These old beliefs are so damn deep seated, "they" are hard to uproot. And of course, duh, We need to integrate "them" rather than try to destroy "them" (note to Self)
I really, really feel very strongly that this is what today (these times) are about and most of Us had no idea this was/is what We signed up for.
Who woulda thot that this is what bringing heaven to earth would look like??????? Or that this is what We would go thru to do it????? We have opened a door that leads to something so different from what We expected.
Now is the time to hold onto Our ass, and that may be All We can do some days, and that just has to be enough.
This IS what We ARE doing
THIS IS WHAT WE ARE DOING (Picture found on Facebook, artist unknown)
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
THE BEGINNING OF NO
Dreams #70
The Beginning of No
Written 8/17/09Johnny walked/skipped along, happy to be on his way to start his first day of school for the year. (Obviously, this was a long time ago in a land far, far away.)
The sky was a brilliant, clear, bright blue but Johnny hardly noticed as this was completely normal. He talked with his friend George about “their” summer adventures and escapades. “They” laughed until “their” stomachs hurt. The people “they” passed smiled and waved, yet barely noticed the behavior because it was perfectly normal for two friends to carry on so when walking/skipping down the avenue.
As “they” approached the school Johnny noticed lots of teachers outside, All-most surrounding the school. “Oh wow” he said to George, “a welcoming committee. 'They' have never done that before. How thoughtful.”
When Johnny and George reached the nearest teacher Johnny had a big grin on his face. The teacher , however, wore no such decoration. “You must leave Your dragon outside the school grounds.”
“What????” Johnny was in total shock.
“Do as I say. I Am the authority and You are NOTHING.”
“But??????? And what's a nothing?”
“Everything will be explained in class. Now leave Your dragon over there and go inside. Dragons are only imaginary creatures anyway.”
“George is very real as You can clearly see.”
“I told You to do as I say. Dragons are imaginary and that is the way it is from now on.”
Sadly, Johnny told George to stay over by a group of trees, and that he would be back and explain as soon as possible. George's color seemed to fade just a bit and the sky seemed a little dark. Johnny wondered about this for a minute. This was All brand new.
Johnny watched as Susan approached the ring of teachers. “They” no longer looked like a welcoming committee. “They” were obviously guards. The teacher stopped Susan. “You will leave Your leprechaun over there. Leprechauns are imaginary and must be left outside the school grounds.”
“What?” Susan was immediately in tears.
“Do as I say. I Am the authority and You are NOTHING. And, wipe those silly tears off Your face.”
“But, what's a nothing?”
“Go inside, everything will be explained.”
The sky turned a little darker. This was the first time the sky had ever turned dark during the day.
Johnny walked up to Susan and told her that he had to leave George beyond the school grounds also. He explained that the other teacher had said that George was imaginary also. Susan knew that George was a dragon, and that George was real. EveryOne knew that, at least “they” did until now.
Another teacher walked towards Johnny and Susan, “Were You told to go inside?”
“Yes.”
“Do as You were told.”
As “they” walked towards the door of the school “they” heard yet another teacher say to Jerry and his sister Joan: “Leave Your faeries over there, off the school grounds. Faeries are imaginary creatures and must be left behind.”
“What?” Jerry and Joan yelped in unison.
“Do as I say. I Am the authority and You are NOTHING.”
“But, what's a nothing?” Jerry asked.
“Yes, and what's an authority?” Joan added.
“Go inside. Everything will be explained."
With sobs and tears Jerry and Joan told “their” Fae friends to wait over by George. The sky grew darker still.
Johnny and Susan walked inside the school. It was more like dragging “their” bodies through deep, thick mud rather than walking. Inside “they” found the other students in the same state of despair. When Jerry and Joan entered, “they” shared stories, shaking “their” heads in wonder.
A very loud bell rang and a voice (All-most an angry voice) came over the loud-speakers: “The bell signals it is time to start class. Proceed immediately to Your first class. Talking will be kept to a minimum. Silence is Your best choice.”
This was All so new to the children. Many wondered what planet “they” had woken up on. Before, the children knew when it was time to go to class. “They” went when it was time, everything was orderly and happy. The sky turned darker still. AnyOne who was watching George could clearly see that now it was more than just his color fading, George himSelf was fading as were All the other creatures that the teachers had named imaginary.
When class started, it was the same story in every class room. The teacher announced that the town council (in compliance with the world government rulings) had made some long needed changes. The parents and other adults would be notified immediately. The first and most important change was implementing the word NO. This word would apply mainly to the children and would have the greatest impact on “their” lives. As these children grew into adults, the word NO would be applied to adults as well. Within One generation, the word NO would apply to everyOne and basically rule the world.
Furthermore, All imaginary creatures would NOT be allowed on school grounds, in schools or anywhere near any public grounds, buildings, structures or gatherings. This would be the first implementation of the word NO. NO more imaginary creatures.
A partial list of imaginary creatures was passed out to All children (BTW, children were now to be referred to as Nothing or students) and copies were being sent by courier to All parents. Additions to the list would be made as soon as other imaginary creatures were “made up” by the students. Vampires, werewolves, dragons, faeries etc. were now mandated to be banished to closed closets and underneath the bed. Furthermore the students would learn to FEAR these creatures.
Special councils and committees were being set up around the world to write stories that would describe these creatures ("correctly" according to the authorities) as mean, evil and fearsome beings. Most of these words were brand new to the students. But, “they” were promised that shortly the meanings would be abundantly clear.
The sky was growing ever darker and some odd grumbling, growling sound echoed throughout the heavens. George and All the other imaginary creatures had faded to All-most Nothing. When school was out and the students went to find “their” imaginary creatures, “they” would truly begin to understand the word “nothing”.
Thoughts written 8/8/09
Sometimes, just writing/talking about it helps.
That was definitely the case yesterday. One thing I keep thinking about/keeps coming up when I Am at work (and looking at what I go thru) is the line from the "Matrix": "You have a problem with authority, Mr. Anderson."
Now, that is no newsflash. I even gloried in this in days gone bye. But, since I've started getting into shadow work, mirror work, Oneness, this takes on new perspectives. And it feels like One of those things where (at least at this time) action is NOT called for, but simply awareness (FULL awareness) is the key.
It's that old, old pattern of denial (that's not really Me, or that's not who I Am today) that glues these encounters to One like Superglue. Yes, it certainly is true, that in this current physical life that is not who I Am today. I Am not a Self-serving tyrant, I Am not greedy (at least in relative terms), I do NOT live in fear of My boss, BUT "out there" (in multi-d) this is still a part/piece/fragment/fraction of Me. And, it All-ways will be. So, nothing I do will change it, but I must choose to love it or reject it............................ aw shit.
I really feel that this is important for Me right now, since the examples are pervading My waking and My dreaming world.
I agree (and forget) that it is important to not be too hard on MySelf and to remember that these distances are really an illusion.
I'm feeling more active this weekend than I did last weekend. I can't tell yet if it's misty or smokey outside. I think it is mist (clouds) which is good for the fires. I do have stuff that I can do in rainy weather, I tried to gear this way since summer here All-ways includes days and days of rain. This summer has been unusually dry, but the fair started yesterday so We are just about guaranteed a week of rain.
That was definitely the case yesterday. One thing I keep thinking about/keeps coming up when I Am at work (and looking at what I go thru) is the line from the "Matrix": "You have a problem with authority, Mr. Anderson."
Now, that is no newsflash. I even gloried in this in days gone bye. But, since I've started getting into shadow work, mirror work, Oneness, this takes on new perspectives. And it feels like One of those things where (at least at this time) action is NOT called for, but simply awareness (FULL awareness) is the key.
It's that old, old pattern of denial (that's not really Me, or that's not who I Am today) that glues these encounters to One like Superglue. Yes, it certainly is true, that in this current physical life that is not who I Am today. I Am not a Self-serving tyrant, I Am not greedy (at least in relative terms), I do NOT live in fear of My boss, BUT "out there" (in multi-d) this is still a part/piece/fragment/fraction of Me. And, it All-ways will be. So, nothing I do will change it, but I must choose to love it or reject it............................ aw shit.
I really feel that this is important for Me right now, since the examples are pervading My waking and My dreaming world.
I agree (and forget) that it is important to not be too hard on MySelf and to remember that these distances are really an illusion.
I'm feeling more active this weekend than I did last weekend. I can't tell yet if it's misty or smokey outside. I think it is mist (clouds) which is good for the fires. I do have stuff that I can do in rainy weather, I tried to gear this way since summer here All-ways includes days and days of rain. This summer has been unusually dry, but the fair started yesterday so We are just about guaranteed a week of rain.
Dreams #69
Written 8/7/09
A little background, We went the whole month of July without any measurable rainfall and the forest fires, the smoke and the ash were quite awful.
Well We finally are getting some rain. Yesterday (the first rain) was actually worse than the day before (before it rained), You know how it is when You first throw a little water on a blazing fire (or hot charcoal). But it didn't affect Me like the day before. (insert: I was depressed the day before, it looked really weird outside. It really looked like the end of the world. I reminded MySelf that if the world was going to end, it wouldn't end just in Alaska.)
I had a nice evening and as I was drifting off it was about accepting and honoring the youngstars as "they" are. It was very pleasant.
HOWEVER, the only dream I remember left Me feeling quite horrid. It was about K and work. She had hidden items in each person's section which were obviously out of place but very well hidden. When she arrived she uncovered the items for Us to see. Mine was so obvious, it was like it had been cloaked with a spell???? So, she wrote each of Us up, felt like a threat to fire All of Us, for not finding Our hidden items. I told her that was a great way to inspire her team and show appreciation.
I truly felt horrible about My fear and anger reaction. One of the things I've been reading speaks of: "The opportunity to heal". That was obviously what this dream was about and I did go to work on that right away. I will never see those words: "Opportunity to heal" in quite the same way again.
It was the experiencing how deep these feelings (even hatred) go that bothered Me. It was that thing We speak of, how disheartening it can be to have done sooo much work and yet have soooo far to go.
At work yesterday I was noticing how everyOne is acting now that K is manager. My first reaction was: "It really isn't just Me." But, then I remembered something I read in Reconnections: We create the evidence to support Our position/belief. So, of course in My world All-most everyOne is having difficulty with K. How could I possibly be wrong?
Obviously, this gave Me lots of homework, but it was not fun.
A little background, We went the whole month of July without any measurable rainfall and the forest fires, the smoke and the ash were quite awful.
Well We finally are getting some rain. Yesterday (the first rain) was actually worse than the day before (before it rained), You know how it is when You first throw a little water on a blazing fire (or hot charcoal). But it didn't affect Me like the day before. (insert: I was depressed the day before, it looked really weird outside. It really looked like the end of the world. I reminded MySelf that if the world was going to end, it wouldn't end just in Alaska.)
I had a nice evening and as I was drifting off it was about accepting and honoring the youngstars as "they" are. It was very pleasant.
HOWEVER, the only dream I remember left Me feeling quite horrid. It was about K and work. She had hidden items in each person's section which were obviously out of place but very well hidden. When she arrived she uncovered the items for Us to see. Mine was so obvious, it was like it had been cloaked with a spell???? So, she wrote each of Us up, felt like a threat to fire All of Us, for not finding Our hidden items. I told her that was a great way to inspire her team and show appreciation.
I truly felt horrible about My fear and anger reaction. One of the things I've been reading speaks of: "The opportunity to heal". That was obviously what this dream was about and I did go to work on that right away. I will never see those words: "Opportunity to heal" in quite the same way again.
It was the experiencing how deep these feelings (even hatred) go that bothered Me. It was that thing We speak of, how disheartening it can be to have done sooo much work and yet have soooo far to go.
At work yesterday I was noticing how everyOne is acting now that K is manager. My first reaction was: "It really isn't just Me." But, then I remembered something I read in Reconnections: We create the evidence to support Our position/belief. So, of course in My world All-most everyOne is having difficulty with K. How could I possibly be wrong?
Obviously, this gave Me lots of homework, but it was not fun.
Dreams #68
Written 7/22/09
I haven't been remembering My dreams much lately but last night I was more focused on doing stuff "out there" as I was going to sleep. Had some cool feelings/images as I drifted off. A lot of Fae stuff, felt like I actually met some Fae creatures for the first time.
Then I woke from a dream that I was a spy in WW II. It was bizarre. I'm thinking passed life, but I have no idea what brought this on. It felt sooo real and so current. After that I had several alternate life dreams. All had a different feel than My normal ventures and explorations.
I haven't been remembering My dreams much lately but last night I was more focused on doing stuff "out there" as I was going to sleep. Had some cool feelings/images as I drifted off. A lot of Fae stuff, felt like I actually met some Fae creatures for the first time.
Then I woke from a dream that I was a spy in WW II. It was bizarre. I'm thinking passed life, but I have no idea what brought this on. It felt sooo real and so current. After that I had several alternate life dreams. All had a different feel than My normal ventures and explorations.
Thoughts written 7/18/09
I've read quite a bit about these current moon phases and eclipses. I just don't think that what I've read quite captured or conveyed the magnitude of this current cycle. It's probably One of those events that We have NO frame of reference for. I Am quite clueless as to how rare or common eclipses at the same time as new moons and full moons and One on the tail of another is, but I'm sure feeling something different.
I'm intuiting to take it very easy right now and the few I've talked/chated with seem to confirm this. It's not feeling like time to stop (do nothing) which is how I normally take it easy, but it is time to move slow, yet continue to move (at least for Me). This continues to be a new experience for Me. I know how to stop and I know how to run but I'm not good at strolling (in the physical realm). Guess that's not totally true, but in reference to projects and doing "things" it is very true.
Doing a little of this and a little of that. I had thought about doing some project stuff after work this week, but something said to hold. So I did. It is easiest (after years of training) for Me to follow My intuition when it says STOP. That was very hard at first. Now go slow is My learning curve.
Had thought I might get a lot done today, but something says to go slow. Like a time of tilling and watering the soil in preparation for planting.
Also, seems a time to apply Our spiritual stuff to the physical. It is easy to talk, but how are WE at practicing these principles in All Our affairs? Maybe I need an affair to practice in????
I don't feel the physical is going anywhere so I best learn how to live it to the fullest and most spiritual that I can. Lots of folks are waiting to "GO" somewhere, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting.
We are here because We chose to be. We have a purpose in the here and now. Even if it is only the experience. (ONLY the experience??????????????)
Some seem to have left, but as the Reconnections say: "Ever notice death is something that All-ways happens to someOne else?"
Maybe others are leaving, but for Me, I know there is much, much here I still choose to explore and experience. There was a time I would have deleted any email that talked like this. I would have tuned out anyOne speaking like this. I would have told most people to go away, deep into the bowels of the earth for talking like this. Yet, today here I Am.
I'm intuiting to take it very easy right now and the few I've talked/chated with seem to confirm this. It's not feeling like time to stop (do nothing) which is how I normally take it easy, but it is time to move slow, yet continue to move (at least for Me). This continues to be a new experience for Me. I know how to stop and I know how to run but I'm not good at strolling (in the physical realm). Guess that's not totally true, but in reference to projects and doing "things" it is very true.
Doing a little of this and a little of that. I had thought about doing some project stuff after work this week, but something said to hold. So I did. It is easiest (after years of training) for Me to follow My intuition when it says STOP. That was very hard at first. Now go slow is My learning curve.
Had thought I might get a lot done today, but something says to go slow. Like a time of tilling and watering the soil in preparation for planting.
Also, seems a time to apply Our spiritual stuff to the physical. It is easy to talk, but how are WE at practicing these principles in All Our affairs? Maybe I need an affair to practice in????
I don't feel the physical is going anywhere so I best learn how to live it to the fullest and most spiritual that I can. Lots of folks are waiting to "GO" somewhere, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting.
We are here because We chose to be. We have a purpose in the here and now. Even if it is only the experience. (ONLY the experience??????????????)
Some seem to have left, but as the Reconnections say: "Ever notice death is something that All-ways happens to someOne else?"
Maybe others are leaving, but for Me, I know there is much, much here I still choose to explore and experience. There was a time I would have deleted any email that talked like this. I would have tuned out anyOne speaking like this. I would have told most people to go away, deep into the bowels of the earth for talking like this. Yet, today here I Am.
Thoughts written 7/7/09
For Me it seems like sooo much is merging (balancing????)
I've All-ways known I could do/be both, be IN the world but not OF the world, yet, yet I feared that I would not or could not. After All, We have very few role models for this and especially very few current day role models.
Certainly that number is increasing, but people living in the extremes are sooo much more common than people living a balance between (whatever label We might put on it). I tend to go for "being in AND out".
I knew I could, but was I right???? Did I trust MySelf not to go too far out or too far in? Could I (would I) participate in 3D without selling out to 3D? Would I embrace multi-D without getting lost?
This has certainly been My desire (All-most said goal butt...........) Was this the unreachable dream? Was this the proverbial carrot before the donkey????? Am I the ass chasing the carrot?
It would seem/feel that this is becoming My reality. Slowly, gradually and I Am glad of that.
I've All-ways known I could do/be both, be IN the world but not OF the world, yet, yet I feared that I would not or could not. After All, We have very few role models for this and especially very few current day role models.
