A day of inner change

07/18/14

Today:

A day of inner change

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:54:14 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day.

There are three worlds that We remember from last night: the first was very primitive (or that is what society now days would call it) in another there was a camera that had the power to give or take life and the last was just fun.

Every time We woke yesterday's incident came back up and We kept pony hopping it. Our head still wants to struggle and tussle with it. Our heart wants to engage different thinking and reactions. We clearly see that it is old thinking and beliefs that are triggering Our thoughts and reactions.

What We are getting this morning (that We just could not get to yesterday)is that the judgment (mainly), the anger and the hatred (based in fear and insecurity) that We felt from the other person is Our own reflected back on Us. This is what We have lived Our entire life trying to avoid. We have been running from it Our whole life. We have created this entire world based on this very judgment, anger and hatred of OurSelf. Yes: it is a pattern and a memory playing over and over and over. That is why We made a mountain out of a mole hill. The incident was small but the root is huge. We are sorry that We have submitted OurSelf to this judgment, hatred, anger and fear over All these eons. Please forgive OurSelf. We love Us unconditionally and We thank Us. Finally We feel this.

We find that We are still a bit riled up about yesterday's incident, especially when someOne wanted to talk about it. Then something else came up about it: casting curses at those We perceive to have harmed or threatened Us. Casting curses is clearly NOT Oneness and limitlessness behavior.

When We really start to own the behavior there is much that is revealed. We are having a hard time getting the words out now but We sure can feel a bunch of stuff roiling around inside Us. The vicious circle that We create as We judge and blame OurSelf and then project that out onto the world and Our others is incredible. Then as We feed and fondle these projections and reflections it grows and festers within and without.

The only way to end these cycles is to take responsibility and seek forgiveness. We can truly feel Our children within struggling with “their” feelings and emotions around All this. We have harmed “them” and We are truly sorry.

There have been many insights today and We did end up doing some minor venting over the incident. We calmed down more and more as the day went along. We are reminded that if We can cast curses that are affective (and Our buried memories tell Us that We can) then We can also cast blessings that are affective and even more so. We do not need to make a public display of any of this.

The afternoon section was a great way to end summer school.

When We got home We continued to process and access Our inner transformation.

Good night AND thank You for playing.