Today "Feeling My feelings" 2/19/12

02/19/12

Feeling My feelings

Wizard's Log Star-date: 08:43:09 AM

Good morning. Definitely dreamy again today. I don't want to concentrate enough to type.

Recently someOne spoke about being in the void. I didn't relate at the time. I think I do now. I think “they” related it to being in the cocoon. I remember years ago I had a dream about being the emerging butterfly.

Derek Rydall talks about manifesting from a caterpillar perspective. I feel like if I tried, right now to even just imagine a possibility of what it will look like on the other side or right now I would be imagining from a caterpillar perspective who has no ability or point of reference to foresee the butterfly that is about to emerge. I think that many of Us, certainly MySelf, have (in the passed) often manifested the bestest caterpillar imaginable and missed becoming the butterfly. I would really like to do the butterfly thing this time.

I get the impression that there is sooooo much going on and that is what I Am feeling, the push and pull, the tug of so many different possibilities and potentials and choices. A bit like a frog in a blender yet, no pain or actual discomfort. It is just the newness, the not knowing and the yet to be decided. Like the proverbial kid in the candy store trying to decide, even lamenting over the choices. Because I Am still accustomed to only get to choose One. I forget that I can have it ALL. That is not what I consider automatically as My choice or possible choice. I automatically think I have to choose only One type of candy or life or potential.

I really can't (or don't want to) do much besides just feel right now.

Today "Not Much" 2/18/12

02/18/12

Not Much

Wizard's Log Star-date: 06:47:13 AM

Good morning. Lots of dreams last night, I guess “they” went on All night. Neale Donald Walsch has a web-cast this morning that I want to check out. I feel like after that I will head back to My dreams. I love to dream and I love the worlds I Am visiting there.

I listened to part of the web-cast and really liked the part about We All-ready are who and what We are meant to be. In fact, that is really what My dreams were about last night. I still feel like I want to return to My dreams so I will.

A nice dream time, focusing on being and projecting love.

It looks like it is going to be another day of going back to bed, at least until it is time to go into town.

My friend told Me that she read My horoscope and it says I will be extremely dreamy. I Am All-ways dreamy so this tells Me why I Am sooooo much more dreamy these last few days.

I definitely feel like I Am walking through a dream and I'm not sure it's Mine.

I went to bed shortly after I got home from town. Dreamy.

Night School "We are the embodiment of love" 2-18-2012

02/18/12

We are the embodiment of love

(From night school last night)

That is very important. Sometimes it feels like I'm spouting lines from the sixties and sometimes I Am. I think that most people know that I mean something much deeper than physical love. I refer to the energy that makes up All atoms and molecules AND what holds “them” together.

Sometimes I get caught up in chasing the affect of love and forget to nourish the plant.

The night started out with dreams of making new choices and building new beliefs. It was very exciting stuff. Through the power of Our minds We reset the parameters for Our reality. It was important to note that the power of Our minds includes both sides, the logic AND the intuition bonded together and working in tandem.

We changed the parameters to pleasure instead of need. I can feel the process but can not describe it with words. We created a new reality where life is easy and We spend Our time living in pleasure. A world where We are motivated by pleasure and living Our passions rather than fear and need. Plus We transitioned this world from the old need, limitation and separation module to a world where everyOne is truly equal in All ways and We live for pleasure. The transition took longer than a brand new creation yet it seemed to happen All-most instantly.

After experiencing that for a while We went to class. We went through the process of adding new beliefs to build Our world upon.

We focused on the importance of keeping Our focus on love. It is so easy to get distracted, looking for the fruits and neglecting the roots and the plant. There are so many feelings, decisions and beliefs that come up and tend to interfere. How often do We say (or think): “Yes, but......................”

That is where many of Us find OurSelves. The thing is that We are love regardless of what We focus on. There is nothing We can do or say that changes who and what We are. There certainly are things We can do and say that change how We feel. Many things can change Our focus. We can allow OurSelves to be consumed with One pursuit or another, yet All-ways We remain love.

Running these thoughts is how I spent the rest of My night and dreams.

Today "Feeling the energy big time" 2/17/12

02/17/12

Feeling the energy big time

Wizard's Log Star-date: 07:46:47 AM

Good morning. An interesting night in that the format for night school was a bit different from the usual. Hmmmmm, is there really a “usual”?

I'm definitely not sure what I'm feeling now but I Am just letting Me feel it. Feelings don't All-ways have to be identified though I usually do try to identify “them”.

