Today:
More experience and
insights
Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:13:55 AM
Good morning. Very interesting experiences at the end of
the night and We really do not know if We were awake or asleep:
alternate realities were/are bleeding into each other. It was quite
confusing as We did not know what was forgotten from this life and
what was remembered from another life. These were more and similar
limitation lives (or the One We were focused in was limited) and We
were concerned about doing things and getting things done. Perhaps
the events and memories that were bleeding in were from expanded
lives but We were in a limited life (not exactly the same as Our
current, familiar, waking life) and concerned that We were not taking
care of things from these vague memories.
This is a carry over
from Our sense of expanding yesterday. We will need to learn how to
deal with being aware of these different lives and NOT worry about
what gets done and what does not get done. We must let go. Imagine
that. If We cling and worry We will drive OurSelf nuts.
Ah.............. the light is coming on more and more. There is a lot
involved in expansion. We really had not thought it through but We
are learning through experience.
This is quite an
experience. It is tempting (and easy) to return to Our old ways of
thinking. A slippery slope into another trap. We are remembering to
be gently with OurSelf. We are just learning (remembering) how to do
this. Our limitation thinking is so subtle and prevalent (and
limiting). It truly has ruled Our life for untold lifetimes. Letting
go is simple but NOT easy. Slipping around in multiworlds is
thrilling and still scary. We are facing Our fear. We continue to
remind OurSelf that whatever We experience is perfect whether it
looks and feels like it or not. Good, bad and indifferent We are
creating it All to help Us wake and expand.
Open, let go, allow,
expand and stay in the now. This is where and how the
shift/change/transition occurs (for Us, Your mileage may vary).
We are reminded that
things (everything) are different (very different and much, much
more) than what appears. What appears is a projection of Our beliefs.
It is mutable and changeable if only We believe that it is. This is
sooooo contrary and opposite to Our core beliefs (or apparent core
because the beliefs are so deep rooted) that it is hard to accept.
Our resisdance is running high and We are facing Our fear and letting
it pass through Us.
Our current process
and experience relates to what We went through this summer about
allowing ideas to be possibilities rather than plans. Plans tend to
limit while possibilities allow expansion. We tend to “lock in”
to plans but allow freedom and
variation with possibilities. Our cars seem to be a particular
(extremely strong) hook for Us and also can be a vital turning point.
We are sooooo convinced that Our cars are what “they” appear when
in fact “they” are a substitute (believable to the limitation 3D
mind) for what We are actually doing. If Our cars actually exist then
“they” are non-polluting hover craft (because pollution is
actually impossible and only part of the hologram) but even that is
another version of limitation. We are energy (love) wearing and using
bodies to explore the physical. Cars (and everything else that We
see) are also energy that We have slowed down enough to make it
appear as solid matter. Cars are part of this experience. Here is the
choice: do We continue to explore cars from a limitation perspective
or from an expanded and limitless (or at least less limited)
perspective? We are choosing expansion but it is easy to revert and
that MUST be okay. We are just learning, We must be gentle with
OurSelf.
This
is a constant: “remember to let go and stay in the now” process.
Our
fear comes up, We face it and let it pass through. Will We die is We
proceed? Probably not. We have not died yet. Will We suffer an
extreme discomfort or maiming? Probably not, that has not happened
yet either. Our heart and intuition tell Us that We will be fine. Our
head and fears are creating monsters in the closet and under the bed.
There are sooooo many fears: We will disappear and Shadow will be
abandoned (along with friends and family). That is not real but it IS
a real fear. We will not be able to function and care for this body
and have to be cared for by others. We have created sooooo many
examples of this that it seems very possible. Our experience tells Us
that if We go slow and gentle this will NOT happen.
Again, We flashed on some things
today. One is how Our process up until now has led and built up to
this current phase. Building blocks. Another is that We are in
process and Our cars are part of and going through this process
with/as Us. After All: “they” are Our creations. Often, We forget
this or don't really believe it, not fully. We kinda sweep it under
the carpet. Plus, Our dragon is a dragon after and running hot is
what a dragon does (it never actually overheated it just got hotter
than it ever has since We adopted it). It is also a shuttle craft and
this is All part of that process. We are not certain how the exactly
the chariot fits in but it too is Our creation and it is exactly what
We asked for. AND, We have been preaching about taking back Our
power. Now, it seems that it is time to live this. Or, at least it is
decision time and We ARE choosing to begin living in Our power and
ability as who and what We really are. We are making a start. We get
a bit scared thinking about it AND We are facing Our fear.
We continue to grow closer to the
students daily. The autistic highschooler is definitely reaching out
to Us (often literally in the physical). The middleschooler seems to
be working on helping Us listen telepathically like We asked. The
gradeschoolers are doing well at learning to play and talk quietly on
the bus so “they” do not distract the driver. We read some
stories to the two gradeschool boys who rode home today and to the
One who was sitting by himSelf this morning. He did ask why noOne
wanted to sit next to him. We tried to explain a little but it was
not received well. These are heavy dynamics for a second grader. He
is very energetic and gets carried away easily and he is usually in
someOne/anyOne else's business. How do You explain these things to a
second grader who thinks he is just being helpful and having fun?
We are remembering to begin living as who/what We really are.
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