05/03/13

Today:

Are We awake or dreaming?

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:00:05 AM

Good morning. We woke from a dream about some of the students on Our route. Exactly what was happening We are not sure. It was a very pleasant dream. Another alternate reality with much more freedom and acceptance and appreciation of children. We are quite certain that the students are reaching out to Us at a deep(er) level. We also feel the presence of the Fae around Our cabin this morning. A nice way to wake up, or stay in dream. We really did not want to get up but We reminded OurSelves that We really can stay (at least partially) in dream.

Another very interesting morning with the gradeschoolers. We are finding that the boy who does not talk much does love to sing as well as tease Us. The non-verbal boy wanted to sit next to him for the first time and “they” seemed to have a great time together.

We had a very valuable lesson about sensitivities. Remember that the helpful boy has gotten mad at Us a couple of times? This morning there was another bus a bit ahead of Us and We could see the route number but the boy could not because of where he was seated and he is not tall enough to see over the seat in front of him. We laughed about it and he took it as We were laughing at him.

To Us, Our behavior was innocent and playful. To him We were making fun of him. It took Us a bit to figure out what was wrong, We asked some questions and had to listen very close because he was barely whispering. We apologized and offered him an extra sign with Our route number. He was very happy. We are happy that We could make up (in a small way) for the insult We unwittingly delivered.

We will be going on the section with the highschooler soon. We had a great conversation with him yesterday (no memory of what We talked about) and went into dream afterwards and never really came out until sometime this morning. He is One of the students from last night's dreams.

We seem to be having some type of issue with Our driver. He is definitely a different personality than We are familiar with or would normally choose to associate with. This seems to be more pronounced the last couple of days. We are trying not to react to provocation but this is not All-ways easy. We do not know if he is intentionally trying to provoke Us but We theel it is something that he is going through. He has All-ways been impatient and he is never wrong (that part We are familiar with) but he has been yelling at other drivers more recently and other signs.

At times he does go out of his way to treat Us well and nicely but at other times We can do nothing right.

It was interesting for Us to note that he has been driving for several years and makes $5-$7 an hour more than We do yet he had to stop at the bank yesterday to see if he had any money left to get through until payday today. This reminds Us that many people are in a financial predicament at this time. Plus, he takes a lot of aspirin and complains of different pains.

These things All affect a person and We are getting a reminder of how We just do NOT know what may be behind any persons actions and reactions. This also relates to the experience with hurting the boy's feelings this morning. Some important insights.

Today's event did strengthen Our connection with the highschooler. He got to see Us being human. We could see a shift in his demeanor.

From time to time in Our life We have experienced people who blow up, go off on others and then (for “them”) it is All over. However, for Us it is not so easy to just move on. We are making progress here but Our first instinct is still to let it eat Our lunch.

Interesting, that Once again (recently) We read that these old traits, baggage and garbage will continue to come up to be released. It is actually a sign of progress and NOT the sign of failure We would normally apply to it. Lots of clearing and in addition to All the other factors the muggles have no idea what is going but know that “their” emotions are All over the place for no apparent reason.

We have noticed before that whenever the driver goes off on Us, he seems to try to be nicer and friendlier afterwards, seemingly to apologize. It is interesting that even though We have set up Our life to stay out of relationships, life has a way of throwing the same shit in Our face. We mean that a little more in a funny way than it may have come across. Life does give Us what We need. We spend six to eight hours a day, five days a week in the bus together. That really is more time in close contact than most married couples get. Of course, he is getting the best of this deal because of Our stellar personality. If only everyOne were as perfect as We are. Not to mention Our humility.