curtain call and We will be applauding these fine actors and actresses whom We (only a short time ago) envied and cursed. Many of Us even wanted to destroy "them" and that too was part of the waking.
We have choices to make. Will We applaud and honor these who played demons or will We throw rotten tomatoes and become the persecutors in another uni-verse? We who have believed OurSelves to be victims and persecuted, what do We choose from here?
Dreams #29
Written 9/28/08
I had several dreams last night but the One I found clearest was:
I was organizing a water fight. Obviously this was another reality, because I know We could never imagine Me instigating such a thing.
I asked some authority figure if this (wherever this was) was a safe place to do this. While he was pondering and asking questions I doused everyOne with a hose and water balloons and hi-powered squirt guns.
"They" stood there dripping wet and I said: "You are team A. Now go and get the others. There may be One other team or there may be many."
As I was waking I got the thought/feeling that this was symbolic of helping people accept "their" power/abilities.
I had several dreams last night but the One I found clearest was:
I was organizing a water fight. Obviously this was another reality, because I know We could never imagine Me instigating such a thing.
I asked some authority figure if this (wherever this was) was a safe place to do this. While he was pondering and asking questions I doused everyOne with a hose and water balloons and hi-powered squirt guns.
"They" stood there dripping wet and I said: "You are team A. Now go and get the others. There may be One other team or there may be many."
As I was waking I got the thought/feeling that this was symbolic of helping people accept "their" power/abilities.
Dream Thots
Written 9/20/08
I was thinking about a dream I had a while back:
Interesting, I had heard of wind talkers before but not the walkers. Wow, just connected My mother's maiden name is Walker. Her parents (Walkers) were the grandparents I was very close to All My life until "they" passed.
I hadn't thought of the other types of walkers either. I have heard of fire walkers but that's about it.
In the dream I was more than close to the wind, I was the wind. Remember in Dune the reverend mother told Paul: "You are the whirlwind"? I have said a few times: "I wanna be the whirlwind" (I have since recanted BTW) and in My dream it was a normal wind, more than a breeze but less than a storm.
I was thinking about a dream I had a while back:
Interesting, I had heard of wind talkers before but not the walkers. Wow, just connected My mother's maiden name is Walker. Her parents (Walkers) were the grandparents I was very close to All My life until "they" passed.
I hadn't thought of the other types of walkers either. I have heard of fire walkers but that's about it.
In the dream I was more than close to the wind, I was the wind. Remember in Dune the reverend mother told Paul: "You are the whirlwind"? I have said a few times: "I wanna be the whirlwind" (I have since recanted BTW) and in My dream it was a normal wind, more than a breeze but less than a storm.
Dreams #28
Written 9/9/08
Here's what I got last night. The only clearly memorable dream was about venting frustrations. Yes, even I have those. The dream was about My frustration with My ex-wife and doing some payback and then All was fine. Kind of a surprise after All these years but I'm certain it was based on some car frustrations I was/am facing (My most common and recurring frustration) and what I was picking up from Z and M.
What kept coming through was this stuff I've been talking about lately of infinity not being All pretty. Most of Us are seeking/expecting to find heaven on earth type stuff. Well, where there is heaven there is also hell. When We are expecting heaven and pass through hell it tends to freak Us out.
It's about Our judgements and fears. There are many stories about this, Dune and Star Wars are My personal favorites. It dawned on Me last night that this might be the shred of truth behind the story of purgatory. There seems to be an initiation that All of Us (who are waking) go through. We must face Our fears, We must face OurSelves (All of Us). We rarely have any warning about this. Most of Us think We are going to go marching into heaven and get a bit freaked out when We find OurSelf blocking the path.
I think this is a big part of what M and Z and many others are going through when "they" exhibit some of these alarming characteristics. The other part of course is Our judgement of these behaviours (in OurSelves and others) We judge everything, it's normal but it hinders Us. We really need to see everything as perfect or neutral or some new word. Perfect implies that it should not change and We know that is an error. Everything changes. It is perfect for Our current moment, Our current spot on the path. Next breath it will All change, unless it doesn't.
All of this, Our fear and Our judgement is very fucking frustrating. We know this from experience. These Youngstars get a glimpse of glory and then go charging in. We know how difficult the path is when We take Our time and adjust gradually. Most EveryOne wants it All yesterday, and that tends to fry the circuits. Again tho, this is not a bad thing, it's just ugly/alarming to watch.
The thing We tend to forget is that infinity includes everything and Our thinking has got to change before We can accept and face and own that. I can not think of One thing that We don't judge as good or bad. That has got to change or We won't be able to handle infinity. Again, it feels like this is what many of these kids are facing, seeing what "they" have been taught is "BAD" in the place where "they" expected to find peace and well being.
That is the best I can describe My feelings for now.
Here's what I got last night. The only clearly memorable dream was about venting frustrations. Yes, even I have those. The dream was about My frustration with My ex-wife and doing some payback and then All was fine. Kind of a surprise after All these years but I'm certain it was based on some car frustrations I was/am facing (My most common and recurring frustration) and what I was picking up from Z and M.
What kept coming through was this stuff I've been talking about lately of infinity not being All pretty. Most of Us are seeking/expecting to find heaven on earth type stuff. Well, where there is heaven there is also hell. When We are expecting heaven and pass through hell it tends to freak Us out.
It's about Our judgements and fears. There are many stories about this, Dune and Star Wars are My personal favorites. It dawned on Me last night that this might be the shred of truth behind the story of purgatory. There seems to be an initiation that All of Us (who are waking) go through. We must face Our fears, We must face OurSelves (All of Us). We rarely have any warning about this. Most of Us think We are going to go marching into heaven and get a bit freaked out when We find OurSelf blocking the path.
I think this is a big part of what M and Z and many others are going through when "they" exhibit some of these alarming characteristics. The other part of course is Our judgement of these behaviours (in OurSelves and others) We judge everything, it's normal but it hinders Us. We really need to see everything as perfect or neutral or some new word. Perfect implies that it should not change and We know that is an error. Everything changes. It is perfect for Our current moment, Our current spot on the path. Next breath it will All change, unless it doesn't.
All of this, Our fear and Our judgement is very fucking frustrating. We know this from experience. These Youngstars get a glimpse of glory and then go charging in. We know how difficult the path is when We take Our time and adjust gradually. Most EveryOne wants it All yesterday, and that tends to fry the circuits. Again tho, this is not a bad thing, it's just ugly/alarming to watch.