Certainly that number is increasing, but people living in the extremes are sooo much more common than people living a balance between (whatever label We might put on it). I tend to go for "being in AND out".
I knew I could, but was I right???? Did I trust MySelf not to go too far out or too far in? Could I (would I) participate in 3D without selling out to 3D? Would I embrace multi-D without getting lost?
This has certainly been My desire (All-most said goal butt...........) Was this the unreachable dream? Was this the proverbial carrot before the donkey????? Am I the ass chasing the carrot?
It would seem/feel that this is becoming My reality. Slowly, gradually and I Am glad of that.
Quickie 7/27/09
Well, I had a nice morning of waking dreams. Phase shifting, did a ghost type appearance to someOne and "they" took it well, All-most like "they" had called Me and were ready when I just kinda popped up beside "them". Quite cool.
Thoughts written 6/26/09
I was just reading an article that refers to departing. This author has been departing for a couple of years now. I feel I keep watching this cycle going round and round the mountain. This morning I felt strongly that this cycle is Our/My desire to depart yet stay manifesting in front of Me. Yet I want to slap "them" and say: "Wake up, don't You get it? The reason You keep feeling on the brink of departing is because You aren't going? We are staying and bringing in the new. We are bringing multi-D into Our lives."
That's what I feel for Me. We want to go, We want to stay. We want joy and We cling to misery. Why? Because We have the opportunity to embrace and integrate it All. Again this goes back to there being so much more available and waiting for Us that We really can't even fathom right now.
Many are speaking of not being able to put "their" now into words. Is it any wonder? Our now is brand new, there aren't words for much of what We are experiencing and no frame of reference. We are like the native Americans looking at Columbus's ships and not seeing anything. That is exactly what many of Us are walking in right NOW. We sense these ships, Our light bodies, Our energy but We can't see a blessed thing yet.
That's what I feel for Me. We want to go, We want to stay. We want joy and We cling to misery. Why? Because We have the opportunity to embrace and integrate it All. Again this goes back to there being so much more available and waiting for Us that We really can't even fathom right now.
Many are speaking of not being able to put "their" now into words. Is it any wonder? Our now is brand new, there aren't words for much of what We are experiencing and no frame of reference. We are like the native Americans looking at Columbus's ships and not seeing anything. That is exactly what many of Us are walking in right NOW. We sense these ships, Our light bodies, Our energy but We can't see a blessed thing yet.
Dreams #67 Written 6/22/09
I just woke from a dream that may relate to what is going on in 3D and multi-D.
Some of My local friends, some complete strangers and I were playing video games, only these were real-life and on a massive scale. We were in some type of building, probably a house with many rooms. Most of Us had Our little hand held game controllers and Our screens and monitors and We were scattered throughout the house playing Our war games.
The thing is that these were real wars, Our game controllers fired real weapons, maneuvred real vehicles and We knew We were killing real people and "they" were trying to kill Us.
This was war by remote control. We were (or at least felt) safe because the battles were far from Our house. This was a massive war, to say it was a world war would be to belittle it. And, I might add, We seemed to be pretty good at it.
I was a type of leader, only the players didn't need a leader, each was playing on "their" own and doing very well. Doing well meant staying alive.
I was moving/floating from room to room encouraging and coaxing the players on. "Yes, yes, keep going, go deeper into enemy territory......" At times I had My own controller and would reek havoc and destruction of My own.
I was ruthless, I was mean and I was very cruel. Those who took no prisoners were more merciful than I.
There were also several versions of this going on. If I backed off, took the focus back, I could see MySelf and others watching All this on Our monitors. We were watching OurSelves and others playing these real-life video games on Our monitors.
On different monitors there were different versions/aspects of Me playing different parts. But, the One I focused on was this ruthless war lord.
I was fascinated for this is a Me I Am totally unfamiliar with. Certainly I have caught glimpses of him in My passed, but I have never known him, I have never experienced him. Yet, here he was bigger than life.
In recent years I have grown more aware of My existence as this cruel man, but still it has been knowledge that he exists, but not experience, not real awareness.
I was saying and believing that this war was provoked, That was My excuse, My justification but some/many of Me that were watching this on Our monitors knew that this just was NOT true. I (and My friends) was the aggressor. We were attacking unprovoked but saying it was necessary to protect OurSelves.
Here We were in Our safe house, miles and miles from the battles, maybe even light years from these scenes of devastation and destruction yet feeling justified because We were protecting OurSelves.
So, a Me that was watching recognized the need to integrate this monster Me that was enjoying maiming and killing these others. As I started the process, it frightened Me. Not because I was afraid of having this monster inside Me, for I knew he was All-ready part of Me. I was scared about ending this thread of the tapestry of eternity/infinity.
I felt that this was amazing. Fear of ending infinity/eternity by ending war????? Is that All there is to make up infinity? War and destruction? I found I was actually afraid that if We All gave up violence, there would be no variety, no beauty, no anything.
What about love? It felt like if I integrated the hate, even love would vanish because "they" are each other's balance.
Then it occurred to Me. There is more. There is more than this balancing act of love and hate, peace and war. There are realities yet unimagined. There are things, possibilities that We simply can not fathom, not even an inkling.
At that point I invited this monster Me to join Me, to come and sit at My round table, My council fire, My campfire, the banquet/buffet table of life.
Well, let Me tell You, he was still a raging monster. Even without any weapons or game controller he was still vehement and attacking. His words, sharper than any sword, faster than any bullet cut through Our armour and Our shields like "they" were butter. He pierced Our hearts. He chopped off Our heads and fed Us to the daylight.
What was this All about? Why was he raging at ME???? At himSelf?
It was about separation. He felt/believed that We had forced him into being separate.
Now, he became familiar, now I recognized every nook and cranny in his mind, and the wrinkles in his face. This was truly Me. For it has not been that long ago that I battled this monster, this belief that I was forced to be separate.
I thought I had accepted that I had chosen to pretend to be separate, that I knew that I had chosen to forget Oneness (being connected) in order to fully experience separation and limitation. It seems that I had only banished this belief that I was forced into separation. I had banished MySelf. Hidden behind My smile, hidden behind My cloak of love and care I was kicking and screaming. This banished Me has been waging war All My life and he is definitely cruel and ruthless.
The bright side of All this is that there is/are a part(s) of infinity beyond duality and polarity. It is something I truly can not yet imagine. But, I caught a glimpse. WE did not vanish into nothing, We did not cease to exist. When We balance and mix and integrate love and hate and fear and anger and greed and separation and unity, something is born.
Some of My local friends, some complete strangers and I were playing video games, only these were real-life and on a massive scale. We were in some type of building, probably a house with many rooms. Most of Us had Our little hand held game controllers and Our screens and monitors and We were scattered throughout the house playing Our war games.
The thing is that these were real wars, Our game controllers fired real weapons, maneuvred real vehicles and We knew We were killing real people and "they" were trying to kill Us.
This was war by remote control. We were (or at least felt) safe because the battles were far from Our house. This was a massive war, to say it was a world war would be to belittle it. And, I might add, We seemed to be pretty good at it.
I was a type of leader, only the players didn't need a leader, each was playing on "their" own and doing very well. Doing well meant staying alive.
I was moving/floating from room to room encouraging and coaxing the players on. "Yes, yes, keep going, go deeper into enemy territory......" At times I had My own controller and would reek havoc and destruction of My own.
I was ruthless, I was mean and I was very cruel. Those who took no prisoners were more merciful than I.
There were also several versions of this going on. If I backed off, took the focus back, I could see MySelf and others watching All this on Our monitors. We were watching OurSelves and others playing these real-life video games on Our monitors.
On different monitors there were different versions/aspects of Me playing different parts. But, the One I focused on was this ruthless war lord.
I was fascinated for this is a Me I Am totally unfamiliar with. Certainly I have caught glimpses of him in My passed, but I have never known him, I have never experienced him. Yet, here he was bigger than life.
In recent years I have grown more aware of My existence as this cruel man, but still it has been knowledge that he exists, but not experience, not real awareness.
I was saying and believing that this war was provoked, That was My excuse, My justification but some/many of Me that were watching this on Our monitors knew that this just was NOT true. I (and My friends) was the aggressor. We were attacking unprovoked but saying it was necessary to protect OurSelves.
Here We were in Our safe house, miles and miles from the battles, maybe even light years from these scenes of devastation and destruction yet feeling justified because We were protecting OurSelves.
So, a Me that was watching recognized the need to integrate this monster Me that was enjoying maiming and killing these others. As I started the process, it frightened Me. Not because I was afraid of having this monster inside Me, for I knew he was All-ready part of Me. I was scared about ending this thread of the tapestry of eternity/infinity.
I felt that this was amazing. Fear of ending infinity/eternity by ending war????? Is that All there is to make up infinity? War and destruction? I found I was actually afraid that if We All gave up violence, there would be no variety, no beauty, no anything.
What about love? It felt like if I integrated the hate, even love would vanish because "they" are each other's balance.
Then it occurred to Me. There is more. There is more than this balancing act of love and hate, peace and war. There are realities yet unimagined. There are things, possibilities that We simply can not fathom, not even an inkling.
At that point I invited this monster Me to join Me, to come and sit at My round table, My council fire, My campfire, the banquet/buffet table of life.
Well, let Me tell You, he was still a raging monster. Even without any weapons or game controller he was still vehement and attacking. His words, sharper than any sword, faster than any bullet cut through Our armour and Our shields like "they" were butter. He pierced Our hearts. He chopped off Our heads and fed Us to the daylight.
What was this All about? Why was he raging at ME???? At himSelf?
It was about separation. He felt/believed that We had forced him into being separate.
Now, he became familiar, now I recognized every nook and cranny in his mind, and the wrinkles in his face. This was truly Me. For it has not been that long ago that I battled this monster, this belief that I was forced to be separate.
I thought I had accepted that I had chosen to pretend to be separate, that I knew that I had chosen to forget Oneness (being connected) in order to fully experience separation and limitation. It seems that I had only banished this belief that I was forced into separation. I had banished MySelf. Hidden behind My smile, hidden behind My cloak of love and care I was kicking and screaming. This banished Me has been waging war All My life and he is definitely cruel and ruthless.
The bright side of All this is that there is/are a part(s) of infinity beyond duality and polarity. It is something I truly can not yet imagine. But, I caught a glimpse. WE did not vanish into nothing, We did not cease to exist. When We balance and mix and integrate love and hate and fear and anger and greed and separation and unity, something is born.
Thoughts written 6/17/09
I have heard/read from several sources that this coming solstice is about moving forward. My first reaction is wondering why, if this is such a pivotal time of moving forward, then why is it this summer I Am more interested in and participating more in physical (3D) activities than I have been the last couple of years?
Then, the word BALANCE appears (and of course I run screaming from the room). When I garner the courage to return and read on, there is usually something about moving through and/or beyond polarity (fancy words to help Us bravely face balance????)
This is what I see happening for Me. I Am living and participating in My spiritual life and My physical life. I Am walking in multi-D and functioning in 3D. This is not All-ways an easy feat, as many can attest.
I haven't been remembering much from My dreams lately either. Little tidbits, sometimes answers to 3D questions, sometimes insights that save Me time and trouble, sometimes worries that have little or no basis in reality, and sometime love flowing between All the Me and My others.
I've had some thoughts about this too. Some of the dreams that were remarkable a year ago are now common place. Some are still too different for My conscious mind to grasp and translate. And, there are times when I really resist coming back to 3D, staying out there (in here) and this resist-dance may block some memories.
Then, the word BALANCE appears (and of course I run screaming from the room). When I garner the courage to return and read on, there is usually something about moving through and/or beyond polarity (fancy words to help Us bravely face balance????)
This is what I see happening for Me. I Am living and participating in My spiritual life and My physical life. I Am walking in multi-D and functioning in 3D. This is not All-ways an easy feat, as many can attest.
I haven't been remembering much from My dreams lately either. Little tidbits, sometimes answers to 3D questions, sometimes insights that save Me time and trouble, sometimes worries that have little or no basis in reality, and sometime love flowing between All the Me and My others.
I've had some thoughts about this too. Some of the dreams that were remarkable a year ago are now common place. Some are still too different for My conscious mind to grasp and translate. And, there are times when I really resist coming back to 3D, staying out there (in here) and this resist-dance may block some memories.
Thoughts written 6/16/09
You know, I watched Children of Dune several times before I got anything out of it. Recently the dream/vision conversations between Paul and Leto (son) about the Golden Path are starting to make sense and I Am reminded of that a lot lately.
The going forward and back, the shattering/fragmenting and coming back together is certainly going on and on and on. It's cyclical, possibly like a dog chasing its tail.
We wanted to find out what it would be like to be less than what We are. We were everything and We became something. We wanted to examine and experience the parts that make up the whole. Some of Us do it by being a single individual and some do it by being several individuals. Being a multiple person has been judged as something that needed curing for a long time by those who are dead set in being only a single individual. Just like the recent attention to autism and the growing number of cases, and the cases of multiples is growing also.
Some postulate that We could not have experiences without separating/fragmenting. I'm not sure about that, but I Am convinced that We decided to experience it this way. I think the only way to fully experience it is to fully believe it. And We have done that pretty damn well.
Now We are experiencing it from the perspective of having an inkling that We are more while We still believe We are less. I think this will expand.
I (and probably We) get confused during the shifting from One to many and back. (Vertigo)
Usually (the norm) when We are exploring being a part, We forget that We are also the whole. But We retain this niggling memory of being whole and it often eats at Our heart, Our emotions. But, in order to focus, to fully experience, it seems important to forget (filter out) the more.
I would guess that there is a kaleidoscope of variances on this. Some where We have a little knowledge (consciousness) of being whole, and others where We barely remember being parts (and parts is parts). Some of Us move through this kaleidoscope with ease, others feel every phase intensely.
In an instant We remember and again in an instant We forget.
There are many references to All this from the Reconnections. That is what drew Me to "them". The Reconnections spoke/speak what I believe. Just yesterday I was reading an article by another channel which said:"You are more than You seem to be." Sound familiar?
The going forward and back, the shattering/fragmenting and coming back together is certainly going on and on and on. It's cyclical, possibly like a dog chasing its tail.
We wanted to find out what it would be like to be less than what We are. We were everything and We became something. We wanted to examine and experience the parts that make up the whole. Some of Us do it by being a single individual and some do it by being several individuals. Being a multiple person has been judged as something that needed curing for a long time by those who are dead set in being only a single individual. Just like the recent attention to autism and the growing number of cases, and the cases of multiples is growing also.
Some postulate that We could not have experiences without separating/fragmenting. I'm not sure about that, but I Am convinced that We decided to experience it this way. I think the only way to fully experience it is to fully believe it. And We have done that pretty damn well.
Now We are experiencing it from the perspective of having an inkling that We are more while We still believe We are less. I think this will expand.
I (and probably We) get confused during the shifting from One to many and back. (Vertigo)
Usually (the norm) when We are exploring being a part, We forget that We are also the whole. But We retain this niggling memory of being whole and it often eats at Our heart, Our emotions. But, in order to focus, to fully experience, it seems important to forget (filter out) the more.
I would guess that there is a kaleidoscope of variances on this. Some where We have a little knowledge (consciousness) of being whole, and others where We barely remember being parts (and parts is parts). Some of Us move through this kaleidoscope with ease, others feel every phase intensely.
In an instant We remember and again in an instant We forget.
There are many references to All this from the Reconnections. That is what drew Me to "them". The Reconnections spoke/speak what I believe. Just yesterday I was reading an article by another channel which said:"You are more than You seem to be." Sound familiar?
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Dream thoughts 5/23/09
I believe there are many, many types of dreams. And in case anyOne isn't aware of this: I LOVE dreaming.
Did I ever mention that I LOVE dreaming?
Some dreams are the rehearsals We actrons go thru before the grand performance in front of (and as) a live audience.
I believe We All dream. I know the agony of not remembering My dreams, and the agony of not even being aware that I have been dreaming. But, after years of this, I often remember some of My dreams clearly and usually wake up knowing I have spent the night dreaming/travelling.
Let's face it, there is soooo much in the multi-verse and multi-D that We just can not remember it All with Our conscious mind (YET). We need to open up the 90%+ that We aren't accessing to be able to grok it All. This is happening, right before Our I's. It is a process, sometimes slow and painful but often filled with glorious moments, hours, days, weeks, months, years, lifetimes and eons.
We have chosen to block many memories with the veil of forgetfulness. I don't remember making this choice exactly. Well, OK, I have a vague memory of making the choice but only because I went looking for that memory.
Now, We are bringing down the veil. The faerie mists are parting. We begin to see through the wall of rain.
http://www.google.com/search?q=veil&sitesearch=reconnections.net
Did I ever mention that I LOVE dreaming?
Some dreams are the rehearsals We actrons go thru before the grand performance in front of (and as) a live audience.
I believe We All dream. I know the agony of not remembering My dreams, and the agony of not even being aware that I have been dreaming. But, after years of this, I often remember some of My dreams clearly and usually wake up knowing I have spent the night dreaming/travelling.
