03/22/13

Today:

Lots of new contacts and connections

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:31:27 AM

Good morning. This is fun. We experienced a sense of vertigo All night. Early on we thought We might need to take some aspirin for the headache this seemed to be causing so that We could get to sleep. We looked at the clock and We had been asleep for two hours. We real-eyesed that this is a symptom of being in more than One world at a time, an adjustment, a letting go of the old. It has happened before but We All-ways fought it and held on to the old and tried to make this sensation “go away”. Now that We recognize it, it is very different.

We remember being very busy in dream. A lot of 3D stuff came up for Us to: “worry about”. We consciously chose to just let it go. We chose to stop the pressuring that We usually do to OurSelves when working a job. We are changing. We like it.

Sooooo much is happening inside. We have no idea if it is apparent in the outer world yet, but that really does not matter. We change the world by changing OurSelves on the inside. We are learning to live from Our heart(s).

This morning We are having some very interesting insights. Many things that We used to resist We now see as expansion. Things We used to hold onto We see as limits. Sorry that We do not remember the specifics in Our waking awareness even though it was only moments ago that We noticed the last One. This is another part of being in multi-realities. And We used to fight and resist it. Now, We just notice and let go. We are here AND We are there.

It feels very different not to have to be alert enough to drive the bus.

We are also making little changes in what We carry with Us and how We prepare for work in the mornings. These are little things but a big part of not putting so many expectations on OurSelf and sooooo much pressure.

Today We get to substitute on an extra noon section. Most of the students on that section do not ride on Fridays so We had a lot of extra time with the first student on the section. A preschooler who could read remarkably well. We were totally unprepared to entertain a child for that long and with this One a nap was NOT the answer. We did look at the maps in the route book and this worked for a while but it was short lived. We enjoyed spending this time together but it got boring for both of Us. We needed toys. We have some We plan to carry but We were waiting to get to know Our route. As much as We are on other routes We may start carrying some general interest toys.

We did Our regular 2^nd noon section which is picking up a little boy in a wheelchair. He doesn't talk much but We have not figured out yet whether he can talk or not. He does not seem to like being asked questions. He entertains himSelf and seems to enjoy being watched while he does things like twirling his gloves round and round. We did a couple of smiles in return for Our smiles. This is only the second day that We have been with him and We theel that he will open up as We ride together regularly.

Our regular PM section was canceled and We went out on another route We had never been on and would not get to be on under normal circumstances. These were the kids (or some of “them” anyway) that met with Us in dream before We started. At least some of “them” are clearly starchildren. We connected with All of “them”, each at a slightly different level. One girl had a very hard time staying in her seat. She never stood up but she rarely sat down. Finally, We moved her to another seat and sat next to her. She did fine. She needed someOne to be with her.

One of the boys was also an energy bomb. He really did try to behave but he had too much energy to sit still. We have a lot of tolerance for this but he really pushed the limits. We got to work gently with him and talk with him. The girl We had moved saw that he had gotten mad (his seat mate had fallen asleep) so We asked him what was wrong. No answer. We asked if he was mad at Us and he said no. We asked if he was okay, he nodded and mumbled yes. We asked what was wrong and he still did not respond so We let him be. He was fine though sullen the rest of the ride. Another boy who gets off at the same house did not communicate much but did want a little attention but not a lot.

A second girl was very quiet and not talkative but beamed a huge smile everytime We smiled at her.

The boy who was sitting in front of Us really wanted to connect. As soon as We acknowledged him he started talking (hard to understand) and showing Us things he made. He was very good at bending paper clips and making things that were obvious what he had made. One was a flag on a pole with tape for the flag. Another was a star. He really wanted Our undivided attention but We explained We needed to also watch the other children. (Keeping the One boy and One girl tight in “their” seat belts and something close to seated was a real challenge.) Everytime We reminded “them”, “they” did as We asked and We thanked “them”. Minutes later We had to do it All over. The boy in front of Us seemed to understand and We knew when he got off the bus that there was an energetic connection that We both took with Us. He waved a cheery goodbye as he walked up the driveway.

Once home We can feel the energy of several of these kids still with Us. “They” are drawing Us into dream very quickly.