Written 1/22/09
I had a dream last night about working in a club, like a social club, for people who were learning to Use "their" psychic powers. It was quite interesting. Don't know if I would actually like a job doing that or not. I worked at the Alano Club (that's for members of AA) My first 5 years here. I really don't need to repeat that and the dream was a lot like that.
This IS what We ARE doing
THIS IS WHAT WE ARE DOING (Picture found on Facebook, artist unknown)
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Even more thoughts 1/22/09
Our leaders reflect Us. "They" reflect the masses, and "they" reflect Us personally. I don't think any of Us fully get that. We may get it that "they" reflect the masses, the choices of the masses, and the dream of the mass consciousness, but not the totally personal reflection of OurSelf. This applies to elected leaders, appointed leaders and Self-proclaimed leaders.
The Reconnections tell Us that We create Our world from everything. We are the casting director, We wrote the script (with stage directions included) and We direct the acting. We may give the actors some latitude in exactly how "they" play "their" part, but We remain in control and can stop the production and make changes at any time. All of this is very hard to fully integrate, because most of Us are totally unaware of doing any of this.
Most of Us continue to think that We are the result of Our collective uni-verse, when actually Our uni-verse is the result of Us personally.
We see what We project, nothing more and nothing less.
Of course, it is up to each person whether to believe any of this, or believe that someOne outside of Us makes the choices. And whatever each of Us believes is totally valid and will be honored in "their" uni-verse.
As Richard Bach wrote: "Everything in this book may be wrong."
The Reconnections tell Us that We create Our world from everything. We are the casting director, We wrote the script (with stage directions included) and We direct the acting. We may give the actors some latitude in exactly how "they" play "their" part, but We remain in control and can stop the production and make changes at any time. All of this is very hard to fully integrate, because most of Us are totally unaware of doing any of this.
Most of Us continue to think that We are the result of Our collective uni-verse, when actually Our uni-verse is the result of Us personally.
We see what We project, nothing more and nothing less.
Of course, it is up to each person whether to believe any of this, or believe that someOne outside of Us makes the choices. And whatever each of Us believes is totally valid and will be honored in "their" uni-verse.
As Richard Bach wrote: "Everything in this book may be wrong."
More thoughts 1/22/09
I believe that Our dreams are BOTH literal and symbolic.
If We believe in Oneness then those We look for are lost parts of OurSelf. "They" may be rejects or castaways, or simply misplaced or forgotten.
To a lost child, it doesn't much matter if We are rejected or simply misplaced (at least at first) either way We are alone and usually frightened. Given enough time, the lost child is able to ponder whether "they" are rejected or misplaced and form whatever judgments and reactions feel appropriate.
When We find these lost aspects, and begin to incorporate "them" back into Our life, Our reality, Our world becomes much more picturesque and limitless.
If We believe in Oneness then those We look for are lost parts of OurSelf. "They" may be rejects or castaways, or simply misplaced or forgotten.
To a lost child, it doesn't much matter if We are rejected or simply misplaced (at least at first) either way We are alone and usually frightened. Given enough time, the lost child is able to ponder whether "they" are rejected or misplaced and form whatever judgments and reactions feel appropriate.
When We find these lost aspects, and begin to incorporate "them" back into Our life, Our reality, Our world becomes much more picturesque and limitless.
Thots 1/22/09
I believe Our dreams hold keys, that is why I like to share Mine whenever possible. Even before I was consciously aware of dreaming (with a few rare exceptions) I knew that I did My best work in My dreams. This was hard to accept, when I didn't even know that I was dreaming.
I believe We do hold the answers, at least Our Own answers, We just haven't remembered yet. I think dreams are Our way of remembering.
The Reconnections ( http://www.reconnections.net/index2.htm ) tell Us that the only illusion is that what We see is All there is. We create Our reality, not out of nothing, but out of everything. WE only include what is pertinent to Us at the time.
The Reconnections also teach that the only healing We need is complete remembering.
I believe We do hold the answers, at least Our Own answers, We just haven't remembered yet. I think dreams are Our way of remembering.
The Reconnections ( http://www.reconnections.net/index2.htm ) tell Us that the only illusion is that what We see is All there is. We create Our reality, not out of nothing, but out of everything. WE only include what is pertinent to Us at the time.
The Reconnections also teach that the only healing We need is complete remembering.
Dreams #53
Written 1/21/09
The last few nights have been full of many dreams but I haven't been able to describe "them" with words.
Last night I had One in particular that was very clear. I was repeating My mantras as I usually do while I drifted off: "Opening My mind, expanding My awareness. Deeper and deeper, remembering, remembering." Repeating these over and over.
