Today "Beginning to expand" 2/22/12

02/22/12

Beginning to expand

Wizard's Log Star-date: 07:46:32 AM

Good morning. Another busy AND FUN night. I'm jazzed and gonna get started typing up night school.

Typing up and posting night school took Me right up to time to go to town. Once again I got some good insights on My drive in and even while in town. I real-eyesed that I may say/type some things that appear contradictory and perhaps even are contradictory. This would be because I Am All-ways learning. One thing I would caution everyOne is that if anyOne (including Me) says something is One way and only One way (or this is THE way it is) be very, very careful. We live in an infinite multi-verse, there is All-ways a choice.

And that is really what 2012, 5D and multi-D are All about, the choices.

We are love, there is no escaping it (We can sometimes ignore it). We are energy and I believe that energy is love. What We do with that is totally Our choice. I theel that living as love will bring All the other results We desire. That does not mean that achieving those results will cause Us to live as love nor does it necessarily mean that We are living as love. We get to decide how We wish to live and what We want to experience and what We want to believe. We get to decide Our priorities. My priority, My heart cry is love.

My trip to town was fairly uneventful and I had some down time. An odd feeling came over Me. I real-eyesed that I Am changing. There are parts of Me, ways of thinking that I Am leaving behind. I need to say good-bye to these and know I can revisit “them” whenever I want but I no longer live there. This type of think All-ways brings some grieving. To think otherwise is denial. And so I say good-bye and fare You well to some aspects of Me that no longer fit. I know that in the multi-verse “they” will have a long and fruitful life. I will give MySelf My grieving time and space.

As I look at All this and process it and allow MySelf My grieving, it is hard to describe how I feel. It's not like the world is going any where, it's not that I'm going anywhere but My perception is changing, the way I relate to the world is changing. Perhaps it relates to how many of Us have felt like We never quite fit in and now I will have even less in common with most people than before and have even less people that I have anything in common with.

As I thought of this I felt that I will be making new friends, some I have All-ready met in dream. Some I communicate with even while awake. I don't remember having imaginary friends as a child, I waited until I grew up. I feel that I will be making even more friends who can relate to Me. However, this is an unknown or at least new experience.

While I was in town I also read some more from: Children of the Now by Dr. Meg Blackburn Losey. One of the things that she was talking about was: some orbs being or containing a child's consciousness. I know I have experienced encounters with these in dreams even though I Am only beginning to see any orbs. Again, this may be due to My not being predominantly visual. I feel the children's consciousness before I see it.

I couldn't get a good enough connection to listen to any web-casts but I really didn't expect to and really didn't want to listen to any because I didn't want to be distracted from where My mind was going. My mind was going for more.

Night School "Visiting realities" 2-22-2012

02/22/12

Visiting realities

(From night school last night)

I started in a modernistic world, possibly the future. The group I was in/with lived in a different dimension than the majority of the world. We were (what some people refer to as) watchers. We live full lives too, but We watch other dimensions. I assume it was/is 3D that We watch but that was not the point.

We were in this other dimension as much as in Our own but the people in the other dimension did not see Us. I think it is important to note that it was NOT that “they” could not see Us it is that “they” DO not see Us. I saw the two dimensions mingle but there was a sort of clear film between the two. This may be what is referred to as the veil or faerie mists.

EveryOne was living normal lives, side by side. The difference was how We chose to live those lives. Actually, it was more that in Our dimension We were aware that We DO choose how We live Our lives. The other dimension looked and acted more like the sheeple clan. “They” strongly resembled automatons.

Next I was a soldier-messenger in a time that felt like Roman times but I was in service to an empress or queen. It seemed that We were peaceful people. The need for soldiers seemed superfluous but I definitely felt like I was a soldier not a warrior however.

Then I was in what seemed like current times. This is where the lessons began. The common thread throughout living in these different civilizations was that I experienced MySelf as more than just My physical body. This is very important. I have believed that I Am more than My physical body for some time, but I have NOT experienced it before, not that I remember anyway.

The question I have been asking is: “Can I live free of need”? And then: “How do I live free of need”? I spent the night experiencing living free of need. I was aware that I was doing what Burt Goldman calls: “Quantum jumping”. I was aware that I was not only observing MySelf doing and living the way I want but I experienced it.

As I experienced this expanded Me I was also aware of watching this. That is part of being expanded I guess. We are the experience and the experiencer and the observer and much more.

