Mostly out

09/06/13

Today:

Mostly out

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:16:55 AM

Good morning. More fun worlds with more friends. There was One that seemed very similar to this One. We are having difficulty describing what seemed different from Our usual dream worlds. Perhaps it is because We thought We were awake until Shadow woke Us up and then We had a hard time getting into this world. We real-eyes that the reason We thought We were awake is because We were.

We have had many nights when We thought We were not getting any sleep because We were thought We were awake. Now, We get it that We were awake but not in this world. It is hard to explain clearly. When We wake in this world, those other world experiences are seen as dreams but while We are experiencing “them” We are (and feel) awake. It is in this limitation world that We lose Our sense of the reality of those other worlds.

Now, in this world We are having trouble connecting to the Internet. We real-eyes that We are shifting through different worlds and are experiencing more than One world at a time. We are learning how to do this. Having some type of difficulty seems to get Our attention more than business as usual. Interesting that. But then again, We have been gaining awareness of being in multiworlds for several months. However, We recognize that this is another stage, another level of learning, remembering and experience. It is not as frustrating as in the passed. There seems to be something about remembering Our power and abilities. Something about stopping the denial and claiming victimhood and demanding/claiming/believing that We are less than.

Part of that is to real-eyes that We (personally and collectively) create Our problems and troubles. That is a hard point to accept but when We accept it We begin to get it just how powerful We really are.

As We were processing All this We real-eyesed (through emotional experience) that Our fear of Our power is much, much deeper and stronger than any physical fear or fear of anything that could ever befall Us in this hologram. We fear what We can do much more than what can be done to Us. This makes sense because there is actually nothing that can be done to Us, that is illusion but what We can do is very real and let's face it: We've done some very nasty shit. Or We believe that have and Our belief makes it real.

This is like We are waking in or into a Night School. We can see why We have trouble remembering this from Our dreams. It is not that We don't/can't remember, it is that We do NOT want to face “it” and in this case “it” is OurSelf. There are sooooo many ramifications to this.

We are also getting something about not wanting to call experiences “trouble”. In new age and metaphysical We are taught that labeling things “trouble” is bad and causes more problems. But this may be another trap that We set for OurSelves. Perhaps We need to call it “trouble” and own that We caused it OurSelf? Something like that anyway. It feels like We just opened another door just a crack and We need to leave it that way awhile for some of this stuff to seep into Our awareness.

Right now it seems like the insights and revelations about Our current process and what (All that) awaits Us are coming in faster than We can process and absorb. At least faster than We can fit “them” into words. Perhaps “they” are beyond words?

There is also stuff about money and some people's focus on the RV, etc. as part (a big part) of Our transitioning. We have discussed All this before AND We do recognize that Our stuff is not everyOne's stuff. Our job is not everyOne's job and “their” job is not Our job. We really want to accept and allow Our others “their” part, “their” path and journey and bless “them” and send “them” love. We want to stop judging “them”.

So, We had a good time with Our students even though We do not remember much of that or any of Our moments prior to Our now. We are shifting focus, that is certain. Two of Our gradeschool boys that We have tried sitting together are just too loud for Our driver. We had decided to split “them” up (at least for a while) and he asked Us too. The thing is that We are running out of room because Our bus has sooooo few seats. It is set up to accommodate five wheelchairs so it has the least seats of any of the buses. For some reason “they” are (at this time) unwilling or unable to just put in more seats (there are seats made to fit in the wheelchair tracks and most of these type buses have several of those seats). We did talk to Our supervisor about this and the answer is: “deal with it”. We had an incident with Our severely autistic highschooler because We need to sit in the seat in front of him. This may lead to changing Us to a bus with more seats or putting more seats in Our bus.

Whatever happened, We seem to have gone into a waking dream state for most of the day. Again, We know this is All part of learning how to live consciously as a multidimensional bean. That is what We want, that is Our choice We just had no idea what it would look like. Just like: even though We have viewed and experienced “ALL” in Our dreams, still We have no comprehension of what it fully is, in Our waking state.