05/10/13

Today:

Lots of dreaming and.......

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:24:13 AM

Good morning. Interesting dreams especially as We were/are waking. This dream is about living in and experiencing different realities while awake. This may seem like more of the same but it is very much a deeper, more enriched experience. It is about cutting the ties that bind Us to limitation. There is just sooooo much that We cling to as necessary when it is only necessary in limitation. We cling to it and call it facing reality to justify Our Self imposed slavery.

It is hard to release these ties. We are so familiar with living in limitation and We think that if We do not do All these things We will not survive. This is a lie but We are the One telling it to OurSelf. Only We have the power to stop. Stop the telling and the believing and We are in the midst of doing this. Open, let go and allow. There are just sooooo many things that We do not believe are possible. Controlling time is a major One but it is only One part, One piece of the puzzle. However, clinging to Our belief in time and fear of being late or missing something or being punished and chastised for this is major. We are letting go.

We like the feeling of being free but it is also a little scarey. There seems to be security in Our familiar bondage. There is only bondage in bondage but it is familiar. We are noticing small differences as We wake. Items in a slightly different place, time passing differently. Being awake awhile and it is still earlier than when We first got out of bed. But, these are only slight variances even though hard to believe in. The dream was of sliding (gently but thoroughly) into completely different realities. Some have many of the same characters but “they” act totally different from the old and familiar (and this includes Our personal actions). In the new We are being much more true to OurSelves. In some of these new waking realities We are living amongst non-human looking beans but “they” not animals or plants as We know those now.

The thing is, that these All feel real. Just as real as Our old limitation reality felt. We know this should not surprise Us, yet it is sooooo new (at least in waking). We keep thinking: “I should.......” or “I need to.........” or “I will …......”. All of these thoughts are tricks to keep Us focused in limitation. The old belief that to have the new We must give up and abandon the current and old runs deep. It is another lie. We can have and live in both (and more than just “both”). However, Our belief in this remains weak. We are practicing finishing each of those thoughts with: “let go”. This is a big step for Us, One We have been taking for several years. We have allowed Our foot to slip slowly into the water but We have yet to raise Our foot and take a step. That is okay. We can All the way in over Our head if We choose. But We do NOT have to give up anything. That is such a foreign concept to Us.

We really can have it All.

We are practicing allowing OurSelf to let go. We recognize that everything We see and experience is the product of Our belief system but that is still hard to really believe. We have so much Self-created evidence that tells Us of how We suffered when We tried to bend and break the rules before. Of course, that was Our belief and the uni-verse honored Our belief and requests.

There are sooooo many things that We try to tell OurSelves that “it is important” but it snot.

We do remember suffering whenever We have tried to bend and break the limitation rules before but We know that We were only pretending to suffer. When We acknowledge this We can remember watching OurSelf pretend to suffer and kind of shaking Our head in One-der-ment. What a clever game We played. What a cruel and clever deception We lost OurSelves in.

We know that if honor the little variations on reality that We are experiencing (those things that We used to explain and poo poo away) then We can begin to allow bigger and bigger changes in Our waking world. If We continue to demand Our limitations then We will get Our limitations for just as long as We cling to “them”.

It is a rather interesting morning being aware of being in multi-realities AND working etc. At work Our driver and several other of the staff were in fowl moods. We wondered what the kids would be like. Fortunately by the time We got to Our first stop the driver had altered his mood and the kids were All in good moods. Not quite as excited and fun as yesterday but still talkative and happy.

The helpful boy has a birthday today. He is five. He has his new haircut moosed and spiked and is showing everyOne the new shirt he got for his birthday, it has a dinosaur on it. He says he is going to have a party at school and then a real party at a swimming pool. He wanted Us and the driver to stay for his party at school and he was disappointed when We told him We had to go to pick up other students for other schools. He seemed appeased when We told him We hope he has a really great birthday.

We had a great time with the highschooler. We joke and laugh a lot. We are definitely building a lot of rapport. We know that he is One of the kids that visits Us in dream. We do not know if he is the least bit aware of this in waking.

The weather remains very nice and the interesting cloud formations continue to surround Us on the horizon. Some on One side look like cloud cities. We do feel that this is somehow significant.

We are being drawn back into dream so We will close for now.

When We returned home We only the things that absolutely needed doing which is much less than usual since We do not think it will freeze tonight. We have not lit Our heater (inside the cabin) when We returned home for several days and this morning We did not light it when We got Up either. It is very comfortable for Us but too hot for Shadow. We went to dream as soon as We could.