10/23/12

Today:

Slip sliding today

Wizard's Log Star-date: 08:13:11 AM

Good morning. Another very busy and interesting night. We started to type it up as part of this and real-eyesed that it really needs to be a separate night school. We are real-eyesing how much We were in an altered state yesterday, or We are today to the extent that yesterday seems mostly a blur. We did forget a bunch of things We wanted to do yesterday and We know that part of that was distraction about bus driving but there is definitely more to it. Perhaps We will examine that later.

When We try to do little simple tasks We real-eyes how much We are NOT focused here and it is a little hard to get focused enough to accomplish Our task. That used to frustrate Us, now it is a good thing.

We got night school typed up. What a story, what a revelation for Me.

There was another dream just before waking that didn't quite fit into the night school yet We know it is somehow related. We met a new friend in a busy, crowded library. Our behaviour was quite abnormal, unacceptable and unlikely, but it was sure fun. We were instant friends and We immediately knew each other. We set off on many adventures together and I woke with the theme song from some action-adventure hero story. It was clear, repeating the hero's name over and over but now We can not remember his name. We knew that the action-adventure hero is Us. We guess (now) that that would be the connection to the other dream but it feels like it would distract from the impact of that story if included at the end.

Very interesting, We are finding some very clear and recent memories that can NOT have happened in this reality (whatever reality this is). For instance, We remember reading an email from an online friend that quoted a line from a “Today” that We have not posted yet. We also are doing simple things wrong. We have misplaced some of Our knowledge/memory of how to do simple, mundane, every day tasks. For instance We are misspelling simple words like “for” and instead of saving documents We are deleting “them” as if We All-ways deleted “them” rather than saving “them”. We thought We All-ways saved “them” but Our motor/automatic response was to delete. Kinda like not breathing when We are pretty sure normally We breathe.

That reminds Us that We get it that at night We slow Our heartbeat and metabolism far below normal for sleeping. This is somehow part Our normal routine and pattern and experiences and multi-dimensional travels. It takes some time to get back into the 3D physical body and mindset and today it is taking even longer than normal which to Us is a very good sign. We see the familiar All around Us yet We can tell that it is not as familiar as it appears. We are certainly having an interesting (if confusing) time today. What is cool is how this time We are real-eyesing what is going on AND We are liking and embracing it.

We like being multi-D.

We are having many multi and inter dimensional/reality experiences. As most of “them” occur We are aware (as We often have been in the last few years) that We could explain “them” away if We chose. We do not choose this. There certainly was a time when that was Our first and only choice. We remember it well. In many ways it was more comfortable, less challenging and We “fit in” better but in no way were We happier. We felt much more empty and like We were missing.

Today We know that are at a crucial point of choice and decision. As uncomfortable as it may be to not be sure if We are walking on the floor or the air, to be feeling the vertigo etc. We choose to embrace All this because We choose to be and live consciously aware of Our multidimensionality.

We are very glad that We are not going to work, or driving or operating any heavy equipment or tools. It is difficult enough to operate Our keyboard since someOne rearranged All the keys. Also, there is the blurry vision (We attribute this mostly to the meds but it may also be a part of Our current multi-dimensional process/experience).

As We approach Our dream time the intensity of the dissociation seems to be decreasing or We just going further into a dimension/reality/state of mind that We are not familiar with when awake but are familiar with when dreaming??????? Now that is a very curious question. Perhaps We will address it tomorrow.