05/06/13

Today:

Open, let go and allow. Repeat and keep repeating.

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:24:44 AM

Good morning. We slept in a little and even that is a new learning experience for Us. There is just so much to learn and adapt to with expansion. We (probably everyOne) are so used to limitation and slavery to everything, being free is hard to grasp. It is hard to allow. It is easy to demand limitation.

We woke several time during the night and so We remember more of Our dream worlds. Several were not as pleasant and fun as We are used to (in dream) but still there was much more freedom than We allow in waking. In One We were attacked by a zombie be like person and it was someOne We recognized. Our first reaction was to attack back and defend OurSelf. For some reason We had a spoon with Us and We jabbed to handle into “their” throat. What was that All about? We theel it was about a couple of youngstars We met at the laundromat.

Remember that up until recently, usually when We met strangers “they” looked at Us like We have three heads (apparently “they” can see through Our glamour????). But, yesterday these youngstars looked Us in the eye. “They” obviously noticed Us and wanted to make contact. We said hello and made a bit of introductory conversation. “They” watched Us a while and then when We turned around “they” seemed to have disappeared. This was two separate instances the two youngstars were not together. We really wanted to make/have more 3D contact and conversation but like We said, “they” just seemed to disappear after making contact. Okay. We can accept that.

So, then We had a tumultuous night that feels related to these two youngstars. What does that mean? It means We do not have a clue what it means. What We do know is that We returned to the zombie's world and instead of attacking the zombie We integrated it. When We did not try to kill it, it was going to assimilate Us (yes, like the Borg) but We integrated it much to its surprise. Then later there was another similar attack and We integrated that attacker also. It seems that this was repeated several times. Something interesting that We noted was the return to the zombie's world. We returned to the exact same scenario (the part leading up to Us jabbing the spoon in its throat) and at that instant We changed the action to embracing the zombie. We do not remember ever doing returning to the exact same story/scenario and then changing it the way We chose.

We are not saying We have not done this before but Our attachment to limitation has prevented Us from being aware of it in waking. As much as We loathe limitation, We are very attached to it and hold on to it with All Our might. Negative attachment is truly the same as positive attachment.

Now, somehow through All these weird and negative appearing worlds that We visited, We had fun. How is that? Well, for One We are integrating parts of OurSelf that We had formerly rejected. It really does continue to amaze Us how many rejects are still out there after All the years We have been integrating “them”. But then again, We spent a lot more lifetimes rejecting OurSelf.

Another thing is that somehow what is negative to Our waking world was not nearly as negative and frightening in dream. We did not experience much fear and anger.

So, when it was time to get up We wanted to stay in dream. We let OurSelf linger and remembered a few things. We do not have to fully wake any more. Neither is there really anything that We have to do except whatever We choose We want to do before We head out the door. We could even call in sick but We want to be with the kids. Then We get to return to dream whenever We are not with the kids during the day. We are changing the way We live each day. We are spending more and more time in expanded realms. That is the part We have been missing All these years and We are placing fewer and fewer demands on OurSelf. Those demands include being fully awake.

Of course, in 3D (at least the limitation version) We probably have the concepts of waking and dreaming reversed. In case You have not noticed, We theel there are several versions of 3D and One (or more) are limited and others are limitless.

There was also something last night about waking from a nightmare that We have lived in (are living in) for many years yet when We wake only a few hours (or even less) has passed. We also noted that this connects to waking feeling exhausted. When We are aware of living for years and years (even several lifetimes some nights) in only a few hours it really is exhausting. It is kinda like running in fast forward All night.

So, the waking that We used to abhor is changing into a mild transition into an expanded state of awareness. In case You are not All-ready aware: We started this journal because We hated waking up and We wanted to see if We could change this by releasing Our attachment to limitation 3D and All the rules and shoulds and disappointments. Well here We are. We are not done but We are certainly on Our way.

As much as We enjoy being with the kids We do look forward to getting to dream every morning Once again. Even during summer school We get to dream in a little. But, We have a strong feeling that soon Our waking will have changed enough that there is little difference between waking and dreaming consciousness.

We slipped through Our day getting a lot of 3D stuff done but not knowing exactly what. Nothing important in the One hundred year plan but it seemed important in the now. We enjoyed Our day and felt the presence of other beans (galactic and children) throughout the day.

We are reminded of the importance of: “Open, let go and allow”. So much is available, right here and right now if only We will open, let go and allow.