Let's face it, there is soooo much in the multi-verse and multi-D that We just can not remember it All with Our conscious mind (YET). We need to open up the 90%+ that We aren't accessing to be able to grok it All. This is happening, right before Our I's. It is a process, sometimes slow and painful but often filled with glorious moments, hours, days, weeks, months, years, lifetimes and eons.
We have chosen to block many memories with the veil of forgetfulness. I don't remember making this choice exactly. Well, OK, I have a vague memory of making the choice but only because I went looking for that memory.
Now, We are bringing down the veil. The faerie mists are parting. We begin to see through the wall of rain.
http://www.google.com/search?q=veil&sitesearch=reconnections.net
Dreams #66
Last night I dreamt that the Internet went down everywhere. I'm talking globally. Well, it didn't actually go down, it was still there and running and available but everyOne everywhere was shut out.
Nobody could get online or into the Internet All-though Our computers were working fine. The servers were even running (or whatever servers do) but could not access the Internet.
Most everyOne thought the Internet was completely gone. It was like a totally locked solid door. Most thought there was now nothing on the other side of the door.
Eventually We found out that J had the correct codes to access the Internet and the right addresses to find web sites.
It was All very upsetting to people, except for those of Us who know J. Well, We were upset too until We learned that she had the codes.
Nobody could get online or into the Internet All-though Our computers were working fine. The servers were even running (or whatever servers do) but could not access the Internet.
Most everyOne thought the Internet was completely gone. It was like a totally locked solid door. Most thought there was now nothing on the other side of the door.
Eventually We found out that J had the correct codes to access the Internet and the right addresses to find web sites.
It was All very upsetting to people, except for those of Us who know J. Well, We were upset too until We learned that she had the codes.
Thoughts about 2012
Here's what I got, because this is what I Am looking for.
We have a single reality mind set. Obviously, We do not live in One single reality, life in Britain or South Africa is very different from life in the U.S. And life in the U.S. is very different from how it is portrayed to 3rd world countries. However, We believe firmly that there is only ONE reality.
Most of the masses and those seeking spirituality continue to look for and expect One reality. Albeit a better reality, but still a single reality. Interesting note here, a "better" reality would look very different to a rich person in power than it would to the masses.
There are a few of Us who intuit multiple realities. We are beginning to see the possibility of being in more than One life, One reality at a time or space.
These Ones of Us are beginning to bridge these realities, these worlds. There are a few starting the bridge from the world of multiple realities (and multiple personalities) and others are beginning the bridge from the singular world.
There will continue to be people who inhabit and maintain each world, reality, movie, story line and there will be those who cross the bridges at whatever pace "they" choose to check in with the different possibilities. There will also those who have a vantage point where 'they" observe a vast panorama of realities at One time.
So many options this opens. Building a bridge is no small feat. Gotta be fairly accurate and adaptable to get the two ends to meet in the middle. There are people living in terror who will try to destroy the bridges from either/both ends or swim out to midstream and plant bombs. I'm flashing on "Bridge Over the River Kwai". Some of Us will send aid convoys back and forth across the bridges. What a vast array of possibilities We are opening.
Yes, I see 2012 as the portal to this. Not a set date and time or place, but an ongoing event.
We have a single reality mind set. Obviously, We do not live in One single reality, life in Britain or South Africa is very different from life in the U.S. And life in the U.S. is very different from how it is portrayed to 3rd world countries. However, We believe firmly that there is only ONE reality.
Most of the masses and those seeking spirituality continue to look for and expect One reality. Albeit a better reality, but still a single reality. Interesting note here, a "better" reality would look very different to a rich person in power than it would to the masses.
There are a few of Us who intuit multiple realities. We are beginning to see the possibility of being in more than One life, One reality at a time or space.
These Ones of Us are beginning to bridge these realities, these worlds. There are a few starting the bridge from the world of multiple realities (and multiple personalities) and others are beginning the bridge from the singular world.
There will continue to be people who inhabit and maintain each world, reality, movie, story line and there will be those who cross the bridges at whatever pace "they" choose to check in with the different possibilities. There will also those who have a vantage point where 'they" observe a vast panorama of realities at One time.
So many options this opens. Building a bridge is no small feat. Gotta be fairly accurate and adaptable to get the two ends to meet in the middle. There are people living in terror who will try to destroy the bridges from either/both ends or swim out to midstream and plant bombs. I'm flashing on "Bridge Over the River Kwai". Some of Us will send aid convoys back and forth across the bridges. What a vast array of possibilities We are opening.
Yes, I see 2012 as the portal to this. Not a set date and time or place, but an ongoing event.
Dreams #65
I even dreamed of dragon again last night. Been a while since I remember dreaming of dragon. Even this One was kinda vague (memory) as it simply fit in, was a "normal' part of One of the worlds/realities I was visiting. There were a bunch of realities in My dreams last night, not surprsing in that I was looking for some alternate/expanded realities when I went to sleep.
Perhaps dragon saw My plight as I was given many more views of the insanity happening in 3D than I Am usually afforded. It was not easy walking that cliff edge and balancing betwen observing and getting attached to the observation. (Observing to Me, is walking the cliff edge, getting attached is falling off the cliff). Please remember there are many times many ways to view each of these events. When We see a person go off a cliff, what do We see????? Do We see a person failing? Do We see a person committing suicide? OR, do We see a person learning to fly? Maybe We see a person catching "their" very first dragon ride?
You see, I fell/lept off that cliff at least 20 times yesterday. Now, that is no small feat as it is quite a climb up out of the valley of 3D insanity/fear/chaos/panic to the lofty heights where the dragon riding academy is perched.
So what actually happened? In 3D, I do not remember how I got from the valley floor to the cliff edge. In My dreams I got some glimpses of dragon sometimes catching Me somewhere off the cliff, sometimes picking Me up off the valley floor and All-ways returning Me to the cliff edge to rexplore My choices and perspectives. Sometimes I was standing on the valley floor wondering how the hell I got there, sometimes I was a broken vessel that dragon had to heal before she could return Me to the cliff.
Tho it seemed like a rather mundane day in the 3D world, My dreams would provide a whole different perspective.
I have often feared doing things like this in public, You know what I mean. Teleporting would attract unwanted attention when We just appear out of thin air. Riding a dragon to market would definately attract unwanted attention and dragon hunters galore. Yet, here I went through an entire afternoon (at least 4 hours and most were spent in town, in public) riding on or being carried in the mouth of a dragon and NO One even noticed.
What does that tell Us about these fears?
For the curious there were some realites with vampires, some pretty, some ugly. It was quite an active night.
Perhaps dragon saw My plight as I was given many more views of the insanity happening in 3D than I Am usually afforded. It was not easy walking that cliff edge and balancing betwen observing and getting attached to the observation. (Observing to Me, is walking the cliff edge, getting attached is falling off the cliff). Please remember there are many times many ways to view each of these events. When We see a person go off a cliff, what do We see????? Do We see a person failing? Do We see a person committing suicide? OR, do We see a person learning to fly? Maybe We see a person catching "their" very first dragon ride?
You see, I fell/lept off that cliff at least 20 times yesterday. Now, that is no small feat as it is quite a climb up out of the valley of 3D insanity/fear/chaos/panic to the lofty heights where the dragon riding academy is perched.
So what actually happened? In 3D, I do not remember how I got from the valley floor to the cliff edge. In My dreams I got some glimpses of dragon sometimes catching Me somewhere off the cliff, sometimes picking Me up off the valley floor and All-ways returning Me to the cliff edge to rexplore My choices and perspectives. Sometimes I was standing on the valley floor wondering how the hell I got there, sometimes I was a broken vessel that dragon had to heal before she could return Me to the cliff.
Tho it seemed like a rather mundane day in the 3D world, My dreams would provide a whole different perspective.
I have often feared doing things like this in public, You know what I mean. Teleporting would attract unwanted attention when We just appear out of thin air. Riding a dragon to market would definately attract unwanted attention and dragon hunters galore. Yet, here I went through an entire afternoon (at least 4 hours and most were spent in town, in public) riding on or being carried in the mouth of a dragon and NO One even noticed.
What does that tell Us about these fears?
For the curious there were some realites with vampires, some pretty, some ugly. It was quite an active night.
More Transposer Stuff 4/29/09
I think the energies S speaks of that she doesn't share are the damaged goods many of Us protect from the village. P certainly has her defective children, what One of Us doesn't? And We are afraid the village will kill "them" or cast "them" into the wilderness. Sometimes this shows up very clearly in the messages. In others it is more subtle. I think P might be an easier keg to tap, but We haven't gotten near her tender spots yet.
Transposer stuff 4/29/09
I know that I lean towards transposer, at least in My dreams. And, I'm not remembering too much right now. Vague snips and pieces. I wake up smiling, had a good time but what energy did I bring thru? What energy is M bringing through?
Monday, April 27, 2009
Aother dream I may have missed originally
May 21,2008
"I dreamt of the earth shaking mightily, so strong that even the air was turbulent. It was like an earthquake and a tornado or typhoon at the same time. There was a space ship trying to hover but it couldn't maintain altitude and balance because of the turbulence. I stood on the earth and had One hand raised sending an energy from My hand to the ship and steadied the ship. The other hand was sending energy into the earth but I Am not aware of what that was doing, actually it may well have been energy coming from the earth to and thru Me.
I was observing All this and while it felt to be Me, I was also watching from some distance. The person was a giant, so it could certainly have been a collective Me, like this group All joined into One focal point to transfer energy from Gaea to ship.
The ship was transporting people from the surface to the ship like in Star Trek "Beam Me up Scotty." Of course it could not do this if it was being shaken and tossed around the sky by the winds. So We held the ship steady to evacuate people from the destruction.
Then the ship turned into a dragon and All the passengers became dragon eggs and the dragon flew off to some distant destination to lay it's eggs."
"I dreamt of the earth shaking mightily, so strong that even the air was turbulent. It was like an earthquake and a tornado or typhoon at the same time. There was a space ship trying to hover but it couldn't maintain altitude and balance because of the turbulence. I stood on the earth and had One hand raised sending an energy from My hand to the ship and steadied the ship. The other hand was sending energy into the earth but I Am not aware of what that was doing, actually it may well have been energy coming from the earth to and thru Me.
I was observing All this and while it felt to be Me, I was also watching from some distance. The person was a giant, so it could certainly have been a collective Me, like this group All joined into One focal point to transfer energy from Gaea to ship.
The ship was transporting people from the surface to the ship like in Star Trek "Beam Me up Scotty." Of course it could not do this if it was being shaken and tossed around the sky by the winds. So We held the ship steady to evacuate people from the destruction.
Then the ship turned into a dragon and All the passengers became dragon eggs and the dragon flew off to some distant destination to lay it's eggs."
A dream I may have missed originally
From May 2? 2008
"I've been in and out All day. When I first woke this morning I decided I needed to dream rather than do laundry and it's been incredible.Just woke from One where We were in a war zone (not Iraq, more like the US) We were med-evaccing kids. WE had priority over wounded soldiers and military brass and politicians. But, the kids weren't injured.We were going ahead to prepare the new beliefs for habitation "
"I've been in and out All day. When I first woke this morning I decided I needed to dream rather than do laundry and it's been incredible.Just woke from One where We were in a war zone (not Iraq, more like the US) We were med-evaccing kids. WE had priority over wounded soldiers and military brass and politicians. But, the kids weren't injured.We were going ahead to prepare the new beliefs for habitation "
Note to Self 4/14/09
I'm taking C to an art thing for special needs kids this morning. This will be an adventure simply in the fact that I haven't been in town on a Tues. in over a year. I have this feeling that it will be a step (a duir) towards working with special needs kids. It may not appear as such on the surface, I'm not looking for any obvious results, but it will crack the wall and that crack will become a duir.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Spirituality and Sex 4/7/09
I wonder where/how My parents expected Me to learn about sex???? I was One of the first wavers to have sex education in school, but by then (Ninth grade) many had All-ready had sex and I don't think My parents knew ahead of time that this was gonna be taught in school for certain. It was very controversial at that time.
I re-read the second transmission on spirituality and sex last night:
http://www.reconnections.net/spirituality_sex2.htm it brought up some interesting stuff. I real-eyesed that the first time through I was totally (or nearly totally) focused on sex involving the genitals. This time, due to some actual energy experiences, I Am more focused on the energy exchange. Back then, for Me, the energy was more a theory than an experience or awareness.
I think All these aspects are very important.
The second transmission delves into children's sexuality and the current discussion seems to be leaning that way. This includes genital sex and the idea that many feelings/ experiences are sexual (energy exchanges).
I was reading another article (not specifically talking about sex) and it was saying that Our training (as children) was transmitted in words and even more in the energy of Our parents, teachers, leaders, society. I think this is a very important point for those of Us who can't quite figure out where We picked up some of Our mixed up stuff about sex.
I know that My sexuality was a stumbling block in My spiritual journey because I felt/ thought the two were not compatible. These transmissions, articles and discussions were a major benefit in breaking down that wall. I needed to learn that raw, coarse, passionate sex was not a deterrent from My spirituality, but a part of it. Sex is a huge part of a spirit having a human experience.
I re-read the second transmission on spirituality and sex last night:
http://www.reconnections.net/spirituality_sex2.htm it brought up some interesting stuff. I real-eyesed that the first time through I was totally (or nearly totally) focused on sex involving the genitals. This time, due to some actual energy experiences, I Am more focused on the energy exchange. Back then, for Me, the energy was more a theory than an experience or awareness.
I think All these aspects are very important.
The second transmission delves into children's sexuality and the current discussion seems to be leaning that way. This includes genital sex and the idea that many feelings/ experiences are sexual (energy exchanges).
I was reading another article (not specifically talking about sex) and it was saying that Our training (as children) was transmitted in words and even more in the energy of Our parents, teachers, leaders, society. I think this is a very important point for those of Us who can't quite figure out where We picked up some of Our mixed up stuff about sex.
I know that My sexuality was a stumbling block in My spiritual journey because I felt/ thought the two were not compatible. These transmissions, articles and discussions were a major benefit in breaking down that wall. I needed to learn that raw, coarse, passionate sex was not a deterrent from My spirituality, but a part of it. Sex is a huge part of a spirit having a human experience.
Busy week here in the lost frontier
Written 4/4/09
Wowsa.
Lots of shadow work at My job and some very interesting revelations as a result of My post Thurs. morning.
The shadow work includes a guy at work who is the right age to be a star kid and represents who I want to be when I grow up. I think I've mentioned him before, and how he frustrates Me and brings up many of My issues. I appreciate him if I can just keep My hands off his throat. As I process My stuff, I Am getting clearerer and clearerer about All the gifts he holds for Me.
Then there is One of My bosses who can get My anger going in 30 seconds or less. I should mention that getting angry is rarer and rarerer for Me, except in this case. She represents the part of ME that holds unreasonable expectations of MySelf, and the part that is still into supporting Our failing system of separation/limitation. I'm sure she is even more than that, but this is plenty to deal with right now.
The ho'oponopono stuff brought up a whole bunch of issues and insights.
On My drive to work Thurs. morning (after writing the post) I was kind of letting My mind wander. Maybe it was visioning, maybe it was thinking but it was different from My normal thinking, perhaps reflecting would be a good description.
I was running a brief version of the ho'oponopono process: "I'm sorry. Forgive Me. I love You. Thank You" I do have some "issues" with some of those words, but I really am trying to get over that, because it feels like old stuff and this feels to be the route I wish to follow.
I was thinking about this process in relation to work and the shadows lurking there. For some time now, whenever I have thought about changing jobs, I have felt that if I stick this out, this job will transform into an Aquarian age job. I've been getting the message that regardless of appearances, this IS happening.
As I was letting All this stuff go galloping through My mind, it dawned on Me that this is exactly what is happening, or will happen if I stay on this course. My job will transform if I begin (or continue) healing work at My job. I've known for years that I Am a healer, but not the usual "physical" healer. So, how and who do I heal at My job?
ME. How simple can it get? By practicing ho'oponopono, by opening to awareness (the only healing necessary according to the Reconnections) at work, I Am transforming My job. Instead of waiting for My employer (an international retail corporation) to change, I can begin doing the work/play (that I have long envisioned) today at My current job. I can change, and when I change, My world changes with Me. I can begin to follow My passion at My job. I can turn this store into a meditation sanctuary by being in a meditative state as much as I Am able. As I practice, My ability grows, the time I can spend in this state grows.
There is a line in A Course in Miracle that has really stuck with Me: "I Am a spiritual retreat." For years I had wanted to own and/or operate a spiritual retreat. When I read that line, I knew I had obtained this dream, if I just believe it.
Killing My shadows, All-though a pleasing thought much of the time, would probably not speed Me towards My intended goal. Another word for healing that I thought of through All of this is integrating. I can heal MySelf, I can integrate My many aspects at My job (while doing My job) as well as in My dreams, and in My sharing All this on these boards.
I Am in the process of transforming. It's awesome and it is frustrating.
Welcome to the lost frontier.
Wowsa.
Lots of shadow work at My job and some very interesting revelations as a result of My post Thurs. morning.
The shadow work includes a guy at work who is the right age to be a star kid and represents who I want to be when I grow up. I think I've mentioned him before, and how he frustrates Me and brings up many of My issues. I appreciate him if I can just keep My hands off his throat. As I process My stuff, I Am getting clearerer and clearerer about All the gifts he holds for Me.