There was a group of Youngstars standing with "their" feet firmly planted on the earth, reaching for the stars. "They" were reaching with "their" hands, but even more "they" were reaching with "their" minds. In this way "they" were reaching much further than We would think is humanly possible. "They" appeared to stretch and grow much taller than the trees and even taller than the mountains, reaching for the stars.
The Youngstars were pulling down power and energy from the sky. The energy flowed through "them" and into the earth. Huge amounts of power and energy were flowing through "them" so that "they" were glowing and shimmering, standing and pulling energy from the sky.
There was a group of Us Olders standing fairly near the Youngstars watching and We began sending energy to the Youngstars. We sent acceptance, encouragement, strength, hope and belief. "You are strong, We believe in You, We trust You, You hold the answers. Your veil is thinner than Ours, Your minds are less cluttered than Ours and We are All the answer."
This energy flowed from the Olders to the Youngstars, and energy flowed back from the Youngstars to the Olders while the energy continued to flow from the sky into the earth. Energy began to also flow from the earth. These different directions of flow set up a circular motion and even a spherical flow. It started a spinning of energy, rather than just a linear flow through a single pipe or vessel.
As We know, at least in earth's atmosphere, spinning energy creates heat and generates more energy.
I vaguely remembered a story (I think from mythology) of men trying to pull down or actually tear down All the energy (the gods) from the heavens. This was not the intent of the Youngstars or the Olders and I was reminded how perspective can change a story.
If an observer thought the gods evil, then the Youngstars could have been trying to tear down and/or destroy the evil gods who tormented humans and kept "them" trapped and caged.
If the gods are benevolent and the Youngstars evil then the Youngstars could be trying to steal from the gods and hoard the power for "themSelves".
If an observer thought either the Youngstars or the Olders were good or bad, then sending of energy back and forth could look like an attack. I was reminded of how We portray a wizard's war, or battling dragons.
Change Our perspective and what We see changes. This was a dream of sharing, encouragement and empowerment.
The last few nights have been full of many dreams but I haven't been able to describe "them" with words.
Last night I had One in particular that was very clear. I was repeating My mantras as I usually do while I drifted off: "Opening My mind, expanding My awareness. Deeper and deeper, remembering, remembering." Repeating these over and over.
There was a group of Youngstars standing with "their" feet firmly planted on the earth, reaching for the stars. "They" were reaching with "their" hands, but even more "they" were reaching with "their" minds. In this way "they" were reaching much further than We would think is humanly possible. "They" appeared to stretch and grow much taller than the trees and even taller than the mountains, reaching for the stars.
The Youngstars were pulling down power and energy from the sky. The energy flowed through "them" and into the earth. Huge amounts of power and energy were flowing through "them" so that "they" were glowing and shimmering, standing and pulling energy from the sky.
There was a group of Us Olders standing fairly near the Youngstars watching and We began sending energy to the Youngstars. We sent acceptance, encouragement, strength, hope and belief. "You are strong, We believe in You, We trust You, You hold the answers. Your veil is thinner than Ours, Your minds are less cluttered than Ours and We are All the answer."
This energy flowed from the Olders to the Youngstars, and energy flowed back from the Youngstars to the Olders while the energy continued to flow from the sky into the earth. Energy began to also flow from the earth. These different directions of flow set up a circular motion and even a spherical flow. It started a spinning of energy, rather than just a linear flow through a single pipe or vessel.
As We know, at least in earth's atmosphere, spinning energy creates heat and generates more energy.
I vaguely remembered a story (I think from mythology) of men trying to pull down or actually tear down All the energy (the gods) from the heavens. This was not the intent of the Youngstars or the Olders and I was reminded how perspective can change a story.
If an observer thought the gods evil, then the Youngstars could have been trying to tear down and/or destroy the evil gods who tormented humans and kept "them" trapped and caged.
If the gods are benevolent and the Youngstars evil then the Youngstars could be trying to steal from the gods and hoard the power for "themSelves".
If an observer thought either the Youngstars or the Olders were good or bad, then sending of energy back and forth could look like an attack. I was reminded of how We portray a wizard's war, or battling dragons.
Change Our perspective and what We see changes. This was a dream of sharing, encouragement and empowerment.
More thoughts 1/11/09
Had some simultaneous dreams last night, first time that I'm aware of. Several dreams at the same time. I think it is about becoming aware of and participating in or observing several realities at Once. I All-ways wondered how that would work, now I'm starting to experience it. As You might guess it's rather confusing at first and at this point I couldn't even begin to describe it.
