A lot

05/04/14

Today:

A lot

Wizard's Log Star-date: 05:14:32 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day. (All-though admittedly, some days do NOT feel like play) We wish to report that more and more days feel like play. It seems that (perhaps) taking the steps to begin Our autism website opened Us up.

We are not sure where We went or what We did because We are somewhat still there. We thought We were awake, and maybe We are but We are not much in limitation 3D. It seems that is a lot of what We dreamed about: changing. We vaguely remember both being in other worlds and expanding this world. There is sooooo much about/around the children. “They” really do seem to be a key element in evolving Our world.

We hope to go for water and heating oil (should be the last time for heating oil this summer) AND do some on Our website but who knows. Especially since We are not fully here and We hope We can remain not fully here. One thing We would like to do is get “The Beginning of No” rewritten a bit and posted on Our website. Maybe We could even experience more of that world. Or visit the two brothers in “their” world, or, or, or...........

It seems that We are getting lots of hints, intuits and ideas about expanding Our perceptions and thereby changing/expanding Our world and life. The energy work that is coming up in the webinars is spot on. Interesting how that works. It is another example of creating Our world and seeing what We project. Not long ago We would NOT have believed that it could and would get this real. We still considered OurSelf a victim. We were still stuck in victim mentality and lack and scarcity consciousness. We really believed that Our life was the result of outer forces, even though We had begun to change that belief and mindset. It was changing but it remained Our dominant belief. We thought and believed that money comes only from physical action and not from Our mind. The opposite of how it works at the energetic level. The energetic level shows up as the physical level and not the other way around.

We are having Our change of thinking and beliefs, Our complete psychic change. We are changing Our mind and the parts are beginning to work in cooperation rather than competition.

We remember now doing some exercise around integrating the parts, telling OurSelf that We are ready to expand beyond limitation 3D AND that We can return here (to visit) anytime We want. That is a very important point to setting limitation free.

Apparently this weekend is about living in multiworlds and We like that.

Obviously what We are doing IS working.

The last few days/weeks We are finding more and more examples of beliefs that We believed were facts and We are now examining “them” as beliefs. Time and money are two huge examples and We have let “them” keep Us trap in Our Selfmade trap. So often We go through Our day/life thinking: “That's just the way it is”. This is a belief NOT a fact. It is a lie and We are the One telling it.

We ARE what We believe. We experience what We believe. Everything that We see, feel, hear, taste and smell IS what We believe: which is actually Our memories and programs. This is hard for Us in limitation 3D to grasp at any level. It is even harder for Us to know this at any level. Yet, it is harder still and something else All-together to live it, to believe it sooooo much that it becomes Our experience.

Also, All of Our thinking, ideas, planning etc. are based in and on the old paradigm of limitation 3D. Are those the plans, ideas and thoughts We want to engage in?

As usual (when We just take it easy and play at what We are doing) We got a lot done, much more than We had anticipated. We got into lesson 3 of the Silva method and hope We will remember to try it before going to bed. Or not. As We went about playing at this and that outside We remember that We ARE changing Our way of thinking and this is changing Our world. We ARE taking back Our power (it lies within Our unconscious, probably dormant) and not playing the victim or playing the victim less.

We are beginning to believe in OurSelf. That alone is a big step. We no longer have to accept and live in: “That's just the way it is”. We recognize that for the lie that it is AND We know that We are the One who told/tells it to Us. No blame, part of the game.

Let's go add some stuff to Our website. That was fun. We added a couple of pictures and some navigating directions AND our story: “The Beginning of No”. We have been wanting (feeling inspired) for a few days to add that. We theel it fits.

There were some messages We wanted to read and We did part of that and watched Our hypnosis training vid for the week. Good stuff and Once again it All relates to Our current changes. We ARE projecting Our new Self and new world. We likes where this is going.

Another thing that keeps coming up is in Our old way of thinking We truly believed that We had to do something physical to make anything/something happen. We were locked into that completely. Now We are beginning to get it and live and experience it that We can create change with Our mind. We do NOT have to play by the old rules and beliefs. “They” are no longer valid (if “they” ever were). The answer to Our questions and desires is: “Yes We can!” Let's repeat that: “YES We can!”. Get it?