The thing We tend to forget is that infinity includes everything and Our thinking has got to change before We can accept and face and own that. I can not think of One thing that We don't judge as good or bad. That has got to change or We won't be able to handle infinity. Again, it feels like this is what many of these kids are facing, seeing what "they" have been taught is "BAD" in the place where "they" expected to find peace and well being.
That is the best I can describe My feelings for now.
Thots
Written 8/29/08
and I haven't even been to dream yet.
It's a combo of life experiences (past and present) and watching the movie The Triangle and incoming intuition. It's about multi-D and trying to "fix" things and acceptance.
I also see the biggest problem I All-ways had dealing with certain people and why I don't want to continue that. I All-ways felt that these people think that "their" truth should be everyOne's truth (or at least Mine). That doesn't work for Me, I don't even think My truth should be everyOne's. That is also part of what is coming in right now. This is My truth and I need to share it, but I don't need or even want it to be anyOne else's truth.
Most stories We hear or see about time travel and returning to the past to change (fix) the present or future end up in chaos and worse events than before the "fix". This is what I'm getting. WE/I need to accept things the way "they" are and go with the flow. When I say WE, I don't mean that I need to convince anyOne else to do this. I simply need to do it and then I will project into/onto My personal created reality.
Part of this incoming info. was a flash on some things going on at work. Work is metaphor for life and tho I've known this, I didn't see how it applied until today. Whenever We at the local level try to fix something that corporate fucks up, We generally find a way to correct it and make it work for Us and it puts more money into the corporate coffers. Our situation (the situation of any retail in Alaska) is unique and what works in the lower 48 doesn't work so well here. We know this and can find ways to circumvent the system and it's to "their" advantage (profit) and satisfies Our customers. But, here's the kicker. After We circumvent "their" system "they" make a change (for good or bad and often to what We wanted but couldn't get before) and Our fix" backfires and We have fucked OurSelves until We can find another "fix" and the game repeats (loops).
I doubt that this is clear, but it felt very important that I get as much down as I could while it is fresh. It doesn't really matter if anyOne else understands what I'm saying, I need to see this picture. In My experience (maybe not anyOne else's) at least 9 times out of 10 when I try to "fix" something at some point something changes and My "fix" turns sour. If I go with the flow and ride the waves then I Am carried safely to shore.
and I haven't even been to dream yet.
It's a combo of life experiences (past and present) and watching the movie The Triangle and incoming intuition. It's about multi-D and trying to "fix" things and acceptance.
I also see the biggest problem I All-ways had dealing with certain people and why I don't want to continue that. I All-ways felt that these people think that "their" truth should be everyOne's truth (or at least Mine). That doesn't work for Me, I don't even think My truth should be everyOne's. That is also part of what is coming in right now. This is My truth and I need to share it, but I don't need or even want it to be anyOne else's truth.
Most stories We hear or see about time travel and returning to the past to change (fix) the present or future end up in chaos and worse events than before the "fix". This is what I'm getting. WE/I need to accept things the way "they" are and go with the flow. When I say WE, I don't mean that I need to convince anyOne else to do this. I simply need to do it and then I will project into/onto My personal created reality.
Part of this incoming info. was a flash on some things going on at work. Work is metaphor for life and tho I've known this, I didn't see how it applied until today. Whenever We at the local level try to fix something that corporate fucks up, We generally find a way to correct it and make it work for Us and it puts more money into the corporate coffers. Our situation (the situation of any retail in Alaska) is unique and what works in the lower 48 doesn't work so well here. We know this and can find ways to circumvent the system and it's to "their" advantage (profit) and satisfies Our customers. But, here's the kicker. After We circumvent "their" system "they" make a change (for good or bad and often to what We wanted but couldn't get before) and Our fix" backfires and We have fucked OurSelves until We can find another "fix" and the game repeats (loops).
I doubt that this is clear, but it felt very important that I get as much down as I could while it is fresh. It doesn't really matter if anyOne else understands what I'm saying, I need to see this picture. In My experience (maybe not anyOne else's) at least 9 times out of 10 when I try to "fix" something at some point something changes and My "fix" turns sour. If I go with the flow and ride the waves then I Am carried safely to shore.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Dreams #27
Written 8/2/08
As many of You know, I do a lot of work in My dreams. Even tho for many years I did not remember dreaming, much less remember what I was dreaming. I continue to mention this part because I feel there are many who are like Me.
Recently, I think for about a year (give or take), I have remembered a lot of dreams. I think this is a small portion of My dreams and what I Am doing, and it definitely does not happen everyday but sometimes several days in a row. The dreams I've been remembering are more literal rather than symbolic. I think classic dream interpretation deals with the symbolics of dreams but I think My remembered dreams have been alternate or expanded realities rather than symbolic images.
However, tonight I real-iced in My waking-dream state that for about a week My dreams have been more symbolic. For some time now I have been working on remembering a world that evolved believing in Oneness, where We were individuals just as in this world, but We know We are connected. (Perhaps I should mention that I believe We are co-creators of Our reality(ies) and Our memory is a key to Our perception of reality) I think this world (evolving believing in Oneness) would look very different from Our current world and would be totally based on sharing and caring and giving.
Then I thought that I would like to experience this world's gradual transition into that type of world also. In other words I wanted to see an immediate change to One world that has All-ways been about sharing, caring and giving AND experience a world that gradually transitions into a world of sharing, caring and giving.
My recent symbolic dreams have been about this transition. I had 3 examples I was gonna use but of course 2 have slipped My immediate memory. The One I clearly remember is a team (a large team) was remodeling My grandparent's house. Rather than re-building walls (tearing down and building new) We were mostly moving walls to make things larger and more accessible. (This also relates to My previous dream about being a conceptual designer) I was trying to figure out why I was dreaming this and why I was remembering it since My grandparent's house had been sold out of the family many, many years ago. This is when I real-eyesed that it was symbolic of this transitional world that I have desired to experience and which I feel I Am experiencing in everyday life.
All that I remember about My first symbolic dream is that it was about work and that changing in some way. After the dream about My grandparent's house and My real-I-zation of the symbolics, I had another dream which was very clearly symbolizing Us transitioning into a world based on sharing, caring and giving.
I think I should also mention that the past few days I have been thinking a lot about how very different a world of Oneness would look. If We All believed We are One with each other, with Our surroundings, and with Our things how totally different Our discoveries, Our needs, Our technology and Our toys would look.
As many of You know, I do a lot of work in My dreams. Even tho for many years I did not remember dreaming, much less remember what I was dreaming. I continue to mention this part because I feel there are many who are like Me.
