05/30/13

Today:

Survival or living?

Wizard's Log Star-date: 06:13:13 AM

Good morning. Shadow woke Us up checking on Us and We knew We were not going back to sleep even though We are still mostly in dream. Something is definitely shifting and changing. We do not remember anything about Our dreams.

Early in the night (or very late in the evening) We were awake for a while and We were aware then of much of what We had been dreaming and what was going on with Us. Maybe We were on ship at that time. At least that is what it feels like now. It feels like We are being prepared.

There are several things We would like to do today, some are things We think We should do. We keep thinking: “I'm going to:” and then We finish with: “let go”. We are glad that this is coming so automatic now. Our head may not be so happy about it but Our heart and expanding mind are. We may be able to go back to dream soon too.

We just discovered that We did not post a “Today” yesterday. This is the second time in a few days that We could absolutely swear that We posted One but it is not there. We are definitely having more and more experiences of living is several worlds. This is good but it also continues to frustrate Us. We would like to get over or through the frustration without leaving or letting go of the experience. We want to get used to and familiar with living in many worlds and realities simultaneously. Again, Our head fears for Our survival if We do. This is NOT about survival, not anymore. This is about freedom and living. Survival is old pair-a-dime thinking and action and motivation. The old paradigm still exists (obviously) and probably All-ways will. We can visit but We no longer wish to live there.

As We were going outside We were reminded that We can hold on to the old or We can let go of it. Funny thing is that the new includes the old We just are not trapped there any more, unless We cling to it and refuse to change. We are changing, We may as well allow it rather than resist it. Resis-dance is futile.

There seems to be some sort of challenge or competition going on inside of Us. One part (Our head) is screaming that We must get busy, We must hurry and do, do, do. The other part (Our heart?) is telling Us that We must relax. We can NOT “do” Our way into the new world(s), though many are trying and it would be quite easy for Us to fall back into that rat race. We can only “relax” and play Our way into the new. So, we choose to take it easy. Open, let go and allow.

One thing We are real-I-sing is that as the leaves come out (more and more) on the trees, the heat is not so intense (at least here at/in Our cabin). We have no idea if this early summer heat is new, part of the incoming energies or what. It may just be the sudden change since it was snowing less than two weeks ago and is getting over 80F now. However, regardless, We are grateful for the shade provided by Our forest as it wakes Once again.

Now that We have actually opened Our mail, We see that the letter We need has not arrived so We will be going through the process of calling unemployment.

We have started putting up the upper cross piece for Our fort. We seem to have woken All the mosquitoes. We are glad We have several things to do inside while We take breaks. Breaks are good but We tend to need to be able to entertain OurSelf during Our breaks.

As We read online We find that several have advised Us about the increase (One more, One more time) in incoming energy in many forms. This helps explain how We felt yesterday after Our trip to town. We are also reminded that We have read that time is One of the biggest traps in limitation 3D. We are experiencing that also as We think that We do not have enough time to do what We want to do. We are reminded that We are masters of time and We have exactly the right amount of time to do what Our heart desires on the perfect schedule.

We have started putting the poles back up on Our fort and taking lots of breaks. We think that We may tend to Our raspberry transplants in and around the fort stuff. We also need to do a job search by Saturday to comply with unemployment requirements. Oh, amazingly We got through to unemployment on the first try this morning and got All Our questions answered. YAY!!!!!!!!! As long as We stay in compliance We will receive Our first check next week. We are happy because this is income We were not expecting and means that much less coming out of Our savings.

So, We applied for a job as a probation officer. Now, this may seem odd but We have All-ways wanted to do that and We think We would be very good at it. Since We are required to apply for at least One job per week to qualify for unemployment, why not apply for something that We think We would like to do and We actually meet All “their” requirements.

We added some more poles to Our fort and got several pictures. It is too hot and mosquitoey to stay out there very long.

Also, We added some more soil to Our raspberry transplants and watered “them”. “They” are starting to bud out.

We did a little painting on Our indoor plant pots. It's fun going back and forth and round abouts with these different projects. We All-most dislike the word projects but it will just have to do for now.

We find that again today, (in the afternoon) We are slipping out of limitation 3D focus. We are still here and functioning but feeling half asleep, yet not. It really is hard to describe. One of those: “You had to be there” experiences. We theel that this will become more and more common for OurSelf and Our others.

Another early to dream day, though not as early as yesterday.

05/29/13

Today:

The energy

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:50:22 AM

Good morning. We are up a bit early this morning. We get the feeling that this summer is gonna be like that: some mornings We sleep in and others We are up early. We are having a waking extension of Our dreams. Remember the dreams and visions where the front wall of Our cabin (or a room in the faerie castle) opens onto everything? Well, in Our dream and experience We have taken a step (or two) through that wall into everything.

In waking the front wall of Our cabin still appears to be in place so that does affect the waking experience but not too much. All the plants hanging out in that wall help encourage the imagination. After All, imagination is really what Our waking world is made of, even though We think it is something else.

So, imagine the sensation of stepping gently into “everything”. Yes, it is hard to imagine. After All We really have no idea of what that really means. All of Our waking experiences have revolved around being trapped in limitation. We can sure see why most of Us need to be introduced into this in dream first. It is a feeling that everything We ever wanted to have or do is right here at Our fingertips (or mind tips). All We have to do is stretch the fingers of Our mind out just a little bit and We can touch anything and everything. We are taking little tiny steps like testing the water with Our toes and slowly taking more and more of Our body into the ocean of possibilities and even impossibilities.

We theel We may be taking OurSelf back into deep dream and that is perfectly fine with Us. This is a grand sensation. We are going to sit with it a while.

We sat so well that We had to go lay down. We were not aware that We went to sleep, only that We were experiencing a taste of everything, some of this and some of that and a dash of something(s) else. At least an hour passed.

We are doing things and chores or what snot but We are mentally drifting around and We likes it. It is a nice way to spend a day: getting things done gently while being out and about the uni-verse while doing whatever.

We made Our trip to town and got everything done that We wanted to do (except that it was too damn hot to hot tub) and the letter from unemployment was waiting for Us.

When We got home, We are wiped out. We do not if it is the heat, the town energy or if We slipped into dream. It feels different and more intense than any of these experiences have felt previously. We are having an early dinner and early to dream because that is All We can do.

05/28/13

Today:

We woke early

Wizard's Log Star-date: 02:35:03 AM

Good morning. We do not know why We are up so early. Our sinuses and Shadow woke Us and We spent about an hour trying to go back to sleep. We could dream but We could not sleep. We had visions of Our Earthship and plant worlds and other growings and playings. Lots of info about earthships We have many ideas about what We would like to do and these visions We have been getting will be the basis for how We proceed. Our fort is a part and so is the privacy wall We did last summer. Yesterday We noticed a small branch sticking through the wall with leaves budding out. This is exactly the effect We wanted. If We remember We will insert a picture.

So, We real-eyes that We are not fully awake as We think of awake in limitation 3D. That is fine with Us. We went outside and it is beautiful, calm, clear and quiet. There is something in the air, We feel it. BTW, Our sinuses are not bad, not painful etc. like “they” usually are when flaring up over several days but just obvious enough to keep Us from going back to sleep. Or was/is it something else preventing sleep?

