Mostly being and relaxing

10/06/13

Today:

Mostly being and relaxing

Wizard's Log Star-date: 05:48:19 AM

Good morning. The only thing We remember from last night was a dream about rebuilding Our car engine with a friend from Our waking. We remember that it is a friend from Our waking passed but We are not sure who it was and We do NOT think it is Our current car. Rebuilding the engine would have nothing to do with what is going on with Our dragon currently except that it is a car repair. Perhaps the exaggeration is trying to tell Us something. We sat with that thought a few minutes.

Other than that dream experience We only remember that whenever We woke Our head was (and still is) trying to plan and worry (mainly about the dragon). We know that if We (Our head) did not have the dragon running hot to worry about it would find something else and probably manifest that. Of course, We question why Our head manifests and projects seemingly negative and bad things but that is what gets Our attention the fastest. This is how We are learning to be love living in the physical. Our first response has All-ways been (and mostly continues to be) to find something to do physically to escape the situation. This really applies to most everything in life. We are ready and willing to change.

We did have a talk with Our head and reassured it that We are not trying to kill it or harm it in any way. We are trying to help and allow it to expand and adapt to Our changing world and body. It does have an important role to play but worry and planning and escape route is NOT part of that role and purpose. Our head has been doing this for sooooo long that it thinks it has no reason to live if it can not worry and plan. It took Us a while to find a purpose for Our brain besides worrying and planning. Our brain is Our central processing unit. It takes in information and files it and sends it back out when the file is accessed. That is actually what it is doing now except there is a slight misalignment or some such. The information that is stored and being sent back is based in limitation and separation. We need to feed the brain limitless and connection information and experience. It is not Our brain's fault (as We had been assuming). Our brain is taking in and sending out the only information it has available (so far). It does remember the few times We exercised Our natural abilities and senses but this is far outweighed by Our limitation information and experience.

What a tangled web We weave.

As We type We are processing and receiving information and insight(s). This is the purpose of Our current process and situation. We knew there is a reason. We knew that scurrying about trying physical actions and remedies is NOT going to aid Our progress and/or process. Fear is the mind killer. We face Our fear and We bless it and set it free. We real-eyes that there are worlds and realities where fear still plays and it plays a vital role. We will revisit these worlds but We no longer live there.

Another thing just came to Our attention: We are creating everything that We have in Our life. Our (probably everyOne's) head tries to argue against that. It might seem like We argue mostly against having created the “bad” stuff but it is really just as hard to believe that We created the good stuff. There is a lot of beauty in 3D, even just limitation 3D. Often, We are so caught up in Our (and the world's) problems that We miss a lot of the beauty. This creates a downward spiral.

Then We blame. Sometimes We blame OurSelf but certainly We blame Our others. Here is something startling: There is no One to blame because there is nothing wrong. Now that really gets an argument from Our head. But it is All experience. It is All part of the game. It is designed to force Us to wake and take back Our power but it prevents Us from jumping off the game board unless We are really and truly ready.

It is hard to remember that this is All a game, All simply experience in something absolutely impossible. We did it and We did it well. Now: open, let go and allow. Without the seemingly “bad” situations We would miss many of the incoming insights.

We are practicing staying in the now. All worry is outside of now.

Our computer made some changes without asking Us. This used to be very frustrating. Now, We are just choosing what things We want to change back and which Ones can stay as “they” are.

We are beginning to relax and feel safe again. Interesting how easily Our head takes Us on a tangent. Our head/brain does have a purpose, an important purpose but We have to be gentle and encourage it to reprogram and update so that the first information We access is based in and on the reality of Our true nature: limitless and connected to everything.

Letting go can sure be a bitch. Especially when We need to let go of everything. Our brain is part of Our physical body and All that We have experienced (in this body) is limitation and separation. It matters not that these are impossible for We have played this imaginary game All of Our life and We believed in it and therefore Our brain has been programed in and on and about it. Limitation and separation are All Our brain knows. No Oneder it gets scared. Now, We are in the process of reprogramming and updating Our brain much like a computer.

Our brain has received a lot of upgrades and expanded information recently, now We need some expansion experiences to feed it. Hmmmmm, We truly never looked at it this way. The thing is (for Us personally at least) is that We can NOT take little bits and pieces. We must take the whole package and that takes time and patience and experiences. Otherwise We would burn out Our fuses and blow Our circuits. There are plenty of examples of this All around Us. Plenty of people are exploring this. We are exploring going slow and gentle.

We have been reminded several times about never learning to bend spoons. Many, many people are All about learning how to bend spoons with “their” mind. We are All about learning that there is no spoon. OH.

If We just “fix” something with Our mind (or “do” something) then We really have not gained much. Our desire is everything. This may come as a shock but that is no small order. However, that is Our purpose and mission. Now, We have to learn to take small bites and mouthfuls without getting stuck savoring ONLY that One bite. It would seem “balance” might be the operative word here. Oh, and “let go”. Expectations jump up and try to ensnare Us Once again too. Set those buggers free with love. This brings a smile rather than the frown which comes from trying to destroy anything.