Thots 1/11/09
Interesting that this full moon is also on 1:11:11
Lots of dreams about entering the new paradigm, or facing the choice of staying with the old ways or moving into the new. All the dreams are in other realities, but the common theme is coming to the point of needing to decide whether to move into a new way of living or stick with the old. Definitely wanting to move into the new, but not knowing how. Feeling like it is gonna be One of those decisions where I/We don't see the way until We start walking the path. All the dreams involve giving up something that I see as vital to My security and/or survival without knowing how to function without this.
Lots of dreams about entering the new paradigm, or facing the choice of staying with the old ways or moving into the new. All the dreams are in other realities, but the common theme is coming to the point of needing to decide whether to move into a new way of living or stick with the old. Definitely wanting to move into the new, but not knowing how. Feeling like it is gonna be One of those decisions where I/We don't see the way until We start walking the path. All the dreams involve giving up something that I see as vital to My security and/or survival without knowing how to function without this.
Dreams #52
Written 1/10/09
Since I have started remembering My dreams, I have had dreams interspersed here and there of a reality(ies) where I Am still doing catering. These are actually good, happy dreams but do not make Me happy because I quit catering several times and All-ways went back until I moved here 16 years ago. The owner of that company died a few years after I moved here, but in these dreams he is still alive and I still work for him. Catering is very, very hard work and very stressful. I have no regrets that I left and stayed away. The reality where I still do catering is not One I ever wish to visit in waking. In dream it is quite different and I'm OK with the dreams, kind of, a little bit, barely, OK, I lied.
The latest One is repetitive and ongoing. In this One I Am doing a political party at the restaurant I worked at before I started catering. I Am working quite close with the person in charge of the party and We become good friends. We know that the owner of the catering company is dieing and that My job will end when he dies.
This party is very, very successful and leads to a new job for Me working for or with the person who was in charge.
I feel, know this is very significant (especially) right now. It is about something new evolving from the old and encompassing the old. Many times many people think the old will pass away to make room for the new. As far as I can see that is still the predominant choice for the next paradigm/reality. However it is not My choice. (Notice the owner is dieing and I move on) So, both realities happen and play out. Some will see the old dieing and something totally new and different beginning, and some will move into a new that is birthed from the old.
This is also the main reason why I continue at My present job rather than jumping ship and seeking something that "looks" more new paradigm. This company "looks" like everything We DON'T want in a new age company, and yet I feel it is important and part of My plan (a plan I Am mostly unaware of) to ride this out. My method of operation (previously) has All-ways been that when I see signs of trouble and indications of the company failing I jump ship and find a safe and solid shore.
Since I have started remembering My dreams, I have had dreams interspersed here and there of a reality(ies) where I Am still doing catering. These are actually good, happy dreams but do not make Me happy because I quit catering several times and All-ways went back until I moved here 16 years ago. The owner of that company died a few years after I moved here, but in these dreams he is still alive and I still work for him. Catering is very, very hard work and very stressful. I have no regrets that I left and stayed away. The reality where I still do catering is not One I ever wish to visit in waking. In dream it is quite different and I'm OK with the dreams, kind of, a little bit, barely, OK, I lied.
The latest One is repetitive and ongoing. In this One I Am doing a political party at the restaurant I worked at before I started catering. I Am working quite close with the person in charge of the party and We become good friends. We know that the owner of the catering company is dieing and that My job will end when he dies.
This party is very, very successful and leads to a new job for Me working for or with the person who was in charge.
I feel, know this is very significant (especially) right now. It is about something new evolving from the old and encompassing the old. Many times many people think the old will pass away to make room for the new. As far as I can see that is still the predominant choice for the next paradigm/reality. However it is not My choice. (Notice the owner is dieing and I move on) So, both realities happen and play out. Some will see the old dieing and something totally new and different beginning, and some will move into a new that is birthed from the old.
This is also the main reason why I continue at My present job rather than jumping ship and seeking something that "looks" more new paradigm. This company "looks" like everything We DON'T want in a new age company, and yet I feel it is important and part of My plan (a plan I Am mostly unaware of) to ride this out. My method of operation (previously) has All-ways been that when I see signs of trouble and indications of the company failing I jump ship and find a safe and solid shore.
Dreams #51
Written 1/6/09
I actually remember several dreams from last night but One was significant.
I was going to a book store in a shopping mall to pick up a book I had ordered. I noticed a lot of youngstars who had paint and makeup on "their" faces and the paint continued on down "their" clothes, like it was running down from "their" faces and oozing from "their" skin. It was mostly white with shades of gray and black and lots of red. I assumed the red represented (or was) blood.
