Walking through Our changing

1/9/2015

Today

Walking through Our changing

Wizard’s Log Stardate: 3:41 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day.

Again We woke at 3:33 and We likes it. We do not remember what We did in dream but We did wake a couple of times and We pony hopped right away. We kept repeating: “I love Me” over and over. Adding love to All situations. We also forgive OurSelves over and over. Our head resists but Our heart does seem to be becoming Our dominant mind.

The incidents from yesterday try to come up and Our head tries to sabotage Us. We theel happy thoughts. We theel being with real, like-,minded friends in Our paradise world. We theel being in Our paradise world: relaxing. We practice theeling comfortable. We practice relaxing. Our head can really be subtle in its sabotage and We are learning to recognize it faster. We love Us. We love All of Our parts and pisces.

What We are theeling is that (in reality) Our head, brain, ego and children within are NOT so much attacking Us (that is only the way it looks from a limitation/separation perspective). “They” are actually trying to help Us see how We have given away Our power and play the victim. Sometimes We gotta hurt a bit (a lot) before We will change. As the saying goes: “Time to take off the kid gloves”. Everything works together for the best for Us.

Our head tries to future trip and worry about what will happen at work. Then it tries to figure and rehearse arguments to defend and justify OurSelves. This is sooooo old paradigm AND familiar. However: it is no longer comfortable. It is NOT where We want to go. Relax, stay in the now. We ARE masters NOT victims.

Our old thinking, believing and behavior is sooooo familiar. Funny: for the first time (that We can remember) the familiar is no longer comfortable. The new may not be comfortable yet but neither is the old. We ARE changing Our pair-a-dime.

We spend a little time playing in multiD and Our head is reluctant. We remind Us that We are transitioning as a team. No ONE left behind. That is a very real feeling fear. We face Our fear, We let it pass through Us. We treat Our head, brain, children within with tenderness and compassion.

Thoughts of yesterday and revenge and defense and justification etc. keep coming up and We keep pony hopping. We keep looking for and finding, holding and theeling better theeling thoughts. It takes most of the day to get over the old thinking. We enjoy the kids and pay attention to “them” but Our old victim consciousness is running high. We keep loving Our parts that want to dwell in that thinking but We keep finding happy thoughts. Even if only for a moment: We theel happy thoughts. As the day goes along We do find it easier to stay out of thinking about being attacked.

When We get to Our last school: We go inside and talk to the office. “They” get the principal for Us and she supports Us and provides a solution and takes charge of the problem. We are very delighted with how that went. So is Our driver and supervisor. We have a delightful afternoon section. The younger brother even carries on a conversation with Us and enjoys it. The older brother ate too many cookies and thought he was gonna be sick. We comforted him as best We could, got the trash can and had the driver pull over. We took him outside and he stretched and got some fresh air. After a few minutes he was okay. When We got back on the road he read a book a while and then took a nap for the rest of the ride.

After work We stopped for some milk and treats. By then We were mostly in multiD and We do not really remember exactly how We spent the evening. We know We had dinner and watched something on Netflix and played in multiD. We continue to imagine Our paradise world a lot. We are in and out of 3D which is not nearly as limited as We had believed it to be. Now We go to dream.

Good night AND thank You for playing.