We do want to make a quiche this morning but 3 AM is a lot earlier than We had anticipated. We could hurt OurSelf trying to make quiche at this hour. There are lots of things to do, but We do not want to do any of “them” right now, so We won't.

We just found that We never posted Sunday's “Today”. We really thought We had done that, Oneder what reality that was or this is?????????????? Here We go to post it and maybe yesterday's while We are at it. Okay. All caught up of Our postings. We really and truly do remember posting Sunday's “Today”. Another experience of living in and experiencing multiworlds.

The One thing We promised OurSelf when We got up so early is that We can return to sleep and dream any time We want. We theel that time is quickly approaching.

There is definitely something different about Us and Our current world right now. We do real-eyes that We are getting more earthy. This is intentional and welcome. But, the difference (right now) does seem to be more than that. This is more ethereal, less mass and physical. Earthy would seem to be physical and mass. But then again, maybe not.

06:17:26 AM Well, here We are at a somewhat more reasonable hour. We returned to sleep and dreaming. It felt (then) and feels (now) like We were in a slightly different world earlier. BTW, Our tomato plants are perking up. We think that “they” were going through puberty. Some of the younger Ones are still a bit droopy but not so bad. Also, it is a bit over cast this morning which will be good since for baking, won't be so hot.

So, We enjoyed Our dreaming and We even remember a bit. Let's see if We can explain what it was clearly. We were processing some stuff. In the passed (and even still to a lessor degree) We have wanted to bring dream experiences into waking. In this dream We had/got this clear message: “In this world (Our waking world) there is death and suffering. Why on earth would We want to bring anyOne or anything out of the pristine worlds into Our tainted world? Would not it be much better to bring Us into the pristine?”

And really that is what We want AND what We are doing. But, it is not like moving or leaving, it is shifting Our perceptions and awareness. We theel this tainted world will continue for just as long as there is anyOne (any aspect of Our whole Self) that wants it (and We think this will probably mean eternity(. We will probably be able to be aware of it, to remote view it as long as it exists. We can even visit if We want. What We won't do again (please, please God) is fall in and forget how to get out.

The taint is limitation and separation. These manifest in many ways and most people are battling the symptoms without ever looking at or addressing the actual disease. That is the way We set the game up and people are still playing by those rules. “They” are welcome to play that game just as long as “their” little hearts desire. We too are still playing it to a lessor extent because We choose to change gradually rather than go into shock. However, no real and lasting change will ever occur until We release Our limitation and separation.

We did take a picture of Our privacy wall but the effect of the branch (with leaves budding out) poking through the artificial Xmas greenery is lost. Sorry about that.

It feels like We will do some stuff outdoors before We make Our quiche. We just can not quite get into cooking yet. We do hope it does not get really hot before We get a round to baking. It is nicely cool right now.

Well, Our quiche is baked and cooling, smells One-der-full. Our raspberry plants are tended to for today. Our seedlings are outside enjoying the loverly weather. We set rain barrels and tubs around (One is just uphill from Our raspberry transplants. We think that is a good idea.) The front window shelves are redone One more, One more time to better accommodate Our stevia plant (it is sooooo tall but it should bush out now)

After We rest and dream a bit We may stain the fort cross piece. We plan to leave the seedlings outside All day. We really theel “they” want to be outside more. Maybe We will add more decorations to Our tomato bucket. That tomato plant looks just about ready to move to a bigger home.

Our forest is now All green. There is still lots more growing that it will do and the grasses have not fully come up yet but the leaves are out on the trees. We really appreciate the color over bare tree trunks. We also hope to get some baby spruce transplanted around Our cabin. The power company is going to cut down trees in the right of way this summer and that will probably cut down the spruce We plan to transplant. It will also save Us from needing to trim along the upper driveway for the snowplow.

Oh, yeah, Our cordless weedeater took its charge (it's been so long since We used it We were not sure) and We learned that the head disconnects from the stem, blade and handle for charging. That sure will make that easier because the best place for the charger is behind Our arm saw and what a pain to put the whole thing back there.

Okay, We think We hear Our fort calling.

We got the first coat of stain on the cross piece and were One-der-ing why it took Us sooooo long to start????? Then, We remembered it was not dry yesterday. DUH. This is just another example of slip, sliding around. We also misplaced a razor knife a few days/lifetimes ago. Now, it's not like We do not have plenty of other razor knives and since it is summer All are easy to get to (no snow or cold temperatures between We and “they”). That is not the point. We really hate losing things and We really need to get over it. We knew that We had sent it into another world or that We had slipped into another world or both or or or............... We were reminded of All the shows and movies etc. about building machines to do this and “they” usually fail, at least at first. Maybe because We do it All the time without using machines??????? And We include YOU in that We. We have discussed this before. Often, when something goes missing We (each and every One of Us) sent it (or OurSelf) into another world.

Okay, We know All this and are even getting better at accepting it. Does that stop Us from looking for it? Hell no!!!!!!! Finally, We decided to look where We were certain We had not put it. Guess what? There was a razor knife there, albeit not the razor knife We were looking for. No, this is not another razor knife that We had forgotten We put there. How to better explain? It is a new and different razor knife, plain and simple. It is from a different world than Our familiar world. Or???????? No, We are not going crazy, We are All-ready there. Too late. AND We are slip, sliding between worlds and even when it frustrates Us, We are happy and excited to do it. We are even with finding a different razor knife than the One We were looking for and We think that now We can stop looking.

During this razor knife craziness We were reminded of a statement that We have All-ways thought to be about the stupidest statement ever: “I finally found it in the last place I looked.” Well duh, isn't that amazing. You stopped looking when You found it. Therefore You found it in the last place You looked. Is it just Me or is this an absurd yet common statement?

And with that, it is dream time. Catch You in a bit, or not.

There are sooooo many worlds to explore, and many are much like this One, only limitless. We are creating a world(s) {or is it just a life?} that is in tune and harmony and All is/are connected and freedom. Where plants walk and dance with Us and We turn sunshine and moonbeams into food. We are expanding and We are loving it, even when it frustrates Us.

We just got to face and walk through a fear. We were decorating Our tomato bucket and spilled Our bead tray. As We faced this catastrophe We considered leaving it. “They” did decorate the floor nicely. However, the thought of walking on “them” or Shadow slipping on rolling beads did not appeal. It was rather amazing that picking “them” up was much easier than We imagined when We foresaw this happening yesterday.

We finished putting the beads on the bucket (or is it lime in de coconut?) It was rather interesting All the mishaps and it seemed like the beads or I were resisting. After several days of playing at this with no troubles, why was the last stretch such a challenge? Oh well.

Now, We want to finish a little painting and it will be ready for the tom plant to move in. OOPS. We will need to add dirt first. Silly human.

It looks and feels like a rain/something storm is moving in. We have been anticipating this and allowed/hoped for it in Our activities. Rain barrels and tubs are ready and waiting. We do not have Our tarp up out front yet because We are letting the ground dry from the spring thaw, but We think We have everything covered that needs/wants to be. We get the feeling that Our seedlings may have to play indoors tomorrow.