I overheard One youngstar talking to an authoritative, reprimanding, argumentative A-dult. The gr'up said: "So this is Your way of encouraging such behavior, hurting and even killing people?"
The youngstar calmly replied: "This is My way of resisting the desire to practice that behavior."
I was intrigued.
I went into the bookstore where there were several more youngstars in this guise. Most of the staff was engaged in conversation with these youngstars and it seemed "they" were All friends. The guy that waited on Me noticed My interest. He told Me the price (over $100) and I said I probably should have checked the price ahead of time. I pulled out My wallet and because I needed $100, I found a 100 dollar bill that was torn and wadded up amidst other bills. The worker could tell that I had not thought I had that much money with Me.
We started talking about the paint and makeup and it was obvious that if it weren't for the job, this guy would be made up the same. As I was about to leave, I handed One of "them" My card and said: "I real-eyes You All-ready have plenty of friends, but I don't. I'd like to get to know You."
SomeOne replied: "You want to help Us? You want to FIX Us?"
"Actually, I was hoping You could help Me. I was hoping We might 'fix' the world."
At that point "they" wanted to go somewhere and hang out. I don't mind saying that it was a bit frightening going anywhere with a large group of youngstars who wanted to hurt people and make "them" bleed. However, I knew inside that I would be safe so I joined "them". The staff told Us to return at closing time and pick "them" up.
As We were leaving I noticed another group of youngstars (obviously avoiding and disdainful of the first group) dressed in stylish, probably preppy attire.
We talked about this desire to hurt and lash out at people. I noticed some had scars and asked if "they" were cutters. "They" told Me that "they" let the others vent by cutting "them" rather than cutting strangers, and that "they" All got a kind of thrill from this.
I told the youngstars that this desire to lash out is because "they" have been lied to, "they" have been conned, "they" have been locked in cages and "they" know it deep down but don't know how to change it. I told "them" that society is designed to keep Us All in Our places and subservient and obedient to the "greater good" no matter what the price.
I told "them" that We are waking to this, but that as long as We blame others, We continue this same bondage. We are powerful and We gave this power to society. I told "them" I needed "them" to awaken not just to the injustice that had been done "them" but also to the fact that "they" did it to "themSelves".
We discussed this for a long time and each time I returned to the dream We were continuing to hang out, eat snacks, play games and continue talking about OurSelves and what We knew about this bondage We felt We were in. When some changed out of "their" painted clothes, "they" were adamant: "but We are going to keep Our faces on."
I actually remember several dreams from last night but One was significant.
I was going to a book store in a shopping mall to pick up a book I had ordered. I noticed a lot of youngstars who had paint and makeup on "their" faces and the paint continued on down "their" clothes, like it was running down from "their" faces and oozing from "their" skin. It was mostly white with shades of gray and black and lots of red. I assumed the red represented (or was) blood.
I overheard One youngstar talking to an authoritative, reprimanding, argumentative A-dult. The gr'up said: "So this is Your way of encouraging such behavior, hurting and even killing people?"
The youngstar calmly replied: "This is My way of resisting the desire to practice that behavior."
I was intrigued.
I went into the bookstore where there were several more youngstars in this guise. Most of the staff was engaged in conversation with these youngstars and it seemed "they" were All friends. The guy that waited on Me noticed My interest. He told Me the price (over $100) and I said I probably should have checked the price ahead of time. I pulled out My wallet and because I needed $100, I found a 100 dollar bill that was torn and wadded up amidst other bills. The worker could tell that I had not thought I had that much money with Me.
We started talking about the paint and makeup and it was obvious that if it weren't for the job, this guy would be made up the same. As I was about to leave, I handed One of "them" My card and said: "I real-eyes You All-ready have plenty of friends, but I don't. I'd like to get to know You."
SomeOne replied: "You want to help Us? You want to FIX Us?"
"Actually, I was hoping You could help Me. I was hoping We might 'fix' the world."
At that point "they" wanted to go somewhere and hang out. I don't mind saying that it was a bit frightening going anywhere with a large group of youngstars who wanted to hurt people and make "them" bleed. However, I knew inside that I would be safe so I joined "them". The staff told Us to return at closing time and pick "them" up.
As We were leaving I noticed another group of youngstars (obviously avoiding and disdainful of the first group) dressed in stylish, probably preppy attire.
We talked about this desire to hurt and lash out at people. I noticed some had scars and asked if "they" were cutters. "They" told Me that "they" let the others vent by cutting "them" rather than cutting strangers, and that "they" All got a kind of thrill from this.
