Making slow and gentle progress

08/24/14

Today:

Making slow and gentle progress

Wizard's Log Star-date: 05:41:04 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day.

Lots of worlds, lots of new friends and few clear memories. It theels like We are experiencing something new that Our waking brain can not (yet) comprehend. Our first thought upon waking is: “Love”.

Our head is making a feeble attempt to plan and even worry but Our heartmind is much stronger these days. We know that none of Our limitation plans and worries matter. We will probably do some more on the dragon's radiator if We theel like it and it does not really matter. We fly. We know that now. We real-eyes that the reason We were not aware of flying is because We said that We did not fly. Rather obvious now. We get what We say We get and We have what We say We have.

We are prosperous and We live as love. We are learning and remembering and transitioning. We are happy. We like what is happening in Our life and We ARE love.

We ARE changing. We have been making progress at not pressuring OurSelf sooooo much and not feeling as pressured AND the difference now is amazing compared to last school year. We can palpably feel the difference and it is really nice. There are lots of little things that We can do (in the physical) but none feel life threatening even when We think about All of “them” together (which only happens briefly now). We are NOT feeling overwhelmed and that is REAL change.

We returned to dream. We do not know what We did there but We are certain that We did it and enjoyed it. Our first thoughts are love. We are reminded that what We think of as needs are actually wants. This is not new to Us but We do forget. We ARE very grateful for the changes that We are experiencing.

Even though We are doing stuff, We are mostly playing. When work becomes play then We are headed in the right direction.

Removing the radiator (from Our dragon) is turning out to be a challenge but still NOT as bad as it could be and not quite as bad as We have been anticipating. Our head keeps telling Us that We “should” have started earlier in the summer but We know that We are right on time. The transmission lines are the hard part which is what We had expected. Would “they” have been as bad if We had NOT expected “them” to be difficult?????? We can tell that if We did this before We would know several tricks that would make it easier. We are finding some tricks as We go. Again: We do NOT feel pressured and stressed just a bit tired. Okay: We had a nice short break and are ready to get back at it. Only One line to finish disconnecting and then the last One to do from start to finish and the radiator will come out. This first line is taking well over an hour to get disconnected because of the tiny work space. Probably TMI but We feel like typing about this experience. It is certainly an experience in being here AND there.

After We finally got the first tranny line disconnected We think that We might have found an easier place to disconnect it but We are not sure. At least We do have some ideas how to make the install a bit easier than the reverse of what We did to take it out. We DID find an easier way to disconnect the second line and that will be a life saver (so to speak) because We really do NOT see any way to get Our hand and/or a wrench down to where that line connects to the radiator.

It feels like We need a good long break so We are going to have lunch (which is a rare treat when We are at home). We rarely eat lunch at home and this will be more to give Us something to do so that
We will take an actual break. After this last line is disconnected (which should be quick and easy then the radiator should just lift out. Unless it doesn't.

We did decide to bring One tomato plant in while We are taking a break and We got that done to Our satisfaction. It is getting down close to freezing at night now even though it is very early for that.

So much for the easier way to disconnect the second tranny line but We are able to get a wrench on it from underneath and are able to disconnect it from there. It will just be slow going. Hopefully We will be able to get it back together and We theel that We will. We are not there yet.

The radiator is out of Our dragon. The second tranny line was easier than the first. As We were slowly, slowly, slowly disconnecting it We real-eyesed that the task was not so much hard as slow and very tedious and even that only the two tranny lines. We theel that We had help whenever We allowed it. Still focusing on flying. We will probably buy the new radiator tomorrow since preschool starts Wednesday and We do not wanna try to get it on short breaks. Then We will have the long labor day weekend to start putting the new radiator back in. We do hope that We can take it as slow and gentle as We did taking the old radiator out. That is much of what this is about.

Now for dinner and probably some “Heros” tonight. Salsa burgers and mac & cheese for dinner. That should please Our children within.

Good night AND thank You for playing.