05/27/13

Today:

A busy, relaxed day

Wizard's Log Star-date: 05:33:04 AM

Good morning. We got up early and We really do not know why. We did remind OurSelves that We can return to dreaming any time We want. We real-eyes that We are very slowly and gradually transitioning into waking. We are in multiworlds and that is a good thing. We appreciate that We no longer feel like We are being jerked from multiworlds and multi-D dreaming each morning. Even when We are working We do not feel this jerk and jar shock of waking. That was the whole reason We started typing these “Today”s, to track Our progress at NOT being mandated and shocked into limitation 3D every morning.

Interesting the many different things We have learned and noticed and typed about along the way. Also interesting that back then We did not real-eyes that not All 3D is limited and limitation is not confined to only 3D. We do not think that too many people are aware of this yet. Most still think that it is 3D that We want to move beyond but for Us (personally and probably collectively) what We really to end is limitation. Of course this will entail releasing separation too. Most of Us (personal and collective) think We are ready for that and yet We cling to thoughts, beliefs and concepts that are only supported in limitation and separation.

What of Our dreams last night? Well, We barely even remember dreaming much less what We were doing. We know that We were in other worlds and that We were playing. We can feel that but We have no memory of the details. Again there can be many reasons for this. It seems that it is mostly (this time) due to the newness and apparent bizarreness of what We were doing. To new to relate to. We do sense (in waking) the presence of friends from those dream worlds.

We appreciate being able to wake gently and feel back into other worlds. We are aware of living in multiworlds and We are grateful for this awareness. It is growing.

Our head keeps trying to plan Our day and We just keep remembering and reminding to let go. Letting go is how We will be able to fully enter and be aware of multidimensionality.

We started piddling around. We put old tires around Our raspberry plants to hold the soil We had and rain water. We are clueless if this will actually be beneficial but the tires were/are an I-sore out in the forest. We put old scrap carpet down around some to keep a path but will want to add more carpet. One of the things that We have real-eyesed is that the way the forest grows so abundant and lots of stickery roses We will need clear, low maintenance paths to Our garden(s) in the forest and scrap carpet is One way to accomplish this. We will need to rake some of the paths We made last year or not. The tires and carpet were not exactly piddling because of traipsing up and down the hillside and the tires were entangled with forest growth. So, We came back inside and are adding some decorations to Our tomato bucket. We would like to get it finished soon so We can transplant the biggest and oldest tomato plant and have it in its permanent (until We change Our mind[s]) home.

This morning We real-eyesed that We are hoping for some rain soon, especially for Our raspberry transplants. However, We have a plastic window in the shed that needs repair so We don't get a ton of water in there. That is next on Our list this morning. Decorating Our bucket makes a nice entertainment when We take little breaks from traipsing up and down hill, mosquitoes etc. We hope to get the metal frame/support for the fort spray painted today. First We want to rake around it and put down drop clothes so We are not painting the forest. Out to the shed, back soon.

So, We got the old metal frame/support for the fort wall spray painted. We are quite pleased with to (apparent) lousy job We did. It should stand out from the forest in spots and blend in in other places. We are getting ready to paint or stain a support piece and clear stain the main cross piece. Over the years this cross piece peeled itSelf so there is very little bark to deal with and yet it did not rot. Please remind Us to get some pics before We proceed. It does look and feel like it may rain too.

We brought in Our seedlings after letting “them” enjoy the outdoors for a couple of hours. We opened the front windows when We brought “them” in. We gotta tell Ya, seven trips up and down the front steps carrying trays of plants wears Us down. We are thinking We may leave “them” out All day tomorrow, unless We don't.

We were just reminded that playing with the plants is definitely helping Our connection to Gaia and the Fae. We know that the plant world dreams We are having are nurtured by it. We are sooooo looking forward to beginning to grow Our dwelling. We have lots of ideas but first the fort (which is also a growing actually).

When We put the stevia plant in its pot and new home We see that We kinda oopsed. The front window shelves will need to be redone One more, One more time for Us to be happy.

Dream came upon Us. We do not know if We are tired or need to dream so to be safe We are gonna lay down.

We had visions of plant people helping Us with Our fort and plantings.

We are doing something with the rest of Our day. We are not sure where, when or what but We are enjoying it.

05/26/13

Today:

A short entry

Wizard's Log Star-date: 06:28:10 AM

Good morning. We have been up for a little while. We wanted to stay in dream but were awake, so We got up knowing We can return to dream at any time We wish. Now We see that We have not really left Our dreaming state. We are rather adrift on a sea of now.

Yesterday a friend of a friend gave Us some nice, healthy raspberry plants which We want to get in the ground today and there are several things We hope to get done or at least started but if nothing gets done that is also okay. We just do NOT feel the pressure which We used to apply to OurSelf. We have a bunch of wild raspberry plants along the drive which have not produced much that last few years. We did not know about the need to prune “them”. When We were looking around for a good place for the new plants We found that the old Ones are standing proud. We put Our weed-eater on the charger (and of course forget to plug it in) so We can weed-eat All the stuff alongside the drive in the area around the old bushes. We want to collect some of the dead grasses/whatever to use as straw for wattle and cob building. We think We will put the new plants on the other side of the drive, a flatish spot that is a little downhill and gets lots of sun and is not hard to get to.

We are thinking about going for water, but that may be more than We are up for today. Drifting is easier.

Oh, our dreams: lots of fun, some folks from waking were involved. We have some clear memories that are rather hard to describe. It seems to be continuation of the animated plant world(s). A local person (from waking) was morphing back and forth between human and plant. There was more but the rest is even harder to put into words. Or are We just too lazy? Maybe when We get back from wherever We are.

We did decide to go for rock and water but to not unload everything right away, maybe not even today.

We got All five raspberry plants planted. Did three then a break. Digging here is very hard. Under All the leaves is a root mat that is simply incredible and mixed with rocks. Mostly We dug down a little and then added dirt over the still exposed roots. Raspberries are like weeds and the long days should do the rest.

We are doing some decorating on the pot for Our stevia plant. It is getting too tall for the small pot and where it is living. It will be growing up through the shelf slats Once We get it in its pot and then the pot in its permanent home.

We are having fun but out in the heat (remember We were below freezing a week ago) and up and down the hillside etc. is taking its toll (and the killer mosquitoes are All-ways the worst first of spring/summer). So, We just come back inside, do a little email and a lot of dreaming.

Does this sound familiar or what: “As life opens more and more to a multidimensional experience, you can embrace the experience of letting go of deciding, of choosing, of making things happen. You can wade into the openness and let the fullness of all you are show you how to open more fully, how to embody more of all that you are, and how to just have fun.”

 From:

Life at the Ideafrontier.

Expect Wonderful by Meredith Murphy © 2009-2012 Meredith Murphy | Expect Wonderful. All rights reserved.  