Good night AND thank You for playing.

Living here AND there

05/03/14

Today:

Living here AND there

Wizard's Log Star-date: 10:21:48 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day. (All-though admittedly, some days do NOT feel like play) We wish to report that more and more days feel like play. It seems that (perhaps) taking the steps to begin Our autism website opened Us up.

Lots of worlds and lots of friends. Some students from Our waking life kept showing up throughout the night. We are not sure if those students were in One world We kept visiting All night or if “they” were in different worlds. If it was different worlds “they” were similar. We are living in children's centers in All of those worlds. We kept telling “them” that “they” are free to do what “they” want and it was an introduction to these centers. We like that. Of course We would like to experience this in waking but We are reminded that IF We believe Our dreams are real then that is enough and We can experience something different in Our waking world. That works for Us as it is something We have been practicing in many dream experiences over the years.

We do want to experience being more of who We really are in waking but it can (and will) look different than We expect. It will be much more. The best We can explain is that We will experience lots of lives and worlds in waking. We continue to have the vision of Our cabin opening onto everything. A meadow for a front yard leads to a beach, which leads to a body of water with other worlds in, around and beyond it. There are lots of children and A-dults (who We can relate to, who are experiencing similar to what We are) coming and going. Our space port is there, maybe in another dimension or vibration. On One side Our cabin opens onto an enchanted forest with Our Faerie castle merging with Our cabin and on the other is a vast forest with many picturesque waterfalls. And then there is more. We mostly just kick back and enjoy the view.

Beyond that We really do not have any clear vision or idea of what Our future will be like except that We will experience many of the lives and worlds that We only experience (now) while asleep. Perhaps Our waking lives and dream lives will kinda merge? That feels close to accurate. The more We believe that Our dreams are real the more real “they” become and the more Our mind can accept “them” as real. The main thing that We want is to experience NOT being stuck in limitation and separation yet We still fear (this fears grows less every day) being free. We do want to experience in more of Our waking everyOne being free and equal.

There were some changes We wanted to make on our blog and We got that done.

The passed few days/weeks We have been feeling/sensing the reality of changing Our world (Our world changing) with Our mind. We have to remember that Our unconscious is the most powerful part, afterAll that is at least two thirds of Our mind (superconscious/father within and subconscious/children within) AND it is more from Our heart whereas Our conscious is more from Our head. Our heart IS more powerful than Our head but “they” need to work in tandem not in competition and opposition.

So far this morning We are doing some email, listening to a webinar and piddling around inside and out. We are enjoying some time outside in the lovely weather. We are focusing on staying in the now and setting “planning” free with love.

We finished the webinar, took several breaks and then returning. There was a time when We might/would have thought We were not resonating and/or enjoying but We are clear that the energy is just too intense. We laid out in Our lounge chair which We had brought up from the shed earlier. We spent a bit of time finding the pillow for it but We knew it was important. We have no idea how long We laid out in the sun but We are certain that We enjoyed it AND that it is important. We piddled here and there and got the first tarp up out front for Our summer playing. We are not certain if We want the second tarp up or not this year but We are certain We do not want it up today.

Our local friends are not up for company today and that is not a surprise for Us. We will go to town anyway and dump the last buckets of rock in a rut down Our driveway. We hope to get some more rock for those ruts before the snow falls again. We really are NOT sure why We want to go to town today but it seems like a good idea.

When We got home from town We were very thirsty and dreamy. We drank a lot of liquids (which kinda killed Our appetite too) and had an early dinner and off to dream early. We know there is dreaming that needs dreaming.

Good night AND thank You for playing.

Living and learning

05/02/14

Today:

Living and learning

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:43:53 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day. (All-though admittedly, some days do NOT feel like play) We wish to report that more and more days feel like play. It seems that (perhaps) taking the steps to begin Our autism website opened Us up.