I told the youngstars that this desire to lash out is because "they" have been lied to, "they" have been conned, "they" have been locked in cages and "they" know it deep down but don't know how to change it. I told "them" that society is designed to keep Us All in Our places and subservient and obedient to the "greater good" no matter what the price.
I told "them" that We are waking to this, but that as long as We blame others, We continue this same bondage. We are powerful and We gave this power to society. I told "them" I needed "them" to awaken not just to the injustice that had been done "them" but also to the fact that "they" did it to "themSelves".
We discussed this for a long time and each time I returned to the dream We were continuing to hang out, eat snacks, play games and continue talking about OurSelves and what We knew about this bondage We felt We were in. When some changed out of "their" painted clothes, "they" were adamant: "but We are going to keep Our faces on."
Dreams #50
Written 1/5/09
The last few nights I have been continuing to dream of being with/in/at the colony/collective/hive/coven/warren. It's not really a repetitive dream, but very similar each time.
I simply go to or find MySelf at this huge building or catacomb where there are probably thousands of other whatever We ares. (I think of vampires, but it could just as easily be Starchildren. I just tend to automatically think of vampires in a collective more than Starkids but this may need to expand at this time. Of course, "they" can also be both.)
There isn't really any action, We just feel each other's presence and Our connection. We feel and deeply experience the love, the energy flowing between Us. Hour after hour, night after night feeling this connection, this energy.
As I thought about this it felt like We are drawing, collecting, gathering and gaining energy. Some type of build up.
It is a One-der-full feeling and very enjoyable to experience this deep connection and love and energy flowing between Us. Definitely orgasmic without any physical contact. As far as I can tell each of Us is in a separate cubicle (I guess that is the best word). Think of many small caves in a cavern or the little spaces inside a honeycomb.
It seems that sometimes this is a building above ground and sometimes a dwelling underground so it is probably at least a couple of different places. I have no recognition of any specific individuals so I don't know if the groups are the same each time or different. There is simply this feeling of many times many other beings present. All giving and All receiving.
The last few nights I have been continuing to dream of being with/in/at the colony/collective/hive/coven/warren. It's not really a repetitive dream, but very similar each time.
I simply go to or find MySelf at this huge building or catacomb where there are probably thousands of other whatever We ares. (I think of vampires, but it could just as easily be Starchildren. I just tend to automatically think of vampires in a collective more than Starkids but this may need to expand at this time. Of course, "they" can also be both.)
There isn't really any action, We just feel each other's presence and Our connection. We feel and deeply experience the love, the energy flowing between Us. Hour after hour, night after night feeling this connection, this energy.
As I thought about this it felt like We are drawing, collecting, gathering and gaining energy. Some type of build up.
It is a One-der-full feeling and very enjoyable to experience this deep connection and love and energy flowing between Us. Definitely orgasmic without any physical contact. As far as I can tell each of Us is in a separate cubicle (I guess that is the best word). Think of many small caves in a cavern or the little spaces inside a honeycomb.
It seems that sometimes this is a building above ground and sometimes a dwelling underground so it is probably at least a couple of different places. I have no recognition of any specific individuals so I don't know if the groups are the same each time or different. There is simply this feeling of many times many other beings present. All giving and All receiving.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Dreams #49
Written 1/6/09
I actually remember several but One was significant.
I was going to a book store in a shopping mall to pick up a book I had ordered. I noticed a lot of youngstars who had paint and makeup on "their" faces and the paint continued on down "their" clothes, like it was running down from "their" faces and oozing from "their" skin. It was mostly white with shades of gray and black and lots of red. I assumed the red represented (or was) blood.
I overheard One youngstar talking to an authoritative, reprimanding, argumentative A-dult. The gr'up said: "So this is Your way of encouraging such behavior, hurting and even killing people?"
The youngstar calmly replied: "This is My way of resisting the desire to practice that behavior."
I was intrigued.
I went into the bookstore where there were several more youngstars in this guise. Most of the staff was engaged in conversation with these youngstars and it seemed "they" were All friends. The guy that waited on Me noticed My interest. He told Me the price (over $100) and I said I probably should have checked the price ahead of time. I pulled out My wallet and because I needed $100, I found a 100 dollar bill that was torn and wadded up amidst other bills. The worker could tell that I had not thought I had that much money with Me.
We started talking about the paint and makeup and it was obvious that if it weren't for the job, this guy would be made up the same. As I was about to leave, I handed One of "them" My card and said: "I real-eyes You All-ready have plenty of friends, but I don't. I'd like to get to know You."