05/25/13

Today:

A typical Saturday

Wizard's Log Star-date: 07:37:28 AM

Good morning. We remember thinking (even in Our dreams) that We continue to be amazed at the number and variety of worlds and realities We live in. It is kinda interesting that even Our dreaming Self is amazed.

Many of these are quite similar to this world, other are very different. In many We still do seemingly mundane things but there is no feeling of drudgery or burden. It is playful and We real-eyes (and live in) everything is a choice. We do not do things (anything) because We think that We have to in order to survive or please anyOne else.

Yes, there are also other worlds more like this One where We are exploring other aspects and versions of limitation and separation but We are not aware of those as much. We seem to visit plenty of those in Our waking. As We slip, slide between worlds and coexist in multiworlds most are the worlds closest to this version of limitation 3D. Of course there are many versions so similar that We really have no idea which version “this” version is. We probably think that many versions are only One version because We do not real-eyes when We slip from One to another or when We are aware of two that are sooooo similar.

There is just sooooo much that Our focus on limitation and separation has blocked from Our awareness. Even the possibility seems impossible.

These thoughts are drawing Us back into dream.

BTW: Our sinuses are doing much better today and the toms seem to be doing better too. Perhaps All of Us were/are going through adjustment to a new atmosphere.

We did dream of a world where the plants were more like humans than in this world. “They” were not (or We did not meet any who were) like mean and greedy humans but “they” are more mobile (though “they” still remain rooted in the ground so not as mobile as animals and people) and “they” have feelings and emotions and are capable of thinking. Perhaps “they” are not so different after All. In those worlds “they” are free to show who and what “they” really are unlike this world where We are All pretending to be what We are not.

We remember in this plant world (for lack of a betterer name) that We were dancing with a tall dark (green) stranger.

We took Our plants for “their” second outing. We are decorating a bucket for Our stevia plant and watching some vids and trying to take it easy and not push OurSelf.

We made Our Saturday trip to town to visit Our friends. We got the door sweeps on and fixed the loose threshold for “them”. We've been meaning to do this since winter hit last year but it was just too cold to be fun. One friend's boss stopped by with some really nice raspberry plants and We got some.

Then, somewhere in there We slipped into multiworlds and not really sure what else happened.

05/24/13

Today:

First day of Our summer

Wizard's Log Star-date: 05:43:20 AM

Good morning. Another fun and busy night in many different worlds. Little memory but lots of fun and smiles. We do not remember any important messages or insights, just experience of living in other realities and being able to move around and even be aware of being in more that One reality at a time.

Of course, not that long ago this would have been major. Now it is just another typical night, it is familiar. We do enjoy it, We love the friends We are spending Our nights with. This is about the opposite of how people spend the night together in limitation 3D yet We are bonding and connecting even stronger and deeper than We would by sleeping together.

Does this mean that playing together is better than sex? Well, maybe just different.

Whatever is going on with the air continues to be a mild irritant. We are more aware of it and bothered by it than We usually are with lots of forest fires around. We can not see or smell any smoke in the air but We certainly did sense it whenever We took a breath. It seems to have cleared this morning, it no longer feels like We are breathing smoke. Now, We just have the residual from doing so All night (or most of the night). We definitely theel that this is some part of Our morphing process. Like learning to breathe in water. Perhaps it is a change in Gaia's atmosphere. We know/feel that We could be experiencing ash from the volcanoes even though the news media is saying We are getting any or not enough to affect Us.

The forecast for today is rain but right now We have clear blue skies. That does not really mean anything. We could easily have a huge downpour and clear skies again by evening.

In case We have not mentioned it lately the cloud formations recently look and feel more and more like ships and even cities as well as living beans.

We do have several things that We would like to do today but the most important is taking it easy, extra dreaming and being playfull.

We are noticing the desire to mix it up, to do things differently. Our typical mindset is to establish routine and habit. We find that each morning We are wondering: “What is next in Our routine” and blah, blah, blah. But today We feel the desire to be more attentive to “now”. This is a major shift for Us and We want to live here.

We just opened the back door and now We are sensing the smoke again. It might be called smelling it but it is more like tasting it. Hard to describe as We do NOT remember sensing smoke (or anything for that matter) in quite this fashion.

We also find OurSelf missing the kids and thinking about different Ones. Feeling the connection. It does seem that some are looking for Us in “their” mind/dreams/ethers. That makes Us smile.

Our tomatoes seem to be recouping. We do not know if anything We did actually had any affect (except the pony hopping of course) or if “they” are just adjusting. We are happy to see “them” feeling better. We hope to be able to take All Our plants on “their” first outdoor adventure today.

We are finding it interesting that in the online groups We are in: people (for the most part) would much rather talk about the external events and changes rather than internal. This is a growing awareness over time. We have noticed it before, over the years but is seems that now this noticing in amplified. Once again, not saying good or bad, just different. Not All-ways easy to maintain this neutrality but getting better at it.

We theel it is time to return to dreaming. See You soon.

We dreamt of Our lives in other worlds and of course met new friends and played with “them” and old friends. It really is nice to find people We relate to and enjoy “their” company and friendship everywhere We go. In One dream We were working on/around/with school buses. “They” were physical but “they” were not limited. The buses could fly, there could be more than One bus or other objects in the same space without damage or injury. This (of course) increases the fun. It is kinda like playing bumper cars 24-7.

To Us, this confirms/supports Our growing belief that there are other/advanced versions of 3D which are not limited. Most of Us think that All 3D is limited. It seems that All 3D is physical but not limited. As far as We know at this time being physical is part of 3D, but Our current interpretation of physical includes limitation. We (everyOne that We know of) really can not even imagine the physical without limitation. Dreams of this will help Us.

Most people think that “they” want to escape or advance or wake out of 3D. We (most everyOne) think that We hate 3D. What We really hate and want to be done with is separation and limitation. We think We are trapped and that is what We hate. Nobody and no thing like feeling stuck and trapped.

As We were waking back to Our current limited but expanding physical reality We got a call from the unemployment office. We did not think We are eligible but We decided to file to check. It turns out that We are not currently eligible for regular unemployment but We are eligible for emergency benefits. The job search requirements are a little different and there is some stuff We have to do online additional and the benefits are a little less than regular but what the hey, it is money We were not expecting and will certainly be less that We have to take out of savings for the weeks that We do not work. We also have to redo Our online resume. We plan to do that today and get it done. We have the feeling that the expanded job search requirements will make Us aware of something more.

The sun is coming out bright and calling Us outside. We are still feeling the affects of the smoke (whether it exists in this dimension or another that We coexist in).

We updated Our resume. We should not have to do a job search this week since We worked most of the week. We will need to get a job search log online for upcoming weeks. We will (hopefully) do that later. The sun is out and calling Our name(s).

As far as We can tell everyOne (Our plants) enjoyed “their” outing into the outdoors. We had “them” out for about an hour in partial sun and partial shade. It was around sixty degrees where We had “them” which is a bit cooler than most of the cabin. It was about seventy in the window (not in direct sun) when We took “them” out and brought “them” back in. While “they” out breathing and sunning We redid the shelves in the front window another “One more time”. We bought another set of shelves like We have been using. These are slats rather than solid like the particle board We were using for the outer additional shelves. The solid particle board was giving Us claustrophobia. This is much better. We have saved the large center area for Our bigger pot transplants when We get a round tuit. We are a bit torn about where We want to keep Our All-ways indoor plants, in the center or off to the side. We do have the feeling that We may end up doing both.

