Today:
In and out of 3D
Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:27:24 AM
Good morning. Another interesting and bizarre night.
Funny that We do not remember many details except how bizarre some
things seemed. We also remembering thinking how the theme of finding
old and new friends in All-most every world continues. One dream was
about this All being a game, a very elaborate and enticing game.
The transition continues
and choices abound. This morning has been a good example of that. We
woke but had a very hard time getting out of bed. We just lay there,
semi-awake repeating Our mantras but it felt like there was a
pressure keeping Us laying down. Now that We are up We are
experiencing choices of staying in limitation or shifting. The old
behaviors are so familiar and comfortable except that “they” are
no longer so comfortable. We want to shift and expand. We are no
longer looking for external fixes, those are just part of the game.
We wish to accept and
honor All those whose choices are different from Ours but We wish to
move on. Again, We want to be aware of All but We want to move beyond
being limited. In order to do this We must let go of limiting
behaviors. In order to have change, We must change. DUH.
We are examining choices
and making some deliberate Ones this morning. We are letting go. We
have clung to the old (for so long) like it would save Our life when
it actually would hold Us under and drown Us. Also, staying in the
now is integral in this.
We truly had no idea
what this transition would be like. It is different for each and
truly, each of Us has a different piece of the puzzle.
We are reading an email
about releasing fear and light inundating Our world. We have been
reading a lot about this lately, about love pushing fear (and other
old behaviors and methods of operation) up and out for release. We
had not recognized this in Our situation because We really have been
letting go and staying in the now which does NOT actually allow for
fear. Also, most of what We read speaks of love vs. fear. We do NOT
operate in (or relate to) vs. anything much anymore. But reading this
email somehow made it clear.
When the new comes in it
does bring up the old for integration, acceptance and release
(setting it free with love). What We are doing is very brand new. We
are learning. We need to be kind and forgiving with OurSelf. We keep
flashing on learning to live in these bodies. We have lots of
experience living in these bodies believing “they” are All that
We are, believing We are victims, etc. We do NOT have experience
living in these bodies while knowing that “they” are only a suit
of clothes and We are limitless while inhabiting (seemingly) limited
bodies. It is a new perspective and way of living.
The part of the night
about this being a game keeps tickling Our fancy. We theel that this
is another night school that We just can not quite bring into focus
(yet). There did seem to be some real tools and keys in what We
experienced. We know that these are in Our mind but not (yet)
anything We can relate to in limitation 3D terms.
As We look at things and
situations We are beginning to look through “them” and into the
multidimensional. Our head still struggles to cling to the view of
limitation. Our heart mind is pushing through into multi-D. This is
clearly a process and a transition. It is not a totally comfortable
One but We know what We want and therefore We push through. We let go
and allow. Fear no longer has a foot hold but it would be easy to
give it One. Our head keeps trying to plan and it can plan anything
and everything. We are NOT trying to kill Our head but to love and
accept it and set it free. Our head has a purpose but that purpose is
not to control and run Our life and keep Us stuck. It has helped Us
play and experience the game but now it is time for the head to take
a much needed break and let Our heart take over.
Open, let go and allow.
Stay in the now.
Again, We are reminded
of how We (All of Us probably) try to “fix” things
in the physical. It often works but only temporarily. Our head of
course demands action and We know that there are times (often?) when
this is appropriate. However it is truly a double edged sword. It
also helps to keep Us locked into limitation and powerlessness, it is
a piece and part of denying Our true abilities. These have lay
dormant for so long it is hard to uncover “them” and pick “them”
back up. We seek balance.
It
is not easy learning to walk in multiworlds. We are learning to live
as love rather than absence thereof.
We
certainly are having interesting learning experiences. Our work day
cut into Our standard breaks so We did not do any entries during the
day and now We are very dreamy. We hope to fill that in later. Right
now We just want to post about fixing things with Our mind and/or
slipping into other worlds. During the day the dragon was leaking
antifreeze. The thermostat continues to seem to be working better but
now there was a leak. We could tell basically where it was coming
from but not enough to know what We would need to do to fix it. We
bought some high temperature silicone and stop leak and came straight
home after work. We were practicing letting go and NOT planning.
We
felt like starting looking at the dragon when We got home. We got it
jacked up and the side that was leaking on a jack stand so We could
crawl under to see what We could see. We could see better where the
leak was coming from but still not for sure. We did check and We had
not lost as much antifreeze coming home as We had driving around town
during Our breaks. This seems odd since it is ten miles uphill to get
home. We wiped off the antifreeze and could not see any more leakage.
We tightened up One little hose clamp in the wet area and tightened
the drain plug which is also in the area that was originally wet. We
let it run for over half an hour and did not see any more leaks. We
had not seen any leak since after We wiped off the fresh antifreeze
and before We tightened the clamp and plug.
We
stuck pieces of paper around the places that seemed like “they”
might have been leaking. We lowered the dragon in case somehow it
needed to be level to leak(?????). Then We drove part way to town,
got Thai food to bring home, checked and no leaks while waiting for
Our food and came home (five miles uphill) and no more leaks. It felt
like the dragon just needed more attention. We do tend to take it for
granted and do not pay nearly as much attention to it as We do to
Shadow and/or the kids.
We
truly are not certain if We mentally/energetically healed the dragons
wound or if We slipped into a reality/life/world where it either got
healed or was never wounded. It really does not matter which. It is a
learning experience for Us regardless. Several things that We did
practice are: not freaking out, knowing it is perfect, letting go,
staying in the now, not planning (much), reminding OurSelf that We
are learning and it is okay that We make progress and slip back a
step and then step forward again.
But
now We really do have to go dream.
A
couple of the gradeschoolers are having Us (asking Us to) read
“their” books to Us. We are happy to do this, actually excited.
We are not into the books but “they” are. We were quite shocked
at the content in a Batman book One kid has. We may decide to edit
some of what We read aloud from some of these books. Or not.
We
started out late because Our bus is still broken and it took a while
to find a bus that would run. This was very frustrating for Our
driver. We've been in that frustration. Now We pretty much take it
in stride. It is what it is whether We like it or not.
One
highschooler was taken to school by parents so We made up most of Our
time after that. We have several new students added to Our route
next week so We spent some of Our break time making maps and such.
We also took more time everywhere We went (on Our breaks) to check
the leaks on Our dragon.
The
bus We were using has more seats and will work much better for Us
with the extra students and carseats We need for Our preschoolers.
We hope this will be Our regular bus.
The
students All seemed to have a good day and We continue to learn from
“them” and about “them”. We are certainly enjoying
interacting with “them”.
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