10/18/12

Today:

Observing OurSelf

Wizard's Log Star-date: 09:54:58 AM

Good morning. We slept a lot better last night and were very aware of dreaming. We woke with a renewed sense of being and sending love, being One and remembering what We really are.

We also woke wondering about this choice to go back to driving school bus. We were focused on the positive of being around the kids again, getting to touch “their” live with positivity, good vibes and love. We woke remembering some of the down sides that We were not thinking about the last few days. When a student was hurting or angry I felt it. When a student acted up it affected Us. We usually saw through the “taking it personal” but often it took a while.

We also see how easily We get hooked into the obsessive behaviors and the slave mindset and We haven't even applied yet. This morning as We got out of bed We could easily see that We really would have had a hard time going to work today. We recognize that We really do not want to go back to a mundane job but if that is the route We are going to take We certainly would like to be working with kids. At this point We do not see another job that would afford Us that.

We know that We are doing more advanced work in Our dreams and that is wonderful. That is real and fulfilling. The question is what to do with Our waking hours. With winter being here there are not as many options that We enjoy. We are totally clueless if Our money will continue to stretch. Or will the world economy change so much and so soon that We won't need an income? That would be nice but We are not counting on that. It is not that We doubt it, it is that We personally have no knowledge or indication about where that will go and when.

The idea of working with children again is very appealing and We really would do that even We were not getting paid as long as We were aware that We did not need money. We do believe that We can and will get free of need but We are clear that “when” is a very good question. Our current question to OurSelf is: “Are We willing to go through All the “stuff” that goes with driving school bus. There are a lot of personality and bureaucratic issues and again the old “slave mentality”.

Well, We are obviously still leaning towards bus driving. We find OurSelf continuing to prepare. Blood pressure is down to normal (even started cutting down on the meds) and blood sugar is starting to come down. We are thinking about making “the call” but will wait until tomorrow or Monday.