May 21,2008
"I dreamt of the earth shaking mightily, so strong that even the air was turbulent. It was like an earthquake and a tornado or typhoon at the same time. There was a space ship trying to hover but it couldn't maintain altitude and balance because of the turbulence. I stood on the earth and had One hand raised sending an energy from My hand to the ship and steadied the ship. The other hand was sending energy into the earth but I Am not aware of what that was doing, actually it may well have been energy coming from the earth to and thru Me.
I was observing All this and while it felt to be Me, I was also watching from some distance. The person was a giant, so it could certainly have been a collective Me, like this group All joined into One focal point to transfer energy from Gaea to ship.
The ship was transporting people from the surface to the ship like in Star Trek "Beam Me up Scotty." Of course it could not do this if it was being shaken and tossed around the sky by the winds. So We held the ship steady to evacuate people from the destruction.
Then the ship turned into a dragon and All the passengers became dragon eggs and the dragon flew off to some distant destination to lay it's eggs."
This IS what We ARE doing
THIS IS WHAT WE ARE DOING (Picture found on Facebook, artist unknown)
Monday, April 27, 2009
A dream I may have missed originally
From May 2? 2008
"I've been in and out All day. When I first woke this morning I decided I needed to dream rather than do laundry and it's been incredible.Just woke from One where We were in a war zone (not Iraq, more like the US) We were med-evaccing kids. WE had priority over wounded soldiers and military brass and politicians. But, the kids weren't injured.We were going ahead to prepare the new beliefs for habitation "
"I've been in and out All day. When I first woke this morning I decided I needed to dream rather than do laundry and it's been incredible.Just woke from One where We were in a war zone (not Iraq, more like the US) We were med-evaccing kids. WE had priority over wounded soldiers and military brass and politicians. But, the kids weren't injured.We were going ahead to prepare the new beliefs for habitation "
Note to Self 4/14/09
I'm taking C to an art thing for special needs kids this morning. This will be an adventure simply in the fact that I haven't been in town on a Tues. in over a year. I have this feeling that it will be a step (a duir) towards working with special needs kids. It may not appear as such on the surface, I'm not looking for any obvious results, but it will crack the wall and that crack will become a duir.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Spirituality and Sex 4/7/09
I wonder where/how My parents expected Me to learn about sex???? I was One of the first wavers to have sex education in school, but by then (Ninth grade) many had All-ready had sex and I don't think My parents knew ahead of time that this was gonna be taught in school for certain. It was very controversial at that time.
I re-read the second transmission on spirituality and sex last night:
http://www.reconnections.net/spirituality_sex2.htm it brought up some interesting stuff. I real-eyesed that the first time through I was totally (or nearly totally) focused on sex involving the genitals. This time, due to some actual energy experiences, I Am more focused on the energy exchange. Back then, for Me, the energy was more a theory than an experience or awareness.
I think All these aspects are very important.
The second transmission delves into children's sexuality and the current discussion seems to be leaning that way. This includes genital sex and the idea that many feelings/ experiences are sexual (energy exchanges).
I was reading another article (not specifically talking about sex) and it was saying that Our training (as children) was transmitted in words and even more in the energy of Our parents, teachers, leaders, society. I think this is a very important point for those of Us who can't quite figure out where We picked up some of Our mixed up stuff about sex.
I know that My sexuality was a stumbling block in My spiritual journey because I felt/ thought the two were not compatible. These transmissions, articles and discussions were a major benefit in breaking down that wall. I needed to learn that raw, coarse, passionate sex was not a deterrent from My spirituality, but a part of it. Sex is a huge part of a spirit having a human experience.
I re-read the second transmission on spirituality and sex last night:
http://www.reconnections.net/spirituality_sex2.htm it brought up some interesting stuff. I real-eyesed that the first time through I was totally (or nearly totally) focused on sex involving the genitals. This time, due to some actual energy experiences, I Am more focused on the energy exchange. Back then, for Me, the energy was more a theory than an experience or awareness.
