Today:
Multidimensional
insights and experiences continue
Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:39:31 AM
Good morning. We wake to play another day.
We
had fun. We remember that We visited (at least) two different lives.
One was definitely in this world and the other probably on/in a
different but similar world. When We woke We remembered some details
from both but by the time We actually got up the details escaped Us.
Again: Our waking brain can not process and translate everything
(yet). Both lives We are working and playing with youngstars and
meeting new friends young and older.
We
just read the subject of an email that We received: Autism
Bomb: Bayer Herbicide Causes Autism, Even at Trace Levels - Expanded
Consciousness
This
makes Us sad for several reasons and on many levels. The email (not
the article) came from someOne that We have followed and respected
for some time. This assumes that autism is bad AND it is playing the
blame game, giving away Our power and shirking Our responsibility. We
must remember that whenever We see a problem We ARE there. We ARE
responsible. So: We can not blame anyOne else for this article. We
ARE sorry. We ask forgiveness AND We forgive OurSelves. We ask: “Are
We present now?”
There
is a choice to be made: do We sit in this or do We raise Our
thoughts, Our thinking and Our vibration. The choice is Ours. We love
Us. This headline sure put a damper on Our good spirits from Our
dreams. How often have We let something like this drag Us back into
limitation thinking and mindset. Why do We allow this? Mainly because
We did not know any better. “Forgive Me father for I Am about to
sin.” WE
are
responsible and it is Us who must seek and give forgiveness or We
will never change. We want to live as love. Blaming others
(regardless of how it appears) only keeps Us locked in victimhood,
scarcity and lack and worst of All: a limitation mindset and world.
We create Our own reality. Find a better feeling thought. Find and
hold a better feeling thought. Now: We are smiling again. We are
thinking of playing with the children.
Whatever
(and We truly mean whatever) thoughts We find that feel better, that
are pleasant and appealing work for this current process. We had a
hard time before because We judged many thoughts as unworthy, bad and
even taboo. We thought that “they” were not spiritual enough.
That is just another trap that We devised to keep Us stuck in
limitation. If picking Our nose (just an example really) brings Us
pleasure then We would benefit from thinking of that rather than
thinking about war, scarcity and lack, playing the blame game or any
of the limitation 3D thoughts and beliefs. BTW: Many, many of Our
students do revel in picking “their” noses. We are noticing that
more and more for whatever reason. It is NOT unspiritual. It is
actually quite natural in a human body. Judging it as bad is just
another of putting OurSelves down, of imposing outside judgments and
making Us feel bad about OurSelves. Some interesting insights there.
As
We go outdoors We are reminded of many thoughts and beliefs are
designed to hold Us back and trap Us in limitation. We theel how We
have chosen to judge and blame OurSelves in sooooo many ways. We have
embedded a belief that We ARE “bad”
and
so many natural activities and actions are “bad”.
We really believe that are fundamentally flawed. This keeps Us
trapped in limitation and separation. We can read these things over
and over (and it IS good/helpful for Us to do so) but until it
becomes real to Us then it is not truly real.
There
are many layers to this onion hole of judgment and Self condemnation.
We hold sooooo many unconscious, limiting beliefs about OurSelves and
Our world. Even those (that We have read) who are teaching how to
move passed these limitations still hold many such beliefs and many
even teach “them” as fact. “They” are NOT facts but only
beliefs. Of course: judging those teachers is more of the same. Here
We go loopty, loo. WE ARE responsible. We love Us AND We forgive Us.
This starts an even deeper process. We real-eyes that those who
belief in limits are also Our projections and We love “them” and
set “them” free. There is just so much to unravel and We ARE
delighted that We have begun (rather feeling overwhelmed as in the
passed).
Again:
We are spending Our day in multiD. We do not really remember what We
did. We real-eyes that remembering what We “did” is NOT
as important when We live in the now. Thinking that We “need”
to remember is another way We keep/kept OurSelves stuck outside the
now and in limitation. We are sooooo f'king clever. Then We forget
and deny just how clever We really are: “I didn't do that. Why
would I do that? 'They' did it to Me!!!!!” Another clever trap
and then another cleverer trap and then......
Our
head tries sooooo hard to keep Us in old, familiar limitation. We
have live there for years, lifetime and eons and Our head thinks it
knows All the traps and pitfall to avoid to keep Us safe. However:
that just keeps Us stuck and frustrated and We sink deeper into the
abyss that We created. We judge OurSelves and then project that
judgment and condemnation onto Our others and “they” reflect it
back on Us and it gets to be really stinky. So: We judge and condemn
OurSelves and others more and more. It becomes like a merry-go-round
in a sewer.