We are having a bit of difficulty with relaxing and taking it easy. We want to run and do “everything”. It is good that We have so many years practice and experience at doing nothing. We will return to that in a slightly more balanced way, unless We do not.

We re-staked the largest tom with several stakes and added string to support the branches. We did find two leaves with holes in “them” so We probably have some type of bug. We will be getting a spray bottle to spray the leaves with soapy water.

So We played a bit at stuff outside and did some more decorating on Our tomato bucket. We returned to dream again too. We are having a hard time not fussing with the large tomato plant. We really theel that it needs some alone time but Our human (or limitation) personality wants to fuss with it.

05/23/13

Today:

Last day of school this year

Wizard's Log Star-date: 02:45:57 AM

Good morning. We woke early and felt like We are ready to get up. We had many interesting dreams again. We remember having fun. The last dream was in a world similar to this One yet quite different. A student wanted to do something but did not feel “they” had earned the right/privilege to do it. We told “them” that with some “they” might need to earn it but with Us “they” did NOT have to earn rights and privileges. “They” are delighted.

We are concerned about Our tomato plants and that is part of the reason We got up early. It seems that the older Ones continue to wilt. The only thing that We can think of is that first “they” were too much heat and light too quick and then when We moved “them” “they” are not getting enough. “They” drank some of the water and food We gave “them” but not All so We emptied the drain trays after about 24 hours. We just can't think of anything else to do except put “them” in the kitchen window which gets morning sun. Tomorrow We can and will be home with “them” All day. Hopefully We can give “them” the attention “they” need that way without smothering “them” with Our dotering. Spell check does not like that word.

One thing We are learning/experiencing is that We are very attached to the plants that We have grown from seed.

When We talk to the Fae about Our tomato plants “they” are telling Us that: “We need to learn by experiencing and experimenting”, “It is a learning experience for Us” and/or “the plants are actually just fine”.

Another typical fun day with the gradeschoolers. We will miss All the kids but especially the twins. We have had a few rough spots with the fun that cries and screams when he does not get his way but “they” are both just so cute. “They” have both come a long way since “they” started riding.

We were glad that the autist rode the last day. We have a real connection with him so even though We may not have said goodbye verbally he knows that We care.

As We were returning to base We were feeling around the energies and We had an insight about Our tomato adventure: Struggle for survival, following rules etc. are aspects of limitation and separation. Life, growth and flourishing should be normal, natural and easy.

Perhaps Our stress and worry are more Our attachment to limitation 3D than Our attachment to Our plants????????????? The feeling that “they” are fine and simply adjusting got stronger and stronger throughout the morning. We also did some ho'oponopono with “them” this morning before We left for work.

We enjoyed the afternoon ride. We know that We have established a connection with these kids even though We only rode with “them” a few days. It is not a connection that is very visible in the physical but it is deep.

We did not feel like going to the pool or shopping after work. We could tell as We went about Our afternoon route that this is the case. We stopped to get more rock for the driveway and some for the plant pots.

Now that We are home, it feels like We are breathing smoke. We can not see or smell any smoke in the air but, yet, somehow We sense smoke in the atmosphere. It is kinda like breathing in water (or a very mild version of what We imagine that would be like). This is a new sensation/experience for Us. We are reminded of how many of the now children are more sensitive to sensations than We A-dults. This sensitivity may be either positive or negative and “they” do not necessarily follow Our ideas of good sensations and bad sensations. Many/most A-dults in Our culture do try to inhibit and control these sensory experiences in children.

We know/theel that this breathing smoke, though a bit uncomfortable, (a mild irritant) is important in Our evolution. It may be smoke and/or ash from the volcanoes even though the news media says that it is not reaching Us here (interior Alaska). But, We feel that even if this is so it is only part of what is going on. We theel Gaia's atmosphere is changing. This (also) may be a part of slipping into another dimensional realm, coexisting here AND there. We just got it that this may also be a new sense that We are experiencing. Something different from typical sight and smell, yet like a mixture of smell or a deeper sense of smell. We definitely do NOT smell smoke in Our normal manner but when We breathe, it is like drawing smoke into Our lungs.

Since We got home early and do not feel like doing a bunch of stuff We are going to dream early.

05/22/13

Today:

Another day

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:14:33 AM

Good morning. Another fun and busy night. Sooooo many worlds to explore. We seem to be doing very well in many of “them”, maybe All of “them”. We have friends literally everywhere and when We meet someOne new “they” are immediately friends and We just start to play. Imagine a world (and then imagine every world) where the first thing We ask a stranger is: “What do You like to play best?”. Wouldn't that make a difference and cause major change?

Maybe that is another reason why We haven't been remember the specifics of Our dreams. It is not important. We are just playing. We dream of stuff happening, some does not seem nice and fun but We have friends and support and We face everything together. We have mentioned this in many ways before. In One dream (last night) We were in some type of community. Maybe it was a gathering of misfits or such. There was a huge fire and it was spreading. There was fear and All that but We were together and We turned Our evacuation into a game, a parade, a picnic. We played. When things change We just play a new game.

We think You get the gist of what We did last night. What do You like to play?

We are also learning about raising tomatoes. It takes loving care. One wilted and We are not sure why but from what We read it is probably because Our temperatures changed so much so quick. We moved it to a spot that is not as sunny and hot, fed and watered it and this morning it has perked up. We learned a few things. It may mean that during the summer he can not live where We had planned to house him. He is the One We planned to keep indoors All year and see how that workses. However, We were thinking that We would not be able to use the shade on Our front window this summer because everyOne told Us how much sun tomatoes need. Now, it looks like We will have to Use the shade. That is good news for both Shadow and Us.

We just felt the presence and approval of the Fae. Thanks guys, We are learning. We open, let go and allow. It is nice to have friends everywhere We turn.

Another fun but uneventful morning. The One twin let the other be first as promised and both got to sit in seats at the back. We have no idea why that seemed to be a big deal for “them”, We mostly let “them” sit wherever “they” want.

We did real-eyes that yesterday afternoon We had two riders not just One. The One that We forgot about is One of the non-verbals who is very good at taking Us to other worlds. Guess he too is good at being invisible.

We enjoyed the kids in the afternoon tho it was basically uneventful too. We had a rider that has not ridden previously. Very polite and All that but not at All talkative, obviously used to fending for and entertaining “themSelf”. The non-verbal is in an electric wheel chair. He had obviously been in the mud. We asked if he had been four wheeling and he grunted yes and got the biggest grin.

School has early outs these last three days (which is the reason for All the route and schedule changes) so We got home early. We got some rock for the driveway and dumped it. We moved some stuff around out front to promote drying and got the skirting partially opened but still too much frozen to completely open it up. We set up a sawhorse table in a morning sun afternoon shady spot for hardening Our plants.