I just went through Morty Lefkoe's “eliminate One belief free” and I must say I like it. I will go on to do some more free stuff but want to do other stuff right now and let this first sink in. There is so much good stuff out there, I really don't know how a person could decide where to spend money on something. All-most everything I come across has definite benefit and value.

I just remembered that there was stuff referring back to My dream about being a conceptual designer that may have been in night school, maybe not. I know that in dream I was planning on writing about it and I One-der if that is where the masculine fits in?

I just had a thought referring back the proof and evidence stuff. In the passed I usually (or All-ways) look for and expect proof and evidence of failure. Isn't that interesting? How does it get any better than this?

I Am really getting it that it's All about love. I felt that I had to lay down and process in that manner. I experienced MySelf loving My old beliefs. I must love My old beliefs as much as I love and desire My new beliefs. I let go of My old belief and set it free, gently cutting and tying off the cord that binds Us. I experienced MySelf gently blowing on dandelion fluff and watching it float away in All directions.

I looked back at My life. From time to time throughout My life I have tried to bust My belief in need. Over and over again I knew inside that this belief is in error and I might push the border a little but I would All-ways return to living within the belief in need. I see several reasons. It certainly seemed easier to return to the old and fit in, as hard as that was. I could sure see results faster. I think the real biggy tho was that I was not done experiencing that belief. Basically, I had not worn it out yet.

I Am really enjoying what All the teachers are sharing that I read and hear but with rare exceptions, “they” believe in need. “They” (those that believe in need) may offer Me One-der-full tools and encouragement in many areas BUT “they” will re-enforce believing in need. I have a couple of obvious choices. I can get angry or I can love “them” as “they” are. Today, I Am choosing to feel, fully feel the anger that comes up, that is Mine and I want to get through it and really re-lease it and set it free. AND I choose to love “them” as “they” are for that is what I want to be, I Am love and I Am learning to live as love.

I also that in many ways I have All-ready pushed the boundary, and I like that. I want more. I Am getting and doing more. I Am the love that I want to see in the world.

I don't mind telling You that what I Am feeling is intense. It is scary and exciting. I really don't know where this path leads. I know that I can't imagine All the possibilities. That was something too that came up in dream last night that I can't really translate into words. I don't know if I will push on All the way or give up and return to old beliefs One more time. I (for some reason) am remembering “The Never Ending Story”.

I decided to lay down again and let the energy run. It is really strong today.

I got up and started listening to the Love and Above webinar replay from yesterday. We'll see how that goes. Another no go.

It's been One of those days that about All I can accomplish is going back to bed. I checked Space Weather. Com and it says activity is low.

Maybe I've gotten used to solar flares and the low activity is wiping Me out?

Early dinner, movie and DREAMTIME.

Night School "More Feelings" 2-17-2012

02/17/12

More Feelings

(From night school last night)

The night seemed filled with dreams about having and experiencing feelings. Towards the end of the night I was reviewing My dreams and looking to see if there was any night school in there.

It seems to Me that I was being shown some feelings I still was not aware of AND the importance of Our feelings.

I got it that the feminine energy is coming through much stronger than ever before in this life. The mind, not the logical mind so much but the feeling, intuitive mind is playing
THE major role in creating this new world We are experiencing and creating. In fact, at this point I'm having a hard time finding the masculine energy's place but I'm sure it is in here somewhere. Perhaps the marriage is so far along that I can't separate the two. That would be great.

I'm sure that for some, the masculine is coming out much stronger and more important and powerful than it is for Me right now. I was thinking that maybe the main masculine for Me right now is the mechanical. I Am wondering how important that is, I'm sure others can see that much clearer than I can right now. I still enjoy working out and understanding (or not) the mechanics of things. I would still like to remember exactly how to make a flying car or skateboard or or or...............

I think that for Me using the feminine energies of feeling, intuition and beliefs is the most important. It is certainly where My focus is leading Me.

There was also more about being and becoming Our energy bodies. This would certainly seem to be the level where We have no needs. I do think that just as We taking Our physical bodies into 5D We will also take “them” into the land of “No Needs”. It seems to Me that these would go hand in hand. Of course, Our bodies are changing and morphing too. I continue looking at how Our beliefs, especially the belief in need is just that and ONLY a belief. We created this belief to experience this limited world to the nth degree and it worked. Man oh man did it work.

We are the creators of Our beliefs. Most of Us have never wanted to believe that. Now is the time, if We choose. It really is All about choice but the energy is definitely here to support Us making change.