Then there is One of My bosses who can get My anger going in 30 seconds or less. I should mention that getting angry is rarer and rarerer for Me, except in this case. She represents the part of ME that holds unreasonable expectations of MySelf, and the part that is still into supporting Our failing system of separation/limitation. I'm sure she is even more than that, but this is plenty to deal with right now.
The ho'oponopono stuff brought up a whole bunch of issues and insights.
On My drive to work Thurs. morning (after writing the post) I was kind of letting My mind wander. Maybe it was visioning, maybe it was thinking but it was different from My normal thinking, perhaps reflecting would be a good description.
I was running a brief version of the ho'oponopono process: "I'm sorry. Forgive Me. I love You. Thank You" I do have some "issues" with some of those words, but I really am trying to get over that, because it feels like old stuff and this feels to be the route I wish to follow.
I was thinking about this process in relation to work and the shadows lurking there. For some time now, whenever I have thought about changing jobs, I have felt that if I stick this out, this job will transform into an Aquarian age job. I've been getting the message that regardless of appearances, this IS happening.
As I was letting All this stuff go galloping through My mind, it dawned on Me that this is exactly what is happening, or will happen if I stay on this course. My job will transform if I begin (or continue) healing work at My job. I've known for years that I Am a healer, but not the usual "physical" healer. So, how and who do I heal at My job?
ME. How simple can it get? By practicing ho'oponopono, by opening to awareness (the only healing necessary according to the Reconnections) at work, I Am transforming My job. Instead of waiting for My employer (an international retail corporation) to change, I can begin doing the work/play (that I have long envisioned) today at My current job. I can change, and when I change, My world changes with Me. I can begin to follow My passion at My job. I can turn this store into a meditation sanctuary by being in a meditative state as much as I Am able. As I practice, My ability grows, the time I can spend in this state grows.
There is a line in A Course in Miracle that has really stuck with Me: "I Am a spiritual retreat." For years I had wanted to own and/or operate a spiritual retreat. When I read that line, I knew I had obtained this dream, if I just believe it.
Killing My shadows, All-though a pleasing thought much of the time, would probably not speed Me towards My intended goal. Another word for healing that I thought of through All of this is integrating. I can heal MySelf, I can integrate My many aspects at My job (while doing My job) as well as in My dreams, and in My sharing All this on these boards.
I Am in the process of transforming. It's awesome and it is frustrating.
Welcome to the lost frontier.
More about My process at work 4/4/09
I haven't thought about laziness this way for quite a while ("You were TOLD it was laziness and so claimed that") , because a few years ago I real-ized that what others would view as laziness was a very productive time for Me. This is the time that I spend building the life I truly want, not the life that the "world" tells Me I should build. This is really the whole point of this whole thing about the kid at work. I want something different from what the "world"/masses normally offers Us and expects from Us, yet I cling to these old ideals/ethics like the drowning cling to a raft. The raft is falling apart and sinking, yet I cling while trying to shake free. My hands are beginning to hurt and go numb from All this clinging.
Here I have a guy who (whatever his thoughts/motives/beliefs) is relatively free of this monster I have chained MySelf to. And, for the most part, he is not penalized for this as I believe I would be.
So, My first reaction and judgment based on All My years/lives of social training is that he is lazy. It really does not matter WHAT he (really) is, what matters is My judgment of him and what he represents. He is My mirror, My shadow of a couple of things. My disdain for laziness, My judgment of appearances, My Self who is NOT following the social edict of "follow the rules".
I feel I continue to be mis-understood as I discuss this, and I forget that I do not appear to be this conforming type person, because that persona basically only attacks Me, and overtakes Me at work. Most everyOne on line knows My Dr. Jekyll, I Am trying to talk with "them" about My Mr. Hyde. Of course the benefit of this is that I continue looking at it and trying to describe what is going on and that takes Me deeper and deeper into the "issues".
Here I have a guy who (whatever his thoughts/motives/beliefs) is relatively free of this monster I have chained MySelf to. And, for the most part, he is not penalized for this as I believe I would be.
So, My first reaction and judgment based on All My years/lives of social training is that he is lazy. It really does not matter WHAT he (really) is, what matters is My judgment of him and what he represents. He is My mirror, My shadow of a couple of things. My disdain for laziness, My judgment of appearances, My Self who is NOT following the social edict of "follow the rules".
I feel I continue to be mis-understood as I discuss this, and I forget that I do not appear to be this conforming type person, because that persona basically only attacks Me, and overtakes Me at work. Most everyOne on line knows My Dr. Jekyll, I Am trying to talk with "them" about My Mr. Hyde. Of course the benefit of this is that I continue looking at it and trying to describe what is going on and that takes Me deeper and deeper into the "issues".
Spirituality and Sex
4/1/09
As I was driving home from work today, I was wondering how many of Us have read Daniel's articles on Spirituality and Sex recently? Or the Reconnections transmission? ???? So, I went to the Reconnections site and find that DJ has a fabulous buffet of transmissions and articles about Our current topics right there on the main page.
http://www.reconnec tions.net/ index2.htm Feelings, what discussion of sex isn't about feelings? Shadow work, I think that's kind of where We started this discussion. Then an update on Spirituality and Sex. Even a transmission about Your Perfect Job, is that where the spirituality and sex discussion will take Us?????
Wanna jump straight into the original transmissions on spirituality and sex?
http://www.reconnec tions.net/ spirituality_ and_sex_index. htm this page has the links to All 7 transmissions and DJ's 6 articles. Did We even remember there was that much material???? ??
Lots of great meat to feed Our hungry palates.
4/2/09
I decided to take My Own advice (something I do on occasion) and I re-read the first transmission on spirituality and sex: http://www.reconnections.net/spirituality_sex1.htm
There's a lot of good stuff in there. I especially noticed the parts about the goddess religions and the temple prostitute. I truly feel a connection to the temple prostitute and that would explain a lot of My feelings/experiences regarding sex.
I was pondering the re-emergence of the goddess religion, which has All-ready begun and which I think most of Us look forward to more of. It certainly seems to Me to be an integral part of the Age of Aquarius which I like to refer to as a world built on sharing and caring.
There are many ways in which the goddess religion can re-emerge. One way is for the pendulum to swing to the opposite extreme from Our current patriarchal society and We could become a predominantly matriarchal society. To Me, that is just another form of the same ol', same ol'. Mirror images (opposites) are really the same, simply in reverse.
Another choice (a seemingly new choice) would be for Us to swing the pendulum to the center or balance point. The pendulum has been swinging from One extreme to the other for long enough that the momentum should be slowing and to let it rest in the balance should not be too hard a task.
From what I read and hear, many of Us are finding that We are merging Our masculine and Our feminine, Our father and Our mother. (Did someOne mention sex?)
This is the possibility I wish to explore.
When I was pondering the idea of the temple whore, I thought about the temple. The temple is often seen as a place of healing. The Reconnections tell Us that the only healing that is needed is complete awareness:
http://www.google.com/search?q=only+healing&sitesearch=reconnections.net
Usually when We think of healing, We think something is broken. This no longer has to be the case or the way We think. Healing can be expanding, it can be balancing it can be awakening and it can be more. We do not need to judge OurSelves and others as broken, We certainly do not need to FIX anyOne, none of Us are broken. (A bit scratched and pitted maybe)
I also thought about ho'oponopono: http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=navclient&aq=s0&oq=ho'&ie=UTF-8&rlz=1T4HPIC_enUS306US212&q=ho%27oponopono
I really like this focus as I strongly believe We are One and that I Am the One I need to focus on. When I change, My world changes. I truly am the center of My uni-verse.
I think it is very important to remember that We do not wish to mandate or even suggest how anyOne else should behave or experience sex. We are here to discuss and share Our experiences and thoughts (in a general way, We don't need ALL the details, pictures are optional)
It takes All of Us to make up infinity. Each of Us is exploring a slightly different aspect/version from the next (and extremely different from those further away in the spectrum). It is important (at least to Me) to accept, respect and honor each person's choices. If there were only One right way, We wouldn't need so many of Us exploring
As I was driving home from work today, I was wondering how many of Us have read Daniel's articles on Spirituality and Sex recently? Or the Reconnections transmission? ???? So, I went to the Reconnections site and find that DJ has a fabulous buffet of transmissions and articles about Our current topics right there on the main page.
http://www.reconnec tions.net/ index2.htm Feelings, what discussion of sex isn't about feelings? Shadow work, I think that's kind of where We started this discussion. Then an update on Spirituality and Sex. Even a transmission about Your Perfect Job, is that where the spirituality and sex discussion will take Us?????
Wanna jump straight into the original transmissions on spirituality and sex?
http://www.reconnec tions.net/ spirituality_ and_sex_index. htm this page has the links to All 7 transmissions and DJ's 6 articles. Did We even remember there was that much material???? ??
Lots of great meat to feed Our hungry palates.
4/2/09
I decided to take My Own advice (something I do on occasion) and I re-read the first transmission on spirituality and sex: http://www.reconnections.net/spirituality_sex1.htm
There's a lot of good stuff in there. I especially noticed the parts about the goddess religions and the temple prostitute. I truly feel a connection to the temple prostitute and that would explain a lot of My feelings/experiences regarding sex.
I was pondering the re-emergence of the goddess religion, which has All-ready begun and which I think most of Us look forward to more of. It certainly seems to Me to be an integral part of the Age of Aquarius which I like to refer to as a world built on sharing and caring.
There are many ways in which the goddess religion can re-emerge. One way is for the pendulum to swing to the opposite extreme from Our current patriarchal society and We could become a predominantly matriarchal society. To Me, that is just another form of the same ol', same ol'. Mirror images (opposites) are really the same, simply in reverse.
Another choice (a seemingly new choice) would be for Us to swing the pendulum to the center or balance point. The pendulum has been swinging from One extreme to the other for long enough that the momentum should be slowing and to let it rest in the balance should not be too hard a task.
From what I read and hear, many of Us are finding that We are merging Our masculine and Our feminine, Our father and Our mother. (Did someOne mention sex?)
This is the possibility I wish to explore.
When I was pondering the idea of the temple whore, I thought about the temple. The temple is often seen as a place of healing. The Reconnections tell Us that the only healing that is needed is complete awareness:
http://www.google.com/search?q=only+healing&sitesearch=reconnections.net
Usually when We think of healing, We think something is broken. This no longer has to be the case or the way We think. Healing can be expanding, it can be balancing it can be awakening and it can be more. We do not need to judge OurSelves and others as broken, We certainly do not need to FIX anyOne, none of Us are broken. (A bit scratched and pitted maybe)
I also thought about ho'oponopono: http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=navclient&aq=s0&oq=ho'&ie=UTF-8&rlz=1T4HPIC_enUS306US212&q=ho%27oponopono
I really like this focus as I strongly believe We are One and that I Am the One I need to focus on. When I change, My world changes. I truly am the center of My uni-verse.
I think it is very important to remember that We do not wish to mandate or even suggest how anyOne else should behave or experience sex. We are here to discuss and share Our experiences and thoughts (in a general way, We don't need ALL the details, pictures are optional)
It takes All of Us to make up infinity. Each of Us is exploring a slightly different aspect/version from the next (and extremely different from those further away in the spectrum). It is important (at least to Me) to accept, respect and honor each person's choices. If there were only One right way, We wouldn't need so many of Us exploring
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Thots 3/26/09
What I have experienced is quite hard to describe fully and accurately in words (limited terms) because it is sooo expansive.
I have experienced My energy exchanges most often in dream or trance state but on a few occasions also in a full waking state.
A few years ago as I was returning home from a sex hunt, I was pondering physical sex and how no matter how much I have, I want more. Sex is wonderful and totally enjoyable to Me but it just never fully satisfies Me. I think We have All heard the joke about sex and Chinese food, a couple hours (minutes) later We want more.
I often think/believe that life is a metaphor of everything else that exists. So, I was pondering sex from this perspective. I started imagining merging with another on a much deeper level, physically yet more.
About a year or so ago I started dreaming of what I had been describing/thinking of as energy exchanges. Basically, two people stand face to face and send each other energy and then (in an ethereal way) the two bodies begin to merge like two drops of water. It is a very sexual feeling without what We think of as any type of sex act. Of course, physical sex can be included, but that is rather anti-climatic (oops).
Shortly after dreaming of this, I experienced it with a co-worker (what started as a stare down) and We were both totally shocked and amazed. Then within a few days I observed the same thing happening between others in the grocery store. It's amazing to experience and/or to watch.
For Me, this doesn't replace sex, it expands on sex.
I have experienced My energy exchanges most often in dream or trance state but on a few occasions also in a full waking state.
A few years ago as I was returning home from a sex hunt, I was pondering physical sex and how no matter how much I have, I want more. Sex is wonderful and totally enjoyable to Me but it just never fully satisfies Me. I think We have All heard the joke about sex and Chinese food, a couple hours (minutes) later We want more.
I often think/believe that life is a metaphor of everything else that exists. So, I was pondering sex from this perspective. I started imagining merging with another on a much deeper level, physically yet more.
About a year or so ago I started dreaming of what I had been describing/thinking of as energy exchanges. Basically, two people stand face to face and send each other energy and then (in an ethereal way) the two bodies begin to merge like two drops of water. It is a very sexual feeling without what We think of as any type of sex act. Of course, physical sex can be included, but that is rather anti-climatic (oops).
Shortly after dreaming of this, I experienced it with a co-worker (what started as a stare down) and We were both totally shocked and amazed. Then within a few days I observed the same thing happening between others in the grocery store. It's amazing to experience and/or to watch.
For Me, this doesn't replace sex, it expands on sex.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Thots 3/23/09
http://www.blogtalk radio.com/ gmayer/2009/ 03/23/gateways- to-2012
I really enjoyed last nights show and I hope everyOne gets the opportunity to listen to the archives and tune-in to future shows.
I was especially interested in the conversation about being sensitive and "feeling" other's energy.
Since everyOne else is a part/aspect/version of OurSelf,
http://www.google.com/search?q=another+aspect&sitesearch=reconnections.net
http://www.google.com/search?q=Oneness&sitesearch=reconnections.net
this is another form of shadow work which We may very well be doing without being the least bit aware of exactly what We are doing.
I especially like DJ's comment about letting the energy pass through Us like the wind through a screen door. I remembered hearing/reading this before so I searched it on Reconnections:
http://www.reconnections.net/are_you_experienced.htm
In re-reading this I also noticed the recognition that "We lie back on Our pillow". Sometimes that is the only thing We can do and it is exactly what We need.
Audrey ( http://fromheadtoheart.squarespace.com/latest-postings/ ) sometimes uses the phrase: "when I feel this, All I can do is go to bed and let the energy have Me."
I think many of Us use this technique, again some being aware of what is happening but many are not aware and think: "something is wrong with Me".
I was also struck with the idea that feeling tired and rung out is an e-motion as is spoken of in this article.
This weekend I was reminded that I Am a sensitive and that when I Am feeling dis-stress in My body (for no apparent reason) I need reminding that I Am a sensitive. Since I know that I Am not unique I wondered how many others need this reminder? Also, I went many, many years without knowing I was a sensitive. I wonder how many here are not yet aware that "they" are sensitive and that "they" do feel the energy and emotions of others as well as the energy and e-motions of Gaea?
I spent a lot of time not knowing (and then not being willing to admit) that I Am an em-path.
http://www.google.com/search?q=empath&sitesearch=reconnections.net
again, I'm sure that others are in this boat. We often think We are being grandiose when We recognize such things about OurSelves, but the truth is that We are just being honest.
I would love to hear more from others about learning to let this energy flow through Us like wind through a screen door. Some suggestions on "how" would be appreciated by MySelf (and others I'm certain). If You feel You have no experience to share, remember the line from Illusions (by Richard Bach) "We teach best, what We most need to learn."
I Am currently feeling a blockage of energy at My root chakra. It's a pressure that started in My lower back and stomach region and is slowly moving down My body. I real-eyesed yesterday that it is energy that entered My body (probably at My crown) and needs/wants to flow through (or be channeled) into the earth. I have no idea why I blocked it or exactly what energy it is or where it came from, but I Am very willing to open up to let it move on.
I really enjoyed last nights show and I hope everyOne gets the opportunity to listen to the archives and tune-in to future shows.
I was especially interested in the conversation about being sensitive and "feeling" other's energy.
Since everyOne else is a part/aspect/version of OurSelf,
http://www.google.com/search?q=another+aspect&sitesearch=reconnections.net
http://www.google.com/search?q=Oneness&sitesearch=reconnections.net
this is another form of shadow work which We may very well be doing without being the least bit aware of exactly what We are doing.
I especially like DJ's comment about letting the energy pass through Us like the wind through a screen door. I remembered hearing/reading this before so I searched it on Reconnections:
http://www.reconnections.net/are_you_experienced.htm
In re-reading this I also noticed the recognition that "We lie back on Our pillow". Sometimes that is the only thing We can do and it is exactly what We need.
Audrey ( http://fromheadtoheart.squarespace.com/latest-postings/ ) sometimes uses the phrase: "when I feel this, All I can do is go to bed and let the energy have Me."