Our tomatoes continue to droop so We moved “them” around but can't tell if anything is helping. We think We are having a hard time finding the balance of enough sun without too much heat too fast. Our indoors mimics the outdoors more than most homes and We really have had and are having some drastic temperature changes in a short amount of time.

Shadow is going through his normal spring exercise of trying to rebury bones and rawhides that were buried in the snow. He is getting exercise and enjoying the weather tho he thinks it is too hot. He got in his wading pool several times which he did not do much last year. We only have a couple of inches of water in it and maybe he likes that better than full??????

05/20/13

Today:

Variations

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:49:56 AM

Good morning. A rather odd night. It seemed like We had a very hard time getting to sleep, and maybe We did. Yet, We slept and dreamt a lot too. We began with a lot of waking dreams about Our transitioning world and how We would like to evolve Our cabin. We finished with some dreams about the illusion of separation. We visited the two rich brothers in a world that was kinda the next level up from where We visited “them” before. At the same time it was completely clear that “they” still exist in the first world where We met “them” while also living in this new (to Us) more evolved world. Of course, there really is no such thing as a “next level” and “more evolved”. It's just different, nothing more. But, it sure can seem: “new and improved”.

It is hard to believe that separation is an illusion. We are so immersed in it. It just seems sooooo real. It seems real because Our belief makes it real to Us. It is hard to believe that We are that powerful. And it is also hard to believe some of the things that We do, both waking and dreaming.

In One dream We are the sheriff in some town and a young man went on a killing spree. He killed Our son who was a witness to One of his other murders and brought Our son's body to a town meeting. We shot him in the head when he dropped the body in front of Our wife and reached for her. We woke knowing that even though We did this, We are not capable of doing it. We also felt a great love for the young man, like he was another son. Immediately, We knew that this was about believing in separation. Only in a world of separation would such a thing be possible.

We knew that We are All the actors in the dream. We could not kill the young man because We can not kill OurSelf.

It is the same with any type of suffering that We think/know/believe is real. It only exists in Our imagination but We have a very good imagination. It is a very convincing imagination and it creates (what truly appears to be) “real” proof and evi-dance for what We imagine. Most any of Us would demand: “But I know it is real, I know it is true, I know it exists.” As long as We cling to this, We are right.

In this “next level” world of the two brothers wealth and poverty do not exist for We are All equal. We are happy, and We play. This visit evolved from dreams and imaginating about how We want to evolve Our cabin and remembering the version where the front wall opens onto everything and the side wall is open to an enchanted forest. We real-eyesed that Our tomato bucket and the rest of the garden in the front is Our picture, Our visual aid of the wall opening onto everything. Looking out through these plants at the view of the forest and sky really does give a different, expanded impression.

In that “next level” world We really do grow Our dwellings. We do not need shelter for We are in tune with nature. We live in nature and have a dwelling that provides certain comforts and ease that We might not get just sleeping in the open forest. Or maybe it is just more familiar (for now) and We will comfortably evolve into sleeping in the open forest and gathering wherever spirit moves Us. Perhaps We will be nomads. That actually does seem to be more natural than being sedentary.

Then, We real-eyes that We are doing and living it All, right here and right now. We just do not believe that We are and therefore We aren't. Even though We actually are.

Confused? Welcome to Our world. Yet, it is also comforting because We know that this is what We have been seeking All of Our life/lives.

We forgot to mention that in Our dreaming/imaginating about Our cabin the Fae are very busy helping and playing and helping play.

A fairly uneventful morning but if We were just starting it would be called amazing. The kids were All in good moods. The boy who doesn't talk much was quiet at first and then got playful. The non-verbal boy had lots of smiles and seemed to really appreciate that We sat next to him.

We are going to sub on a route We've been on Once before. One boy is a real challenge, his idea of fun is whatever he is NOT supposed to do and the driver is a bit of a stickler for rules. He is also the first off and then the others are mostly playful.

There were only two kids on that route, The boy who loves to do what he is not supposed to do (at any moment) for the shear fun of it and the girl. We had a good time. The little girl collects little rocks (pebbles) the way the second grader on Our summer school route a few years ago did. She had a momma rock, a daddy rock and a baby rock and “they” went night, night when she closed her hand. God, We love these kids. We real-eyes that not many A-dults would encourage her in this but We had a great time with it.

Because, because We did not do Our regular afternoon route but subbed on another route. This gives Us more hours and less breaks and We get to meet new kids. On One section We had two non-verbal kids in wheel chairs. On that section We also had two very verbal little boys. We had great fun and conversation with the two verbals but We recognized at the time and especially afterwards that it is the non-verbals that took Us deep into other/expanded worlds. It is a journey that is amazing. It is certainly not (yet) familiar enough to be translated into 3D words. Perhaps some is “their” secret, “their” safe place.

The only disappointment is that this means We will not get to say goodbye to the boy in the wheelchair. Today was to be his last day riding with Us. However, We know that We are connected and We talked to him mentally. We hope that he is aware of this in the physical. We know that All is perfect.

The new afternoon route turned out to be a bit disappointing. It is four and One half hours and only One rider because the rest are either done for the year or on different schedules. We enjoy observing the One rider but “they” seem to be more familiar with entertaining “themSelf” and not really in to making conversation. Perhaps if We had than a few days with “them” then “they” might turn into another like the boy in the wheelchair.

It is nice to get home early and have some quality time with Our projects.

The oldest tomato plant is wilting. We are reading up on this online. We theel that it is probably the sudden extreme change in temperature. This is an unusual shift and it may not like sudden change. Imagine that???????? We moved it to a cooler less sunny spot in the window, dropped the shade and fed and watered All the plants.

We started moving things around outside so that (hopefully) We do not have a bunch of stuff in the way of doing things We want to do. We have about a hundred things that We want to do first thing so We will probably just spend the first few days dreaming. Two more days and then about a month off work.

05/20/13

Today:

Variations

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:49:56 AM

Good morning. A rather odd night. It seemed like We had a very hard time getting to sleep, and maybe We did. Yet, We slept and dreamt a lot too. We began with a lot of waking dreams about Our transitioning world and how We would like to evolve Our cabin. We finished with some dreams about the illusion of separation. We visited the two rich brothers in a world that was kinda the next level up from where We visited “them” before. At the same time it was completely clear that “they” still exist in the first world where We met “them” while also living in this new (to Us) more evolved world. Of course, there really is no such thing as a “next level” and “more evolved”. It's just different, nothing more. But, it sure can seem: “new and improved”.

It is hard to believe that separation is an illusion. We are so immersed in it. It just seems sooooo real. It seems real because Our belief makes it real to Us. It is hard to believe that We are that powerful. And it is also hard to believe some of the things that We do, both waking and dreaming.

In One dream We are the sheriff in some town and a young man went on a killing spree. He killed Our son who was a witness to One of his other murders and brought Our son's body to a town meeting. We shot him in the head when he dropped the body in front of Our wife and reached for her. We woke knowing that even though We did this, We are not capable of doing it. We also felt a great love for the young man, like he was another son. Immediately, We knew that this was about believing in separation. Only in a world of separation would such a thing be possible.