The catch was that this expanded Me was also experienced at living this way. The current Me is familiar with limitation. Another very important point.

My classmates are also familiar with limitation and We were All doing expansion/multidimensional for the first or seventh time. We are All new to this.

The first thing that happened was that a student was startled/scared/surprised and exploded a van full of equipment. (Fortunately no One was hurt and I don't know if this required and intervention by the instructors or not) This explosion was very noticeable in both dimensions.

The instructors let Us know (in no uncertain terms) that this is exactly why We need to practice and why night school is important.

We went on to have many experiences similar to a group of children learning to eat with forks, riding bicycles, falling off rocks, swimming, etc. Lots of etheric bumps and bruises.

What really surprised Me was the emotions We still had. We still have anger and fear as well as love. Multidimensional is more, not less. We got to choose what to do with these emotions and that is very important also.

The main thing I took away from All this is that We have to learn how to live and function in multidimensional reality. I really expected to arrive ready and raring to go. Once again I expected to start at the finish line. The problem with that is that there is no finish line. We have to start at the starting line which is wherever We are. Then We have to learn through experience, experiment and practice.

I got to see how I Am beginning AND making progress. I got to experience how We get to make choices as We grow and expand. It remains a choice whether to live in love and spread love or to live as something else. This too was a real surprise to Me. I thought that being multidimensional and living in and as love were synonymous. I got to experience that this just isn't so.

I experienced being love, I experienced falling off My bike (so to speak), I experienced spreading love and joy to My dimensions and I experienced anger and fear. I really should have known it would All be there, I've dreamt about that before yet I got a bit confused and disoriented.

I experienced being love, have I mentioned experiencing being love? I experienced being a being without needs. That is an awesome feeling but it is something We have to learn how to do. Not quite the right words there, it is something We have to learn how to be. We have to own Our beliefs to the contrary and love “them” and set “them” free. Then We have to do that until We and Our beliefs are free. Then We have to practice just being. We have to allow OurSelves to be and be freely.  AND, it is ALL choice.  If We choose, We can do it differently or not do it at All.  Therein lies the beauty.

Limitation, separation and need gave Us the experience of limitation, separation and need. Now, if We choose We can experience being limitless, connected and complete (free of need). It will take practice. We tend to revert to the familiar. And when We do, We just get back on that bike and start pedaling again.

Today "Thoughts and daydreams" 2/21/12

02/21/12

Thoughts and daydreams

Wizard's Log Star-date: 08:44:10 AM

Good morning. I don't remember anything from last night. I know that I had lots of dreams but I have no idea what I dreamed. I think this is a day to just be. I can do: “just be”.

I listened to a short meditation for the new moon today. Then I went back to dreaming. I did remember that last night I spent a lot of My dreams time traveling. I did that a little more this time too. I looked at being more. There is sooooo much to that. We (being human) tend to want to imagine or even know what something new will be like. The “more” is beyond Our current imagining.

Somewhere in there (last night or this morning) I experienced beginning to build this new world(s). It was quite interesting to be standing there (or sitting or floating or.....) and start with a clean slate. I was like a child looking at a very complex toy or into vast empty space: “What do I do with this?”

Perhaps that really is where We are. I do think this world will (is in) transition so I'm not at All sure how that will work. I do believe in infinite possibilities.

I was thinking about back when I first started working with the statement/belief: “I Am”. Obviously I got that from the Bible. I also thought I was gonna get in big trouble for thinking that it might possibly apply to Me. At that time I was not aware of (and could not find) anyOne else applying the term to “themSelves” or people in general. Now, it seems to be just about everywhere I look.

My belief is that God never separated from Us, We separated from God (or pretended to). I do believe We are evolving, but it is more of a remembering who We have All-ways been. I Am remembering: “Consider the lilies of the field, 'they' toil not neither do 'they' spin” (yes I know there is more) and I think of imagining OurSelves arrayed and arranged as the lilies of the field. I imagine hundreds of Us scattered around a meadow, just sitting and being. Maybe singing or dancing or simply sitting or laying in the wild grasses. Doing whatever is pleasurable.

