05/19/13

Today:

A day of play

Wizard's Log Star-date: 07:52:51 AM

Good morning. We had fun last night, We know that much. It does seem like there was some processing of pain and discomfort that We experience in limitation 3D. We may have released something there. It was done in an informative yet playful manner. Again there were lots of friends both new and old and We visited many alternate worlds and realities.

Here is a change, that is All We have to share right now and there is a comfortable sense that that is enough. What a nice relaxing feeling. We feel the same way about Our daily life. No sense of stress or demands like We have felt previously, even recently. A true sense of acceptance and feeling of just being: now.

We are experiencing some of the symptoms of being multidimensional (or beginning to be multidimensional). We have discussed many of these before, especially the specific Ones We are experiencing today. It is about having to concentrate on performing simple tasks. This was very frustrating to Us for many years, especially before We recognized what it was and definitely before We were aware of being multidimensional and such things. Now, We see it as an indication that We are no longer fully focused in limitation. We know it is a good thing (if there is such a thing as good). It still tends to surprise Us when it first happens, when We first real-eyes that We have slipped into expansion or zoomed out (similar to zoned out actually). It is getting more familiar and therefore more comfortable.

Today, We may decorate the five gallon bucket that We are going use for Our indoor tomato plant. We theel We want to do this but We also hesitate. The hesitation is Our perfectionist side. He (Our perfectionist) has often prevented Us from starting many things. Our playful side is eager and anxious and does not care how it turns out. Now Our perfectionist is really screaming. We wonder how to appease him? We do not want to kill him as much as We would like to just kill him and be done with it. We know it would not work and We do love him as much as We love any part(s) of OurSelves. Perhaps that is All he really needs: to know that is loved and has a position and place even if We do not recognize that place right now. We will know it when it arises. In the meantime he can just sit back and relax but he is not real good at that.

As We contemplate things that We want to do, build and grow around here We think about making it playful. We have been heading in this direction ever since We first moved here. The thing is that We have (often) gotten distracted along the way. As We envisioned making a spring-loaded floor in front of Our swing We had a vision of the Fae playing, jumping and laughing All over the place. What a One-der-full vision. We recognize (again) that We need to let go in order to create what We really desire, Our heart's desire. Our normal tendency is to plan and stress. This blocks Us at every turn. When We let go, then Our heart(s) and Our universe and Our friends are free to work “their” magik.

Open, let go, allow.

We just watched a video from Next World TV about building an earthen house by hand. It gives Us many ideas and some information for beginning. We have this (sort of) vision of building, converting and growing this cabin into an earthen or Hobbit house. The video gave Us more ideas, information and inspiration. Something(s) that has hindered Us in the passed is Our impatience and feeling We lacked “time” to do what We want with this cabin in an eco friendly manner. These hindrances are part of Our societal thinking and the traps We set to keep Us locked into limitation. There are many ways to accomplish what We desire. Dreaming and imagination alone provide several ways. Learning to allow the process to be fun and take as long as it takes opens the door to other methods.

Releasing Our preconceived limits is important and it is happening. We continue to have experiences of living in multirealities. These are little episodes and/or experiences that We (personally and collectively) usually deny and/or explain away. We get to do that just as long as We want to. When We are ready We can begin to give it (denial) up and: open, let go, allow.

We have started decorating Our tomato bucket. A lot of this is about letting go of perfectionism and giving OurSelf permission to change and change Our mind(s). Big life lessons in little ways.

We are spending Our day playing. It's cool. It's fun. Apparently deciding to decorate Our tomato bucket brought Out Our playfulness more than Our perfectionist.

It doesn't look like We will be going for rock for the driveway because We don't want to. We real-eyes that later We may wish We had, but somehow, that too will change.

Oh, BTW, the weather/sky cleared up and the sun is out bright. It still hasn't gotten much about freezing but it still feels and looks pretty good. Too cold to do very much outside but nice enough to do/play a little.

05/18/13

Today:

A

Wizard's Log Star-date: 07:19:09 AM

Good morning. What a fun night. Too bad We don't remember anything. Well, We remember having a lot of fun. We remember as We woke thinking and telling someOne that it is probably because when We were a kid Our parents took Us to the mountains a lot.

