04/10/13

Today:

Learning and remembering

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:43:34 AM

Good morning. Once again We do not remember much from Our dreams but We know We were busy. This morning We are practicing allowing OurSelf to wake without leaving the world of Our dreams. Living in multi-worlds. We really do like it but it continues to take getting used to as We go deeper and deeper. It seems We were also somewhere else after We got home last night.

We had a bit of a winter storm yesterday even though it seemed like spring was here last week. There is a mystical quality to this storm.

We are definitely in more than One world this morning. How to describe??????? Even though We do not seem to be focused in several at Once, One minute We are mostly here and the next We are somewhere/somewhen else and then We are back again. The question comes up: Is the familiar world really that familiar? Or do We just convince OurSelves it is through the power We call memory?

We are exploring much. We think One (or more) of Our students visited Our dreams last night. We remember that but We do not remember what We did. Maybe We are still doing it. We are letting go of expectations. We like how We are finding OurSelves able to be kind and gentle with OurSelf. We are allowing Us to drift away during the day more and more. We are happy that We have a job that allows Us to do this. Maybe All jobs would if We allowed it. In other words, it is not really the job or worldly obligations that keep Us trapped. It is OurSelves and We use the justifications and responsibilities as something to blame rather than look within.

Too deep for Us right now.

From what little We are reading it seems that many are seeming to have a hard time right now. Many are wanting to make changes and choices in “their” life but are having a hard time with that. It is hard to choose the unfamiliar. It is easy to say and think that We want change, but when standing on the edge of a cliff, it is hard to make that final leap.

We are finding OurSelves unable to get caught up in the old thinking and planning. Not only unwilling, but unable. We know We could force OurSelf back into the old but that is exactly what We do not want to do. Yes, Our ego and logic want to return, for it is familiar and appears safe. Funny how fear seems safe.

We are finding it difficult to focus in limitation 3d and perform common tasks. This is a good thing and the word difficult may be misleading. This (to Us) is a sign of progress whereas it used to be seen as a sign of weakness and loss of reality. It is quite the opposite. The old is what has lost reality. The old is what kept Us locked into separation and limitation. It also kept Us locked in fear.

We are learning to think in new ways, to see Our freedom, Our sovereignty, and Our power as being here and now.

We are definitely drifting between and amongst different worlds today. We remember some and some is like a fog.

We subbed on yet another route at noon. It was interesting because We had two of the boys We transport in the morning. What was really interesting was that “they” were All-most like two different kids. One was the silent boy from mornings and he was jabbering away. The other was the helpful boy on Our morning route and he was All-most obnoxious. We are not sure if it is the difference between before and after school or the different drivers. Or??????? We had One section that was brand new and the boy had never ridden the bus before so it was a learning experience for All of Us.

It does seem/appear that Our snow storm is over and the sun is out bright, or was for a while.

We sat in a different seat with the boy in the wheelchair and even though it was a bit harder for him to see Us (directly behind him) it was easier for him to talk to Us. He was very talkative again. He uses the word: “very” a lot. If something is worth talking about it seems to be “very”........ whatever it is. He really does have an incredible memory augmented with an active imagination. We just found the show he is talking about: “Alien Force”. We had the name wrong when We were looking online for it before. A couple of days ago he told Us the actual name. Apparently, before he had been calling it by One of the characters. Here is some information: wikipedia entry

We only had two students on Our middleschool section. We had a little more verbal interaction with “them” but “they” were mostly caught up in “their” world and so We just enjoyed that energy.