I think All these aspects are very important.
The second transmission delves into children's sexuality and the current discussion seems to be leaning that way. This includes genital sex and the idea that many feelings/ experiences are sexual (energy exchanges).
I was reading another article (not specifically talking about sex) and it was saying that Our training (as children) was transmitted in words and even more in the energy of Our parents, teachers, leaders, society. I think this is a very important point for those of Us who can't quite figure out where We picked up some of Our mixed up stuff about sex.
I know that My sexuality was a stumbling block in My spiritual journey because I felt/ thought the two were not compatible. These transmissions, articles and discussions were a major benefit in breaking down that wall. I needed to learn that raw, coarse, passionate sex was not a deterrent from My spirituality, but a part of it. Sex is a huge part of a spirit having a human experience.
Busy week here in the lost frontier
Written 4/4/09
Wowsa.
Lots of shadow work at My job and some very interesting revelations as a result of My post Thurs. morning.
The shadow work includes a guy at work who is the right age to be a star kid and represents who I want to be when I grow up. I think I've mentioned him before, and how he frustrates Me and brings up many of My issues. I appreciate him if I can just keep My hands off his throat. As I process My stuff, I Am getting clearerer and clearerer about All the gifts he holds for Me.
Then there is One of My bosses who can get My anger going in 30 seconds or less. I should mention that getting angry is rarer and rarerer for Me, except in this case. She represents the part of ME that holds unreasonable expectations of MySelf, and the part that is still into supporting Our failing system of separation/limitation. I'm sure she is even more than that, but this is plenty to deal with right now.
The ho'oponopono stuff brought up a whole bunch of issues and insights.
On My drive to work Thurs. morning (after writing the post) I was kind of letting My mind wander. Maybe it was visioning, maybe it was thinking but it was different from My normal thinking, perhaps reflecting would be a good description.
I was running a brief version of the ho'oponopono process: "I'm sorry. Forgive Me. I love You. Thank You" I do have some "issues" with some of those words, but I really am trying to get over that, because it feels like old stuff and this feels to be the route I wish to follow.
I was thinking about this process in relation to work and the shadows lurking there. For some time now, whenever I have thought about changing jobs, I have felt that if I stick this out, this job will transform into an Aquarian age job. I've been getting the message that regardless of appearances, this IS happening.
As I was letting All this stuff go galloping through My mind, it dawned on Me that this is exactly what is happening, or will happen if I stay on this course. My job will transform if I begin (or continue) healing work at My job. I've known for years that I Am a healer, but not the usual "physical" healer. So, how and who do I heal at My job?
ME. How simple can it get? By practicing ho'oponopono, by opening to awareness (the only healing necessary according to the Reconnections) at work, I Am transforming My job. Instead of waiting for My employer (an international retail corporation) to change, I can begin doing the work/play (that I have long envisioned) today at My current job. I can change, and when I change, My world changes with Me. I can begin to follow My passion at My job. I can turn this store into a meditation sanctuary by being in a meditative state as much as I Am able. As I practice, My ability grows, the time I can spend in this state grows.
There is a line in A Course in Miracle that has really stuck with Me: "I Am a spiritual retreat." For years I had wanted to own and/or operate a spiritual retreat. When I read that line, I knew I had obtained this dream, if I just believe it.
Killing My shadows, All-though a pleasing thought much of the time, would probably not speed Me towards My intended goal. Another word for healing that I thought of through All of this is integrating. I can heal MySelf, I can integrate My many aspects at My job (while doing My job) as well as in My dreams, and in My sharing All this on these boards.
I Am in the process of transforming. It's awesome and it is frustrating.
Welcome to the lost frontier.
Wowsa.
Lots of shadow work at My job and some very interesting revelations as a result of My post Thurs. morning.