Another busy, interesting night and as clear and plain as Our experiences were We do not have much clear memory. As We have been saying lately: We do not remember Our waking much better. In One world We were in some kind of class setting and We were teaching and learning about integrating other aspects of OurSelf. The point that We remember was that We can NOT draw a line and say that We will let these other aspects get this close and no closer. We must fully integrate these aspects.

It is in Our memory that there were other worlds, lives and friends but We do not remember anything that We did. When We first woke this morning there was clearly someOne or something else breathing inside Our cabin. Perhaps it was Our cabin. Part of what We are doing in waking is recognizing everything as living sentient beans which are quite different from Our limitation, waking perception.

It is warm enough that We did not light Our heater and still We are a bit too warm.

We are practicing Our wondering exercises. We are reminded that it is important to do this out loud. So, We are practicing out loud.

It was a rather eventful day, from Our perspective anyway. We found it easier to practice asking: “I wonder what it would take.....?” or “I wonder what it would be like....?” and do it out loud than We had anticipated. In fact We found it rather fun. It does seem to opening Us up even more. We are hoping for some inspiration for Our website this weekend. We would like to type more about Our adventures with autism and what it might be like if everyOne accepted autists “AS 'they' ARE”.

Our two fifthgraders both rode today and after not seeing each other for two weeks “they” were just too rambunctious the longer “they” were sitting together and We had to split “them” up. It really was getting beyond safe both for distracting the driver AND for setting One of “them” of into a fit of anger (both have anger issues which is why “they” have not seen each other for two weeks). Of course it made “them” mad and as much as We hate that: We would rather “they” were mad at Us than have “them” go too far and be mad at each other (or cause the driver to have a wreck).

We did a lot of pony hopping.

Also: Our driver informed Us that he is hoping to get a delivery job. We wish him well and hope he gets it. There are much worse drivers out there but We would rather be with a driver that cares about the kids and maybe pays more attention to “their” driving. We have had sub drivers that did give Us a smoother ride and many are much more interested in the kids. However: as We say: there are much worse drivers out there.

When We got home We listened to a webinar about changing Our energy and working with Our chakras to clear old stuck energy and programing. It is interesting how this (Once again) ties to other methods We are using. A lot of Our beliefs were necessary for survival in the passed but are no longer necessary or accurate in Our current, changing, evolving world but remain stuck in Us (especially in Our chakras) because We have held onto “them” for generations. We are setting “them” free. What We really liked is that this teacher did NOT say to destroy or delete “them” just release “them”. Since We experience what We project this shows Our progress.

We ARE setting the old free with love and it is available to revisit anytime We want AND We do NOT have to fall in again and get stuck. We love Our games, Our creations, Our projections and holograms. We can set “them” free to revisit whenever We want but We can NOT destroy “them” (even if We did want to and We do NOT want to). This is Our truth.

Good night AND thank You for playing.

Another, nother day

05/01/14

Today:

Another, nother day

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:54:33 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day. (All-though admittedly, some days do NOT feel like play) We wish to report that more and more days feel like play. It seems that (perhaps) taking the steps to begin Our autism website opened Us up.

It seems to have been a night of processing and pony hopping. Not much else to report at this time. The incident yesterday keeps coming to mind and We keep pony hopping. We really need to set it free and change Our standard method of operation. If what We are doing (have been doing most of Our life) is not working perhaps We should try something different and here We are! We take responsibility. Our projections are Ours.

Setting things free is NOT normal for Us. We plan, We wrestle with thoughts and ideas and incidents long after “they” are over. This is changing starting now. We set it All free. When it pops back up We will set it free again. As We practice We will recognize it faster and set it free faster. Soon: We will just keep cleaning and setting it All free. Perhaps then We will experience the world of Our dreams, the “real” world.

We know that have been “holding on” to Our limitation and separation game/world/projections. We even fear losing “them”. That is due to the old thinking that We had to destroy “them” in order to expand and experience the life We really want and dream of. Now: We know that is not true. Those games and worlds and lives will go on forever (as part of infinity) and We can return any time We want. The thing is that We will be able to visit and play by whatever rules fit Us at the time without falling in and getting stuck as We have before. Getting completely immersed in limitation and separation is NOT the only way to play. It is an effective way but NOT the only way.