Yesterday from time to time and just before going to dream, We were thinking that another reason We are not remembering Our dreams as much is that We are not as attached to those lives/worlds and do not feel as stuck in this One as We used to be. Even though We still see mostly only this limitation 3D when We look around We feel and know that there is more and it is also here. This knowing is stronger than it used to be. It feels real to Us, not just empty knowledge. Again We remind OurSelf that it is not surprising that We do not see anything (or much) more because We are not primarily visual. We All-ways feel first. It is part of limitation training to think We should see anything and everything that is real. This is important.

We are finding more and more that most others are having different experiences based on different choices while at the same time more and more teachers and leaders are saying what We are finding and feeling. We know that We are breaking trail and for the most part, We are fine with that. Others are breaking different trails and that is perfect. Over seven billion of Us are never gonna fit on One path. If there were only One path, why would We need seven billion people? Each set of I's sees something different, each set of feet walk a slightly different path. Then, We each contribute Our experience and knowledge with the collective. It makes a perfect soup.

More and more We are releasing Our attachment to outcomes and plans and shoulds and musts. We are finding it easier and easier to stay in the now, except when We don't. But We are okay (well, sometimes We are) with whatever happens. Right now (and now is really All there is and We are beginning to actually believe and live that) if We find OurSelf going around the mountain One more time that is okay. We may need to repeat the same experience, the same lesson over and over to fully get it. That used to frustrate Us and it may frustrate Us again tomorrow but right now it is perfectly okay.

Our expanded world and dwelling place feel very present. So far We have not gotten as much as predicted. It is only a slight covering and the sun is out and could (if it chooses) melt All the snow quite quickly. We are practicing staying in the now. There is a fine balance between being stuck and being here AND there yet staying in the now. Thinking about and planning the future is not being in the now. Experiencing the future in the now not the same as planning it. We know this can be confusing. It must be experienced to be fully understood and clear.

We are only just beginning and We feel like it may feel that way for a long, long time. However, it is now (right now) familiar enough that it is no longer frustrating. Right now We feel like We could start over (or feel like We are starting over) every morning and it would feel fine. That was NOT the case a short time ago. This is One of the gifts the kids are giving Us. It probably takes the special kids to show this to Us.

As We look at Our tomato plants We theel that We may need to stake those which We have not staked yet. We have been keeping “them” growing mostly straight by turning the pots often. Now, it looks like even that may not be enough. We also think that if might be a good idea to watch the video about pruning tomato plants soon. We are also thinking that We might want to get some more rock for Our driveway this weekend. The thing is that today, We are not attaching to any of these thoughts. We no longer feel that the world will come crashing down upon Us if We do NOT get everything done. In fact, it will not come crashing down if We do NOT get anything done. We like this world that does not (and will not) crash down upon Us. We are grateful to have discovered this world.

When We mix Our worlds (a blinding flash of the obvious here) it gets confusing. We do this All the time without being aware of it (for the most part for most of Us anyway). As Our awareness grows, it can get less frustrating and confusing if We let it. We (personally anyway) have been experiencing this more and more in Our daily life and today We are getting several doses. (“Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down”) We have spoken of this before (missing objects appearing right where We looked for “them”, etc.) but from a slightly different perspective. We have All-ways called it slipping and sliding into “other” realities and/or worlds. This idea of mixing, of the overlapping is not really new, yet............. It is All right here, right now. Another old concept that We are exploring anew. The truths We have known and sought for eons are becoming “real” and experiential in Our daily life. And there is more to come. We just know it, We feel it AND We are right. Unless We choose otherwise.

Somehow, someway We felt uncomfortable before We went to town. We could not seem to identify what it is but it feels like We needed to go dream and did not feel We had time. While We were visiting Our friends We got it that We actually did slip out of focus. We have done this to a lesser degree while visiting these friends before. EveryOne has had this experience in One degree or another. We call it zoning out. It is a real place and experience if We allow it to be.

We get it that this is the feeling of discomfort We experienced. The head is not used to being detached and it resists in any way it can. Sending sensations of discomfort is One of many ways. The head wants to attach. Yes, We All long to be free and fly BUT when We begin to venture into these realms We put on the brakes.