Then:
when We try to hold a pleasant thought: Our head tells Us We are a
failure because We can not hold it long enough. One second is long
enough. We are not is a race (We do love competition even while We
hate it. Don't We?) There is not goal, no highest mark to attain to
and NO failure (unless We choose it). If We think We will fail then
We are right. If We think We will succeed then We are right. We
used to judge OurSelves failures. It is still easy to do and slip
back into that victim consciousness. Now: We are catching OurSelves
and finding a better feeling thought and holding it as long as We
can. We ask OurSelves: “Am I present now?” And: “Are We
present now?”
Our
children within tend to be present now and miss Us when We go away
into the future and passed. Yes: “they” do bring up the passed
(mostly the unpleasant shit that We put Us and “them” through) to
get Our attention. Yes: it does replay and loop over and over as
long as We sit in it. Imagine that: wherever We sit there We are!
Our children know that “they”/We can catch more flies with honey
than with vinegar but sometimes We need the smell of the vinegar
(garrrrrrrrrr) to get Our attention. Who ever came out of a coma by
smelling honey??????? One of Our favorite sayings is: “Whatever
works.” We probably got it from Our children within.
The
kids on the bus take Us into multiD and multiworlds and dreams and
“their” worlds. We do not remember it All when We come out. The
same reasons why We do not remember everything (and sometimes
anything) that We do in dream apply. If what We do is about One of
the kids then it is really none of Our business. Plus: now that are
learning to be/stay/live in the now: remembering Our passed and
planning Our future just are NOT as important. We can argue for Our
limits just as much as We want and when We do then “they” are
Ours. Then We can bitch about being stuck. Talk about bragging
rights.
Our
middleschooler gave Us another picture. He is wearing an angry bird
hat and gloves and We are certain that the picture is of angry birds.
We are thinking of finding something with angry birds on Our Nook to
share with him.
We
ponder using Our Nook more with Our students (especially when Our new
tablet arrives) but We are not ready to use it when We have some
groups on the bus. Some kids do NOT share well and some like to
break things. Maybe We will get better at sharing too. Boy does
this bring up some schtuff.
Our
driver really got into paying attention to the kids but then she got
mad (or something) at “them”. Like everyOne: she probably
expected more reward. Or something or something else. We are blown
away and remember to find a better feeling thought. Our head keeps
going back to rehearse and compound her angry words and create a
fight between Us and her and We keep finding a better feeling
thought. We keep asking if We are present now. We ask OurSelves
what Our next thought might be? We are making progress and for Once
in Our life We are able to NOT gnaw on Our drivers remarks like a dog
with a bone. Later she makes a comment that kinda explains what is
going on within her. We remember that whenever We see a problem: We
ARE there.
Another
insight that keeps going around inside Our head is: We heal others by
healing OurSelf. We heal/change other's hearts and minds by
healing/changing Our own heart and mind. In the old pair-a-dime
there was an old archetype of teacher and healer. We have tried to
live up to and project those archetypes knowing that We are a teacher
and a healer. It does NOT work for Us. Yes: We do type and write
hoping to share that with Our world (and We do to some extent) but We
know that We still do Our best work in Our dreams. That goes totally
against the grain of the physical world. Then again: don't We want
to change Our physical world????? (Can We say: DUH??)
It
first came clear to Us (years ago) that: We are not the typical type
of healer. We got it right away that We are a healer of hearts and
minds and not (directly) of the body. (We also knew that: We heal
“them” by healing Us. We are just now getting it this applies to
teaching also even though We got Richard Bach's line: “We teach
best what We most need to learn”. Still: We thought We “should”
teach in somewhat the same old fashion. We really can be thick. We
are All aware of Einstein's words about fixing a problem with the
same methods that We used to create the problem and yet We try, try,
try to repeat the same thing and expect different results.
Finally:
We ARE trying/doing something new and different.
We
have no idea if Andy Shaw's
teachings and method of teaching is better for Us than the other
previous teachings that We have checked out, or is it the culmination
of All Our previous teachings/learnings/experiences or is it simply
the “right”
time for Us? We read Abraham-Hick's
: “find a better feeling thought” a long time ago and tried to
apply it but with little (some but very little) success.
Some/many/most of Our pleasant (better feeling) thoughts did NOT seem
spiritual enough or proper (more mindtraps). Then somehow Andy's
word seemed to open a well locked steel door inside Our mind and now
We can choose whatever thought We like and hold for a few seconds.
Amazing stuff.
This
really is what is going on within Us today and what this is
projecting onto Our world. Our world looks a lot the same but “We”
ARE changing AND healing and that IS the whole point. We can only
help others by helping OurSelf. NOT what the world wants to teach Us
and certainly
NOT what the world wants to hear. So: We share it in Our dreams (and
gently, or knot, on Our blog).
Wow!
We completely forgot that when We got home We went to dream early
and then got up to have dinner and play in multiworlds and multiD.
We were gonna type that We did Our usual when We got home which musta
happened in an alternate life. This is part of walking in
multiworlds and multiD.
Good night AND thank You for playing.
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