Recently, I think for about a year (give or take), I have remembered a lot of dreams. I think this is a small portion of My dreams and what I Am doing, and it definitely does not happen everyday but sometimes several days in a row. The dreams I've been remembering are more literal rather than symbolic. I think classic dream interpretation deals with the symbolics of dreams but I think My remembered dreams have been alternate or expanded realities rather than symbolic images.
However, tonight I real-iced in My waking-dream state that for about a week My dreams have been more symbolic. For some time now I have been working on remembering a world that evolved believing in Oneness, where We were individuals just as in this world, but We know We are connected. (Perhaps I should mention that I believe We are co-creators of Our reality(ies) and Our memory is a key to Our perception of reality) I think this world (evolving believing in Oneness) would look very different from Our current world and would be totally based on sharing and caring and giving.
Then I thought that I would like to experience this world's gradual transition into that type of world also. In other words I wanted to see an immediate change to One world that has All-ways been about sharing, caring and giving AND experience a world that gradually transitions into a world of sharing, caring and giving.
My recent symbolic dreams have been about this transition. I had 3 examples I was gonna use but of course 2 have slipped My immediate memory. The One I clearly remember is a team (a large team) was remodeling My grandparent's house. Rather than re-building walls (tearing down and building new) We were mostly moving walls to make things larger and more accessible. (This also relates to My previous dream about being a conceptual designer) I was trying to figure out why I was dreaming this and why I was remembering it since My grandparent's house had been sold out of the family many, many years ago. This is when I real-eyesed that it was symbolic of this transitional world that I have desired to experience and which I feel I Am experiencing in everyday life.
All that I remember about My first symbolic dream is that it was about work and that changing in some way. After the dream about My grandparent's house and My real-I-zation of the symbolics, I had another dream which was very clearly symbolizing Us transitioning into a world based on sharing, caring and giving.
I think I should also mention that the past few days I have been thinking a lot about how very different a world of Oneness would look. If We All believed We are One with each other, with Our surroundings, and with Our things how totally different Our discoveries, Our needs, Our technology and Our toys would look.
Dreams #26 (cont.)
It just occurred to Me that in My dreams I was never actually attacked. I was evading, running away, hiding or dissappearing. If M's cuts and bruises are relatively minor, "they" could be the type received from running through bushes or jungle or falling and rolling.
Like I said before, I have dreamt of Starkids being pursued, the gov't thinking "they" are a threat and "they" All-ways just kind of melt into the background or play hide and seek. This is just the first time that I was the target.
I'm gonna be interested to see if these injuries stop or continue since he has asked for help and protection and he protected Me.
Like I said before, I have dreamt of Starkids being pursued, the gov't thinking "they" are a threat and "they" All-ways just kind of melt into the background or play hide and seek. This is just the first time that I was the target.
I'm gonna be interested to see if these injuries stop or continue since he has asked for help and protection and he protected Me.
Dreams #26
Written 7/22/08
As I was going to sleep I thought about M and it occurred to Me that he might be visiting alternate realities where he is getting into fights, being abused/bullied maybe even persecuted. After that contact was All-most immediate.
I felt M was scared and lonesome. He wanted to be held, comforted and protected. (Remember this is not the physical M). I held him and asked why he hadn't called out sooner. I told him We are All his friends and he could reach out to Us. He didn't answer but I got a feeling of a combination of fear of judgement and/or misunderstanding plus not wanting to drag Us into these alternate realities. Remember what happened when We first contacted his energy.
I must admit that My first thought about the cuts and bruises was that he was doing this to himSelf. In a way this is true, but I don't think he is doing it physically. I think he is experiencing this in these "other realities" and manifesting or bringing it into this reality. I don't think any of Us would "judge" him even if he is cutting himSelf (physically) bet there is certainly lots of room for that judgement in Our society.
After this I spent the night dreaming of being pursued and nearly attacked. I don't know how many dreams I woke from and "they" were All this same theme. A few times I slept for hours but mostly I woke in less than an hour from another dream. The first One I remember 3 guys were stalking Me and surrounded Me and were gonna do harm. I kept saying You don't wanna do this, You don't wanna do this. "They" kept saying yes We do and came very close to beating Me. Something distracted "them" and I slipped away and basically hid MySelf with a glamour.
That was the theme of All the dreams and I was All-ways safe and/or protected.
Then the last dream began where I was pursued (I think) by the military. Very similar to what I have observed in dream of the starchild gatherings being pursued. Except this time it was much more personal as I was personally and definitely the target. I woke from this dream several times and upon returning to sleep, this dream continued. I kept running from place to place and the children would take Me in and hide Me. I would rest and recuperate and have lengthy discussions with the children. That part was great, but being pursued was not a lot of fun.
I have not had these type of dreams in years (if ever). The realities I have visited recently have been fun and pleasant. Even when dreaming of the governments pursuing the Youngstars there has been a sense of observing rather than participating and a knowing that the kids could take care of "them"Selves. Being the One pursued, I didn't Allways have this same confidence in MySelf.
I felt strongly that contact with M (which I haven't really felt the last week even tho I looked) drew Me into the worlds he is exploring. The difference is I was safe and protected and he is not, or was not. I'm quite certain that M was protecting Me and getting the other Youngstars to protect Me too.
I don't know why he is unprotected and getting hurt in these worlds.
Also, the word "protection" isn't quite accurate. Whatever is done is more passive than the word "protection" usually carries.
As I was going to sleep I thought about M and it occurred to Me that he might be visiting alternate realities where he is getting into fights, being abused/bullied maybe even persecuted. After that contact was All-most immediate.
I felt M was scared and lonesome. He wanted to be held, comforted and protected. (Remember this is not the physical M). I held him and asked why he hadn't called out sooner. I told him We are All his friends and he could reach out to Us. He didn't answer but I got a feeling of a combination of fear of judgement and/or misunderstanding plus not wanting to drag Us into these alternate realities. Remember what happened when We first contacted his energy.
I must admit that My first thought about the cuts and bruises was that he was doing this to himSelf. In a way this is true, but I don't think he is doing it physically. I think he is experiencing this in these "other realities" and manifesting or bringing it into this reality. I don't think any of Us would "judge" him even if he is cutting himSelf (physically) bet there is certainly lots of room for that judgement in Our society.
After this I spent the night dreaming of being pursued and nearly attacked. I don't know how many dreams I woke from and "they" were All this same theme. A few times I slept for hours but mostly I woke in less than an hour from another dream. The first One I remember 3 guys were stalking Me and surrounded Me and were gonna do harm. I kept saying You don't wanna do this, You don't wanna do this. "They" kept saying yes We do and came very close to beating Me. Something distracted "them" and I slipped away and basically hid MySelf with a glamour.