05/17/13

Today:

A short entry for a long day

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:25:22 AM

Good morning. Again We played in many worlds and while We were doing it We were aware that We were not going to remember much (if anything) when We woke. Just before waking We were working in a circus. As We woke We wondered if it was really a circus or just so chaotic it seemed like a circus. We are certain this was brought on by Our being exposed to more of the chaos at work yesterday than We usually are. It was a day of seeing clearly the world others are still living in and We used to live in.

Afterwards We definitely felt disconnected from Our better feeling state that We usually live in these days. We thought it was Our reaction to what happened but Our reaction was about as level headed as We can imagine. It was just from being jerked out of connection and increased limitlessness back into separation mentality and extreme limitation.

It was a good lesson and experience even if was NOT pleasant. Even now We can feel Our head wanting to get back in and tear things up. We do NOT choose to go there. That is NOT where We live any more. We choose to see the world as it really is not as the collective is pretending it is.

We are finding that We are invited and even encouraged (by head and ego and Our others) to re-enter the old thinking, beliefs and mindset. We are gratefull that We are aware of this and can choose to leaf the old in its world and live in a world that is transitioning into new and expanded ways of living/being. We used to feel that We had to play in the cesspool and many still feel this way. Now, We know that it is not true. We really can choose a better feeling thought and We do. This better feeling thought really does lead Us into a better world. One of many.

Several of Our gradeschoolers did not ride today. The Ones that did ride were happy and had a good time.

It started raining and it has turned into snow. The forecast is now for a possible three inches of snow. WTF? Over.

The highschooler is a lot of fun. It is a very interesting connection that We have made. It is nice to be able to really joke around have fun with someOne that age.

We are having some more thoughts and insights about letting go and allowing whatever might be possible.

Now, We are going to visit Our dream world(s).

There is something We wanted to share, what is it? It is about, oh yeah:

There is sooooo much that seems to demand Our attention. We are thinking of the word “trappings” and how it applies to so much of Our waking lives. Trappings are decorations and what We usually/normally think of as real and important is/are the trappings (a set or series of traps) that We fall into. We fall for the same trick/trap over and over and We make fun of others when We see “them” doing it while We blindly fall for Our own tricks and traps. As long as We think that it (whatever it might be) is important then it is important. As long as We think We will die if We do NOT do it, or attain it then We will die if We do not do or have it. And even if We don't actually die it will feel like We did.

As long as We believe that what We see is All that is real, then what We see is All that is real to Us.

In order to have more We must let go and that is very scary for most of Us. It flies in the face of nearly everything We have been taught, told and believe. There is something about a well camouflaged trap. The funny thing is (but nobody is laughing) that Our snare is made of spider webs or something even lighter than that. It has absolutely no power to hold Us.

05/16/13

Today:

Exposure to the old system

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:02:51 AM

Good morning. We are practicing being something this morning, or is it being everything? It is definitely different. We seem to be practicing a lot of different this week. Even while dreaming We knew that We would not remember what We were doing Once We awoke. We enjoyed it whatever it is.

We are continuing to process and expand while waking. This morning We are just being, nothing wants to be thought about. Our head still resists this but the resist-dance is not as emphatic this morning. We do continue to see more and more things, thoughts, plans, shoulds that We (Our heads) try to hold onto that only serve to strangle Us but We have All-ways thought that these helped Us survive. That “they” were necessary for Our survival. “They” are only necessary for Our limitation.

The game is certainly winding down. We see more and more of Our others moving in the same direction. Our cherished beliefs are being released. We stand on the edge of the abyss and some of Us are ready, really ready to learn to fly. It may take being pushed to take that first leap into freedom or perhaps We will just slip and take to the skies.

We are/were/will be reminded that We are here to experience being physical. We have All-ways associated that with limitation and separation. The terms are not (or do not have to be) synonymous. We can be physical without being limited and separate. This is new and very unfamiliar. It is something We probably think We do NOT know how to do. Maybe We don't. Maybe We will have to learn how, maybe just remember. Maybe We will have to make it up as We go along. Some of Us are very good at that and for others it is a real challenge.