The shadow work includes a guy at work who is the right age to be a star kid and represents who I want to be when I grow up. I think I've mentioned him before, and how he frustrates Me and brings up many of My issues. I appreciate him if I can just keep My hands off his throat. As I process My stuff, I Am getting clearerer and clearerer about All the gifts he holds for Me.
Then there is One of My bosses who can get My anger going in 30 seconds or less. I should mention that getting angry is rarer and rarerer for Me, except in this case. She represents the part of ME that holds unreasonable expectations of MySelf, and the part that is still into supporting Our failing system of separation/limitation. I'm sure she is even more than that, but this is plenty to deal with right now.
The ho'oponopono stuff brought up a whole bunch of issues and insights.
On My drive to work Thurs. morning (after writing the post) I was kind of letting My mind wander. Maybe it was visioning, maybe it was thinking but it was different from My normal thinking, perhaps reflecting would be a good description.
I was running a brief version of the ho'oponopono process: "I'm sorry. Forgive Me. I love You. Thank You" I do have some "issues" with some of those words, but I really am trying to get over that, because it feels like old stuff and this feels to be the route I wish to follow.
I was thinking about this process in relation to work and the shadows lurking there. For some time now, whenever I have thought about changing jobs, I have felt that if I stick this out, this job will transform into an Aquarian age job. I've been getting the message that regardless of appearances, this IS happening.
As I was letting All this stuff go galloping through My mind, it dawned on Me that this is exactly what is happening, or will happen if I stay on this course. My job will transform if I begin (or continue) healing work at My job. I've known for years that I Am a healer, but not the usual "physical" healer. So, how and who do I heal at My job?
ME. How simple can it get? By practicing ho'oponopono, by opening to awareness (the only healing necessary according to the Reconnections) at work, I Am transforming My job. Instead of waiting for My employer (an international retail corporation) to change, I can begin doing the work/play (that I have long envisioned) today at My current job. I can change, and when I change, My world changes with Me. I can begin to follow My passion at My job. I can turn this store into a meditation sanctuary by being in a meditative state as much as I Am able. As I practice, My ability grows, the time I can spend in this state grows.
There is a line in A Course in Miracle that has really stuck with Me: "I Am a spiritual retreat." For years I had wanted to own and/or operate a spiritual retreat. When I read that line, I knew I had obtained this dream, if I just believe it.
Killing My shadows, All-though a pleasing thought much of the time, would probably not speed Me towards My intended goal. Another word for healing that I thought of through All of this is integrating. I can heal MySelf, I can integrate My many aspects at My job (while doing My job) as well as in My dreams, and in My sharing All this on these boards.
I Am in the process of transforming. It's awesome and it is frustrating.
Welcome to the lost frontier.
More about My process at work 4/4/09
I haven't thought about laziness this way for quite a while ("You were TOLD it was laziness and so claimed that") , because a few years ago I real-ized that what others would view as laziness was a very productive time for Me. This is the time that I spend building the life I truly want, not the life that the "world" tells Me I should build. This is really the whole point of this whole thing about the kid at work. I want something different from what the "world"/masses normally offers Us and expects from Us, yet I cling to these old ideals/ethics like the drowning cling to a raft. The raft is falling apart and sinking, yet I cling while trying to shake free. My hands are beginning to hurt and go numb from All this clinging.
Here I have a guy who (whatever his thoughts/motives/beliefs) is relatively free of this monster I have chained MySelf to. And, for the most part, he is not penalized for this as I believe I would be.
So, My first reaction and judgment based on All My years/lives of social training is that he is lazy. It really does not matter WHAT he (really) is, what matters is My judgment of him and what he represents. He is My mirror, My shadow of a couple of things. My disdain for laziness, My judgment of appearances, My Self who is NOT following the social edict of "follow the rules".
I feel I continue to be mis-understood as I discuss this, and I forget that I do not appear to be this conforming type person, because that persona basically only attacks Me, and overtakes Me at work. Most everyOne on line knows My Dr. Jekyll, I Am trying to talk with "them" about My Mr. Hyde. Of course the benefit of this is that I continue looking at it and trying to describe what is going on and that takes Me deeper and deeper into the "issues".