I think many of Us use this technique, again some being aware of what is happening but many are not aware and think: "something is wrong with Me".
I was also struck with the idea that feeling tired and rung out is an e-motion as is spoken of in this article.
This weekend I was reminded that I Am a sensitive and that when I Am feeling dis-stress in My body (for no apparent reason) I need reminding that I Am a sensitive. Since I know that I Am not unique I wondered how many others need this reminder? Also, I went many, many years without knowing I was a sensitive. I wonder how many here are not yet aware that "they" are sensitive and that "they" do feel the energy and emotions of others as well as the energy and e-motions of Gaea?
I spent a lot of time not knowing (and then not being willing to admit) that I Am an em-path.
http://www.google.com/search?q=empath&sitesearch=reconnections.net
again, I'm sure that others are in this boat. We often think We are being grandiose when We recognize such things about OurSelves, but the truth is that We are just being honest.
I would love to hear more from others about learning to let this energy flow through Us like wind through a screen door. Some suggestions on "how" would be appreciated by MySelf (and others I'm certain). If You feel You have no experience to share, remember the line from Illusions (by Richard Bach) "We teach best, what We most need to learn."
I Am currently feeling a blockage of energy at My root chakra. It's a pressure that started in My lower back and stomach region and is slowly moving down My body. I real-eyesed yesterday that it is energy that entered My body (probably at My crown) and needs/wants to flow through (or be channeled) into the earth. I have no idea why I blocked it or exactly what energy it is or where it came from, but I Am very willing to open up to let it move on.
Dreams #64
Written 3/21/09
It was a knight filled with sex,
and I was the knight in shining ??????? (nothing?)
It was All in My dream worlds of course, in the physical I was never young enough to have that much energy. Yesterday I told a friend I was feeling spring energy, I had no idea. And in My dream realities everyOne was feeling it with Me. It started out about changes and new beginnings and sex, then it turned into All sex, which was OK with Me.
In My first dream I joined a state congress to be and to begin the changes I felt We need. This was obviously a dream, because in My waking world this is the very last thing I would ever "dream"(?) of doing.
The state congress was being controlled by an outside force (possibly the national congress) and "they" were being ridiculed and punished for even thinking about making positive changes that would benefit the worker bees. It would seem that the state congress was very courageous considering making these changes, but really "they" had no backbone because "they" had completely succumbed to the chastisement of the controlling force. This outside force had not needed to use any physical force to overwhelm the state, only veiled threats.
Now, I will state that All this does mirror My 3D opinions of politics, but I totally choose to remove MySelf from this activity. That is My choice and I Am NOT suggesting anyOne follow My lead here. My dream effort would appear much more noble and worthy of emulation.
As soon as I joined congress I moved right in and took over. EveryOne in congress followed My lead and We made a game out of the ridicule that the outside force was imposing. We played this game and turned it into a movement to begin passing laws that were actually for the good of the people. We also began making suggestions that people could choose to follow, or not, rather than strictly mandating behavior.
Then a friend of Mine from junior high and high school showed up. I was very excited because I have often (in the many years since) thought about this friend. I have felt We were both reaching for each other through the years and across space. "They" had been searching for Me and had saved a lot of My writings from over the years. I was very surprised because I had no idea these writings still existed and I remember very clearly SEEING the pages and pages filled with My Own handwriting (if You can call My scribble handwriting). Something else worth noting is that I rarely SEE anything in My dreams and this was One of the few scenes from this series of dreams that was visual.
I asked this friend what "they" thought of Our reformed congress and frankly "they" were quite bored with the whole affair. I remember being perturbed by this and even thought about leaving this out of My narrative. However, as I pondered My writing I real-eyesed that this person mirrored My 3D opinion of politics.
I quickly decided to ignore "their" reaction to My political feat because it was sooo wonderful that "they" had found Me and brought Me these writings which I thought I had lost forever. We walked out into the public seating area (which was like an amphitheater) locked in deep conversation. Leaving congress to it's Own devices.
When We got into the the public area the sex began. Let Me tell You, Rome had nothing on Us!!!! The halls of congress have never been so filled with enthusiastic participants. The backrooms and closed door sessions perhaps, but not the congressional gatherings We see on TV or read about in the papers or even on the Internet news.
I woke from this dream and wondered how I could possibly share this with everyOne. When I returned to sleep, My dreams continued to be filled with sex, lots and lots of sex but it wasn't as graphic as the first dream. Lots of orgies and much public sex still throughout the night, but it didn't feel as graphic. When I woke, I knew this was how I could share, by not being as graphic. For those of Us in the northern hemisphere, I think Your Own spring energy will fill in the graphics quite nicely. For those in the south, I hope Our spring energy will infect You to Your heart's desires.
Happy changes and new (nude??? maybe New-D) beginnings to All. I like that idea, lets make the next dimension We explore the NewD dimension.
It was a knight filled with sex,
and I was the knight in shining ??????? (nothing?)
It was All in My dream worlds of course, in the physical I was never young enough to have that much energy. Yesterday I told a friend I was feeling spring energy, I had no idea. And in My dream realities everyOne was feeling it with Me. It started out about changes and new beginnings and sex, then it turned into All sex, which was OK with Me.
In My first dream I joined a state congress to be and to begin the changes I felt We need. This was obviously a dream, because in My waking world this is the very last thing I would ever "dream"(?) of doing.
The state congress was being controlled by an outside force (possibly the national congress) and "they" were being ridiculed and punished for even thinking about making positive changes that would benefit the worker bees. It would seem that the state congress was very courageous considering making these changes, but really "they" had no backbone because "they" had completely succumbed to the chastisement of the controlling force. This outside force had not needed to use any physical force to overwhelm the state, only veiled threats.
Now, I will state that All this does mirror My 3D opinions of politics, but I totally choose to remove MySelf from this activity. That is My choice and I Am NOT suggesting anyOne follow My lead here. My dream effort would appear much more noble and worthy of emulation.
As soon as I joined congress I moved right in and took over. EveryOne in congress followed My lead and We made a game out of the ridicule that the outside force was imposing. We played this game and turned it into a movement to begin passing laws that were actually for the good of the people. We also began making suggestions that people could choose to follow, or not, rather than strictly mandating behavior.
Then a friend of Mine from junior high and high school showed up. I was very excited because I have often (in the many years since) thought about this friend. I have felt We were both reaching for each other through the years and across space. "They" had been searching for Me and had saved a lot of My writings from over the years. I was very surprised because I had no idea these writings still existed and I remember very clearly SEEING the pages and pages filled with My Own handwriting (if You can call My scribble handwriting). Something else worth noting is that I rarely SEE anything in My dreams and this was One of the few scenes from this series of dreams that was visual.
I asked this friend what "they" thought of Our reformed congress and frankly "they" were quite bored with the whole affair. I remember being perturbed by this and even thought about leaving this out of My narrative. However, as I pondered My writing I real-eyesed that this person mirrored My 3D opinion of politics.
I quickly decided to ignore "their" reaction to My political feat because it was sooo wonderful that "they" had found Me and brought Me these writings which I thought I had lost forever. We walked out into the public seating area (which was like an amphitheater) locked in deep conversation. Leaving congress to it's Own devices.
When We got into the the public area the sex began. Let Me tell You, Rome had nothing on Us!!!! The halls of congress have never been so filled with enthusiastic participants. The backrooms and closed door sessions perhaps, but not the congressional gatherings We see on TV or read about in the papers or even on the Internet news.
I woke from this dream and wondered how I could possibly share this with everyOne. When I returned to sleep, My dreams continued to be filled with sex, lots and lots of sex but it wasn't as graphic as the first dream. Lots of orgies and much public sex still throughout the night, but it didn't feel as graphic. When I woke, I knew this was how I could share, by not being as graphic. For those of Us in the northern hemisphere, I think Your Own spring energy will fill in the graphics quite nicely. For those in the south, I hope Our spring energy will infect You to Your heart's desires.
Happy changes and new (nude??? maybe New-D) beginnings to All. I like that idea, lets make the next dimension We explore the NewD dimension.
Thots 3/20/09
What helped Me (and I theel might be helpful for others also) was to real-eyes that YES these visions/feelings are real, "they" are valid and "they" are important BUT "they" are not the only reality/possibility/future. I say future because these horrors (which I have only glimpsed and some are getting the full brunt of) are beyond anything yet experienced in 3D.
In the past, We (masses and even New agers) have either banished these visions as the dark side which would be defeated by light, or accepted "them" as the only potential which might be survived by a select few.
Visionaries have the potential of being the fulcrum, the balance point of All the potentials, or succumbing to the limitation of "either this or nothing".
I Am noticing similarities and common ages amongst some of Us experiencers. Several whom I Am hearing this from are around 40 and I was in My 40s when I went thru the worst of My terrors.
Again from "Dune" the Reverend mother says to Paul: "You are the fulcrum boy. You are the One who can be many places at Once." Paul had terrible, catastrophic visions of the future. (Frank Herbert was 45 when "Dune" was first published, his son is now 63 and his "Dune" sequels/prequels began to be released in 2009.) In "Dune", Paul went the fear route and used war and terror to overthrow and get revenge. As is revealed in "The Children of Dune" his empire crumbled, having fallen into the same type of corruption etc. as All other empires.
To Me, this All sounds prophetic of Our choices. The Reconnections are about real-eyesing All of it. Each fragment is important, but none more than the other, only more relevant. BUT, to visionaries, All fragments are relevant or We too will succumb to fear, and retaliation. That is a choice, but not the One I want or the One I feel You want. I don't think most wants it either, but in the thick of it, it may be the only choice We see. Some however, seem to thrive on the violent frag, so be it.
In the past, We (masses and even New agers) have either banished these visions as the dark side which would be defeated by light, or accepted "them" as the only potential which might be survived by a select few.
Visionaries have the potential of being the fulcrum, the balance point of All the potentials, or succumbing to the limitation of "either this or nothing".
I Am noticing similarities and common ages amongst some of Us experiencers. Several whom I Am hearing this from are around 40 and I was in My 40s when I went thru the worst of My terrors.
Again from "Dune" the Reverend mother says to Paul: "You are the fulcrum boy. You are the One who can be many places at Once." Paul had terrible, catastrophic visions of the future. (Frank Herbert was 45 when "Dune" was first published, his son is now 63 and his "Dune" sequels/prequels began to be released in 2009.) In "Dune", Paul went the fear route and used war and terror to overthrow and get revenge. As is revealed in "The Children of Dune" his empire crumbled, having fallen into the same type of corruption etc. as All other empires.
To Me, this All sounds prophetic of Our choices. The Reconnections are about real-eyesing All of it. Each fragment is important, but none more than the other, only more relevant. BUT, to visionaries, All fragments are relevant or We too will succumb to fear, and retaliation. That is a choice, but not the One I want or the One I feel You want. I don't think most wants it either, but in the thick of it, it may be the only choice We see. Some however, seem to thrive on the violent frag, so be it.
Thots 3/15/09
Of course I couldn't watch the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTReDnveFUY
but the concept of overcoming or getting rid of fear is very typical of the New Age movement and it really is where many people are at. For more on this re-read My Rant. I'm thinking I should re-title it: The Art of Being Human.
We are about re-connecting and integrating such aspects as fear. I have been since I first started exploring My spirituality. This is why I didn't fit in with the New Age/Metaphysical community but fit right into Reconnections.
The thing is that We are the explorers. We are not in the majority (yet) and that has to be ok or We will tear OurSelves up trying to fix what isn't broken.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTReDnveFUY
but the concept of overcoming or getting rid of fear is very typical of the New Age movement and it really is where many people are at. For more on this re-read My Rant. I'm thinking I should re-title it: The Art of Being Human.
We are about re-connecting and integrating such aspects as fear. I have been since I first started exploring My spirituality. This is why I didn't fit in with the New Age/Metaphysical community but fit right into Reconnections.
The thing is that We are the explorers. We are not in the majority (yet) and that has to be ok or We will tear OurSelves up trying to fix what isn't broken.
My rant 3/14/09
Soooo many of Our beliefs are expanding and something has to carry "them" or link "them".
Like fear, I know I used to be One of those that thought fear (and other negatives) need to be destroyed. Then over time, I saw that it is All part of All. The same with guilt, I don't think I ever thought of integrating guilt until who's it talked about kicking guilt out of "their" life. I Am amazed watching who's it growing as "they" explore and read and share and ask questions. It is amazing.
Then there is ........, would like to shake her 'til I get All the christian prejudice outta her. Guess the same goes for ...........
I've been keeping All this in and think I'll just go ahead and vent it. You may or may not wanna read the rest: I wanna delete All-most every e-mail from those two, it is like I have to hold One hand with the other and force it to the approve button. "They" are so locked into separation, it All-most hurts. And here I Am All-ways talking about accepting and honoring everyOne's choices, and I'd like to flush these two. "Fake it 'til You make it".
It's good mirror stuff for Me, My Own shadow-work in the part of My life I really love the most.
I know that there are those (many times many) who still believe in good and evil, and this includes the Newest Age community, the enlightened as well as the muggels. This is part of infinity. Butt damn!!!!!!!! I wanna scream at "them": "Have You ever read any of the Reconnection's material?" http://www.reconnections.net/index2.htm It amazes Me how many that I Am in contact with are totally void of the Reconnections and StarChild http://www.thestarchildren.com/star_children.html websites.
I Once told DJ I wanted to delete One of .....'s e-mails. I told him it reminded Me of a bumper sticker I Once saw (which I love):
God loves You.
But he likes Me best.
Then I read of her telling her unborn daughter about the "bad" guys having NO light. I All-most cried. How can there be any hope for the future when a starchild is gonna teach the unborn these same prejudices????????????
And ....... just won't let go of the belief in "bad" sex, naughty behaviour and judgement and condemnation for it.
Where will it end?
It won't, it is part of All that is. "They" continue to inhabit and explore a part of infinity for Me and as Me, so I can focus on other parts. Without these poor lost bastards, We would never expand, never be aware of even half of eternity/infinity.
I have the same kind of conflicts/conversations within when there is any mis-understanding between spiritualists. How can We have any hope for the world, if We can not agree???
Hope does not rely on agreement, it relies on acceptance. And not even everyOne's acceptance, only My Own.
Speaking of shadows and assholes, the kid at work has actually started speaking to Me. I feel that We will eventually become friends and then I can drown the little son-of-a-bitch. (kidding about the drowning but he's probably lucky the rivers are still frozen). He does represent (to Me) those who are gifted and just don't know what to do with it. I have a vision of he and I talking and breaking through the walls of protection and finding the hurt star inside him. It is a vision that applies to many out there/in here.
Like fear, I know I used to be One of those that thought fear (and other negatives) need to be destroyed. Then over time, I saw that it is All part of All. The same with guilt, I don't think I ever thought of integrating guilt until who's it talked about kicking guilt out of "their" life. I Am amazed watching who's it growing as "they" explore and read and share and ask questions. It is amazing.
Then there is ........, would like to shake her 'til I get All the christian prejudice outta her. Guess the same goes for ...........
I've been keeping All this in and think I'll just go ahead and vent it. You may or may not wanna read the rest: I wanna delete All-most every e-mail from those two, it is like I have to hold One hand with the other and force it to the approve button. "They" are so locked into separation, it All-most hurts. And here I Am All-ways talking about accepting and honoring everyOne's choices, and I'd like to flush these two. "Fake it 'til You make it".
It's good mirror stuff for Me, My Own shadow-work in the part of My life I really love the most.
I know that there are those (many times many) who still believe in good and evil, and this includes the Newest Age community, the enlightened as well as the muggels. This is part of infinity. Butt damn!!!!!!!! I wanna scream at "them": "Have You ever read any of the Reconnection's material?" http://www.reconnections.net/index2.htm It amazes Me how many that I Am in contact with are totally void of the Reconnections and StarChild http://www.thestarchildren.com/star_children.html websites.
I Once told DJ I wanted to delete One of .....'s e-mails. I told him it reminded Me of a bumper sticker I Once saw (which I love):
God loves You.
But he likes Me best.
Then I read of her telling her unborn daughter about the "bad" guys having NO light. I All-most cried. How can there be any hope for the future when a starchild is gonna teach the unborn these same prejudices????????????
And ....... just won't let go of the belief in "bad" sex, naughty behaviour and judgement and condemnation for it.
Where will it end?
It won't, it is part of All that is. "They" continue to inhabit and explore a part of infinity for Me and as Me, so I can focus on other parts. Without these poor lost bastards, We would never expand, never be aware of even half of eternity/infinity.
I have the same kind of conflicts/conversations within when there is any mis-understanding between spiritualists. How can We have any hope for the world, if We can not agree???
Hope does not rely on agreement, it relies on acceptance. And not even everyOne's acceptance, only My Own.
Speaking of shadows and assholes, the kid at work has actually started speaking to Me. I feel that We will eventually become friends and then I can drown the little son-of-a-bitch. (kidding about the drowning but he's probably lucky the rivers are still frozen). He does represent (to Me) those who are gifted and just don't know what to do with it. I have a vision of he and I talking and breaking through the walls of protection and finding the hurt star inside him. It is a vision that applies to many out there/in here.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Thots about other's dreams 3/14/09
I'm loving the common threads through All these dreams We are sharing. The play-fullness is certainly popping up.