As We have mentioned We had several webinars that We wanted to listen to this week. What We found very interesting is that the One We most wanted to listen to turned out to be speaking to getting out of this “figure it out” mindset that We have been typing about. It turns out that this is very common. Could it be because We see what We project?????? Nah, can't be that.

The webinar is about intuition and following intuition is the opposite of figuring stuff out. One key is getting into an “I wonder” mindset and just letting it be at that, not grasping for the how and when.

One of the things that We are theeling is about education for Our evolving world. We wonder how that will look. We theel that We are part of the change. We wonder what that will look like. We wonder what steps We can take towards that? We wonder how much Our website has to do with this? We do theel that it is part whether directly related or not. SomeOne else mentioned starting children's centers and We are very drawn to that idea. We wonder how that will evolve?

There are some other tools and We hope to listen to the recording again a few times to help integrate the tools and ideas.

We do not feel like having dinner but We are strongly drawn to go early to dream.

We ARE changing.

Good night AND thank You for playing.

Thoughts and experiences

04/30/14

Today:

Thoughts and experiences

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:39:52 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day. (All-though admittedly, some days do NOT feel like play) We wish to report that more and more days feel like play. It seems that (perhaps) taking the steps to begin Our autism website opened Us up.

We are having some interesting dream and waking experiences about taking responsibility for Our life and world, of creating Our holographic projection that We think of as Our world AND All there is. There is much more and that is a big key AND what We seek. The thing is that is hard to grasp that everything, absolutely everything that We see and experience IS Our creation and projection. Most people do NOT and will NOT accept this and even that IS OUR projection. All those unwilling and stubborn people living in De-Nile are Our projection. The people who hate the rich and powerful ARE Our projection (and judgment). The good guys AND the bad guys are Our projection. It is easy to say but to live as if: that is much harder.

Blaming is sooooo easy. Owning is a real sticker. Judging is easy too but it comes back around and bites Us in the ass. Our fears and feelings and beliefs about money come from Our judgment. We created and projected it All. Our limits are truly Self created. We think that Our life is the result NOT the cause but it is truly the cause and NOT the result. That is hard candy. It needs to dissolve in order to be swallowed.

We have only vague memories of most of Our dreams about this but these are the key points. We really are that powerful but it is not an easy task to change Our beliefs and thoughts and mindset. We fear that We will meet disaster before We change and take back Our power. That fear is part of giving away Our power and it is trying to get Us to do it again and go back into hiding. For today: We will stand fast and set My people free.

There is more to this, probably much more AND it IS very important. It is part of Our complete psychic change. We really need and want to live in this mindset that We create and created absolutely everything that We have in Our life and world. All the laws, rules and limits are merely Our beliefs projected onto the world. The “real” world is there, just behind/under Our projections. We really are playing on a holodeck but We think it is Our entire life. Again, it is One thing to say and think this, it is One thing to have theories, surface beliefs, philosophies, thoughts, ideas and even intuits BUT it is entirely something else to live it.

Taking responsibility AND changing Our energy and vibration must come first for Us. A changed world, easier life must be the result NOT the cause. At least for Us and after All: It is Our party.

Whatever happened on the bus on Friday (the day We took off) continues to simmer and boil over. It would be easy to blame since We were even there (physically) but this blame game has got to stop (for Us anyway). We try to “figure out” and plan how to “fix” the problem. Doing Our own cleaning is the only real answer. Whatever it is within Us that is causing this: We ARE sorry and ask forgiveness. We love OurSelf unconditionally, We love Our projections and even Our false, limiting beliefs and memories and programs. We set “them” All free with love. We thank Us.

Our standard method of operation is to think and worry and wrangle with any problem (especially when it involves Our others) like a dog with a bone. This has never worked for Us but We have not known how to change. Now We have the tools and We are going to practice using “them”. At least for today. We are certain that this is going to affect every area of Our life.

Good night AND thank You for playing.