Progress

09/27/13

Today:

Progress

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:39:23 AM

Good morning. Another busy night but again it remains just out of grasp by Our waking mind. There was a lot about Our transition and We remember that We had fun playing with many new friends. We can tell that the information is lodged in Our conscious just not in Our 3D awareness.

Shadow woke a couple of hours early and was doing his nervous routine for about an hour. We could feel the energies too but not sure what it was/is about.

We love being with the kids and being able to slip back into dream a lot during Our day but We would like to dream more each night too. Hopefully soon We will change Our way of exploring the physical.

It did seem like Our demon is close by and observing and interacting with Us again.

As We have the thought: “We need to remember to ….....” We get it that if We completely forgot We might never return to a place where that needs to be done. We are reminded that: “broken”, “wrong” and any such concepts are limitation and separation beliefs and concepts. “They” do not occur or exist in the real world. “They” are only imaginary and fantasies. Even dirty is a limitation concept.

We really do need to let go rather than remember to …... Open, let go and allow and expand.

Our head wants to plan and worry while Our heart wants to let go and forget (forget limitation and separation ideals). Our head says it can “fix it” (whatever “it” might be at any given moment) and save Us. Of course, We “see” evidence of what Our brain is saying because We create the evidence to support Our belief(s). That is the true nature of Our make believe world. It is made up of (and populated by) thoughts from Our fears. Only when We let go do We begin to see/feel evidence of the real world.

Our head creates a fantasy world and then wants/tries to save Us from the disaster (whatever) that it is creating. It only tangles Us in a web that We can face and bless and set free but can never untangle. Like quicksand: the more We struggle the more stuck We get. It seems like human nature to struggle and resist. It is NOT. It is make believe nature.

BTW: We are looking forward to Our three day weekend. Open, let go, allow and expand.

We are grateful for these pitfalls because “they” are an opportunity to let go and grow. This is the meaning of “doing/creating it for OurSelf rather than doing it to OurSelf”.

Most people (including Us in the passed and sometimes currently) think: “If I had more money that would solve My problems” when the truth is that more money only creates more problems. The problems come from (are created by) Our head not Our bank account. This does NOT mean get rid of Our head. Quite the opposite. Our head can imagine and create. We just need to redirect it from fear to expansion (not sure what word We really want to use there, perhaps there is no word that is really accurate).

Our day is fairly typical. Whenever there are no students on the bus We go to dream. We know that Our autistic students are definitely helping Us and We are connecting more and more with “them”. Our middleschooler actually spoke to Us. Until We asked him a question. Remember the boy in the wheelchair last year who let Us know he did NOT like being asked stupid questions like: “How are You?” or “What did You do today?”. We get it that Our middleschooler is the same way. We do remain A-dult and ask such stupid questions. Very few of Our students respond. The thing is: We actually do care how “they” are but “they” are familiar with being asked this without anyOne waiting for or listening to the answer. We are probably One of the very few people in “their” world who even notice that “they” do not answer.

We really are grateful for the help the autists are giving Us AND for how “they” are allowing Us into “their” world(s). Yes, it seems like the door is opening slowly and We are okay with that.