That was the theme of All the dreams and I was All-ways safe and/or protected.
Then the last dream began where I was pursued (I think) by the military. Very similar to what I have observed in dream of the starchild gatherings being pursued. Except this time it was much more personal as I was personally and definitely the target. I woke from this dream several times and upon returning to sleep, this dream continued. I kept running from place to place and the children would take Me in and hide Me. I would rest and recuperate and have lengthy discussions with the children. That part was great, but being pursued was not a lot of fun.
I have not had these type of dreams in years (if ever). The realities I have visited recently have been fun and pleasant. Even when dreaming of the governments pursuing the Youngstars there has been a sense of observing rather than participating and a knowing that the kids could take care of "them"Selves. Being the One pursued, I didn't Allways have this same confidence in MySelf.
I felt strongly that contact with M (which I haven't really felt the last week even tho I looked) drew Me into the worlds he is exploring. The difference is I was safe and protected and he is not, or was not. I'm quite certain that M was protecting Me and getting the other Youngstars to protect Me too.
I don't know why he is unprotected and getting hurt in these worlds.
Also, the word "protection" isn't quite accurate. Whatever is done is more passive than the word "protection" usually carries.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Dreams #25
Written 7/12/08
I just woke from another dream about triggering forgotten/buried/hidden memories.
I don't remember much but I was at some place I had spent a lot of time at and did not remember. I was discussing with someOne why I might have forgotten and what might trigger My memory to come clear.
Whoever I was talking to was saying this may have been the scene of wild a gnome party (I have no idea why this was important enough to be the only words I remember clearly). Then something else and/or something, something, something and I remember watching what might strike people as grotesque/frightening looking beings doing odd and (to Us) unusual things. I was comfortable with All this as if I had been a willing participant before and now was simply observing.
Another remarkable thing is that I clearly saw these creatures, and I don't usually dream visually. I still hold a clear memory of what "they" looked like. Normally I feel the participants in My dreams and I feel whatever happens. Like the person I was talking to about All this, I have no idea what "they" look like or even if it was a human type person.
I can't really describe the creatures well because "they" are not like anything I've seen here or even seen in any fantasy pictures. "They" definitely did not look human, but "they" acted very, very human. "Their" actions were what We would call barbaric, but to "them" it was normal and fun. Again I was very comfortable watching All the goings on, like it was normal to Me whereas it was anything but what My waking Self would call normal.
I guess the scene was like an X-rated version of the famous Star Wars bar scene except I was much more comfortable with it than Luke appeared to be, yet not as familiar and knowing as Obi Wan. Plus in this dream I was an observer not a participant.
I just woke from another dream about triggering forgotten/buried/hidden memories.
I don't remember much but I was at some place I had spent a lot of time at and did not remember. I was discussing with someOne why I might have forgotten and what might trigger My memory to come clear.
Whoever I was talking to was saying this may have been the scene of wild a gnome party (I have no idea why this was important enough to be the only words I remember clearly). Then something else and/or something, something, something and I remember watching what might strike people as grotesque/frightening looking beings doing odd and (to Us) unusual things. I was comfortable with All this as if I had been a willing participant before and now was simply observing.
Another remarkable thing is that I clearly saw these creatures, and I don't usually dream visually. I still hold a clear memory of what "they" looked like. Normally I feel the participants in My dreams and I feel whatever happens. Like the person I was talking to about All this, I have no idea what "they" look like or even if it was a human type person.
I can't really describe the creatures well because "they" are not like anything I've seen here or even seen in any fantasy pictures. "They" definitely did not look human, but "they" acted very, very human. "Their" actions were what We would call barbaric, but to "them" it was normal and fun. Again I was very comfortable watching All the goings on, like it was normal to Me whereas it was anything but what My waking Self would call normal.
I guess the scene was like an X-rated version of the famous Star Wars bar scene except I was much more comfortable with it than Luke appeared to be, yet not as familiar and knowing as Obi Wan. Plus in this dream I was an observer not a participant.
Dreams #24
Written 7/11/08
I just woke from a dream about taking vacations on another planet when things get intense here. I woke up saying to MySelf: "Sure, You're doing fine but You got to spend weeks on Your planet. What do people do who don't get to spend weeks on 'their' planet?"
I don't have waking memories of visiting My planet. I don't have conscious memory of where or what My planet is. I don't have waking memories of wanting to go to My planet.
But, memory serves to maintain continuity in Our lives, that is what it is for. What We remember probably is very different from what actually happened. We remember what We need to remember to keep believing in separation and limitation. When that starts to break down, many of Us feel (at first) like We are loosing it and/or going insane. Many who remember living in what at least seems like a "better world" but don't remember being there recently have a strong desire to return.
I just woke from a dream about taking vacations on another planet when things get intense here. I woke up saying to MySelf: "Sure, You're doing fine but You got to spend weeks on Your planet. What do people do who don't get to spend weeks on 'their' planet?"
I don't have waking memories of visiting My planet. I don't have conscious memory of where or what My planet is. I don't have waking memories of wanting to go to My planet.
But, memory serves to maintain continuity in Our lives, that is what it is for. What We remember probably is very different from what actually happened. We remember what We need to remember to keep believing in separation and limitation. When that starts to break down, many of Us feel (at first) like We are loosing it and/or going insane. Many who remember living in what at least seems like a "better world" but don't remember being there recently have a strong desire to return.
Dreams #23
Written around 6/26/08
Last night I had a series of dreams that fed into each other. These dreams were wonderful and horrible at the same time.
I was at a testing. It was probably a modern day version of the testing during the Salem Witch Trials and the Inquisition.
We were tried in pairs or teams. (I later real-eyesed that My partner was My shadow Self) We were placed face to face, very close. This brought out the part of Me that is a vampire, an alien, a fae and even a demon. It brought this out in both of Us. I was excited, turned on and very happy. My partner was repulsed (tho also turned on). I was definitely aware of these opposite feelings in both members of this team.
Next dream My dog Shadow was able to drive a car (I later real-ized representing My shadow Self) and We were going to a church with My family. Shadow refused to ride in the same car and drove another car by himSelf. I thought he did not want to be in the same car as My family but later real-eyesed he didn't want to be in the same car as Me. Basically this was a re-uniting with My family and I was pissed. This Me is the side of Me that does not want to conform to society in any way. I felt love for My family but did not want to be in that close proximity to "them". Did not want to be joined to "them" and have the "assumed" role/relationship/responsibilities and certainly did not want to be going to church with "them".