Here I have a guy who (whatever his thoughts/motives/beliefs) is relatively free of this monster I have chained MySelf to. And, for the most part, he is not penalized for this as I believe I would be.
So, My first reaction and judgment based on All My years/lives of social training is that he is lazy. It really does not matter WHAT he (really) is, what matters is My judgment of him and what he represents. He is My mirror, My shadow of a couple of things. My disdain for laziness, My judgment of appearances, My Self who is NOT following the social edict of "follow the rules".
I feel I continue to be mis-understood as I discuss this, and I forget that I do not appear to be this conforming type person, because that persona basically only attacks Me, and overtakes Me at work. Most everyOne on line knows My Dr. Jekyll, I Am trying to talk with "them" about My Mr. Hyde. Of course the benefit of this is that I continue looking at it and trying to describe what is going on and that takes Me deeper and deeper into the "issues".
Spirituality and Sex
4/1/09
As I was driving home from work today, I was wondering how many of Us have read Daniel's articles on Spirituality and Sex recently? Or the Reconnections transmission? ???? So, I went to the Reconnections site and find that DJ has a fabulous buffet of transmissions and articles about Our current topics right there on the main page.
http://www.reconnec tions.net/ index2.htm Feelings, what discussion of sex isn't about feelings? Shadow work, I think that's kind of where We started this discussion. Then an update on Spirituality and Sex. Even a transmission about Your Perfect Job, is that where the spirituality and sex discussion will take Us?????
Wanna jump straight into the original transmissions on spirituality and sex?
http://www.reconnec tions.net/ spirituality_ and_sex_index. htm this page has the links to All 7 transmissions and DJ's 6 articles. Did We even remember there was that much material???? ??
Lots of great meat to feed Our hungry palates.
4/2/09
I decided to take My Own advice (something I do on occasion) and I re-read the first transmission on spirituality and sex: http://www.reconnections.net/spirituality_sex1.htm
There's a lot of good stuff in there. I especially noticed the parts about the goddess religions and the temple prostitute. I truly feel a connection to the temple prostitute and that would explain a lot of My feelings/experiences regarding sex.
I was pondering the re-emergence of the goddess religion, which has All-ready begun and which I think most of Us look forward to more of. It certainly seems to Me to be an integral part of the Age of Aquarius which I like to refer to as a world built on sharing and caring.
There are many ways in which the goddess religion can re-emerge. One way is for the pendulum to swing to the opposite extreme from Our current patriarchal society and We could become a predominantly matriarchal society. To Me, that is just another form of the same ol', same ol'. Mirror images (opposites) are really the same, simply in reverse.
Another choice (a seemingly new choice) would be for Us to swing the pendulum to the center or balance point. The pendulum has been swinging from One extreme to the other for long enough that the momentum should be slowing and to let it rest in the balance should not be too hard a task.
From what I read and hear, many of Us are finding that We are merging Our masculine and Our feminine, Our father and Our mother. (Did someOne mention sex?)
This is the possibility I wish to explore.
When I was pondering the idea of the temple whore, I thought about the temple. The temple is often seen as a place of healing. The Reconnections tell Us that the only healing that is needed is complete awareness:
http://www.google.com/search?q=only+healing&sitesearch=reconnections.net
Usually when We think of healing, We think something is broken. This no longer has to be the case or the way We think. Healing can be expanding, it can be balancing it can be awakening and it can be more. We do not need to judge OurSelves and others as broken, We certainly do not need to FIX anyOne, none of Us are broken. (A bit scratched and pitted maybe)
I also thought about ho'oponopono: http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=navclient&aq=s0&oq=ho'&ie=UTF-8&rlz=1T4HPIC_enUS306US212&q=ho%27oponopono
I really like this focus as I strongly believe We are One and that I Am the One I need to focus on. When I change, My world changes. I truly am the center of My uni-verse.