I'm thinking that these common threads in Our dreams, must surely show Our connection at a level We are just becoming aware of. How cool is that? I know many of Us believe We are connected, yet still wonder when We see little evidence.
And just think, since this connection exists, We are introducing these concepts into the mass mind or it is surfacing in mass consciousness and We sensed it, We noticed it, it jumped out and gently grabbed Us by the throat screaming "NOTICE ME".
I'm thinking that these common threads in Our dreams, must surely show Our connection at a level We are just becoming aware of. How cool is that? I know many of Us believe We are connected, yet still wonder when We see little evidence.
And just think, since this connection exists, We are introducing these concepts into the mass mind or it is surfacing in mass consciousness and We sensed it, We noticed it, it jumped out and gently grabbed Us by the throat screaming "NOTICE ME".
My reply to someOne's dream 3/14/09
How cool. Reconnection with Our castaways.
I was so happy to read that You returned to take in Your ferrets (more parts of YourSelf). That is the best part. So often, if We have walked away (especially a second time) We give up, We think WE are hopeless. You show another possibility that many probably never knew existed: We can make the concious choice to return again to these castaways (rather than waiting and hoping a chance encounter sometime in the future) and invite "them", welcome "them" back into Our hearts.
I was so happy to read that You returned to take in Your ferrets (more parts of YourSelf). That is the best part. So often, if We have walked away (especially a second time) We give up, We think WE are hopeless. You show another possibility that many probably never knew existed: We can make the concious choice to return again to these castaways (rather than waiting and hoping a chance encounter sometime in the future) and invite "them", welcome "them" back into Our hearts.
Dreams #63
Written 3/13/09
Had some great dreams last night, really enjoyed "them" but I was confused as hell and didn't know how to write about "them" at first. In One dream, I remember thinking: "But that would mean You either weren't born yet when You did that, or You are now around 35 and look 16."
I was dreaming in fluid time and trying to translate it into 3D time even in My dreams.
I was at some party or gathering and We were All sitting around a large table eating. I was talking about when I first moved to Alaska.
A sixteen year old spoke up, very excited, saying: "That was 17 years ago."
I asked: "How do You know?"
"I remember and I've been waiting for You ever since."
At first I was excited, it felt like a soul connection or something along those lines, but then I realized that this person was still 16, 17 years later. I began trying to reconcile 3D time with dream time, trying to explain this and make it fit. It was much like the opposite/reverse of what I do in waking. In waking I try to reconcile, explain and/or understand fluid time.
I had many similar dreams throughout the night. I kept having different people appearing throughout My life and "they" remained the same age as the years of My life went by.
One of the interesting things about these people was that "they" were All playmates, people I knew that I could and do (or did) have fun with.
I know that some who are reading this think: "So what, it's just a dream."
I believe Our dreams are real. I believe "they" are an alternate or parallel or expanded reality. I believe Our dreams are a way of getting familiar and comfortable with these expanded concepts before We experience "them" in waking. This way We don't just wake up some morning and find that All the rules were changed while We were sleeping. That would be a bit like waking up in the twilight zone.
Had some great dreams last night, really enjoyed "them" but I was confused as hell and didn't know how to write about "them" at first. In One dream, I remember thinking: "But that would mean You either weren't born yet when You did that, or You are now around 35 and look 16."
I was dreaming in fluid time and trying to translate it into 3D time even in My dreams.
I was at some party or gathering and We were All sitting around a large table eating. I was talking about when I first moved to Alaska.
A sixteen year old spoke up, very excited, saying: "That was 17 years ago."
I asked: "How do You know?"
"I remember and I've been waiting for You ever since."
At first I was excited, it felt like a soul connection or something along those lines, but then I realized that this person was still 16, 17 years later. I began trying to reconcile 3D time with dream time, trying to explain this and make it fit. It was much like the opposite/reverse of what I do in waking. In waking I try to reconcile, explain and/or understand fluid time.
I had many similar dreams throughout the night. I kept having different people appearing throughout My life and "they" remained the same age as the years of My life went by.
One of the interesting things about these people was that "they" were All playmates, people I knew that I could and do (or did) have fun with.
I know that some who are reading this think: "So what, it's just a dream."
I believe Our dreams are real. I believe "they" are an alternate or parallel or expanded reality. I believe Our dreams are a way of getting familiar and comfortable with these expanded concepts before We experience "them" in waking. This way We don't just wake up some morning and find that All the rules were changed while We were sleeping. That would be a bit like waking up in the twilight zone.
Shamanism
Written 3/1309
When I first read DJ's article on neo-shamans,
( http://www.reconnections.net/neo_shamans.htm )
I had much the same reaction as when I first read about Merlin and knew it was talking about Me: "Who the hell do You think You are?" Reading these pieces below would have felt the same a few years or maybe even months ago. But, now I know that We are All shamans, We are moving into an age where everyOne has access to these abilities. However, We are not in that age yet, We are just moving into it, still pioneering. The earliest explorers went before and blazed the shaman's trail, now We are homesteading the property and those who wish to remain in the shelter of the established settlements shake "their" heads in wonder. Soon, many will join Us in this wilderness and it will become common place to travel the many worlds.
A Second Real World
Soul Travel
"The pre-eminently shamanic technique is the passage from one cosmic region to another - from earth to the sky or from earth to the underworld. The shaman knows the mystery of the breakthrough in plane. This communication among the cosmic zones is made possible by the very structure of the universe." - Mircea Eliade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy
In lucid dreams "strange worlds and scenes seem to arise spontaneously, but we are usually able to control our responses to them and, if we wish, to awaken from the dream at any time. The shaman's control during journeys is similar, and lucid dreams may well have provided inspiration for early shamanic journeys." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 220
"He commands the techniques of ecstasy - that is, because his soul can safely abandon his body and roam at vast distances, can penetrate the underworld and rise to the sky. Through his own ecstatic experience he knows the roads of the extraterrestrial regions. He can go below and above because he has already been there. The danger of losing his way in these forbidden regions is still great; but sanctified by his initiation and furnished with his guardian spirit, a shaman is the only human being able to challenge the danger and venture into a mystical geography." - Mircea Elliade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy
"In the ages of the rude beginnings of culture, man believed that he was discovering a second real world in dream, and here is the origin of metaphysics. Without dream, mankind would never have had occasion to invent such a division of the world. The parting of soul and body goes also with this way of interpreting dream; likewise, the idea of a soul's apparitional body: whence, all belief in ghosts, and apparently, too, in gods." - Neitzsche, Human, All-Too-Human
"We must recognize ourselves as beings of four dimensions. Do we not in sleep live in a fantastic fairy kingdom where everything is capable of transformation, where there is no stability belonging to the physical world, where one man can become another or two men at the same time, where the most improbable things look simple and natural, where events often occur in inverse order, from end to beginning, where we see the symbolical images of ideas and moods, where we talk with the dead, fly in the air, pass through walls, are drowned or burnt, die and remain alive?" - P. D. Ouspensky
The Cosmic Zones
"The main feature of the shamans' universe is...the cosmic center, a bond or axis connecting earth, heaven and hell. It is often pictured as a tree or a pole holding up the sky. In a trance state, a shaman can travel disembodied from one region to another, climbing the tree into the heavens or following its downward extension. By doing so he can meet and consult the gods. There is always a numerical factor. He climbs through a fixed number of celestial stages, or descends through a fixed number of infernal ones. His key number may be expressed in his costume - for example, in a set of bells which he attaches to it. The key number varies from shaman to shaman and from tribe to tribe." - Geoffrey Ashe, The Ancient Wisdom
"...There are three great cosmic regions, which can be successively transversed because they are linked together by a central axis. This axis, of course, passes through an 'opening', a 'hole'; it is through this hole that the gods descent to earth and the dead to the subterranean regions; it is through the same hole that the soul of the shaman in ecstasy can fly up or down in the course of his celestial or infernal journeys." - Mircea Ellade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy (1964), p. 21
"The distinctive feature of the shamanic ecstasy is the experience of 'soul flight' or 'journeying' or 'out-of-body experience.' That is, in their ecstatic state shamans experience themselves, or their soul or spirit, flying through space and traveling either to other worlds or to distant parts of this world. In Ellade's words, 'The shaman specializes in a trance during which his soul is believed to leave his body and ascend to the sky or descend to the underworld.' "These flights reflect the shamanic view of the cosmos. This comprises a three-tiered universe of upper, middle, and lower worlds, the middle one corresponding to our earth. The shaman ranges throughout this threefold world system in order to learn, obtain power, or to diagnose and treat those who come for help and healing. During these journeys shamans may experience themselves exploring other worlds and meeting the people, animals, or spirits who inhabit them, seeing the cause and cure of a patient's 'illness, or interceding with friendly or demonic forces." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 10
"Entrances into the Lower world commonly lead down into a tunnel or tube that conveys the shaman to an exit, which opens out upon bright and marvelous landscapes. From there the shaman travels wherever he desires for minutes or even hours, finally returning back up through the tube ... to emerge at the surface, where he entered." - Michael Harner, The Way of the Shaman (1982), p. 27
"Journeys to the middle or upper worlds have the same general features as those to the lower world. There are, however, some differences in purpose and in the types of entities likely to be encountered. The lower world is often a place of tests and challenges, but it is also a place where power animals are acquired and the shaman is guided and empowered to victory." "The middle world is our familiar world. In their visions shamans journey over it at will, unimpeded by barriers or distance, seeing far and wide, and returning with information about hunting, weather, or warfare. Middle-world journeys are particularly common in the near-Arctic areas of North America and Siberia. Here food supplies are precarious and migrating animal herds must be located." "The upper world is a place where teachers and guides may be found, and 'journeys here may be particularly ecstatic." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 147
An Experience of Awe
There is "an ineffable joy in what he sees, an awe of the beautiful and mysterious worlds that open before him. His experiences are like dreams, but waking ones that feel real and in which he can control his actions and direct his adventures." - M. Harner, The Way of the Shaman (1982), p. 27
"The journey to the upper world usually begins from a raised area such as a mountain, treetop, or cliff, from which the shaman envisions himself ascending into the sky. At some stage of the journey there may be an experience of a kind of membrane that temporarily impedes the ascent. When this is pierced the shaman finds himself in the upper world, a world notably different from the middle world and perhaps populated with strange animals, plants, and people. Like the lower one, the upper world may have several levels, and the shaman can usually move between them at will, perhaps assisted by a helping spirit." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 147
"During journeys awareness of the environment is significantly reduced. This is hardly surprising since the shaman is preoccupied with life-and-death dramas in other worlds. In spite of these other-world adventures, the shaman may be able to split her awareness between those worlds and this one sufficiently to communicate with her audience. In such cases the listeners may be treated to a blow-by-blow account of the worlds, spirits, and battles encountered by the shaman." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 220
"Among religions, practitioners of Taoism, Islam, Yoga, and Tibetan Buddhism may journey to other realms. Among Taoists visualizations were believed to help the adept ascend to paradise. In the course of the visualization he crossed the gates of the three celestial passes to enter the Yu-ching Heaven, where he undertook an excursion of paradise. Some Indian Muslims practice 'allowing the soul to explore the spirit world;' helped on its way with hashish, which they call the 'heavenly guide or poor man's heaven.' In contrast to shamanism, however, these traditions use journeying only occasionally; it is by no means a central practice." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 90
When I first read DJ's article on neo-shamans,
( http://www.reconnections.net/neo_shamans.htm )
I had much the same reaction as when I first read about Merlin and knew it was talking about Me: "Who the hell do You think You are?" Reading these pieces below would have felt the same a few years or maybe even months ago. But, now I know that We are All shamans, We are moving into an age where everyOne has access to these abilities. However, We are not in that age yet, We are just moving into it, still pioneering. The earliest explorers went before and blazed the shaman's trail, now We are homesteading the property and those who wish to remain in the shelter of the established settlements shake "their" heads in wonder. Soon, many will join Us in this wilderness and it will become common place to travel the many worlds.
A Second Real World
Soul Travel
"The pre-eminently shamanic technique is the passage from one cosmic region to another - from earth to the sky or from earth to the underworld. The shaman knows the mystery of the breakthrough in plane. This communication among the cosmic zones is made possible by the very structure of the universe." - Mircea Eliade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy
In lucid dreams "strange worlds and scenes seem to arise spontaneously, but we are usually able to control our responses to them and, if we wish, to awaken from the dream at any time. The shaman's control during journeys is similar, and lucid dreams may well have provided inspiration for early shamanic journeys." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 220
"He commands the techniques of ecstasy - that is, because his soul can safely abandon his body and roam at vast distances, can penetrate the underworld and rise to the sky. Through his own ecstatic experience he knows the roads of the extraterrestrial regions. He can go below and above because he has already been there. The danger of losing his way in these forbidden regions is still great; but sanctified by his initiation and furnished with his guardian spirit, a shaman is the only human being able to challenge the danger and venture into a mystical geography." - Mircea Elliade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy
"In the ages of the rude beginnings of culture, man believed that he was discovering a second real world in dream, and here is the origin of metaphysics. Without dream, mankind would never have had occasion to invent such a division of the world. The parting of soul and body goes also with this way of interpreting dream; likewise, the idea of a soul's apparitional body: whence, all belief in ghosts, and apparently, too, in gods." - Neitzsche, Human, All-Too-Human
"We must recognize ourselves as beings of four dimensions. Do we not in sleep live in a fantastic fairy kingdom where everything is capable of transformation, where there is no stability belonging to the physical world, where one man can become another or two men at the same time, where the most improbable things look simple and natural, where events often occur in inverse order, from end to beginning, where we see the symbolical images of ideas and moods, where we talk with the dead, fly in the air, pass through walls, are drowned or burnt, die and remain alive?" - P. D. Ouspensky
The Cosmic Zones
"The main feature of the shamans' universe is...the cosmic center, a bond or axis connecting earth, heaven and hell. It is often pictured as a tree or a pole holding up the sky. In a trance state, a shaman can travel disembodied from one region to another, climbing the tree into the heavens or following its downward extension. By doing so he can meet and consult the gods. There is always a numerical factor. He climbs through a fixed number of celestial stages, or descends through a fixed number of infernal ones. His key number may be expressed in his costume - for example, in a set of bells which he attaches to it. The key number varies from shaman to shaman and from tribe to tribe." - Geoffrey Ashe, The Ancient Wisdom
"...There are three great cosmic regions, which can be successively transversed because they are linked together by a central axis. This axis, of course, passes through an 'opening', a 'hole'; it is through this hole that the gods descent to earth and the dead to the subterranean regions; it is through the same hole that the soul of the shaman in ecstasy can fly up or down in the course of his celestial or infernal journeys." - Mircea Ellade, Shamanism: Archaic Techniques of Ecstasy (1964), p. 21
"The distinctive feature of the shamanic ecstasy is the experience of 'soul flight' or 'journeying' or 'out-of-body experience.' That is, in their ecstatic state shamans experience themselves, or their soul or spirit, flying through space and traveling either to other worlds or to distant parts of this world. In Ellade's words, 'The shaman specializes in a trance during which his soul is believed to leave his body and ascend to the sky or descend to the underworld.' "These flights reflect the shamanic view of the cosmos. This comprises a three-tiered universe of upper, middle, and lower worlds, the middle one corresponding to our earth. The shaman ranges throughout this threefold world system in order to learn, obtain power, or to diagnose and treat those who come for help and healing. During these journeys shamans may experience themselves exploring other worlds and meeting the people, animals, or spirits who inhabit them, seeing the cause and cure of a patient's 'illness, or interceding with friendly or demonic forces." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 10
"Entrances into the Lower world commonly lead down into a tunnel or tube that conveys the shaman to an exit, which opens out upon bright and marvelous landscapes. From there the shaman travels wherever he desires for minutes or even hours, finally returning back up through the tube ... to emerge at the surface, where he entered." - Michael Harner, The Way of the Shaman (1982), p. 27
"Journeys to the middle or upper worlds have the same general features as those to the lower world. There are, however, some differences in purpose and in the types of entities likely to be encountered. The lower world is often a place of tests and challenges, but it is also a place where power animals are acquired and the shaman is guided and empowered to victory." "The middle world is our familiar world. In their visions shamans journey over it at will, unimpeded by barriers or distance, seeing far and wide, and returning with information about hunting, weather, or warfare. Middle-world journeys are particularly common in the near-Arctic areas of North America and Siberia. Here food supplies are precarious and migrating animal herds must be located." "The upper world is a place where teachers and guides may be found, and 'journeys here may be particularly ecstatic." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 147
An Experience of Awe
There is "an ineffable joy in what he sees, an awe of the beautiful and mysterious worlds that open before him. His experiences are like dreams, but waking ones that feel real and in which he can control his actions and direct his adventures." - M. Harner, The Way of the Shaman (1982), p. 27
"The journey to the upper world usually begins from a raised area such as a mountain, treetop, or cliff, from which the shaman envisions himself ascending into the sky. At some stage of the journey there may be an experience of a kind of membrane that temporarily impedes the ascent. When this is pierced the shaman finds himself in the upper world, a world notably different from the middle world and perhaps populated with strange animals, plants, and people. Like the lower one, the upper world may have several levels, and the shaman can usually move between them at will, perhaps assisted by a helping spirit." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 147
"During journeys awareness of the environment is significantly reduced. This is hardly surprising since the shaman is preoccupied with life-and-death dramas in other worlds. In spite of these other-world adventures, the shaman may be able to split her awareness between those worlds and this one sufficiently to communicate with her audience. In such cases the listeners may be treated to a blow-by-blow account of the worlds, spirits, and battles encountered by the shaman." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 220
"Among religions, practitioners of Taoism, Islam, Yoga, and Tibetan Buddhism may journey to other realms. Among Taoists visualizations were believed to help the adept ascend to paradise. In the course of the visualization he crossed the gates of the three celestial passes to enter the Yu-ching Heaven, where he undertook an excursion of paradise. Some Indian Muslims practice 'allowing the soul to explore the spirit world;' helped on its way with hashish, which they call the 'heavenly guide or poor man's heaven.' In contrast to shamanism, however, these traditions use journeying only occasionally; it is by no means a central practice." - Roger N. Walsh, The Spirit of Shamanism (1990), p. 90
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Thots about fear 3/7/09
Fear seems to be UP again (or still) for many of Us and words are (or have been) failing Us. This fear is deep, very deep associated with gods know what memories and seemingly an integral part of the human condition. It seems that All-most everywhere I turn I Am hearing about fear and choices in dealing with it.