Shadow was the side of Me that would be happy to be normal and disappeared a few blocks into the journey.
I saw the church approaching. Next thing I was miles beyond the church and I remembered that immediately after passing the church the road turned into a One way road leading only away from the church. Inside I was elated but My family was distraught. We were trying to figure out how to get back but All the roads that might lead back turned into nearly impassable dirt roads going uphill very steep. I also became concerned with having lost Shadow and was calling him.
I'm not sure if I remained with My family or not. I think I may have used the excuse of going to look for a way back to the church to sneak off and live My Own life totally the way I chose rather than the way I was expected to live.
At this point I started examining All these points of the dream, not sure if I was awake or asleep when I started this examining.
Last night I had a series of dreams that fed into each other. These dreams were wonderful and horrible at the same time.
I was at a testing. It was probably a modern day version of the testing during the Salem Witch Trials and the Inquisition.
We were tried in pairs or teams. (I later real-eyesed that My partner was My shadow Self) We were placed face to face, very close. This brought out the part of Me that is a vampire, an alien, a fae and even a demon. It brought this out in both of Us. I was excited, turned on and very happy. My partner was repulsed (tho also turned on). I was definitely aware of these opposite feelings in both members of this team.
Next dream My dog Shadow was able to drive a car (I later real-ized representing My shadow Self) and We were going to a church with My family. Shadow refused to ride in the same car and drove another car by himSelf. I thought he did not want to be in the same car as My family but later real-eyesed he didn't want to be in the same car as Me. Basically this was a re-uniting with My family and I was pissed. This Me is the side of Me that does not want to conform to society in any way. I felt love for My family but did not want to be in that close proximity to "them". Did not want to be joined to "them" and have the "assumed" role/relationship/responsibilities and certainly did not want to be going to church with "them".
Shadow was the side of Me that would be happy to be normal and disappeared a few blocks into the journey.
I saw the church approaching. Next thing I was miles beyond the church and I remembered that immediately after passing the church the road turned into a One way road leading only away from the church. Inside I was elated but My family was distraught. We were trying to figure out how to get back but All the roads that might lead back turned into nearly impassable dirt roads going uphill very steep. I also became concerned with having lost Shadow and was calling him.
I'm not sure if I remained with My family or not. I think I may have used the excuse of going to look for a way back to the church to sneak off and live My Own life totally the way I chose rather than the way I was expected to live.
At this point I started examining All these points of the dream, not sure if I was awake or asleep when I started this examining.
Thots
I was processing a dream I had that was both wonderful and horrible at the same time. I hope to write about that in a separate post. It occurred to Me that this dream was a mirror of what is happening with Me.
In this dance I have been dancing I see Me as the Me I know. The Me that is open and accepting of people, All people. This is the part of Me that actually has learned the 12 step program principle that I don't have to like it to accept it. (I wasn't sure if that was actually functioning in My life but I can sure see it here.) Even tho I do not like or understand or fully approve of some people's actions I accept "them" (nearly) completely. Up until recently I would have been inclined to just say completely.
Some people however see Me as the part of "themSelf" that rejects "themSelf". No matter what I have ever said or done, "they" feel I Am rejecting "them". Many people are not aware that We can dis-like something and still accept it. "They" feel that to accept "them", I must like their behaviour.
Sometimes I encounter people whom I feel may be a twin flame. However, I mean My idea of this which is basically that a true shadow or twin-flame would actually appear as an archenemy. "They" may understand this as a romantic thing and as the person/part that rejects "them" (even hates and abuses "them").
I see My pattern. I do this for many people. I Am "their" shadow that "they" fall in love with and feel rejected by. Again, so much symbolism here.
In this dance I have been dancing I see Me as the Me I know. The Me that is open and accepting of people, All people. This is the part of Me that actually has learned the 12 step program principle that I don't have to like it to accept it. (I wasn't sure if that was actually functioning in My life but I can sure see it here.) Even tho I do not like or understand or fully approve of some people's actions I accept "them" (nearly) completely. Up until recently I would have been inclined to just say completely.
Some people however see Me as the part of "themSelf" that rejects "themSelf". No matter what I have ever said or done, "they" feel I Am rejecting "them". Many people are not aware that We can dis-like something and still accept it. "They" feel that to accept "them", I must like their behaviour.
Sometimes I encounter people whom I feel may be a twin flame. However, I mean My idea of this which is basically that a true shadow or twin-flame would actually appear as an archenemy. "They" may understand this as a romantic thing and as the person/part that rejects "them" (even hates and abuses "them").
I see My pattern. I do this for many people. I Am "their" shadow that "they" fall in love with and feel rejected by. Again, so much symbolism here.
Thots 6/27/08
Something I've been thinking about is Us processing the cleansing and healing with and as Gaea.
In the passsed when there were "disasters" and wars We prayed for calm and peace. I felt that was giving a sedative to a mother in labor.
So now, We have this very overdue mother trying to birth and cleanse OurSelf of All Our toxins. The results could really be unimaginable. What We are seeing is actually very mild compared to the potential of what could/should be happening to push a several year old baby out through the birth canal and cleanse All the thoughts and fears and anger.
The sensitives have taken on part of the intensity and are processing All this in Our bodies and minds. It's a project none of Us has ever really experienced before. We prepared, We even volunteered and did lifetimes of training, but it is something You just can't really be prepared for.
In the passsed when there were "disasters" and wars We prayed for calm and peace. I felt that was giving a sedative to a mother in labor.
So now, We have this very overdue mother trying to birth and cleanse OurSelf of All Our toxins. The results could really be unimaginable. What We are seeing is actually very mild compared to the potential of what could/should be happening to push a several year old baby out through the birth canal and cleanse All the thoughts and fears and anger.
The sensitives have taken on part of the intensity and are processing All this in Our bodies and minds. It's a project none of Us has ever really experienced before. We prepared, We even volunteered and did lifetimes of training, but it is something You just can't really be prepared for.
Dreams #22
I tried to contact Ricky in dream/waking dream (not sure which) and it's interesting that We All picked up on his fear. I too thought he was a much younger child.
He was very hesitant to make contact with Me. I wasn't sure if he was afraid of men, older men or strangers or strange, older men. Could be some trauma there as he basically recoiled from Me. However, it felt like when I asked Michael to join, Ricky was ok with him. Michael felt this too and tried to reassure Ricky that I was ok, which helped some but Ricky definitely wants to withhold his decision and take time to get to know Me/observe Me.
