A lot of experience

1/6/2015

Today

A lot of experience

Wizard’s Log Stardate: 3:37 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day.

Another busy night and it was All about changing Our thinking and transitioning.

Early on We were visiting injustices and such from Our current waking world. That is a bit unusual for Us: visiting Our waking world current events in Our dreams. For the most part these were not world events but events that We personally participated in or witnessed. We are reminded that whenever We see a problem: We ARE there. Some of the events were very hard for Us to take responsibility for at first. After All: We did NOT do it. Why would We ever do such a thing? And on and on. We real-eyesed (fairly quickly) that We can continue denying who and what We are and go on the same as We have for eons OR We can change. Pretty simple. So: We take/took responsibility for things like special needs people being mistreated and society trying to make “them” conform etc. Also: for people creating scarcity and lack through limitation and separation mentality. A bit hard to take responsibility for things that We are changing in Our own life when We see it in others but We know that is where We must start. There was a lot of processing around this. Our thinking IS changing. We are experiencing Our complete psychic change.

We visited Our paradise world several times. Friends showed up (some We have met before and some We met for the very first time) to let Us help “them” change and evolve. This is done subconsciously and therefore We can offer what is actually needed rather than what We “think” is needed. Still: as new thinking and ways of acting sink in “they” can meet resisdance. We just offer calm and peaceful acceptance. A common occurrence goes something like this: “Hi”. “Hi”. “What’s up?” “We want to change and live a better, more fulfilling life and change the world”. “Great. Why don’t You join My in the hottub?”. After a while: “So: when do We start working on changing?”. “You are”. “But We are just hottubbing”. “Yep”. And so it goes.

Towards the end of the night (and what We woke from and continued in waking dream) We visited a Star Wars type world: complete with imperial storm troopers. We were some kind of arms and weapons traders (there was a small group of Us together). We were trying to pull a scam but the imperial commanders saw through it. We distinctly remember “them” saying: “We have been preparing earth for this for months. Launch her now”. Earth (in that world) is to be used as some type of weapon or surveillance device or some such. We could see Earth in a hangar or holding bay waiting for launch. Everything on Earth was life as usual. We kept returning to this world when We woke and went back to sleep. We really do not what else We did but We were trying to prevent (or at least delay) the launch. We decided to get up after being awake a little while and not knowing what to do to prevent the launch.

As much as We love to dream in and spend Our days home alone: We are waking fine (mostly in multiD) and looking forward to Our day. Our thinking IS changing and We are finding happy thoughts. Our head still tries to drag Us back and readily assures Us that We will most certainly die a slow and agonizing death if We pursue Our present course. We find better theeling thoughts.

Interesting: We just noticed that We are not as thirsty as We were yesterday. Also: beautiful full moon through Our front window (view screen).

Pony hopping IS a big part of Our change. Our head (however) is trying to use even that to draw Us back into limitation thinking and mindset. We must be having breakthrough as much resisdance as Our head is throwing. We do theel that Our daily life/world IS changing as a result of changing Our thinking but We really have no idea what that will look like. Maybe it will be like Our paradise world but then again We Allready have that so it will probably be something a little bit different.

There is something distinctly different this morning but We can not quite put Our finger on it. Perhaps it is the change(s) that We have made during Our vacation.

We do not know how to really describe Our day. We did enjoy being back with the kids and We could tell that most (if not All) were happy to see Us too.

The temperature is twenty to thirty below zero. Yes: that is cold. However: We experienced it more intensely than it really is. Again: We are not sure how to accurately describe it. We ARE creating Our own reality. Not only are We changing Our thinking: We ARE experiencing doing it intensely. We compounded the cold and We warmed up (for short periods of time) without any outside/external cause. We experienced doing it with Our mind but We did NOT maintain any degree of warm for very long. The heater went out on Our truck so We felt the cold even more. We know that We manifested this. We did it to experience that We manifest/create Our circumstances. Sure: it would be very easy (and normal) to blame the earth, the weather, Our truck, etc. That would have been Our default reaction and thinking not long ago.

We choose to take responsibility. We were miserable and We know/knew that We are responsible (at All levels). This probably sounds/reads crazy and most anyOne would argue that it was the weather. However: We could tell that as cold as it was: We felt it more intensely than others. We could explain that away because of the truck heater (and return to Our old thinking) or We can take responsibility and move forward. We ARE responsible for Our life and Our world. All of it.

We were distracted from feeling cold by the kids but when We noticed this the feelings returned. Interesting. The younger brother (especially) let Us know that he was happy to see Us. He tends to be angry and aggressive when he first gets out of school and mellow and friendlier after the other kids get dropped off.

We are having trouble finding and (especially) holding happy thoughts especially after the kids are All dropped off. All Our happy thoughts appear to be frozen and fleeing for shelter and warmth.

When We got home and opened the door it felt like a heat wave. It was 44 inside the cabin. Imagine stepping into Your refrigerator and feeling warm. That feeling was short lived. We turned the heater up on high and made a cup of hot coco and then took Our time putting stuff away. We are grateful to get warm again. The time passed quickly and We were about an hour late having dinner and going to dream.

We did not really do a good job of describing Our experience but We know that We were really experiencing Our inner change. We felt and experienced taking back control of Our unruly head, brain and ego. We were gentle with OurSelves and that is important. It was NOT a pleasant experience but We ARE grateful for it. We are also grateful to go to dream in Our warm, comfy cabin.

Good night AND thank You for playing.