05/08/13

Today:

Insights and outsights

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:32:05 AM

Good morning. We woke from a dream of working with a friend, or more just being supportive of each other. We were both changing from the inside out while it appeared that everyOne else was changing things on the outside hoping to (thereby) affect change on the inside. Obviously, this relates to how We are experiencing Our current main waking reality. Interesting that We know this is not Our only waking reality any more.

We were discussing a mutual friend that We would both like to be closer to but “they” are on such a different path that We just are not comfortable spending much time with “them”. This could represent a lot of people.

It is interesting to note that We did not have Our usual desire to remain in dream, in fact We even got up early. We theel this relates to feeling done/finished/complete with the last dream.

We are now kind of at a loss for what We want to type. It seems that there was a lot of information We received during the night that We wanted to type and thought We would be able to convey but it is like a vapor now. It still amazes Us how it could be so plain and clear in dream and sooooo illusive in waking.

We continue to feel comforted by the friend who is supportive and working on changing “themSelves” from the inside out rather than the outside in.

We do not know if We All-ready mentioned it but We decided that Our monthly ET contact started early again and it does seem like it is going on through the week leading up to the “official” contact weekend. We felt that the two youngstars from Sunday would be working with Us and We have felt this though nothing specific. Perhaps the friend from this dream was One of “them”. We knew and recognized this friend in dream but do not remember “them” being anyOne local.

We real-eyes that We are Once again being here AND there. We kind of fell in to what We were typing while doing stuff in the physical also. We are reminded that there was a time that this would have really frustrated Us. We are getting a lot of reminders these days. We can not remember what it was but there was a reminder We wanted to mention. Guess We need the reminders.

We are having trouble with Open Office crashing on Our laptop when it is also online. This does not happen on Our desktop. It is not a big deal but it would be nice not to have to deal with it so We are trying to update Our laptop to see if this will repair the problem.

We just remembered that We wanted to mention the awesome cloud formations We are seeing this week. It really looks like an armada of cloud ships with slyphs moving in and out and about it. One cloud looked exactly like the luck dragon from “Never Ending Story”. We are also reminded of how much We are changing and how We really do feel like We are “in the world” but not “of the world”.

It really does seem like Our world has entered a time of true personal choice. Many think nothing has changed and that (of course) is “their” choice and We try to honor that. Others are working on changing the outer, the physical world and that too is a valid choice. We think that Bill Ballard calls this people's Geo-political awakening or something like that.

We have decided to download Open Office on Our laptop One more time to see if this fixes the crash problem.

We continue to be reminded of how much We (collectively and personally) are truly masters of time and so much more and how many things that We think and do which deny this mastery. So many times throughout the day, each and every One of Us demands, supports and reenforces Our limitations. We continue to pretend to be what We are not. However, now We (some of Us anyway) are aware of this and We are changing/expanding.

We learned/remembered the correct name for the trading card game We were typing about yesterday: Magic- The Gathering.

The gradeschoolers are mostly back to normal today. The girl did not ride but We do not know why. The boys were “their” normal Selves, perhaps enhanced. Very happy, talkative with Me and each other and nearly screaming with delight at whatever “they” were doing.

There is still something We are missing about the helpful boy. He gets upset easily but then he recoups quickly sometimes, like maybe he was only pretending to be mad??? Like any little boy he does not “get it” that somethings that may be fun, may not be safe. In most cases I Am too lenient and need to try to explain that he does need to be more careful and other people might not like or allow what he is doing. Plus there are times that I can not watch and regulate what he is doing as I can at other times. This is why authorities make blanket rules and regulations: it is easier than giving time, attention and consideration to each individual. We have 8 gradeshoolers on the bus, it just is not possible to give each One 100% of Our attention.

This is how Our society is set up to keep Us from feeling truly connected to each other.

We are subbing on another route during the noon section. We think that We have been on this route before but do not remember anything about it.

It turns out that We had not been on this noon route before. One boy was a real challenge. He was not fighting or anything like that but he certainly was resisting conforming. He was having a very good time not doing what he was supposed to do beginning with staying on the bus and taking his seat. Many kids who do not want to conform get angry and even violent when people try to fit the round peg into a square hole. This One has learned to have fun with it. The little girl played peek-a-boo with Us. Another boy would pretend to be asleep whenever he thought that We might not approve of him and/or what he was doing. Eventually he untied One shoe to see if We would retie it for him. The last boy slept the whole ride and though he was less than 5 and seemed totally unaware of what was going on, he woke at his stop.

BTW, something that We did with Our laptop seems to have corrected the crashing problem.

The boy in the wheelchair was delighted with the Magic cards We found and brought him. He was even more thrilled that he got to keep “them”. He said that when he sees things (like the descriptions on the cards) that he can not read, he makes it up. We gave him a thumbs up. He was surprised at that. He had Us read the descriptions on the cards and he also made some more up and told Us how he was going to trick his brother and friends by making even more things up.

After that We went to dream. The middleschoolers were typical if that is even possible. The girl had some pictures she had painted in anime style and “they” were excellent. She is obviously quite the artist. We learned from another driver that in (at least some) middleschools the boys and girls take sex education in the same classes, boys and girls together. Things are certainly changing. The thing is that most drivers and attendants try to mold behaviour to old standards that are not even supported by the schools. The sexual things Our middleschoolers talk about surprise Us. We know that some are only mimicking and do not fully understand but some know full well exactly what “they” are talking about. The walls are coming down.