I found the desert info quite interesting. As You know I use "Dune" a lot for it's great symbols. Dune is a desert planet. It seems We also agree that Ricky is holding in his energy and that is 1 cause for the pain, same thing as is happening with My earaches. In Dune the mandate is "The spice must flow". I see it as "The energy must flow". The spice gives All-most magikal powers to heavy, heavy users. It is created by the great worm which also creates the Water of Life (which is poison until converted)
I do think that Ricky is trying to contain too much (his true Self) inside his body. There just isn't room in a body alone for a meta-human.
He was very hesitant to make contact with Me. I wasn't sure if he was afraid of men, older men or strangers or strange, older men. Could be some trauma there as he basically recoiled from Me. However, it felt like when I asked Michael to join, Ricky was ok with him. Michael felt this too and tried to reassure Ricky that I was ok, which helped some but Ricky definitely wants to withhold his decision and take time to get to know Me/observe Me.
I found the desert info quite interesting. As You know I use "Dune" a lot for it's great symbols. Dune is a desert planet. It seems We also agree that Ricky is holding in his energy and that is 1 cause for the pain, same thing as is happening with My earaches. In Dune the mandate is "The spice must flow". I see it as "The energy must flow". The spice gives All-most magikal powers to heavy, heavy users. It is created by the great worm which also creates the Water of Life (which is poison until converted)
I do think that Ricky is trying to contain too much (his true Self) inside his body. There just isn't room in a body alone for a meta-human.
Thots 6/24/08
I dreamt of a gathering on a space ship but it didn't feel like any aliens, felt like family. Also, I'm getting lots about energy bodies. I keep thinking about the transporter on Star Trek and how We will be doing the same thing only without a machine. I'm also getting a bunch about Our vibration rising.
The pressure I'm feeling is earth energy and it's My energy. The thing keeps coming up that this has multiple causes.
The pressure I'm feeling is earth energy and it's My energy. The thing keeps coming up that this has multiple causes.
Dreams #21
I had another dream where Shadow could talk. It was here but the driveway went All the way around the cabin. Shadow wanted Me to park My van in a dfiierent spot because it was in the way of something he wanted to work on.
Then while awake (so more of a vision rather than a dream) I was with a group visiting some type of prison. We were walking down the corridor in front of the cells and observing the prisoners. The second cell had a sign "Danger Keep Out" and it was cloaked in shadow. The prisoner was mostly in shadow and face was done in white makeup. Then this prisoner did like a mind swap. I was in his body in the cell, I was him. He was in My body outside the cell. There was no panic or fear at now being in jail as I was aware that We had exchanged, he was actually free to come and go. The gaurds seemed to know what was happenning also.
When I came out of this trance or whatever it might be called it felt like it is time to be aware of creating realities. It feels like the energy is calming but also gathering force. This reality feels like a slightly different version of the reality I normally wake in.
Then while awake (so more of a vision rather than a dream) I was with a group visiting some type of prison. We were walking down the corridor in front of the cells and observing the prisoners. The second cell had a sign "Danger Keep Out" and it was cloaked in shadow. The prisoner was mostly in shadow and face was done in white makeup. Then this prisoner did like a mind swap. I was in his body in the cell, I was him. He was in My body outside the cell. There was no panic or fear at now being in jail as I was aware that We had exchanged, he was actually free to come and go. The gaurds seemed to know what was happenning also.
When I came out of this trance or whatever it might be called it felt like it is time to be aware of creating realities. It feels like the energy is calming but also gathering force. This reality feels like a slightly different version of the reality I normally wake in.
Thots 6/18/08
Last night I didn't get any sleep at All because of the pressure in My ears. Kyle was online when I finally got up to get ready for work. Reluctantly I asked him to do a long distance healing on My ears. The only thing I hate worse than pain is asking for help.
The pressure started letting up right away and within a couple hours "they" were completely clear. He agrees that energy need(s)ed to be re-leased. It is also air pressure as I have been saying because on the drive home (going from around 200 feet above sea level to near 1000 feet above I could feel some pressure build and a pop which mostly relieved that.
There are certain things I've been sensitive to for years, like extreme temperature changes, refrigerated air conditioning, sugar and I think these sensitivities are growing a long with My sensitivity to Gaea's energy.
The last time I had earaches this intense was My first winter here and that was much, much fear and plus there was a lot of fear and I'd never been in anything much below 0 before. This bout started right around the same time as the earthquake in China. It was calming until the shake up at work. I think that is affecting Me at a deeper mental level than I Am aware of. Several of Us feel that a good job is ending. It wouldn't be easy to find a good job where I can work 3 days 8 hours a day, at least not to start. Maybe I'll find a job where I don't have to work???
Anyway, My main point to this was that Kyle's healing worked wonders and I feel mucho betterer.
Thanx Kyle.
The pressure started letting up right away and within a couple hours "they" were completely clear. He agrees that energy need(s)ed to be re-leased. It is also air pressure as I have been saying because on the drive home (going from around 200 feet above sea level to near 1000 feet above I could feel some pressure build and a pop which mostly relieved that.
There are certain things I've been sensitive to for years, like extreme temperature changes, refrigerated air conditioning, sugar and I think these sensitivities are growing a long with My sensitivity to Gaea's energy.
The last time I had earaches this intense was My first winter here and that was much, much fear and plus there was a lot of fear and I'd never been in anything much below 0 before. This bout started right around the same time as the earthquake in China. It was calming until the shake up at work. I think that is affecting Me at a deeper mental level than I Am aware of. Several of Us feel that a good job is ending. It wouldn't be easy to find a good job where I can work 3 days 8 hours a day, at least not to start. Maybe I'll find a job where I don't have to work???
Anyway, My main point to this was that Kyle's healing worked wonders and I feel mucho betterer.
Thanx Kyle.
Thots 6/14/08
What looks "bad" to Me is when the CEO makes reductions like this and then gets a several million dollar bonus for doing it. And yes, exporting jobs looks "bad" too.
The thing I had to look at was accepting this as Me, even if it is "bad". It's One thing to be able to justify it and then accept it. It is totally another to accept it as Me when it still pisses Me off.
Remember when I was supervisor this same CEO cut Our labor by a full 1% which meant I had to work My ass off (physically exhausted Me literally) or if not the work would have fallen behind and I mighta gotten fired for that. Then he gave himSelf a 7 million dollar bonus. That pissed Me off. However, it led to Me stepping down and going part-time. The bestest thing I have ever done for MySelf even if I had to get physically sick to do it.