We knew that We are All the actors in the dream. We could not kill the young man because We can not kill OurSelf.

It is the same with any type of suffering that We think/know/believe is real. It only exists in Our imagination but We have a very good imagination. It is a very convincing imagination and it creates (what truly appears to be) “real” proof and evi-dance for what We imagine. Most any of Us would demand: “But I know it is real, I know it is true, I know it exists.” As long as We cling to this, We are right.

In this “next level” world of the two brothers wealth and poverty do not exist for We are All equal. We are happy, and We play. This visit evolved from dreams and imaginating about how We want to evolve Our cabin and remembering the version where the front wall opens onto everything and the side wall is open to an enchanted forest. We real-eyesed that Our tomato bucket and the rest of the garden in the front is Our picture, Our visual aid of the wall opening onto everything. Looking out through these plants at the view of the forest and sky really does give a different, expanded impression.

In that “next level” world We really do grow Our dwellings. We do not need shelter for We are in tune with nature. We live in nature and have a dwelling that provides certain comforts and ease that We might not get just sleeping in the open forest. Or maybe it is just more familiar (for now) and We will comfortably evolve into sleeping in the open forest and gathering wherever spirit moves Us. Perhaps We will be nomads. That actually does seem to be more natural than being sedentary.

Then, We real-eyes that We are doing and living it All, right here and right now. We just do not believe that We are and therefore We aren't. Even though We actually are.

Confused? Welcome to Our world. Yet, it is also comforting because We know that this is what We have been seeking All of Our life/lives.

We forgot to mention that in Our dreaming/imaginating about Our cabin the Fae are very busy helping and playing and helping play.

A fairly uneventful morning but if We were just starting it would be called amazing. The kids were All in good moods. The boy who doesn't talk much was quiet at first and then got playful. The non-verbal boy had lots of smiles and seemed to really appreciate that We sat next to him.

We are going to sub on a route We've been on Once before. One boy is a real challenge, his idea of fun is whatever he is NOT supposed to do and the driver is a bit of a stickler for rules. He is also the first off and then the others are mostly playful.

There were only two kids on that route, The boy who loves to do what he is not supposed to do (at any moment) for the shear fun of it and the girl. We had a good time. The little girl collects little rocks (pebbles) the way the second grader on Our summer school route a few years ago did. She had a momma rock, a daddy rock and a baby rock and “they” went night, night when she closed her hand. God, We love these kids. We real-eyes that not many A-dults would encourage her in this but We had a great time with it.

Because, because We did not do Our regular afternoon route but subbed on another route. This gives Us more hours and less breaks and We get to meet new kids. On One section We had two non-verbal kids in wheel chairs. On that section We also had two very verbal little boys. We had great fun and conversation with the two verbals but We recognized at the time and especially afterwards that it is the non-verbals that took Us deep into other/expanded worlds. It is a journey that is amazing. It is certainly not (yet) familiar enough to be translated into 3D words. Perhaps some is “their” secret, “their” safe place.

The only disappointment is that this means We will not get to say goodbye to the boy in the wheelchair. Today was to be his last day riding with Us. However, We know that We are connected and We talked to him mentally. We hope that he is aware of this in the physical. We know that All is perfect.

05/19/13

Today:

A day of play

Wizard's Log Star-date: 07:52:51 AM

Good morning. We had fun last night, We know that much. It does seem like there was some processing of pain and discomfort that We experience in limitation 3D. We may have released something there. It was done in an informative yet playful manner. Again there were lots of friends both new and old and We visited many alternate worlds and realities.

Here is a change, that is All We have to share right now and there is a comfortable sense that that is enough. What a nice relaxing feeling. We feel the same way about Our daily life. No sense of stress or demands like We have felt previously, even recently. A true sense of acceptance and feeling of just being: now.

We are experiencing some of the symptoms of being multidimensional (or beginning to be multidimensional). We have discussed many of these before, especially the specific Ones We are experiencing today. It is about having to concentrate on performing simple tasks. This was very frustrating to Us for many years, especially before We recognized what it was and definitely before We were aware of being multidimensional and such things. Now, We see it as an indication that We are no longer fully focused in limitation. We know it is a good thing (if there is such a thing as good). It still tends to surprise Us when it first happens, when We first real-eyes that We have slipped into expansion or zoomed out (similar to zoned out actually). It is getting more familiar and therefore more comfortable.

Today, We may decorate the five gallon bucket that We are going use for Our indoor tomato plant. We theel We want to do this but We also hesitate. The hesitation is Our perfectionist side. He (Our perfectionist) has often prevented Us from starting many things. Our playful side is eager and anxious and does not care how it turns out. Now Our perfectionist is really screaming. We wonder how to appease him? We do not want to kill him as much as We would like to just kill him and be done with it. We know it would not work and We do love him as much as We love any part(s) of OurSelves. Perhaps that is All he really needs: to know that is loved and has a position and place even if We do not recognize that place right now. We will know it when it arises. In the meantime he can just sit back and relax but he is not real good at that.

As We contemplate things that We want to do, build and grow around here We think about making it playful. We have been heading in this direction ever since We first moved here. The thing is that We have (often) gotten distracted along the way. As We envisioned making a spring-loaded floor in front of Our swing We had a vision of the Fae playing, jumping and laughing All over the place. What a One-der-full vision. We recognize (again) that We need to let go in order to create what We really desire, Our heart's desire. Our normal tendency is to plan and stress. This blocks Us at every turn. When We let go, then Our heart(s) and Our universe and Our friends are free to work “their” magik.

Open, let go, allow.

We just watched a video from Next World TV about building an earthen house by hand. It gives Us many ideas and some information for beginning. We have this (sort of) vision of building, converting and growing this cabin into an earthen or Hobbit house. The video gave Us more ideas, information and inspiration. Something(s) that has hindered Us in the passed is Our impatience and feeling We lacked “time” to do what We want with this cabin in an eco friendly manner. These hindrances are part of Our societal thinking and the traps We set to keep Us locked into limitation. There are many ways to accomplish what We desire. Dreaming and imagination alone provide several ways. Learning to allow the process to be fun and take as long as it takes opens the door to other methods.

Releasing Our preconceived limits is important and it is happening. We continue to have experiences of living in multirealities. These are little episodes and/or experiences that We (personally and collectively) usually deny and/or explain away. We get to do that just as long as We want to. When We are ready We can begin to give it (denial) up and: open, let go, allow.

We have started decorating Our tomato bucket. A lot of this is about letting go of perfectionism and giving OurSelf permission to change and change Our mind(s). Big life lessons in little ways.

We are spending Our day playing. It's cool. It's fun. Apparently deciding to decorate Our tomato bucket brought Out Our playfulness more than Our perfectionist.

It doesn't look like We will be going for rock for the driveway because We don't want to. We real-eyes that later We may wish We had, but somehow, that too will change.

Oh, BTW, the weather/sky cleared up and the sun is out bright. It still hasn't gotten much about freezing but it still feels and looks pretty good. Too cold to do very much outside but nice enough to do/play a little.