Many/most/All of Us expected to leave the physical world behind. As much as some knew this is not gonna happen, We still have that deep seeded belief. We are bound to limitation. But these bonds are only imaginary. We can be free as soon as We are willing to let go of the old and familiar. There really is no stepping or struggle, there is only being aware of who and what We All-ready are. It seems We have come a long way with this (because We have) but that only reveals that there is more. There is All-ways more. This frightens Us and even pisses Us off. That is because We still associate stress, struggle and suffering with change. It is not a requirement. We can change gently and with ease. That is Our true nature. What We have All-ways thought and believed is Our true nature, Our real bean and reality is false or make believe. We have very powerful imaginations and everything We see and experience IS Our imagination. That is hard to imagine. Hehehehe

As You probably are aware, We are practicing letting go. We are also remembering that another version of this is setting it (and Us) free. It is sooooo easy to forget that whatever We hold onto is something that We are holding hostage.

We just real-eyesed that a lot (maybe All) of Our frustration with Our driver is Our own struggle with Our Self-imposed limitations. Well DUH. Is this like a uni-versal truth or what? We have a friend who call such: “A blinding flash of the obvious”.

The gradeschoolers are very playful again today. Solar powered kids.

We get the feeling that We will be slipping deep into dream after Our highschooler today.

We certainly did enter the world(s) of imagination but after dropping off the boy in the wheelchair We were jarred back into Our old world. Our bus broke down and We got a ride back to base with a supervisor and a senior driver. “They” were very talkative about the ills and politics at work. We normally avoid any contact (or have minimal contact) with this. We do not normally get sucked in to it. We got sucked in. Not as much as We used to but enough to feel the taint.

Because, because We got stuck in the middle of some of the chaos and ill-feelings and frustrations of others. We actually responded pretty well. We did not like the way We felt and thought it was Our response. It was actually the exposure to separation and limitation mentality that affected Us. We got (allowed OurSelf to get) sucked in. We did not like the way it tastes and feels. We are gratefull that We have chosen not to live there anymore.

We got Our route schedules for the last three days of school and are a bit sad that We will only have two more days with the boy in the wheelchair. He has been a real delight and We are thrilled to have made contact. The other day he did say that when he gets to be Our age he wants to be friends. Thank god(s) We believe in other realities and know that We have made a connection with him that will last and be experienced even if We do not connect in the physical.

We forgot to mention that We had another great time with the highschooler today also. We are certainly getting closer and We are glad that this connection too will go on and other levels.

The middleschoolers? Well, “they” seem to be doing a lot of acting out. Solar powered but We see a lot of putting others down. We are reminded that this is the 3D version. We know that We also contact expanded versions of these kids in other worlds. We can not change the lives and circumstances that affect these kids the rest of the time. We can only accept and pay attention to “them” at many levels. That is what We do. We try to maintain a safe place and a safe ride home as much as We are able. Then, We give “them” support and care at these deeper levels.

We did read something that spoke of how children try on emotions etc. just to see how “they” feel. There is a lot of this goes on with middleschoolers.

05/15/13

Today:

Imagination

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:01:40 AM

Good morning. We remember thinking that Our dream and/or what We were doing was really bizarre. We also remember that there was a group of Us having a really good time doing whatever it was We were doing that seemed so bizarre.

We woke knowing that We are making progress letting go of Our old beliefs and limitations. That does feel bizarre to Our head but We think it was more than that. Of course real and complete freedom is sooooo different, it feels bizarre too.

It feels like this is a great morning to just relax as We wake (or do not wake). No great insights except that it is a great time to just relax.

We also real-eyes that We are in a slightly different reality than Our familiar waking world. A reality where there is much less stress. Less: “to do”. It is nice though very unfamiliar, even for Us.

We are reading the latest from John Smallman's blog read it here and it echos what We are feeling and experiencing these passed few days. It seems that more and more are feeling the same thing. We used to cling to Our imaginary world demanding that it was/is real and that it is the only thing that is real. We demanded that war is real and people hate each other and are a threat to each other and that people are suffering and even starving to death. In Our imaginary world based on impossibilities, these things are real but only in Our imaginary world supported by Our belief that We are NOT what We are. This pretend game is winding down. Many still cling to it. It still has a strong grip on Our minds (personally and collectively) but it is not real. What We thought and demanded and clung to as real is the pretend and imaginary. What We dismissed, ridiculed and laughed at as imaginary and pretend is what is actually real.