Of course this means that I'm getting My Own heavy dose of opportunities for fear coming up. This time it is quite different for Me, tho the circumstances are quite typical.
Normally, for Me and many of My others there are several typical reactions to fear. We tend to go into a mental tailspin and the mind/ego/whatever imagines a downward spiraling chain of events that culminates in death (or worse). Basically, the programmed response to fear is that We start crying out "I'm gonna die, I will never, ever be able to survive this" or some well camouflaged version of this.
Then, for those of Us on the enlightenment train, We usually try to fight the fear or cast it out or some such.
How about accepting fear as part of Us, a part that can function to protect Us but, that like a cancer has run rampant in Our minds?
The more We fight fear (or really anything We think of as negative) the deeper it buries itSelf, and the more it festers. We don't need to do this to OurSelves, and neither do We need to let fear run savagely through Our minds and control Our lives and/or paralyze Us.
I've read a lot about fear lately and some of the jewels I've picked up are:
Fear is an option not a mandate.
I created this situation FOR Me.
What am I trying to learn here?
What is the AHA in this situation?
I can recognize that I Am afraid, it is part of Me, and I can accept it without fighting it or letting it control or consume Me.
Fear is part of All that is.
Fear, and fear of fear is up for integrating at this time so We can be ready to move on.
Last night I had a bunch of dreams that are hard to describe because "they" were symbolic more than literal. "They" were All about change. Change is coming, and as much as I look forward to what I theel is ahead, I recognized I Am also afraid of it. I fear it because it is not familiar. FEAR is familiar. Waking from One of My dreams I had the thought: "Ok, now everything can get back to normal" and then like a voice "there is NO normal anymore".
Of course this means that I'm getting My Own heavy dose of opportunities for fear coming up. This time it is quite different for Me, tho the circumstances are quite typical.
Normally, for Me and many of My others there are several typical reactions to fear. We tend to go into a mental tailspin and the mind/ego/whatever imagines a downward spiraling chain of events that culminates in death (or worse). Basically, the programmed response to fear is that We start crying out "I'm gonna die, I will never, ever be able to survive this" or some well camouflaged version of this.
Then, for those of Us on the enlightenment train, We usually try to fight the fear or cast it out or some such.
How about accepting fear as part of Us, a part that can function to protect Us but, that like a cancer has run rampant in Our minds?
The more We fight fear (or really anything We think of as negative) the deeper it buries itSelf, and the more it festers. We don't need to do this to OurSelves, and neither do We need to let fear run savagely through Our minds and control Our lives and/or paralyze Us.
I've read a lot about fear lately and some of the jewels I've picked up are:
Fear is an option not a mandate.
I created this situation FOR Me.
What am I trying to learn here?
What is the AHA in this situation?
I can recognize that I Am afraid, it is part of Me, and I can accept it without fighting it or letting it control or consume Me.
Fear is part of All that is.
Fear, and fear of fear is up for integrating at this time so We can be ready to move on.
Last night I had a bunch of dreams that are hard to describe because "they" were symbolic more than literal. "They" were All about change. Change is coming, and as much as I look forward to what I theel is ahead, I recognized I Am also afraid of it. I fear it because it is not familiar. FEAR is familiar. Waking from One of My dreams I had the thought: "Ok, now everything can get back to normal" and then like a voice "there is NO normal anymore".
Dreams #62
Written 3/6/09
We had quite a bit of snow yesterday so I played hooky and slept in. I was well rewarded with a bunch of dreams, All related to helping others awaken.
At first I noticed people's reactions when I accidentally touched "them". I say accidentally because I'm not a touch-er/hugger person, I'm usually very careful about who I touch. This is more a sub-conscious thing rather than an overt practice.
In My first dream someOne slipped and fell into Me and "they" had an electric re-action to My touch. "They" kind of lit up and jolted. Then later, "they" came to Me and said that ever since that happened "they" could hear other people's thoughts. We began having a telepathic conversation and I asked how "they" felt about this. Just like most of Us would respond, there were mixed feelings. I told "them" that now that "they" had experienced this "they" have the choice of accepting or rejecting the experience and ability.
This choice opens up a lot of possibilities. What if We have All had such experiences (maybe many times) and decided (for whatever reason) to not only reject the ability, but to reject the entire experience????? What if when We read of someOne else (Our others) having such an experience it is a reminder that We too have actually had this experience? I know I used to be jealous of reading/hearing of such experiences until at some point I real-eyesed that I was having My choice of experiences.
Another possibility would be to accept the experience but reject the ability. We could remember the experience but turn off the ability until maybe sometime in the future We are faced with these choices again.
Now, suppose We accept the experience and the ability. This is the way Our conversation turned in My dream.
"What do I do with this?"
"You can just go blustering forth full force with it turned up full blast and blaring in Your head. Or, You can work with it, practice like You did riding a bike and learn to turn it up and down, even on and off."
"You mean I can do this without hearing everything? I have a choice about who I hear and whom I don't?"
"Yes, with practice and belief. You can learn to feel when someOne is guarding 'their' thoughts and the energy around this guardedness. You can begin to sense when someOne is reaching out for help and/or comfort. You can learn to sense when someOne needs/wants to be heard and when not."
The conversation went on as this new friend explored many possible paths this could take.
I woke and went back to sleep several times and these dreams continued. After a while I noticed people were re-acting just being in close proximity to Me. I no longer needed to touch anyOne for something to "jolt" inside "them". It might be interesting to note that I have felt (for some time) this type of re-action from strangers when out in public, not quite as severe or pointed, but definitely a more subtle version of the same re-action.
There were many different abilities turned on for short periods and each time, I sent a message to the person. Each time I could sense what the person was experiencing and I mentally talked to "them" about "their" experience. It was very important that each person know "they" had total choice what to do with the experience and the ability. "They" could remember or forget both the experience and the ability or either.
This was quite an eye opener about choices, and the way We see Our journey and Our abilities or lack thereof.
We had quite a bit of snow yesterday so I played hooky and slept in. I was well rewarded with a bunch of dreams, All related to helping others awaken.
At first I noticed people's reactions when I accidentally touched "them". I say accidentally because I'm not a touch-er/hugger person, I'm usually very careful about who I touch. This is more a sub-conscious thing rather than an overt practice.
In My first dream someOne slipped and fell into Me and "they" had an electric re-action to My touch. "They" kind of lit up and jolted. Then later, "they" came to Me and said that ever since that happened "they" could hear other people's thoughts. We began having a telepathic conversation and I asked how "they" felt about this. Just like most of Us would respond, there were mixed feelings. I told "them" that now that "they" had experienced this "they" have the choice of accepting or rejecting the experience and ability.
This choice opens up a lot of possibilities. What if We have All had such experiences (maybe many times) and decided (for whatever reason) to not only reject the ability, but to reject the entire experience????? What if when We read of someOne else (Our others) having such an experience it is a reminder that We too have actually had this experience? I know I used to be jealous of reading/hearing of such experiences until at some point I real-eyesed that I was having My choice of experiences.
Another possibility would be to accept the experience but reject the ability. We could remember the experience but turn off the ability until maybe sometime in the future We are faced with these choices again.
Now, suppose We accept the experience and the ability. This is the way Our conversation turned in My dream.
"What do I do with this?"
"You can just go blustering forth full force with it turned up full blast and blaring in Your head. Or, You can work with it, practice like You did riding a bike and learn to turn it up and down, even on and off."
"You mean I can do this without hearing everything? I have a choice about who I hear and whom I don't?"
"Yes, with practice and belief. You can learn to feel when someOne is guarding 'their' thoughts and the energy around this guardedness. You can begin to sense when someOne is reaching out for help and/or comfort. You can learn to sense when someOne needs/wants to be heard and when not."
The conversation went on as this new friend explored many possible paths this could take.
I woke and went back to sleep several times and these dreams continued. After a while I noticed people were re-acting just being in close proximity to Me. I no longer needed to touch anyOne for something to "jolt" inside "them". It might be interesting to note that I have felt (for some time) this type of re-action from strangers when out in public, not quite as severe or pointed, but definitely a more subtle version of the same re-action.
There were many different abilities turned on for short periods and each time, I sent a message to the person. Each time I could sense what the person was experiencing and I mentally talked to "them" about "their" experience. It was very important that each person know "they" had total choice what to do with the experience and the ability. "They" could remember or forget both the experience and the ability or either.
This was quite an eye opener about choices, and the way We see Our journey and Our abilities or lack thereof.
Dreams #61
Written 2/23/09
I had a great dream about integrating Our shadows, rejects, cast aways.
I was at home and a friend was visiting (obviously this was a dream LOL). There was a knock at the door and I went to see who it could possibly be. Surprisingly it was My friends evil twin (literally) asking to be let in and recognized.
I asked My friend if it would be okay, after All it is his twin. He was reluctant, or at least hesitant. Who wouldn't be? After a little consideration, he agreed to letting his evil twin come in. Once the twin was inside, the first thing that needed to be done was for My friend to formally acknowledge him. After this was done the three of Us began a conversation.
As the conversation progressed I noticed the twins moving closer and closer together.
Then there was another knock at the door. One visitor is rare, 3 is unheard of at My cabin. Especially unexpected visitors.
Again I went to see who was there, and SURPRISE it was One of My rejects. I was a bit caught of guard because I have done a lot of work at accepting and owning My rejects. But then again, We are so much more than We think We are.
http://www.google.com/search?q=You+are+so+much+more&sitesearch=reconnections.net
After the initial surprise I was delighted to have a reject come knocking at My door. You see, when I first started trying to connect with My rejects and castaways the nicest reaction was ignoring Me. Most did a lot of yelling and cursing. After All, I had disowned "them" for many years and most were not just unknown, but actually thrown out in the street.
Over time many of My rejected Selves softened and allowed Me to talk to "them" and invite "them" in. Some had to be chased down and backed into a corner to listen, but many have been accepted, and of course some still choose to be on "their" own. I have learned that I must accept this also.
Therefore it was a delight to actually have a castaway come to Me and so I invited him in. By this time My friend and his twin had connected. It was great timing because I don't have that much room or extra chairs.
Now it was time for Me to formally acknowledge My reject as part of Me and begin a conversation. As We talked, We moved closer together.
Then there was another knock on the duir.
http://www.google.com/search?q=Duir&sitesearch=reconnections.net
I had a great dream about integrating Our shadows, rejects, cast aways.
I was at home and a friend was visiting (obviously this was a dream LOL). There was a knock at the door and I went to see who it could possibly be. Surprisingly it was My friends evil twin (literally) asking to be let in and recognized.
I asked My friend if it would be okay, after All it is his twin. He was reluctant, or at least hesitant. Who wouldn't be? After a little consideration, he agreed to letting his evil twin come in. Once the twin was inside, the first thing that needed to be done was for My friend to formally acknowledge him. After this was done the three of Us began a conversation.
As the conversation progressed I noticed the twins moving closer and closer together.
Then there was another knock at the door. One visitor is rare, 3 is unheard of at My cabin. Especially unexpected visitors.
Again I went to see who was there, and SURPRISE it was One of My rejects. I was a bit caught of guard because I have done a lot of work at accepting and owning My rejects. But then again, We are so much more than We think We are.
http://www.google.com/search?q=You+are+so+much+more&sitesearch=reconnections.net
After the initial surprise I was delighted to have a reject come knocking at My door. You see, when I first started trying to connect with My rejects and castaways the nicest reaction was ignoring Me. Most did a lot of yelling and cursing. After All, I had disowned "them" for many years and most were not just unknown, but actually thrown out in the street.
Over time many of My rejected Selves softened and allowed Me to talk to "them" and invite "them" in. Some had to be chased down and backed into a corner to listen, but many have been accepted, and of course some still choose to be on "their" own. I have learned that I must accept this also.
Therefore it was a delight to actually have a castaway come to Me and so I invited him in. By this time My friend and his twin had connected. It was great timing because I don't have that much room or extra chairs.
Now it was time for Me to formally acknowledge My reject as part of Me and begin a conversation. As We talked, We moved closer together.
Then there was another knock on the duir.
http://www.google.com/search?q=Duir&sitesearch=reconnections.net
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Dreams #60
Written 2/14/09
As some of My friends All-ready know, at My job I work with a 19 year old whom I allow to drive Me nuts. He has been My example of why I love work with youngstars in dream time but haven't yet been able to do so in waking.
A couple of friends have suggested that perhaps he has some power, possibly the ability to cloak himSelf in a glamour or maybe he is just charmed. Also it would seem that I Am One of the few people that can see through this. What I observe would support All this and I have been convinced that a large part of why I Am bothered by him is that I Am jealous. Last night I had a series of dreams that confirm All of this and more.
In the part that I remember clearly he and I were working together on something that required We be very close, closer even than face to face. Then some type of disaster or catastrophe occurred, possibly an earthquake. The building collapsed around Us and upon Us and We were now trapped in this close proximity.
He tilted his head back so he could look Me in the eye, his cigarette breath was warm on My face. He said: "You are such a shit." He said it calmly yet with a hint of threat. However, he had not actually spoken a word.
This was when it struck Me that he could read minds, as well as plant thoughts in other people's minds and cloak himSelf in a glamour, possibly much more.
I replied (actually thought): "I know. I don't mean to be, I don't want to be, but I know I Am and that You know My thoughts about You."
Time was frozen at this point and We were able to come to an understanding even if We were not able to form a friendship. We were able to team up and use Our abilities to undo the damage done by the disaster. Also, it felt like We healed some of the damage done to each other.
As some of My friends All-ready know, at My job I work with a 19 year old whom I allow to drive Me nuts. He has been My example of why I love work with youngstars in dream time but haven't yet been able to do so in waking.
A couple of friends have suggested that perhaps he has some power, possibly the ability to cloak himSelf in a glamour or maybe he is just charmed. Also it would seem that I Am One of the few people that can see through this. What I observe would support All this and I have been convinced that a large part of why I Am bothered by him is that I Am jealous. Last night I had a series of dreams that confirm All of this and more.
In the part that I remember clearly he and I were working together on something that required We be very close, closer even than face to face. Then some type of disaster or catastrophe occurred, possibly an earthquake. The building collapsed around Us and upon Us and We were now trapped in this close proximity.
He tilted his head back so he could look Me in the eye, his cigarette breath was warm on My face. He said: "You are such a shit." He said it calmly yet with a hint of threat. However, he had not actually spoken a word.
This was when it struck Me that he could read minds, as well as plant thoughts in other people's minds and cloak himSelf in a glamour, possibly much more.
I replied (actually thought): "I know. I don't mean to be, I don't want to be, but I know I Am and that You know My thoughts about You."
Time was frozen at this point and We were able to come to an understanding even if We were not able to form a friendship. We were able to team up and use Our abilities to undo the damage done by the disaster. Also, it felt like We healed some of the damage done to each other.
Even more thoughts 2/14/09
Glad You are here and participating.
Hope You begin to enjoy the dreaming.
Some of My early, intense dreams frightened Me, I tried to forget and turned off My memories. About a year ago I started dreaming of meeting Youngstars, One at a time. That opened a whole new world for Me.
Hope You begin to enjoy the dreaming.
Some of My early, intense dreams frightened Me, I tried to forget and turned off My memories. About a year ago I started dreaming of meeting Youngstars, One at a time. That opened a whole new world for Me.
More thoughts 2/14/09
I don't know where I'm from either. Perhaps it is because We really are from everywhere? I know that is hard to grasp, but You might consider the possibility.
I think it is important to remember/believe that We are here for a purpose. That too can be hard to grasp. Often, this world seems soooo harsh, abusive, out of control and totally out of whack that is hard to feel We can possibly do anything but escape.
However, there is also evidence of this changing. Finding others that feel as We do is part of this evidence. Reaching out and sharing Our stories is how We form a group that is strong and able to change.