SomeOne replied: "You want to help Us? You want to FIX Us?"
"Actually, I was hoping You could help Me. I was hoping We might 'fix' the world."
At that point "they" wanted to go somewhere and hang out. I don't mind saying that it was a bit frightening going anywhere with a large group of youngstars who wanted to hurt people and make "them" bleed. However, I knew inside that I would be safe so I joined "them". The staff told Us to return at closing time and pick "them" up.
As We were leaving I noticed another group of youngstars (obviously avoiding and disdainful of the first group) dressed in stylish, probably preppy attire.
We talked about this desire to hurt and lash out at people. I noticed some had scars and asked if "they" were cutters. "They" told Me that "they" let the others vent by cutting "them" rather than strangers, and that "they" got a kind of thrill from this.
I told the youngstars that this desire to lash out is because "they" have been lied to, "they" have been conned, "they" have been locked in cages and "they" know it deep down but don't know how to change it. I told "them" that society is designed to keep Us All in Our places and subservient and obedient to the "greater good" no matter what the price.
I explained that I had felt and feel the same but that I buried My feelings very deep. Because of this burial My resentments and rebellions came out differently, but still came out. I just did not wear these feelings of being trapped, lied to and that there is something terribly wrong as close to the surface as "they" do. In order for Me to heal and wake, I need these youngstars help.
I told "them" that We are waking to this, but that as long as We blame others, We continue this same bondage. We are powerful and We gave this power to society. I told "them" I needed "them" to awaken not just to the injustice that had been done "them" but also to the fact that "they" did it to "themSelves".
We discussed this for a long time and each time I returned to the dream We were continuing to hang out, eat snacks, play games and continue talking about OurSelves and what We knew about this bondage We felt We were in. When some changed out of "their" painted clothes, "they" were adamant: "but We are going to keep Our faces on."
Later I talked about the reason We All connected and were getting on so well is that We are part of each other. I told "them" that if We try to explain this and figure it out We are using finite thinking and We limit Our possibilities. If We accept that We are part of each other then We begin to peek into Our ability to think in infinite terms and expand Our possibilities.
Because We are All part of each other, I need help to move forward.
I actually remember several but One was significant.
I was going to a book store in a shopping mall to pick up a book I had ordered. I noticed a lot of youngstars who had paint and makeup on "their" faces and the paint continued on down "their" clothes, like it was running down from "their" faces and oozing from "their" skin. It was mostly white with shades of gray and black and lots of red. I assumed the red represented (or was) blood.
I overheard One youngstar talking to an authoritative, reprimanding, argumentative A-dult. The gr'up said: "So this is Your way of encouraging such behavior, hurting and even killing people?"
The youngstar calmly replied: "This is My way of resisting the desire to practice that behavior."
I was intrigued.
I went into the bookstore where there were several more youngstars in this guise. Most of the staff was engaged in conversation with these youngstars and it seemed "they" were All friends. The guy that waited on Me noticed My interest. He told Me the price (over $100) and I said I probably should have checked the price ahead of time. I pulled out My wallet and because I needed $100, I found a 100 dollar bill that was torn and wadded up amidst other bills. The worker could tell that I had not thought I had that much money with Me.
We started talking about the paint and makeup and it was obvious that if it weren't for the job, this guy would be made up the same. As I was about to leave, I handed One of "them" My card and said: "I real-eyes You All-ready have plenty of friends, but I don't. I'd like to get to know You."
SomeOne replied: "You want to help Us? You want to FIX Us?"
"Actually, I was hoping You could help Me. I was hoping We might 'fix' the world."
At that point "they" wanted to go somewhere and hang out. I don't mind saying that it was a bit frightening going anywhere with a large group of youngstars who wanted to hurt people and make "them" bleed. However, I knew inside that I would be safe so I joined "them". The staff told Us to return at closing time and pick "them" up.
As We were leaving I noticed another group of youngstars (obviously avoiding and disdainful of the first group) dressed in stylish, probably preppy attire.
We talked about this desire to hurt and lash out at people. I noticed some had scars and asked if "they" were cutters. "They" told Me that "they" let the others vent by cutting "them" rather than strangers, and that "they" got a kind of thrill from this.
I told the youngstars that this desire to lash out is because "they" have been lied to, "they" have been conned, "they" have been locked in cages and "they" know it deep down but don't know how to change it. I told "them" that society is designed to keep Us All in Our places and subservient and obedient to the "greater good" no matter what the price.
I explained that I had felt and feel the same but that I buried My feelings very deep. Because of this burial My resentments and rebellions came out differently, but still came out. I just did not wear these feelings of being trapped, lied to and that there is something terribly wrong as close to the surface as "they" do. In order for Me to heal and wake, I need these youngstars help.
