More insights and experiences

10/08/13

Today:

More insights and experiences

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:27:29 AM

Good morning. We really do not remember anything from last night but We sure did not want to leave to come back here. Even though We really are getting it experientially that this is a game We wanted to stay in Our dream world. We look forward to the time when We get to consciously choose whether to play the game today. Interesting possibility that.

We had more feelings, sensing of this life being moves on a game board. A real sense of being safe. That the only One/thing that can harm Us is Us. Yes, this has been a philosophy for some time, a surface belief but this is deeper and more a reality than before.

One of the things that helped Us wake this morning is knowing We can go back to dreaming a lot during the day.

Aha, now We remember something(s) from Our dream life. We were visiting some of the students from Our waking world and We could see the edge of the game board. Off the edge was mists and swirling fog. We just got a flash that this may be what people thought of as the edge of the world back when “they” believed the world was flat. This is a very interesting possibility. It is the edge of Our belief. We are sure there will be more to come on this.

Interesting that according to Mayan Majix One of today's characteristics (Galactic Tone) is getting the bigger picture.

We are certainly getting a lot of insights and change of perspective. This new and increased perspective/feeling makes it more fun to play. It seems that this has been a long time coming. We have read about this and We know that play and being playful is important and helpful and even fun.

We are reminded that the only way to win is not to play AND the only way to experience is to play. The game is a loop, an ever expanding web or net. The only way out is through but as long as We are playing the web just gets more tangled. We have installed failsafes in Our game to keep Us from exiting too early. Even now We are not ready to exit, hardly even ready to pause or reset or move to the next level. Or, perhaps, this is the next level. Perhaps this experiential perspective is Our awakening.

The more, the expansion, the gamer perspective is becoming real to Us. We have mentioned before that there is believing and knowing (and We still do not know which is which) and then there is the: “becoming real” the: “experiential”. These are interconnected and probably interdependent but distinct and individual. We can believe something but not know it. We can know something and not believe it. It takes both and the experience of it for it to be real for Us.

According to Mayan Majix today's sun sign is monkey who weaves time and ideas into the fabric of reality. As long as We play this limitation 3D game, monkey keeps weaving this web. (The last sentence is Our input)

This new perspective, more the observer while still being a game piece is quite interesting, even fun. We have read and heard many analogies for this physical body: clothes, vessel, bubble of biology, etc. but right now game piece gives Us a much better perspective and acceptance. A game piece CAN be a victim but still no real damage is done to it. It can land on a space of the board where it receives hits, damage, limits, restrictions, taxes but the piece itSelf remains unchanged. Whatever it receives, good or bad is only imaginary and only because We accept (or pretend) the rules of the game. This gets a bit tricky when the rules are changing.

Experiencing Our body as merely a game piece is quite a shift. We really can experience being the observer, the player AND the game piece All at the same time. At least this morning We can. We know now that that is what We were doing at least part of the night. In electronic gaming this game piece would probably be Our avatar image. This gives and even more expanded picture and understanding and possibilities.

This perspective does seem to take some of the challenge out of the game AND We may regret that statement. We clearly see how many times We thought that We had reached the limit(s) of insight and perspective and knowledge only to find that it was merely another summit on an infinite mountain.

This (what We call a world or a life) is All exploring and experiencing. Whenever something happens it is JUST an experience. It is NOT powerful or hateful or hurtful or even delightful until We judge is as such and label it with Our judgment. It is experience. Complete and neutral in itSelf.

           Two of Our highschoolers did not ride today.  Mom said "they" were having behaviour issues.  From the way "they" act on the bus, this seems unimaginable.  The autistic highschooler did ride ana he was paying a lot of attention to Us.

          The new preschooler (on Our morning section) is much more comfortable, talkative and interactive today.

         The autistic midleschooler is more talkative too.

        We heel "they" All sense what We are experiencing.

        It is very easy to slip back into the old mindset when out and about in the workaday world.  We remind OurSelf that We are learning to do this and it is All just experience.  We are meeting less res-dance and more acceptance.

We thought that for clarity We should mention that We have five different preschoolers on three different sections.  None of "them" ride Our bus before and after school only One or the other.

Also, for clarity, some of Our formatting shows up here in Our draft version but gets lost when it is posted.  When We try to edit the post to fix the formatting it still shows up in that draft and is lost when We post it.

Lots of dreaming again today.  Also experiences to help Us get it that We are NOT about changing individual details.  We are about changing the way We see and think about and believe about Our waking world.  We are not about minor changes and adjustments to Our world.  We are about completely changing Our world by completely changing/evolving OurSelf.  Many of Our thoughts and philosophies are coming to life.

It is not easy to go through such major shifts and changes yet neither is it hard.  It would be very easy to revert to Our old mindset but We keep remembering what We want and that is: everything.  Short and simple AND We know We really can have it All (and eat it too).  We no longer believe that We have to settle for anything.

Our autistic highschooler was smiling All-most the whole ride home.  One of the comments that We read today in The Reason I Jump was about smiling and laughing.  It seems that autists generally only smile and laugh when "they" feel safe.

Our sleeping boy (the preschooler on Our afternoon section) had a bad day at school and was crying when he came out of school.  He cried himSelf to sleep.  All the other students were concerned and it was a bit upsetting for "them".  He went to sleep soon after the bus started moving which is what We had told the other students would probably happen.

We are slipping into multiworlds so much and so often it is really cool but We have to be a bit careful functioning in limitation 3D when We are not fully focused there.  We enjoy feeling being in multiworlds.  It can best be described as what We used to call spacing out which is now accurate from a very different perspective.

We were thinking about not posting any "Night School" lately.  What We are experiencing there is unfamiliar AND it goes beyond words.  Our students (especially the autists) are teaching Us mind speak.  Words are very difficult for autists because words only work in limitation 3D.  With mindspeak We communicate with images, feelings and meanings.  Personally, it is difficult to grasp because We are used to using words.  However, We also get it that We receive a lot more through mindspeak than We real-eyes.  It is the sorting it out that trips Us up.  This is exactly what autists experience trying to cope/deal with words.  This is a pretty awesome insight.