In reading an email We are reminded that a lot of this is about remembering to teleport and etc. We are not at All sure why We resist this sooooo much. So much so that We are completely unaware that We do it. We theel that everyOne does it All the time and only “pretend” to use vessels and machines to travel as part of limitation and separation. Now, how to be here AND there “in the physical”??????? How to be “in” the world but NOT “of” the world?????? We are love, learning how to live as love in the physical. Our brain (and maybe even All Our cells, or most of “them”) are programmed and tuned to limitation and separation. We are well versed in and familiar with pretending to be what We are knot.

What seems to come up for Us is NOT to try to focus on and “fix” specifics but to expand into the bigger picture. All those “specifics” are part of limitation. We do NOT need to “fix” limitation, it is just fine. We need/want/desire to expand and live in more.

This morning is certainly about insights and processing. We like it and We are reassuring Our head. We are NOT trying to kill it just feed it new, expanded information.

And lots of letting go and acceptance. We have done a few little physical things but it is mostly letting go. We are doing what We feel We want to do in the moment and letting go. Then, We let go some more. Our head still wants to plan and worry but it is not having much luck. We are just not into that any more. We are doing better at recognizing fear versus intuition. If We die a horrible death it will be from following Our intuition and there really is NO evidence of that having ever happened (at least in this lifetime).

We decided to go to dream. We knew that We needed to go “out” or maybe its going “in”. Once again We do know that We have everything bassackwards. We are having an interesting experience coming back. We had to really think and go step by step in Our mind to find out if We had done something minor before We went to dream. This was NOT just a slip of memory unless that is how We choose to see it. These choices are up to each individual. We can continue to deny who and what We are and explain Our multidimensional experiences away or We can notice “them” and accept “them”. We can continue to be victims or We can take Our power AND responsibility.

We are feeling Our mantra: “We are love”. This is not some airy faerie, slurpy sloppy “in love” type feeling. This is feeling Our essence, Our core. This is knowing what We are. We are creating Our world and letting go of old beliefs. If We pick those old beliefs back up: that is simply part of the process. We can lay “them” back down over and over and over.

We read another chapter/question in The Reason I Jump. Most people will probably be surprised at how close autism resembles assension. We have known/suspected this for some time. The more We experience Our expansion and the more We read this book the more We see a connection. We have often said that the difference is that autists can not (or do not want to) find “their” back to limitation 3D. Of course for most autists “back” would be an inaccurate word. “They” have never been here. “They” have All-ways been multidimensional. That will take a lot of adjustment for those of Us familiar with only limitation 3D. We can adjust. We can expand. However: change requires change. We can NOT have change without change. This may seem obvious but most of Us want Our world to be different and Our lives to be better but We do NOT want anything to change or believe that it can.

Our world and Our lives are not written in stone. The only constant is change and yet We resist change with All Our might. We think the only way to make things “better” is through physical effort. Generally speaking that only affects the fruit not the root. Also, it usually comes from the stance that something is wrong. In reality: “wrong” is impossible. “Wrong” can only happen in Our make-believe hologram.

Another thing that has been coming up is when We say: “It is not real”. This is basically a bit inaccurate. Everything is real. (Chew on that a while.) However, the way We see it, think of it and believe it to be (from Our limitation 3D perspective) is NOT real. That is not how “it” really is (whatever “it” may be). Try, just try to imagine a tree without limits. In multidimensionality that is how everything (including Us) is. Most of Us believe that anything physical must have limits. We (personally) believe that this is a fallacy. We theel that when We can fully open We will find that physical does NOT have to mean limited. We theel that everything physical can be solid, liquid and gas but it is not just that. Limitless is more than that but to think that a solid can not be liquid is One limit We impose on Our world.

We are reading an interesting article: click here to read and it brings up a lot of Our stuff. A while back We real-eyesed that many of Our troubles and faults were related to how things really are. For instance: We often call OurSelf: “the man who never finished anything”. At first (and for many years) We meant and thought of this as a negative. Finally We real-eyesed that this is how the uni-verse/multiverse is. We do not see colors the same as others do. We do not theel that anyOne sees colors the exact same way as others do. These are only two examples and that is All We feel like typing right now.

Once again We are reading much that resonates and confirms Our thoughts and intuits. Some/many are actually repeating Our own words which We never saw repeated before. Concepts that seemed totally foreign and even alien are now being shared by others. We like this.

What We are experiencing is hard to describe and it surely could be labeled: “imaginary”.  Considering that it is Our imagination which creates, this may not be far from the truth. The thing is that imaginary is real.

We continue to be reminded about Our personal process and mission. We are not about focusing on One detail or even twenty. We are about the whole picture. We open, let go and allow. The belief that Our vehicles, Our shelter, Our food and All the other supposed necessities are important is what We are changing now. Part of that is through insight and affirmations and part is through experience. The thing is that We must be ready for the experience before We can have it. We were going to say prepared but that may not be fully possible.