02/18/13

Today:

What do We want?

Wizard's Log Star-date: 08:49:41 AM

Good morning. It was a night of really experiencing that this is All a story. That may be a little hard to explain clearly but We will try. Now that We are awake, nothing looks different on the outside but We certainly feel different on the inside.

We experienced many things as We normally think “they” are and then suddenly “they” would change. Sometimes minor but noticeable changes and sometimes major glaring differences. What really got Our attention was feeling Our sinuses stuffed and hurting and then instantly feeling Our sinuses completely clear without any trace of the slightest pain or discomfort. There was no gradual draining and easing of the congestion and pain, it was instant and immediate.

Because it was never real. It is imagined. It is All pretend. The thing is: it is what We chose and imagined. That is One of the things that makes it sooooo easy to believe and hard to change. We had a reason for choosing for everything to be as it is. So, the first thing We really must get Our head around is that We really did choose this exactly as it is. We must accept this and admit it (even if only to OurSelf) or We continue in the state of De-Nile. As long as We claim that: “We can't” or “We didn't” then “We can't” and “We won't”.

So, even though We see no evidence to support any of this, We feel more confident, more in control. We now get it at a deeper level that this is pretend and We chose to pretend it the way it is. It feels like a maze unwinding or a knotted ball of string unraveling. It is something We (personally and collectively) have known but to experience it makes it more real to Our understanding. At this moment We truly feel like it (whatever it might be) is really free of matter.

It is much easier right now to see through the illusion. We still see the illusion as clearly and apparently solid as ever but We know and feel that it is only a projection, an imitation of the real. The real includes sooooo much more. The painful part of this illusion is the separation and limitation. The real is connected and limitless.

As We ponder and ask just what is it that We want to “get” out of this experience (and We are referring to the whole kit and caboodle) We are reminded that it can and probably will change gradually Once We get what We are after. We often expect (or hope) to wake to a totally different reality, the reality of love being lived and expressed in every way, every day. We are getting the feeling that One day it will gradually shift and change during Our waking experience. We are reminded of the theatrical phrase or direction: “fade to black”. We won't just flip a switch on turn on or off the lights. We will shift in a calm and comfortable manner that Our senses can adjust to as We go along.

It is kinda strange: experiencing being an actor on the screen and knowing this version of Me is really just a projected image with no real substance. Not just knowing but actually feeling it. Then also knowing and feeling that there is a bigger, more real version of Me that is watching and waking. A bit strange yet very comforting feeling this is.

There is something going on today (at least for Us personally) around All this but We can't quite put Our finger on it right now. It is the shift and transition happening as We go about Our day. We are reminded that what We need to do is: open, let go and allow. We are love. We are not really morphing or becoming love for We All-ready are. It is more Our awareness, acceptance and perspective that are changing and expanding. It feels really good and Our tendency is to try to push the river. We must allow the river to flow at its own pace.

We are also reminded that often, what We wish to release (let go of) We cling to ferociously. Part of this is because We created it in the first place. The thing is that We (ego) fear that if We let go then We will lose what We have created. It is really quite the opposite. We can All-ways revisit Our creation and that is the part We miss/forget. By letting go We gain more and never less, never lose anything.

We are evolving. That is what We are experiencing. In the passed, evolution has not happened so quickly that We could or would be aware of it and feel the sensations in/during Our daily lives. Now, it is happening that fast. We are experiencing OurSelves changing/evolving.