A major shift in awareness

10/30/13

Today:

A major shift in awareness

Wizard's Log Star-date: 02:23:30 AM

Good morning. We did not think We were sleeping well/much last night but We woke very early and felt very awake. We have been repeating Our mantras a lot All night. There are plenty of little things to do to finish up from doing laundry and getting water yesterday. We are trying to let go yet do what is in front of Us to do. It is something about balance and We are rarely good at that. However, We remember that We are learning. We see many examples of progress, letting go and many possibilities for Our now.

Everything is changing. We are willing to open, let go, allow and expand. Yet, We cling/return to Our old way of thinking. We are slower to act than We were in the passed and We are less obsessed and scared, much less. We are not perfect. We would like to be. We would like to know what is Our best course of action. The answer We get (and We know it is true) is that it does not matter. Whatever course We take We will have that experience. Our old thinking tells Us that We need to “fix” things. Our heart says “things” are NOT broken. We know that We are not willing to drive the dragon in the condition it was in yesterday. Right now We do not need to drive anywhere. Keep it is perspective.

Our old thinking All-ways to figure out and plan. We know that 99% of the time We did something different from whatever We had finally chosen as a plan. This was often after much anxiety coming up with a plan. So, We are now behaving/thinking differently. Kinda.

We are very much feeling being on a ship. We feel OurSelf (when We focus there) sending love to OurSelf, Gaia, Our dragon and All Gaia's inhabitants. We are love. We are changing and learning to live as what We are instead of pretending to be what We are not. Whatever is going on with Our dragon would appear to be opposite this but We know that it is an important part. We really do need this complete psychic change and We are willing and letting go Our bestest.

There are several small and seemingly minor examples (this morning) that We are in a slightly different world. Several things are not the way We remember “them”. That too was One of the things We pondered last night. We were aware of walking in multiworlds yesterday.

Our mood was a bit askew this morning.  We know it is connected to Our dragon and frustration over not seeming to be able to get this living in the physical "as what We really are" down.

We know that We are learning to do what has never been done before and We know We are making progress.  We are also impatient and it is easy to think that We will fail even though We know better.

After Our morning route Our mood did pick up for some reason.  Perhaps the kids knew We needed help.  Our middleschooler was certainly happy and having a good time.  He is Our last student in the morning.  Perhaps We are making some kind of breakthrough?

Our head still tries to plan and worry.  It is easy to revert to the old and familiar but We are doing Our best not to stay there.  It certainly has lost some of its grip and hold on Us.

We find that the more kids We are around, the better Our mood and attitude gets.  Our next section is Our autistic highschooler by himSelf.  He All-ways seems to have something to offer Us.

We real-eyes that We were away from the kids for four days.  Even though We had longer nights of dreaming, during each day We were much more focused on 3D then We are when spending Our day with the kids.  Plus We were around a lot more A-dults each day.  We All know what a bad influence A-dullts are.

Through this whole episode of the dragon running hot, We remember Our dreams of the dragon being a shuttlecraft.  We Oneder how that applies?  Plus We remember the dream where the kids and galactics telling Us "they" want to work with Us.  This is All connected.  We know it is All perfect whether it looks like it or not.

We are reminded to release specific expectations such as: perfect looks like this.

Our picture of perfect is so limited.  We really need to release Our picture/ expectation/ version of what perfect is.