05/30/13

Today:

Survival or living?

Wizard's Log Star-date: 06:13:13 AM

Good morning. Shadow woke Us up checking on Us and We knew We were not going back to sleep even though We are still mostly in dream. Something is definitely shifting and changing. We do not remember anything about Our dreams.

Early in the night (or very late in the evening) We were awake for a while and We were aware then of much of what We had been dreaming and what was going on with Us. Maybe We were on ship at that time. At least that is what it feels like now. It feels like We are being prepared.

There are several things We would like to do today, some are things We think We should do. We keep thinking: “I'm going to:” and then We finish with: “let go”. We are glad that this is coming so automatic now. Our head may not be so happy about it but Our heart and expanding mind are. We may be able to go back to dream soon too.

We just discovered that We did not post a “Today” yesterday. This is the second time in a few days that We could absolutely swear that We posted One but it is not there. We are definitely having more and more experiences of living is several worlds. This is good but it also continues to frustrate Us. We would like to get over or through the frustration without leaving or letting go of the experience. We want to get used to and familiar with living in many worlds and realities simultaneously. Again, Our head fears for Our survival if We do. This is NOT about survival, not anymore. This is about freedom and living. Survival is old pair-a-dime thinking and action and motivation. The old paradigm still exists (obviously) and probably All-ways will. We can visit but We no longer wish to live there.

As We were going outside We were reminded that We can hold on to the old or We can let go of it. Funny thing is that the new includes the old We just are not trapped there any more, unless We cling to it and refuse to change. We are changing, We may as well allow it rather than resist it. Resis-dance is futile.

There seems to be some sort of challenge or competition going on inside of Us. One part (Our head) is screaming that We must get busy, We must hurry and do, do, do. The other part (Our heart?) is telling Us that We must relax. We can NOT “do” Our way into the new world(s), though many are trying and it would be quite easy for Us to fall back into that rat race. We can only “relax” and play Our way into the new. So, we choose to take it easy. Open, let go and allow.

One thing We are real-I-sing is that as the leaves come out (more and more) on the trees, the heat is not so intense (at least here at/in Our cabin). We have no idea if this early summer heat is new, part of the incoming energies or what. It may just be the sudden change since it was snowing less than two weeks ago and is getting over 80F now. However, regardless, We are grateful for the shade provided by Our forest as it wakes Once again.

Now that We have actually opened Our mail, We see that the letter We need has not arrived so We will be going through the process of calling unemployment.

We have started putting up the upper cross piece for Our fort. We seem to have woken All the mosquitoes. We are glad We have several things to do inside while We take breaks. Breaks are good but We tend to need to be able to entertain OurSelf during Our breaks.

As We read online We find that several have advised Us about the increase (One more, One more time) in incoming energy in many forms. This helps explain how We felt yesterday after Our trip to town. We are also reminded that We have read that time is One of the biggest traps in limitation 3D. We are experiencing that also as We think that We do not have enough time to do what We want to do. We are reminded that We are masters of time and We have exactly the right amount of time to do what Our heart desires on the perfect schedule.

We have started putting the poles back up on Our fort and taking lots of breaks. We think that We may tend to Our raspberry transplants in and around the fort stuff. We also need to do a job search by Saturday to comply with unemployment requirements. Oh, amazingly We got through to unemployment on the first try this morning and got All Our questions answered. YAY!!!!!!!!! As long as We stay in compliance We will receive Our first check next week. We are happy because this is income We were not expecting and means that much less coming out of Our savings.

So, We applied for a job as a probation officer. Now, this may seem odd but We have All-ways wanted to do that and We think We would be very good at it. Since We are required to apply for at least One job per week to qualify for unemployment, why not apply for something that We think We would like to do and We actually meet All “their” requirements.

We added some more poles to Our fort and got several pictures. It is too hot and mosquitoey to stay out there very long.

Also, We added some more soil to Our raspberry transplants and watered “them”. “They” are starting to bud out.

We did a little painting on Our indoor plant pots. It's fun going back and forth and round abouts with these different projects. We All-most dislike the word projects but it will just have to do for now.

We find that again today, (in the afternoon) We are slipping out of limitation 3D focus. We are still here and functioning but feeling half asleep, yet not. It really is hard to describe. One of those: “You had to be there” experiences. We theel that this will become more and more common for OurSelf and Our others.

Another early to dream day, though not as early as yesterday.