I think it is very important to remember that We do not wish to mandate or even suggest how anyOne else should behave or experience sex. We are here to discuss and share Our experiences and thoughts (in a general way, We don't need ALL the details, pictures are optional)
It takes All of Us to make up infinity. Each of Us is exploring a slightly different aspect/version from the next (and extremely different from those further away in the spectrum). It is important (at least to Me) to accept, respect and honor each person's choices. If there were only One right way, We wouldn't need so many of Us exploring
As I was driving home from work today, I was wondering how many of Us have read Daniel's articles on Spirituality and Sex recently? Or the Reconnections transmission? ???? So, I went to the Reconnections site and find that DJ has a fabulous buffet of transmissions and articles about Our current topics right there on the main page.
http://www.reconnec tions.net/ index2.htm Feelings, what discussion of sex isn't about feelings? Shadow work, I think that's kind of where We started this discussion. Then an update on Spirituality and Sex. Even a transmission about Your Perfect Job, is that where the spirituality and sex discussion will take Us?????
Wanna jump straight into the original transmissions on spirituality and sex?
http://www.reconnec tions.net/ spirituality_ and_sex_index. htm this page has the links to All 7 transmissions and DJ's 6 articles. Did We even remember there was that much material???? ??
Lots of great meat to feed Our hungry palates.
4/2/09
I decided to take My Own advice (something I do on occasion) and I re-read the first transmission on spirituality and sex: http://www.reconnections.net/spirituality_sex1.htm
There's a lot of good stuff in there. I especially noticed the parts about the goddess religions and the temple prostitute. I truly feel a connection to the temple prostitute and that would explain a lot of My feelings/experiences regarding sex.
I was pondering the re-emergence of the goddess religion, which has All-ready begun and which I think most of Us look forward to more of. It certainly seems to Me to be an integral part of the Age of Aquarius which I like to refer to as a world built on sharing and caring.
There are many ways in which the goddess religion can re-emerge. One way is for the pendulum to swing to the opposite extreme from Our current patriarchal society and We could become a predominantly matriarchal society. To Me, that is just another form of the same ol', same ol'. Mirror images (opposites) are really the same, simply in reverse.
Another choice (a seemingly new choice) would be for Us to swing the pendulum to the center or balance point. The pendulum has been swinging from One extreme to the other for long enough that the momentum should be slowing and to let it rest in the balance should not be too hard a task.
From what I read and hear, many of Us are finding that We are merging Our masculine and Our feminine, Our father and Our mother. (Did someOne mention sex?)
This is the possibility I wish to explore.
When I was pondering the idea of the temple whore, I thought about the temple. The temple is often seen as a place of healing. The Reconnections tell Us that the only healing that is needed is complete awareness:
http://www.google.com/search?q=only+healing&sitesearch=reconnections.net
Usually when We think of healing, We think something is broken. This no longer has to be the case or the way We think. Healing can be expanding, it can be balancing it can be awakening and it can be more. We do not need to judge OurSelves and others as broken, We certainly do not need to FIX anyOne, none of Us are broken. (A bit scratched and pitted maybe)
I also thought about ho'oponopono: http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=navclient&aq=s0&oq=ho'&ie=UTF-8&rlz=1T4HPIC_enUS306US212&q=ho%27oponopono
I really like this focus as I strongly believe We are One and that I Am the One I need to focus on. When I change, My world changes. I truly am the center of My uni-verse.
I think it is very important to remember that We do not wish to mandate or even suggest how anyOne else should behave or experience sex. We are here to discuss and share Our experiences and thoughts (in a general way, We don't need ALL the details, pictures are optional)
It takes All of Us to make up infinity. Each of Us is exploring a slightly different aspect/version from the next (and extremely different from those further away in the spectrum). It is important (at least to Me) to accept, respect and honor each person's choices. If there were only One right way, We wouldn't need so many of Us exploring
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