05/18/13

Today:

A

Wizard's Log Star-date: 07:19:09 AM

Good morning. What a fun night. Too bad We don't remember anything. Well, We remember having a lot of fun. We remember as We woke thinking and telling someOne that it is probably because when We were a kid Our parents took Us to the mountains a lot.

Yesterday from time to time and just before going to dream, We were thinking that another reason We are not remembering Our dreams as much is that We are not as attached to those lives/worlds and do not feel as stuck in this One as We used to be. Even though We still see mostly only this limitation 3D when We look around We feel and know that there is more and it is also here. This knowing is stronger than it used to be. It feels real to Us, not just empty knowledge. Again We remind OurSelf that it is not surprising that We do not see anything (or much) more because We are not primarily visual. We All-ways feel first. It is part of limitation training to think We should see anything and everything that is real. This is important.

We are finding more and more that most others are having different experiences based on different choices while at the same time more and more teachers and leaders are saying what We are finding and feeling. We know that We are breaking trail and for the most part, We are fine with that. Others are breaking different trails and that is perfect. Over seven billion of Us are never gonna fit on One path. If there were only One path, why would We need seven billion people? Each set of I's sees something different, each set of feet walk a slightly different path. Then, We each contribute Our experience and knowledge with the collective. It makes a perfect soup.

More and more We are releasing Our attachment to outcomes and plans and shoulds and musts. We are finding it easier and easier to stay in the now, except when We don't. But We are okay (well, sometimes We are) with whatever happens. Right now (and now is really All there is and We are beginning to actually believe and live that) if We find OurSelf going around the mountain One more time that is okay. We may need to repeat the same experience, the same lesson over and over to fully get it. That used to frustrate Us and it may frustrate Us again tomorrow but right now it is perfectly okay.

Our expanded world and dwelling place feel very present. So far We have not gotten as much as predicted. It is only a slight covering and the sun is out and could (if it chooses) melt All the snow quite quickly. We are practicing staying in the now. There is a fine balance between being stuck and being here AND there yet staying in the now. Thinking about and planning the future is not being in the now. Experiencing the future in the now not the same as planning it. We know this can be confusing. It must be experienced to be fully understood and clear.

We are only just beginning and We feel like it may feel that way for a long, long time. However, it is now (right now) familiar enough that it is no longer frustrating. Right now We feel like We could start over (or feel like We are starting over) every morning and it would feel fine. That was NOT the case a short time ago. This is One of the gifts the kids are giving Us. It probably takes the special kids to show this to Us.

As We look at Our tomato plants We theel that We may need to stake those which We have not staked yet. We have been keeping “them” growing mostly straight by turning the pots often. Now, it looks like even that may not be enough. We also think that if might be a good idea to watch the video about pruning tomato plants soon. We are also thinking that We might want to get some more rock for Our driveway this weekend. The thing is that today, We are not attaching to any of these thoughts. We no longer feel that the world will come crashing down upon Us if We do NOT get everything done. In fact, it will not come crashing down if We do NOT get anything done. We like this world that does not (and will not) crash down upon Us. We are grateful to have discovered this world.

When We mix Our worlds (a blinding flash of the obvious here) it gets confusing. We do this All the time without being aware of it (for the most part for most of Us anyway). As Our awareness grows, it can get less frustrating and confusing if We let it. We (personally anyway) have been experiencing this more and more in Our daily life and today We are getting several doses. (“Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down”) We have spoken of this before (missing objects appearing right where We looked for “them”, etc.) but from a slightly different perspective. We have All-ways called it slipping and sliding into “other” realities and/or worlds. This idea of mixing, of the overlapping is not really new, yet............. It is All right here, right now. Another old concept that We are exploring anew. The truths We have known and sought for eons are becoming “real” and experiential in Our daily life. And there is more to come. We just know it, We feel it AND We are right. Unless We choose otherwise.

Somehow, someway We felt uncomfortable before We went to town. We could not seem to identify what it is but it feels like We needed to go dream and did not feel We had time. While We were visiting Our friends We got it that We actually did slip out of focus. We have done this to a lesser degree while visiting these friends before. EveryOne has had this experience in One degree or another. We call it zoning out. It is a real place and experience if We allow it to be.

We get it that this is the feeling of discomfort We experienced. The head is not used to being detached and it resists in any way it can. Sending sensations of discomfort is One of many ways. The head wants to attach. Yes, We All long to be free and fly BUT when We begin to venture into these realms We put on the brakes.

05/17/13

Today:

A short entry for a long day

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:25:22 AM

Good morning. Again We played in many worlds and while We were doing it We were aware that We were not going to remember much (if anything) when We woke. Just before waking We were working in a circus. As We woke We wondered if it was really a circus or just so chaotic it seemed like a circus. We are certain this was brought on by Our being exposed to more of the chaos at work yesterday than We usually are. It was a day of seeing clearly the world others are still living in and We used to live in.

Afterwards We definitely felt disconnected from Our better feeling state that We usually live in these days. We thought it was Our reaction to what happened but Our reaction was about as level headed as We can imagine. It was just from being jerked out of connection and increased limitlessness back into separation mentality and extreme limitation.

It was a good lesson and experience even if was NOT pleasant. Even now We can feel Our head wanting to get back in and tear things up. We do NOT choose to go there. That is NOT where We live any more. We choose to see the world as it really is not as the collective is pretending it is.

We are finding that We are invited and even encouraged (by head and ego and Our others) to re-enter the old thinking, beliefs and mindset. We are gratefull that We are aware of this and can choose to leaf the old in its world and live in a world that is transitioning into new and expanded ways of living/being. We used to feel that We had to play in the cesspool and many still feel this way. Now, We know that it is not true. We really can choose a better feeling thought and We do. This better feeling thought really does lead Us into a better world. One of many.

Several of Our gradeschoolers did not ride today. The Ones that did ride were happy and had a good time.

It started raining and it has turned into snow. The forecast is now for a possible three inches of snow. WTF? Over.

The highschooler is a lot of fun. It is a very interesting connection that We have made. It is nice to be able to really joke around have fun with someOne that age.

We are having some more thoughts and insights about letting go and allowing whatever might be possible.

Now, We are going to visit Our dream world(s).

There is something We wanted to share, what is it? It is about, oh yeah:

There is sooooo much that seems to demand Our attention. We are thinking of the word “trappings” and how it applies to so much of Our waking lives. Trappings are decorations and what We usually/normally think of as real and important is/are the trappings (a set or series of traps) that We fall into. We fall for the same trick/trap over and over and We make fun of others when We see “them” doing it while We blindly fall for Our own tricks and traps. As long as We think that it (whatever it might be) is important then it is important. As long as We think We will die if We do NOT do it, or attain it then We will die if We do not do or have it. And even if We don't actually die it will feel like We did.

As long as We believe that what We see is All that is real, then what We see is All that is real to Us.

In order to have more We must let go and that is very scary for most of Us. It flies in the face of nearly everything We have been taught, told and believe. There is something about a well camouflaged trap. The funny thing is (but nobody is laughing) that Our snare is made of spider webs or something even lighter than that. It has absolutely no power to hold Us.