Many of Us have a negative reaction to this scene (this group) because We have seen it in the passed where this group was irresponsible and relied on gifts from the toils of others to survive and sustain “themSelves”. We judge “them” as lazy. This is not the picture I imagine. That was a part of the old paradigm. I imagine these people being fully Self supporting through “their” own contributions. These people are of the new earth, the new paradigm. Perhaps “they” lived in and on the old earth and paradigm, perhaps not. These people have remembered who “they” are and that “they” can provide for “themSelves” without labor and toil. Joy and love are enough to sustain Us, if We will allow it. To begin: remember that We are much, much more than We ever dreamed possible.

I Am also reminded that much of what this type of scene involves or unfolds into is hard for Me to imagine because I have no frame of reference (even if We have lived this way before We are in total amnesia). Like the natives who did not see Columbus' ships on the ocean, the new can be right in front of Us and until Our eyes are fully opened to expect and anticipate this new We will never see it or suspect its presence.

I Am finding a few others who hold a similar vision, but not many, not yet. Most are still clinging to the old because it is familiar and “they” still can't imagine how anything else can ever work. We cling to the familiar like the drowning cling to an anchor.

After My musings I went back to reading. It was interesting but not really surprising that I had a decent Internet connection most of the day until it was time for some web-casts. I was able to listen to some short segments but when I kept losing the connection I lost interest.

I did some more reading and decided on an early dinner and finish watching “Cowboys and Aliens”. There were a few good lines, especially the One where she told him to use his mind to control the alien technology and that in order to do that he had to stop thinking. Good advice!!!!!!

I did some more introspecting and found more fear. Does it ever end? This felt similar to fear of the unknown but I knew it to be fear of the forgotten. This is not because of any bad memories or connections around the forgotten but simply because since it is forgotten it is unknown and/or unsure. It was also very much like fear of failure and fear of success hand in hand. I sat with it and felt it. Allowing MySelf to feel these emotions is still new to Me but I can do it.

There is sooooo much of who I Am that eludes Me. I keep searching and I know the answers are within not without. I need encouragement and support whenever possible but no One can give Me My answers. There are those who can help Me learn to fish though.

Interesting that as soon I wrote that I went to read an article and it speaks of Our choices and the possibility of a world based in love.  

Today "Lots of processing" 2/20/12

02/20/12

Lots of processing.

Wizard's Log Star-date: 09:54:25 AM

Good morning. Night school was intense and there are parts I want to type up but mostly I just want to be with it and feel it.

After a lot of processing and feeling and reading and listening to a Kryon channeling and then taking a walk (during which My current situation resolved into the best feeling scenario seemingly possible) I finally got night school typed up. I know there was some that I missed and it really was an experience that must be experienced to be understood.

I feel there was actually a lot more to the situation and night school that even I Am still missing. Messages inside messages. I also know that I will have the opportunity to revisit whatever I miss. Just like I got this opportunity to see and face My denial.

My Internet connection is bad again today. The Kryon channeling I listened to was on a jump drive. I did manage to download a vid by Magenta Pixie but am unable to join her website or subscribe to her You Tube channel.

I know it is All in My best interest. A couple of things running through My mind last night and today: “How does it get any better than this” and some other questions from Access Consciousness and Ann Taylor's lines: “Your highest and best good” plus “And there's something even better”.

I know that My current focus on living free of need is not yet popular and I won't find too much to support it. Most of the web-casts focus highly on attracting money and/or making money with ease. I'm All for the ease part. I do think that is an important element of Our new paradigm.

I also know (from experience) that most of Us hold some very messed up beliefs about money. I've been working a lot on My old beliefs about money. I Am also convinced that another part of Our new pair-a-dime(s) is about living without need and that includes money.

This can easily take Me into a contradiction tail-spin. Here is where I Am at so far: Money is NOT bad or evil. It is merely a means of exchange. BUT, WE have used it to enslave the masses and rate Our own worth.

At this point it is normal to go into blaming the rich and powerful. That is NOT what I want to do. I believe that “they” are playing the role We assigned “them” (and playing it very well, thank You very much).

The root beneath All of this is that We believe in separation. We believe (still) that We are separate from each other, from creator, from source and from love. We can work on All Our other messed up beliefs and benefit from that work. Until We resolve Our belief in separation there will still be the difficulties inherit in believing We are separate.

A method that is helpful is to remember as far back as We can (this life or previous) to when and where We adopted this belief. (Most of Us brought it with Us but We can start in this life if that is as far back as We can easily remember). Then, We can add choices for how We reacted to any situation that supported Our belief in separation. Things like: “Yes, AND this is another perspective and/or possibility”. If You give YourSelf a bunch of those, You have options. You can choose to add some new beliefs and possibilities to Your repertoire.