Now, if I had stayed in that supervisor position I woulda been working My ass off All this time and gotten fired anyway. You know that isn't easy to accept as Me. I still don't like it, but I have learned I don't have to like it to accept it.
There is so much more to Oneness than We think when We first start exploring it. We are much more than We ever thought possible and part of that MORE isn't pretty. Part of that MORE is an asshole, and that's just the way it is. How many people are willing to look at that and accept it????? It's not gonna be a real popular idea. So, where will that leave Us? If the masses can not accept the parts that continue to look bad, what will become of Us?
The thing I had to look at was accepting this as Me, even if it is "bad". It's One thing to be able to justify it and then accept it. It is totally another to accept it as Me when it still pisses Me off.
Remember when I was supervisor this same CEO cut Our labor by a full 1% which meant I had to work My ass off (physically exhausted Me literally) or if not the work would have fallen behind and I mighta gotten fired for that. Then he gave himSelf a 7 million dollar bonus. That pissed Me off. However, it led to Me stepping down and going part-time. The bestest thing I have ever done for MySelf even if I had to get physically sick to do it.
Now, if I had stayed in that supervisor position I woulda been working My ass off All this time and gotten fired anyway. You know that isn't easy to accept as Me. I still don't like it, but I have learned I don't have to like it to accept it.
There is so much more to Oneness than We think when We first start exploring it. We are much more than We ever thought possible and part of that MORE isn't pretty. Part of that MORE is an asshole, and that's just the way it is. How many people are willing to look at that and accept it????? It's not gonna be a real popular idea. So, where will that leave Us? If the masses can not accept the parts that continue to look bad, what will become of Us?
Thots 6/13/08
I think for Me there are some big clues coming through at work. I'm putting pieces together. The conceptual designer still feels very important but still not clear exactly where that will lead. Was thinking today about how corporations no longer want long term employees. Long term employees used to be a good thing and lots of companies still pay lip service to it, but it means higher pay and higher benefits. Customer service and trained/experienced employees are no longer seen as assets. What companies want is transitional employees. Does that ring any bells?????? It sure hit Me when I thought of it. Companies want transitional employees and the world is transitioning. Short term gain and profit is the corporate game. Why? Because 'they" know it's All "they" got?????
Dreams #20
Written 6/11/08
Incredible Night
I'm not sure I will be able to put it into words very well, but I will try. Waking to 3D consciousness and getting ready for work seems to have blurred some of the info.
It was about really getting it that We are All One. If I want My world to change I must see/feel/experience others as aspects of Me. Otherwise, My world will basically remain the same ad nauseum.
This means that I must see the greedy and power hungry as Me. This All seems to have begun with real-eye-sing that I still have many judgements. Probably a bigger surprise to Me than You. I was looking at thinking that taking is wrong. If We are One how can I actually take? And, in infinity how can anything actually be right or wrong.
It's not easy for Me to view the politicians and corporate heads as Me. Philosophically maybe, but in reality????? And this is what last night was about. Bringing this philosophy into reality. Again taking an idea and making it physical.
I watched the star kids gatherings and again saw that I need (for Me) to see/feel "them" as Me. No longer an outsider looking in. This is how I and My world can/will heal. Here is the wound, the gash of separation.
There is much about being One yet individuals that I don't understand. Neither do I understand why fingers are fingers and not toes.
I don't have to understand anyOne to accept "them" as an aspect of Me. I don't have to excuse "them" or justify what "they" do. Quite the opposite in fact. I need to accept "them" and Me exactly as I are. It's way to simple.
Incredible Night
I'm not sure I will be able to put it into words very well, but I will try. Waking to 3D consciousness and getting ready for work seems to have blurred some of the info.
It was about really getting it that We are All One. If I want My world to change I must see/feel/experience others as aspects of Me. Otherwise, My world will basically remain the same ad nauseum.
This means that I must see the greedy and power hungry as Me. This All seems to have begun with real-eye-sing that I still have many judgements. Probably a bigger surprise to Me than You. I was looking at thinking that taking is wrong. If We are One how can I actually take? And, in infinity how can anything actually be right or wrong.
It's not easy for Me to view the politicians and corporate heads as Me. Philosophically maybe, but in reality????? And this is what last night was about. Bringing this philosophy into reality. Again taking an idea and making it physical.
I watched the star kids gatherings and again saw that I need (for Me) to see/feel "them" as Me. No longer an outsider looking in. This is how I and My world can/will heal. Here is the wound, the gash of separation.
There is much about being One yet individuals that I don't understand. Neither do I understand why fingers are fingers and not toes.
I don't have to understand anyOne to accept "them" as an aspect of Me. I don't have to excuse "them" or justify what "they" do. Quite the opposite in fact. I need to accept "them" and Me exactly as I are. It's way to simple.
Dreams #19
Written 6/10/08
I think My use of "misunderstood" was very accurate.
I read this just before I went back to dream and it was very helpful. Immediately I saw these kids as a vampire colony (and for clarification for Me I think of these as reverse vampires).
We (because of the myths) think of vampires as draining energy/blood/life force. I agree "they" do this when there is an excess of energy (as with M) but also give or feed energy where it is needed if it is invited/welcome/accepted. This is what this colony in My vision is doing.
"They" are in/from another reality (different vibration) but also in this One (as am I). Then there was stuff about vampires being rich (I like this part of the myths) and it is because "they" are aware that "they" draw "their" sustenance from the universe. We/I/"they" maintain jobs to keep up some appearance of normalcy rather than to actually provide for needs. For those who don't do jobs "they" maintain some other "apparent" normal method of providing for needs and not attracting unwanted attention (witch hunts). I speak of job because this was about Me.
There were a couple of scenes where business and political leaders were hit with energy and "they" didn't know what to do (I liked that part). Shocked and confused is a good descritption. I wonder if this will appear/have a result in the world We view????? I get the feeling that it may take a lot of energy jolts to wake 'them" but who knows.
As I was waking a child asked: "Where are the heros?" I immediately thought of Indiana Jones and the crystal skulls. Not completely clear on the connection and/or part "they" play, but it is there.
I think My use of "misunderstood" was very accurate.
I read this just before I went back to dream and it was very helpful. Immediately I saw these kids as a vampire colony (and for clarification for Me I think of these as reverse vampires).
We (because of the myths) think of vampires as draining energy/blood/life force. I agree "they" do this when there is an excess of energy (as with M) but also give or feed energy where it is needed if it is invited/welcome/accepted. This is what this colony in My vision is doing.