I think it is important to remember/believe that We are here for a purpose. That too can be hard to grasp. Often, this world seems soooo harsh, abusive, out of control and totally out of whack that is hard to feel We can possibly do anything but escape.
However, there is also evidence of this changing. Finding others that feel as We do is part of this evidence. Reaching out and sharing Our stories is how We form a group that is strong and able to change.
Thots 2/14/09
The homeless are a growing force in Our world. And the issue seems to be coming up more and more (on a personal level) for many of Us. I'm really not sure where this will lead, I think We each must find Our Own method of expressing compassion.
Do You have any thoughts/insights what Your personal form of compassion might be?
Something that was hard for Me to grasp, is that My dream work is just as powerful as My physical, actually more so. At least for some of Us, it is important to understand and believe that Our dreams are realities. Our personal "doing" may be there, in Our dreams much more than here (in waking).
I have experienced many homeless Youngstars in My dreams, and work and play with "them" there, yet have not encountered any in My waking life lately.
Do You have any thoughts/insights what Your personal form of compassion might be?
Something that was hard for Me to grasp, is that My dream work is just as powerful as My physical, actually more so. At least for some of Us, it is important to understand and believe that Our dreams are realities. Our personal "doing" may be there, in Our dreams much more than here (in waking).
I have experienced many homeless Youngstars in My dreams, and work and play with "them" there, yet have not encountered any in My waking life lately.
Thots 2/13/09
The thing about multi-D is most people just aren't ready. And those who think "They" are don't grasp the depth and multituity of multi-D. We have expectations and expectations limit. I've been having a lot of dreams/visions of this the last 6ish months and it's getting stronger the last few weeks.
There is just soooo damn much in infinity and most of Us don't want that much.
Slipping in and out of different realities is very confusing (no news flash there) and it really takes practice and experience to navigate it well. It really is like learning to drive a car, or maybe a locomotive. When most of Us start experiencing travelling/living in multi-D We are like kids who have mastered the tri-cycle trying to drive a double decker bus in a large city at rush hour.
(Which way did he go? Which way did he go?)
There is just soooo damn much in infinity and most of Us don't want that much.
Slipping in and out of different realities is very confusing (no news flash there) and it really takes practice and experience to navigate it well. It really is like learning to drive a car, or maybe a locomotive. When most of Us start experiencing travelling/living in multi-D We are like kids who have mastered the tri-cycle trying to drive a double decker bus in a large city at rush hour.
(Which way did he go? Which way did he go?)
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Dreams #59
Written 2/10/09
Lots of fun dreams last night. There are only a few things I remember clearly about "them" now, other than I really enjoyed All of "them".
The theme of My parents not approving of My activities ran through most of My dreams last night, but this was a more subtle disapproval than before, and it didn't bother Me like before. It is beginning to feel more like "they" didn't understand Me rather than out right disapproval.
The dream I remember the clearest was where I took My cabin and My dog (Shadow) to the southwest U.S. to meet a shaman. When the shaman entered My cabin a lion came with him. Shadow does not allow other animals in My cabin but he allowed Leo (that was the lion's name) to come in and "they" made friends. The shaman gave Me a stone, about the size of an egg only a little longer and thinner. He had many stones and fetishes with him, but this One he felt was for Me.
In My hands this stone left a glitter or shiny sand residue but it did not do this in the shaman's hands. He was very surprised at this and was now certain that it was for Me.
As I have said before, I don't usually dream visually. But this time the lion and the stone were very clear visually. Nothing else was visual, but felt or known.
In the dream, I knew that Leo could be a friend and/or he could be the astrological house of Leo.
Like the rest of My dreams last night My parents were on the side lines watching All of this like watching a movie and shaking "their" heads in disbelief.
Lots of fun dreams last night. There are only a few things I remember clearly about "them" now, other than I really enjoyed All of "them".
The theme of My parents not approving of My activities ran through most of My dreams last night, but this was a more subtle disapproval than before, and it didn't bother Me like before. It is beginning to feel more like "they" didn't understand Me rather than out right disapproval.
The dream I remember the clearest was where I took My cabin and My dog (Shadow) to the southwest U.S. to meet a shaman. When the shaman entered My cabin a lion came with him. Shadow does not allow other animals in My cabin but he allowed Leo (that was the lion's name) to come in and "they" made friends. The shaman gave Me a stone, about the size of an egg only a little longer and thinner. He had many stones and fetishes with him, but this One he felt was for Me.
In My hands this stone left a glitter or shiny sand residue but it did not do this in the shaman's hands. He was very surprised at this and was now certain that it was for Me.
As I have said before, I don't usually dream visually. But this time the lion and the stone were very clear visually. Nothing else was visual, but felt or known.
In the dream, I knew that Leo could be a friend and/or he could be the astrological house of Leo.
Like the rest of My dreams last night My parents were on the side lines watching All of this like watching a movie and shaking "their" heads in disbelief.
Dreams #58
Written 2/4/09
One of the starkids had been captured by the enemy (those who want to keep Us subserviant and enslaved to the system). Apparently he had escaped or been set free and I was talking to him.
He was telling Me that "they" wanted the activation codes. I asked if he had been able to hide the codes. He said no and that the codes were infecting "them" with love and compassion. It was like a virus spreading through a community.
Of course We were very excited about this turn of events.
One of the starkids had been captured by the enemy (those who want to keep Us subserviant and enslaved to the system). Apparently he had escaped or been set free and I was talking to him.
He was telling Me that "they" wanted the activation codes. I asked if he had been able to hide the codes. He said no and that the codes were infecting "them" with love and compassion. It was like a virus spreading through a community.
Of course We were very excited about this turn of events.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Thots 2/1/09
Shadow work seems to be up for many of Us.
http://www.google.com/search?q=shadow+work&sitesearch=reconnections.net
It certainly is for Me. It is becoming increasingly clear to Me, that if I want a better world, I must recognize that All the things and people I see as wrong, unpleasant and even "bad" are Me. We are much more than We ever thought We are.
http://www.google.com/search?q=You+are+much+more&sitesearch=reconnections.net
On One hand that sounds nice and fluffy, but how about the ugly side?
There are at least three problems here: One is that I Am judging, the other is that I Am rejecting, and therefore denying who I Am.
It sounds nice to hear: "We are the Ones We have been waiting for." It's a little scary but nice. How about: "We are the Ones We have been running from"????? But if I don't own that, I deny My divinity, My power to change.
I want the monsters to change, but how can "they" change if I cast "them" out and call "them" less than "they" are and call MySelf less than I Am? De-nile is a nice place to live until it's not.
So, where do I start? I started by looking at those I feel are evil doers, those who reap huge profits while others go hungry. I said: "You are Me. I Am You."
After so many years of rejection, it is no surprise that "they" didn't come rushing in and thank Me for accepting "them". Not right away. But, compared to when I first started facing some of My rejects (a few years ago) it is going rather quickly. I have invited these rejects, to sit around a council fire and discuss who "they" are. To tell Me about these parts of "themSelves"/MySelf that I don't know or understand.
We have started a dialog and so far I Am mostly listening. I don't have much to say, because this is All new ground for Me.
I feel this is a crucial step in seeing, in projecting the change I wish to experience in My life.
http://www.google.com/search?q=shadow+work&sitesearch=reconnections.net
It certainly is for Me. It is becoming increasingly clear to Me, that if I want a better world, I must recognize that All the things and people I see as wrong, unpleasant and even "bad" are Me. We are much more than We ever thought We are.
http://www.google.com/search?q=You+are+much+more&sitesearch=reconnections.net
On One hand that sounds nice and fluffy, but how about the ugly side?
There are at least three problems here: One is that I Am judging, the other is that I Am rejecting, and therefore denying who I Am.
It sounds nice to hear: "We are the Ones We have been waiting for." It's a little scary but nice. How about: "We are the Ones We have been running from"????? But if I don't own that, I deny My divinity, My power to change.
I want the monsters to change, but how can "they" change if I cast "them" out and call "them" less than "they" are and call MySelf less than I Am? De-nile is a nice place to live until it's not.
So, where do I start? I started by looking at those I feel are evil doers, those who reap huge profits while others go hungry. I said: "You are Me. I Am You."
After so many years of rejection, it is no surprise that "they" didn't come rushing in and thank Me for accepting "them". Not right away. But, compared to when I first started facing some of My rejects (a few years ago) it is going rather quickly. I have invited these rejects, to sit around a council fire and discuss who "they" are. To tell Me about these parts of "themSelves"/MySelf that I don't know or understand.
We have started a dialog and so far I Am mostly listening. I don't have much to say, because this is All new ground for Me.
I feel this is a crucial step in seeing, in projecting the change I wish to experience in My life.
Dreams #57 (cont.)
Written 1/27/09
The message was about Oneness. I had chosen to travel back in time to see if I could introduce the message of Oneness in that era and see what effect it would have on the present.
I'll give some background on this:
Nearly 20 years ago I regressed MySelf (accidentally while writing a story) to what I thought at the time was the beginning. It was when We decided to play separation/limitation. In that regression I did not want to play but was forced to because the rest of Me separated.
A few years later I real-eyesed that was not the actual beginning, just the beginning of separation. I also real-eyesed what a great job We did at totally believing in separation. I knew that I too had chosen to play separation, yet My only memory was of being forced to play. I spent years trying to erase that memory.
Then, a few years ago I started to try adding another memory rather than erasing the first memory. I actually decided to try adding several. One was a world/reality where We separated but remembered from the beginning that We are connected. In that world We would still inhabit individual bodies, but We would know that what We did to an-other We did to OurSelf. In other memories We would wake at different stages of Our history/herstory and transition from totally believing in being separate to believing that We are One.
The message was about Oneness. I had chosen to travel back in time to see if I could introduce the message of Oneness in that era and see what effect it would have on the present.
I'll give some background on this:
Nearly 20 years ago I regressed MySelf (accidentally while writing a story) to what I thought at the time was the beginning. It was when We decided to play separation/limitation. In that regression I did not want to play but was forced to because the rest of Me separated.
A few years later I real-eyesed that was not the actual beginning, just the beginning of separation. I also real-eyesed what a great job We did at totally believing in separation. I knew that I too had chosen to play separation, yet My only memory was of being forced to play. I spent years trying to erase that memory.
Then, a few years ago I started to try adding another memory rather than erasing the first memory. I actually decided to try adding several. One was a world/reality where We separated but remembered from the beginning that We are connected. In that world We would still inhabit individual bodies, but We would know that what We did to an-other We did to OurSelf. In other memories We would wake at different stages of Our history/herstory and transition from totally believing in being separate to believing that We are One.
Dreams #57
Written 1/26/09
Last night I had My first dream about time travel.
I was in a war zone, it was some type of conquest or invasion. Sadly I was definitely One of the people killing people.
This was during the time when We believed Europe,Asia & Africa were the only continents and We were using single shot muskets/rifles as weapons. I was firing and someOne was reloading for Me. I Am fairly certain I was part of the invading force. I felt the horror of killing people, but on the battlefield I really didn't know what else to do but keep firing because even worse than the horror of killing others was the fear of being killed.
Then I changed into some type of emissary and at this point I knew I was from the future. It felt like I was from a future even beyond Our current time. I approached the tent of some commander and was allowed to pass by the guards, but it was night and when the commander came out of his tent he was aiming a musket at Me. I held up My hands and was saying: "Don't shoot it's Me."
We knew each other and I was carrying some message for him, something I knew that no One else knew.
Later, I remembered the message was about Oneness and reconnection. I had decided to go back and see if I could insert thoughts/beliefs in Oneness at that time and see what difference it might make.
Last night I had My first dream about time travel.
I was in a war zone, it was some type of conquest or invasion. Sadly I was definitely One of the people killing people.
This was during the time when We believed Europe,Asia & Africa were the only continents and We were using single shot muskets/rifles as weapons. I was firing and someOne was reloading for Me. I Am fairly certain I was part of the invading force. I felt the horror of killing people, but on the battlefield I really didn't know what else to do but keep firing because even worse than the horror of killing others was the fear of being killed.
Then I changed into some type of emissary and at this point I knew I was from the future. It felt like I was from a future even beyond Our current time. I approached the tent of some commander and was allowed to pass by the guards, but it was night and when the commander came out of his tent he was aiming a musket at Me. I held up My hands and was saying: "Don't shoot it's Me."
We knew each other and I was carrying some message for him, something I knew that no One else knew.
Later, I remembered the message was about Oneness and reconnection. I had decided to go back and see if I could insert thoughts/beliefs in Oneness at that time and see what difference it might make.
Dreams #56
Written 1/26/09
I met with M several times in a waking dream/trance state last night. As I was first drifting off to sleep I asked how We could help. Soon I was sitting by his side, like You might sit beside a person in the hospital. He asked if I would assist him with the process/experimenting he is doing. This is very reminiscent of the first time We met like this. Again I had to give a qualified response. I told him that I was not willing to go to the extremes he is going. I don't feel that I can and I know I Am not willing. I told him I don't have someOne to care for Me like he does and I have My physical responsibilities to take care of. I also told him this is getting very hard for his mother and We need to find a way to lessen her load. It would be nice if he didn't go quite so far each time so that his mother doesn't need to be quite so concerned.
At some point I went into deep sleep and had many dreams. I even did some time travel for the first time that I Am aware of in dream time. I visited the past, around the time after the discovery of the Americas. In the dream I knew I was from the future and I was meeting with certain leaders. I have no idea if this was related to M or not. I woke several times during the night from different dreams and each time as I was drifting I met with M in waking dream.
Throughout the night We discussed helping him. It seems like a group effort is Once again needed to drain off some of the energy he is processing. No One of Us should attempt to take on his energy alone, We know what happened when We tried that at first.
It felt as I shared with M that it would be best if the dream team imagined OurSelves in a circle around M draining off some of the energy so he doesn't experience the extreme trauma he has been going through. His process is very important, We do not want to stop it or alter it, We just want to drain off the excess and help him to know when to slow down. This is the part he can't really handle himSelf. He gets in so deep, he doesn't know when or how to get out for a break. Initially this could be arranged at a certain time/day or it can be done at each One's convenience since time has no meaning at this level. I'm fairly sure this will need to be an ongoing process as M is gonna keep doing what he does.
He doesn't yet seem to know how to ask for help. He has been very resistant to accepting help. Perhaps he has felt that I will try to fix him or stop him. Fortunately his mom is able to say that she is at her limit and reach out.
Another thought I had just before I got up to write is interesting. In doing this each of Us will also be acting like a secretary to the uni-verse reporting Our experience/ view of this process. We will each experience a small part of the transmuting he is experimenting with. There is much being said about the changes the physical body must go through in order for Us to take it with Us in ascension. This feels to be what M is working on, finding what works and what doesn't.
I also felt that We will set an energy exchange that will begin to spin in a sphere shape between the many angles We form in this circle. Quite exciting really, but it has to be a group effort.
I met with M several times in a waking dream/trance state last night. As I was first drifting off to sleep I asked how We could help. Soon I was sitting by his side, like You might sit beside a person in the hospital. He asked if I would assist him with the process/experimenting he is doing. This is very reminiscent of the first time We met like this. Again I had to give a qualified response. I told him that I was not willing to go to the extremes he is going. I don't feel that I can and I know I Am not willing. I told him I don't have someOne to care for Me like he does and I have My physical responsibilities to take care of. I also told him this is getting very hard for his mother and We need to find a way to lessen her load. It would be nice if he didn't go quite so far each time so that his mother doesn't need to be quite so concerned.
At some point I went into deep sleep and had many dreams. I even did some time travel for the first time that I Am aware of in dream time. I visited the past, around the time after the discovery of the Americas. In the dream I knew I was from the future and I was meeting with certain leaders. I have no idea if this was related to M or not. I woke several times during the night from different dreams and each time as I was drifting I met with M in waking dream.
Throughout the night We discussed helping him. It seems like a group effort is Once again needed to drain off some of the energy he is processing. No One of Us should attempt to take on his energy alone, We know what happened when We tried that at first.
It felt as I shared with M that it would be best if the dream team imagined OurSelves in a circle around M draining off some of the energy so he doesn't experience the extreme trauma he has been going through. His process is very important, We do not want to stop it or alter it, We just want to drain off the excess and help him to know when to slow down. This is the part he can't really handle himSelf. He gets in so deep, he doesn't know when or how to get out for a break. Initially this could be arranged at a certain time/day or it can be done at each One's convenience since time has no meaning at this level. I'm fairly sure this will need to be an ongoing process as M is gonna keep doing what he does.
He doesn't yet seem to know how to ask for help. He has been very resistant to accepting help. Perhaps he has felt that I will try to fix him or stop him. Fortunately his mom is able to say that she is at her limit and reach out.
Another thought I had just before I got up to write is interesting. In doing this each of Us will also be acting like a secretary to the uni-verse reporting Our experience/ view of this process. We will each experience a small part of the transmuting he is experimenting with. There is much being said about the changes the physical body must go through in order for Us to take it with Us in ascension. This feels to be what M is working on, finding what works and what doesn't.
I also felt that We will set an energy exchange that will begin to spin in a sphere shape between the many angles We form in this circle. Quite exciting really, but it has to be a group effort.
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