Some people recommend destroying beliefs that no longer serve Us. I don't go for that because I have never been able to destroy anything. I like to add choices and set the old free to live its life. In infinity, there is plenty of room for everything to live peacefully together. What no longer works for Me does NOT have to live in My home or My head. Love does NOT mean that I have to share head-space or living space with anyOne or anything. That is more like slavery than love.

One of the things I forgot to put in night school is that when I was experiencing being much more than My body I became aware that I was having an out of body experience. I was certain that I was not astral projecting or traveling, but I was experiencing being out of My body. This was new for Me. Being out of body probably isn't new, being aware of it is. I was also VERY aware that I was also still IN My body. This was part of My being MORE experience. I was out of My body and I was in My body AND I was beyond My body. This is an important part of more: being All these things at the same time.

The nice thing about beating Your head against the wall is that it feels sooooo good when You stop. That is how I feel this evening. I knew that everything was perfect and would turn out for My best and highest good, but I was still concerned.

Night School "Becoming All that We are" 2-20-2012

02/20/12

Becoming All that We are

(From night school last night)

We are love.

Does it seem like I Am repeating MySelf, or stating the obvious? It is only because it is true. More to the point, it is important. Sometimes repetition is necessary to get something through My thick skull.

I was shown My life, mostly current situations and reminded that I Am the creator of My reality. For the most part this is fine with Me and I like what I have created and I really do believe that I see what I project. I believe I create My reality, I believe that My beliefs play a major role and that My experiences are determined by My beliefs rather than the other way around. Then, I was shown a current situation and some potentials. Specifically I was shown the potential that I had been focusing on.

For most people it will come as no surprise that I was dwelling on a negative feeling outcome. You know how We are: “I don't want that.” “I won't create that.” And then We go on to imagine one hundred horrid outcomes that evolve from the current projected “bad” outcome.

I was reminded that I create My reality. I began to go into total denial. “I did not create this and have NOT created All those other atrocities.” All-most immediately I changed My course. I accepted and owned that I had created My current situation. That was One of the most emotionally painful experiences that I can ever remember. Painful and very rewarding at the same time.

I knew this was a very important decision and One that I have avoided like the plague many, many times before. It probably sent Me around the mountain “One more time” more times than I can count and it has been a total blind spot. I truly thought that I had fully accepted being the creator of My reality. I guess I had at least One reservation.

I felt really good about My choice and had a lot of interesting experiences after spending some time with the pain.

I experienced being more than this body, a lot more. I remembered being Me before putting on this body. I experienced putting on this body, taking it off again and putting it on again. It was actually quite humorous. It reminded Me of several recent movies where a person gets inside a large robot and tries to walk around in it for the first time. I was stretching the body to try to get it to hold ALL of Me but there was just no way. When I did figure out how to get enough of Me inside to be functional and kind of zipped it up I had no idea how to maneuver this body. You might be thinking of a baby learning to walk etc. and it was similar except this was not a baby in a baby body. Don't ask Me how that works.

I spent a lot of time looking at lots of My beliefs and experiencing when I adopted these beliefs. I added optional choices that I could choose. I came away with multiple choices of how I can view My lives and various situations. Perhaps this is really the birth of being multi...................

I also did a lot of experiencing being more than I ever dreamed possible. I experienced being source and creator and living without limitation and need and being connected to everything. Actually being everything.

When I woke I spent several hours feeling My feelings. I didn't real-eyes it but I was still in a funk about My current situation AND having My feelings about that and night school All rumbling around inside My feelers.

I did some reading and listened to a Kryon channeling (more from the cruise which didn't bother Me at All). After that I decided to go for a walk. That is NOT something that I normally do when it is below freezing. On My short walk a neighbor drove by and stopped to give Me some news that totally turned My current situation around to an outcome that I desired but I had ruled out because, because. When I got home there was also a phone message from someOne else with the same news.  (This was someOne I had considered calling and asking about My situation but did not think "they" would be open because it is President's Day.)

At that point I real-eyesed how much of a funk I had been in because suddenly I felt like typing this up.

It was important and I still feel that the process is something that can not really fully be described but must be experienced to be fully understood and appreciated.