I told "them" that We are waking to this, but that as long as We blame others, We continue this same bondage. We are powerful and We gave this power to society. I told "them" I needed "them" to awaken not just to the injustice that had been done "them" but also to the fact that "they" did it to "themSelves".
We discussed this for a long time and each time I returned to the dream We were continuing to hang out, eat snacks, play games and continue talking about OurSelves and what We knew about this bondage We felt We were in. When some changed out of "their" painted clothes, "they" were adamant: "but We are going to keep Our faces on."
Later I talked about the reason We All connected and were getting on so well is that We are part of each other. I told "them" that if We try to explain this and figure it out We are using finite thinking and We limit Our possibilities. If We accept that We are part of each other then We begin to peek into Our ability to think in infinite terms and expand Our possibilities.
Because We are All part of each other, I need help to move forward.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Dreams #48
Written 1/5/09
The last few nights I have been continuing to dream of being with/in/at the colony/collective/hive/coven/warren. It's not really a repetitive dream, but very similar each time.
I simply go to (or find MySelf at) this huge building or catacomb where there are probably thousands of other whatever We ares. (I think of vampires, but it could just as easily be Starchildren. I just tend to automatically think of vampires in a collective more than Starkids but this may need to expand at this time. Of course, "they" can also be both.)
There isn't really any action, We just feel each other's presence and Our connection. We feel and deeply experience the love, the energy flowing between Us. Hour after hour, night after night feeling this connection, this energy.
As I thought about this it felt like We are drawing, collecting, gathering and gaining energy. Some type of build up.
It is a One-der-full feeling and very enjoyable to experience this deep connection and love and energy flowing between Us. Definitely orgasmic without any physical contact. As far as I can tell each of Us is in a separate cubicle (I guess that is the best word). Think of many small caves in a cavern or the little spaces inside a honeycomb.
It seems that sometimes this is a building above ground and sometimes a dwelling underground so it is probably at least a couple of different places. I have no recognition of any specific individuals so I don't know if the groups are the same each time or different. There is simply this feeling of many times many other beings present. All giving and All receiving.
The last few nights I have been continuing to dream of being with/in/at the colony/collective/hive/coven/warren. It's not really a repetitive dream, but very similar each time.
I simply go to (or find MySelf at) this huge building or catacomb where there are probably thousands of other whatever We ares. (I think of vampires, but it could just as easily be Starchildren. I just tend to automatically think of vampires in a collective more than Starkids but this may need to expand at this time. Of course, "they" can also be both.)
There isn't really any action, We just feel each other's presence and Our connection. We feel and deeply experience the love, the energy flowing between Us. Hour after hour, night after night feeling this connection, this energy.
As I thought about this it felt like We are drawing, collecting, gathering and gaining energy. Some type of build up.
It is a One-der-full feeling and very enjoyable to experience this deep connection and love and energy flowing between Us. Definitely orgasmic without any physical contact. As far as I can tell each of Us is in a separate cubicle (I guess that is the best word). Think of many small caves in a cavern or the little spaces inside a honeycomb.
It seems that sometimes this is a building above ground and sometimes a dwelling underground so it is probably at least a couple of different places. I have no recognition of any specific individuals so I don't know if the groups are the same each time or different. There is simply this feeling of many times many other beings present. All giving and All receiving.
Thots 12/27/08
I just feel that We will know, We DO know what We need to do and where We need to be. We will know at a level where there is no question or doubt. The thing is that where We choose/want to go may look like entering hell to others. And I've All-ways gotten the feeling that most just don't get the big picture.
I've been feeling (and saying) recently that what is ahead is so big that it is going to be fucking uncomfortable for most. This is not a doomsday prediction, but the future will look like doomsday to those attached to 3D and judgement. Judgement being the most critical.
If later today it was revealed that the earth is populated by 75% vampires, this would feel very different to You and I than to most of the world. We (and a growing small number of others) would be celebrating while the majority would be buying garlic and carving crosses. So, We can't rely on "their" view of now and the future as accurate (for Us). Many times when I read some author, I must remind MySelf that "they" are writing to the majority, and I just don't fit there.
I've been feeling (and saying) recently that what is ahead is so big that it is going to be fucking uncomfortable for most. This is not a doomsday prediction, but the future will look like doomsday to those attached to 3D and judgement. Judgement being the most critical.