"They" are in/from another reality (different vibration) but also in this One (as am I). Then there was stuff about vampires being rich (I like this part of the myths) and it is because "they" are aware that "they" draw "their" sustenance from the universe. We/I/"they" maintain jobs to keep up some appearance of normalcy rather than to actually provide for needs. For those who don't do jobs "they" maintain some other "apparent" normal method of providing for needs and not attracting unwanted attention (witch hunts). I speak of job because this was about Me.
There were a couple of scenes where business and political leaders were hit with energy and "they" didn't know what to do (I liked that part). Shocked and confused is a good descritption. I wonder if this will appear/have a result in the world We view????? I get the feeling that it may take a lot of energy jolts to wake 'them" but who knows.
As I was waking a child asked: "Where are the heros?" I immediately thought of Indiana Jones and the crystal skulls. Not completely clear on the connection and/or part "they" play, but it is there.
Thots 6/10/08
Interesting. I think probably the biggest problem with vampire is misunderstanding. I definately know I Am a vampire, but definately don't understand it. I would say that it appears in My mind (even as much as I try not to think of vamp as bad) that this is the most opposite of My physical persona. I know it's not, it's just the most misunderstood.
I had a very intersting night and will probably try to return to dreaming soon. In waking times I had visions of an alternate reality that vibrates at a just slightly different vibe than My familiar day to day reality. I All-ways expected the closest realtiy to be very similar, this is not. It has similarities, but is very different. In it We are aware that We are energy and We freely put on and take off skin easier than changing clothes and We travel and fly the way un-retsrained energy does. This reality is based in caring and giving and is very busy healing the planet. I'm thinking "they" are reaching into this current reality to do the healing since in that reality the plnaet was never damaged. Also working there on waking "their" counterparts here. It's much the same as the previous gathering dreams only extended and felt while awake or semi-awake.
I had a very intersting night and will probably try to return to dreaming soon. In waking times I had visions of an alternate reality that vibrates at a just slightly different vibe than My familiar day to day reality. I All-ways expected the closest realtiy to be very similar, this is not. It has similarities, but is very different. In it We are aware that We are energy and We freely put on and take off skin easier than changing clothes and We travel and fly the way un-retsrained energy does. This reality is based in caring and giving and is very busy healing the planet. I'm thinking "they" are reaching into this current reality to do the healing since in that reality the plnaet was never damaged. Also working there on waking "their" counterparts here. It's much the same as the previous gathering dreams only extended and felt while awake or semi-awake.
Thots 6/4/08
I just read "Waking From The Dream" http://www.reconnections.net/waking_from_the_dream.htm , don't know if I've read it before or not.
It sure seems to be about what My weekend was about. Everything I'm getting is that it is All about multi-whatever/multi-everything and energy. We are energy and it's really important for Me to really get that.
The kids are very, very busy sending energy out around the world and exploring "their" energy bodies.
I feel like I'm dreaming to wake up. It feels like I'm adjusting to walking/waking in multiple realities and not doing real well at it. I'm definately batteling with not trusting MySelf, afraid something 3D is gonna go to shit while I'm busy exploring multi-D.
A lot of stuff about how many are going to explore war and the world basically going to hell while others explore an evolving world and/or a world/society that starts giving rather than taking.
There are times when I wonder if wanting to be aware of "All" was such a great idea????? I don't plan on changing My mind, but I sure gotta expand My mind to handle "All". "All" is a lot and I'm really not used to it. Not familiar with many choices All happennning, not familiar with being here and there. Not familiar=not comfortable.
It sure seems to be about what My weekend was about. Everything I'm getting is that it is All about multi-whatever/multi-everything and energy. We are energy and it's really important for Me to really get that.
The kids are very, very busy sending energy out around the world and exploring "their" energy bodies.
I feel like I'm dreaming to wake up. It feels like I'm adjusting to walking/waking in multiple realities and not doing real well at it. I'm definately batteling with not trusting MySelf, afraid something 3D is gonna go to shit while I'm busy exploring multi-D.
A lot of stuff about how many are going to explore war and the world basically going to hell while others explore an evolving world and/or a world/society that starts giving rather than taking.
There are times when I wonder if wanting to be aware of "All" was such a great idea????? I don't plan on changing My mind, but I sure gotta expand My mind to handle "All". "All" is a lot and I'm really not used to it. Not familiar with many choices All happennning, not familiar with being here and there. Not familiar=not comfortable.
Thots 6/1/2008
In case I haven't mentioned this here, this last summer I experienced a lot of ear pain and I got the distinct feeling that it was not caused by just One thing. I felt that rather it had several/multiple causes. The pain was much like You feel when changing altitude suddenly only often much more intense. It was excriciating at times. The following is an email I sent during that time:
You know how I've been talking about the ear/air pressure being many things?
Well, I can't shake the feeling/thot that We are entering, have entered multi-D. Maybe this sounds like stating the obvious, but????????? We've actually All-ways been in multi-D but Our awareness has been pretty limited.
It's really the only explanation I can find for everything that I Am experiencing. This is a time of adjustment and aclimation to multiples. It's gonna require a lot of openness and it ain't for everyOne. Or, I should say not everyOne wants it.
The common denominator I see when talking with anyOne is WTF is really going on? We have no frame of referance for this, and therefore I believe this is multiple. We just don't know how to think in multiplicity.
And as for time, I for One have no experience in thinking in anything other than linear time and I really get the feeling that linear time is going to hell right before My eyes.
I kinda want to copy this to others, but I don't think anyOne else (that I know) is really gonna relate. I'm not certain You will relate, but even if not I Am sure You will accept it and not scoff. However, I think You know exactly what I Am talking about.
You know how I've been talking about the ear/air pressure being many things?
Well, I can't shake the feeling/thot that We are entering, have entered multi-D. Maybe this sounds like stating the obvious, but????????? We've actually All-ways been in multi-D but Our awareness has been pretty limited.
It's really the only explanation I can find for everything that I Am experiencing. This is a time of adjustment and aclimation to multiples. It's gonna require a lot of openness and it ain't for everyOne. Or, I should say not everyOne wants it.
The common denominator I see when talking with anyOne is WTF is really going on? We have no frame of referance for this, and therefore I believe this is multiple. We just don't know how to think in multiplicity.
And as for time, I for One have no experience in thinking in anything other than linear time and I really get the feeling that linear time is going to hell right before My eyes.
I kinda want to copy this to others, but I don't think anyOne else (that I know) is really gonna relate. I'm not certain You will relate, but even if not I Am sure You will accept it and not scoff. However, I think You know exactly what I Am talking about.
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