03/01/13

Today:

Processing and acceptance

Wizard's Log Star-date: 07:28:51 AM

Good morning. We had difficulty getting to sleep last night. We were processing Our job decision and planning finances. We do NOT like this return to Our old ways but We do know that working with kids, especially special needs kids IS something We would do if money were not an issue. If (and when) We get this broken system replaced and live in a world of equality, sharing and caring with an economy of giving We are certain that We will spend time working with children.

In the passed, being/feeling required to earn money has been a way to get Us where We need to be and with people We need to be with. We do theel that is actually much more what this change is about. We just need the money motivation to do it and the money to be able to do it. Driving into town every day is an expense. Living in a One room dry cabin, home daycare is NOT a viable option.

We really regret feeling a need to go back into the old system. We do not like the change in mindset that We see All-ready. Perhaps this is something that We need to work through by walking through it. Perhaps We had merely escaped and not really changed. There is a lot of this kind of thing at play for Us personally and collectively. We have never felt escape (in any form) to be the answer. If We had not been fired from Our last job, We would probably not have chosen to be unemployed for fifteen months. We were given, nearly forced into the situation and We rode it out. We enjoyed it, We appreciate the opportunity and ability to live as We have the passed fifteen months.

There were some dreams and clips from passed dreams that were more in tune with who and what We are becoming. We spent a good deal of time in the faerie castle and in the room that opens onto everything. We really love that room. We remembered and visited the version of Our cabin with the side wall open to the enchanted forest. We know We are not giving these things up. “They” remain very close and are becoming more visible daily.

We were reminded that there are many, many realities right here, just vibrating at different rates. Our ability/awareness to match those vibrations in increasing. The world of limitation and separation is where We have chosen to focus primarily. We theel strongly that this is a world that is in (and desperately needs to) transition. It appears that We have chosen (at some mostly unknown level) to go through this transition working alongside everyOne else.

All of this could easily change on a dime. That is part of the reason We have decided to wait until Monday to apply. When and as We (and Gaia) change, We can modify this decision if it is appropriate. The difficult thing is that being in and working in and for the old system, being in close association with many people who remain locked into the system (whether by aware choice or not) makes it easy to get caught up in it and forget that there is anything else. This will be Our challenge and it feels like this is One of the things We need to walk through.

In the passed: We have often said that saints and sages and true spiritual leaders are NOT the Ones living up on the mountaintops (which is very close to what We have been doing for fifteen months) but “they” are the Ones out in the streets and back alleys working at jobs and spending time with every day people and yet remaining true to “their” spiritual nature. It seems that We will be returning to this station. We have changed this passed year and hopefully the changes and learnings will assist Us in staying in tune with Our true nature.

So, We continue to process and discuss what is going on (inside and outside) with friends.