If later today it was revealed that the earth is populated by 75% vampires, this would feel very different to You and I than to most of the world. We (and a growing small number of others) would be celebrating while the majority would be buying garlic and carving crosses. So, We can't rely on "their" view of now and the future as accurate (for Us). Many times when I read some author, I must remind MySelf that "they" are writing to the majority, and I just don't fit there.
Thots sent to a friend
Written 12/26/08
I hope You real-eyes what a gift it is to remember Your dream with such clarity. Since I have started sharing My dreams I Am finding out how many people do not remember "their" dreams clearly.
You know how I go on about feeling less than (in the passed) and how I think there are still lots of people feeling that way? Well, this is a great example. Before I started remembering My dreams I thought I was just about the only person in the uni-verse who didn't remember dreaming. Now, I have found there are many people who have no (or very vague) recall most of the time.
I know a few people (at least) have started remembering "their" dreams better since I started sharing Mine. So, I encourage You to write this story, and add any graphics You feel are appropriate and/or music. All these will aid people who aren't remembering "their" dreams. Dreams (for most of Us) are where We first start accessing Our multi-D Selves. Whatever aids You can add (visual/auditory etc) will further assist those who access those senses primarily.
I know that sometimes when I go on about some of these things it sounds like I get on My high horse, but it feels soooo important to Me to make this available to everyOne. We spent sooooo many lifetimes keeping the secrets to the upper classes. The New Age is about reaching everyOne who desires, and many don't know "they" desire because "they" feel abandoned and rejected and unable, incapable.
It's like the church not allowing women to read the scriptures or saying the mass in Latin. We devised soooo many tricks to keep Us in Our place (blind). I guess opening these doors to everyOne is One of My passions.
I hope You real-eyes what a gift it is to remember Your dream with such clarity. Since I have started sharing My dreams I Am finding out how many people do not remember "their" dreams clearly.
You know how I go on about feeling less than (in the passed) and how I think there are still lots of people feeling that way? Well, this is a great example. Before I started remembering My dreams I thought I was just about the only person in the uni-verse who didn't remember dreaming. Now, I have found there are many people who have no (or very vague) recall most of the time.
I know a few people (at least) have started remembering "their" dreams better since I started sharing Mine. So, I encourage You to write this story, and add any graphics You feel are appropriate and/or music. All these will aid people who aren't remembering "their" dreams. Dreams (for most of Us) are where We first start accessing Our multi-D Selves. Whatever aids You can add (visual/auditory etc) will further assist those who access those senses primarily.
I know that sometimes when I go on about some of these things it sounds like I get on My high horse, but it feels soooo important to Me to make this available to everyOne. We spent sooooo many lifetimes keeping the secrets to the upper classes. The New Age is about reaching everyOne who desires, and many don't know "they" desire because "they" feel abandoned and rejected and unable, incapable.
It's like the church not allowing women to read the scriptures or saying the mass in Latin. We devised soooo many tricks to keep Us in Our place (blind). I guess opening these doors to everyOne is One of My passions.
?
Written 12/25/08
I thought, well I remember writing about a dream a little while ago (feels like months) and it related to serpent and I was thinking We had All-ready been thru serpent and yet We are just entering serpent. Odd, now it All-most feels like a dream I haven't dreamed yet??????
I thought, well I remember writing about a dream a little while ago (feels like months) and it related to serpent and I was thinking We had All-ready been thru serpent and yet We are just entering serpent. Odd, now it All-most feels like a dream I haven't dreamed yet??????
Dreams #47
Written 12/25/08
I had lots of dreams last night but only remember bits and pieces.
There was a lot about living as gods (seems very important for Me right now) I woke with this song going through My mind: "You hold the key to love and fear, All in Your trembling hand. Just One key unlocks "them" both, it's there at Your command. C'mon people now, smile on Your brother, everybody get together, try to love One another right now."
I wish I remembered more, it was good stuff and important about who We are and Our abilities and power. It was about soon We will be more aware of this, very soon.
I've been having more stuff about dragons lately too but don't remember many details. Visited the dragon riders academy again, everyOne is doing fine and having a good time.
I had lots of dreams last night but only remember bits and pieces.
There was a lot about living as gods (seems very important for Me right now) I woke with this song going through My mind: "You hold the key to love and fear, All in Your trembling hand. Just One key unlocks "them" both, it's there at Your command. C'mon people now, smile on Your brother, everybody get together, try to love One another right now."
I wish I remembered more, it was good stuff and important about who We are and Our abilities and power. It was about soon We will be more aware of this, very soon.
I've been having more stuff about dragons lately too but don't remember many details. Visited the dragon riders academy again, everyOne is doing fine and having a good time.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)