Dreams #31

Written 10/13/08

I've been dreaming a lot of alternate realities lately. The only thing really remarkable has been the number of realities I visit a night (and remember even if only vaguely). Most are very close to this reality (or what I think of as "this"). In some I Am high school age again only it isn't the past, it is present day and I'm not going to high school. I like that part, ha ha.
You may have noticed that multiple realities, alternate realities, expanded realities have been a focus for Me lately. Actually, that's been the case for many years. Recently I have begun to believe that I/We really can live in and be aware of more than One reality at a time.
Last night was like a beginning for Me. I visited several realities like usual but I woke up remembering a familiar ongoing alternate reality.
Many of You know I Am an ex-smoker of 7-8 years or more. I quit cold turkey (from 4 packs a day) and it was literally the worst year of My life. I do not recommend that anyOne quit. The One thing I Am certain of is that I will never quit again. Therefore I have not had another cigarette since that day I went cold turkey. At least in the reality I call most familiar.
The reality I woke remembering is One where I occasionally smoke cigarettes. From time to time I buy a pack and smoke "them". I assume I smoke the whole pack, but I'm not certain. Apparently in this reality I Am not addicted to cigarettes, because I don't smoke All the time and don't have withdrawals. I would say I don't have cravings, but is there a difference between desire and craving? Well, to Me, yes there is. In this reality, when I desire a cigarette I buy a pack. Like I said, this is only occasionally.
When I woke remembering this I was asking MySelf: I thought I quit? I didn't think I ever had another cigarette. I had to really focus on remembering that I had quit and never had another cigarette, finally that memory returned but I also kept the memory of a reality where I occasionally smoke.
This alternate reality is very real. I don't remember dreaming it before, I remember living it. For those familiar with dreaming I'm sure You know the difference I speak of. OK, I do believe All dreams are real, but it is the feeling, the conscious awareness I Am speaking of.
This is the first time I have had such a conscious clear memory and awareness of living in 2 realities with a clear and distinct difference between "them" and both are ongoing.
I have experienced shifting from One reality to another but the differences are so subtle it is easy to forget there is any difference. Plus those experiences don't feel like I Am in both or multiples simultaneously. That has been My belief: that I Am/We are in multiple realities at the same time, but this is My first experience of it.
My dreams of alternate realities have been like snapshots, a One time shot/experience and then on to another. This is more like the full length movie, and it's a saga.
Another interesting point is that I woke with these memories over 12 hours ago and this is the first time I have written it down at All. I do not usually remember dreams that long unless I write "them" down right away.
I have a lot of vague memories of basically everyday life in this other reality. There is nothing remarkable in it except this smoking difference and no addiction. I Am a person who gets addicted to anything and everything. If it's good, a lot more is better and too much is never enough. At least that is how I remember Me most of the time. Now I have a new memory of Me coinciding this reality.