This is hard to believe and accept only because We have believed Our beliefs (seemingly) for so long. That too is part of the pretend and imaginary world. Again We real-eyes that All of Our “shoulds” and “I wills” and “I need to” and “I must remember” and on and ons are merely traps and snares that We designed (and cling to) to keep Us in the pretend game of separation and limitation.

So many things clamor for Our attention. “They” seem to be outside things and forces that We must deal with, do, pay attention to, think about, worry about, overcome, etc. “They” are really figments of Our imagination which We project out onto the screen that We call: “the real world”. “They” are not real at All, only manufactured traps and evidence to keep Us focused in and on the game of separation and limitation. We set it All up and We really did a bang up job. We know that We have said/typed much of this before but it bares repeating and it is becoming more and more real and experiential for Us.

It is amazing: as much as We desire happiness and freedom, how We cling so tightly to Our chains and prison bars. The locks that hold Our chains in place and Our prison doors closed are open, in fact “they” never even existed to begin with. We demand Our bondage and call it the “real” and with great fervor We declare that it is the only thing that is: “real”. Silly human.

The gradeschoolers were mostly active and talkative today. The twin who does not usually connect with Us wanted Us to sit with him and he talked and played with Us. The other twin was really talking and laughing with the helpful boy.

We have been saying that the kids take Us into dream (which is true) but it is more than that. “They” are taking Us into “their” world. Society thinks of that world (those worlds) as imaginary. However, as We discussed earlier, those are very real worlds.

Remember the kids and galactics said: “We want to work with You”. “They” are helping Us access and adjust to the “real” world. It is exciting.

We have to remember that those who (at least) appear to remain stuck in limitation are NOT doing anything wrong. Each of Us has our own journey and path and We must stay on Our own schedule.

Also, We do know that We are breaking trail. There are times when We are jealous of those who will follow and have an easier path but then again We are grateful for the expansion and freedom We are experiencing. Even when it is not comfortable.

There is just sooooo much that We are experiencing and learning. It is hard to put it All in words.

We theel We have decided not to post Our contact report on that sight. Something has shifted and We theel that the problem posting was Our own message to OurSelf. It is something about Our connection and releasing separation and limitation. If We get more specifics We will either share “them” or not.

As We are drifting in and out We are pondering imagination. It seems that there are many types which is something We have not really thought about too much or even been aware of. We have decided to label One type as A-dult imagination. This type is where We think (with Our head) and try to control (whether We are aware of that control or not) and include Our expectations.

Then, there is the imaginations of a child. This type is without limits. It is imagination that flies free and is not bound by the A-dults ideas and restrictions. Reality has no bearing on this imagination. Well, the reality that is actually Our created hologram of limitation and separation anyway. This imagination is actually part of true reality and society does everything in its power to destroy this imagination.

There is no One to blame or be angry at for this. It is part of the game, the drama, the performance We auditioned for. We were selected and given Our chosen role. We are the star, the female and male lead, the best supporting actor and All cast and crew and even the audience and We deny every bit of it. That is part of Our role, it is the part We chose to play. Blaming everyOne and everything else is also part of the role. We are doing well. We are the greatest performers ever to grace the galaxy. We are performing the greatest story ever told.

Did We digress? Not really. This is a subject that will probably evolve and deserve more typing. Perhaps a story of its own. Per hap snot. So far We are not going to label this a night school because it is what We are processing and real-I-sing during Our day dreams.

There is imagination that We force, and there is imagination that We just allow to flow. One tends to stagnate, the other is clean and clear. A flowing imagination may rest in a still and clear pool, it can race over a cliff and crash into a frothing swirl of great force and/or it can seem to meander through the countryside.

Imagination can involve remembering something from dreams. It can be brand new to Us and Our world. It can be expanding Our current perception of reality. It can be kept within the confines of Our present reality. None of these is wrong or better, only different. These types need not be exclusive of each other. We can mix and match, We can serve a buffet or make a bouquet. We are the One who chooses what We explore. Very few of Us really get this.

The kids are definitely working with Us and showing Us new ways to imaginate. There are possibilities that We have not even begun to explore. The process can be smooth and easy or We can make it a challenge and difficult. We theel We are going to take the easy path, unless We decide to make it hard. We can slip down a mud slide or climb a cliff face, it is All up to Us personally.