A head attack

1/8/2015

Today

A head attack

Wizard’s Log Stardate: 3:42 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day.

We seem to be getting up at 3:33 quite often now. We likes that. We vaguely remember visiting other worlds and meeting new friends but We do remember that those worlds are freer and transitioning. We did sleep better again last night and only woke Once during the night. We are quite thirsty again this morning even though We did not notice this as much during the night. When We first woke We were aware of being very wide focused in multiD and as We wake We are aware of narrowing Our focus back in 3D more. We do not particularly like this zooming/narrowing in but perhaps it is necessary for Our experience.

The more We are aware of multiD and change Our thinking, beliefs and mindset: the less We are in limitation even though We remain in 3D. 3D includes more than We had real-eyesed before. It is NOT a requirement for 3D and the physical to be limited. We just thought it was. 3D certainly can be limited as can the physical (not necessarily the same things) but it is NOT a defining characteristic as We had believed and most of the world still does believe. There certainly are no solid walls to keep Us in 3D and out of 4D and beyond as We had believed there were.

We ARE changing. Happy thoughts are helping and more common. Our limits and boundaries are being stretched and Our forbidden zones and forgotten realms are shrinking. We ARE expanding. It continues to be slow and gentle and move forward by leaps and bounds. Contradictions are a construct of limitation and separation.

As We go outdoors We are aware of choices and decisions and know that these can be changed. We think: “Decisions are mad to be changed”. We are aware of Our head trying to lure Us back into limitation thinking. We thank it for sharing. We ARE being gentle with OurSelves: All Our parts and pisces. Some “others” still prefer a destroy and/or abandon strategy but We ask You: “Which way seems more likely to produce peace and harmony?”. What We do and create and manifest in Our inner Self/world most certainly projects onto Our outer world. We (personally) choose to create and embrace peace and harmony from the inside out.

We are reminded to think of (and feel/theel) being comfortable rather than being cold. Again: this may appear to be a lie (or not the way “it” really is) but there is no way “it” really is other than what We believe “it” is. Contrary to what the worlds says. As We change Our focus, thoughts and beliefs We really do change Our world; Our experience of the world.

We ARE changing.

We are sorry for how We have treated OurSelf and All the reasons We have given Our head, brain, ego and children within to be afraid and fear Us. We forgive OurSelves and ask All of Our parts and pisces to forgive Us across All time, dimensions, space and reality. We love Us (All of Us) unconditionally AND We thank Us.

We continue to receive insights and Our head continues to resisdance. We find that We are balking at spending just five minutes on Our ho’oponopono YouTube. Insisting that We do NOT have time. Isn’t that curious?

We had a great day in multiD until Our last school. There were a couple of incidents that really bugged Us. Our head set Us up and tried to knock Us down. Something is really trying to return (stay in) limitation and separation reality. We had spent the day imaginating Our paradise world, imagining that We have mastered the law of attraction and feeling what that feels like. We get it that We Allready are very good at (masters really) attracting what We do NOT want. We are learning about this from reading AND through experience. We really are experiencing this change more than ever before. It is not just happening: it is a conscious experience.

We spent most of the day focusing on feeling comfortable rather than any negative feelings. The negative feelings start out subtle and build into mountains. It is sooooo easy to be normal and feel/theel/think negative. It is easy to think: “This IS real”. Our imaginating IS real. Suffering is a well constructed fantasy. We project a world where it is All bassackwards.

Our head did a grand job of setting Us up and trying to argue, defend and justify OurSelves. The incidents are actually small and short lived but “they” lasted forever in Our head. On and on We went and We kept pony hopping and adding: “I love Me”s. We thank OurSelves and forgive OurSelves. Our head sneaks back in Our victim mentality and We pony hop. Adding love and forgiveness and thanks. In the middle of that Our head starts to defend and justify and We pony hop.

Even though We take responsibility and We do know that We created this for Our evolution: it is hard to really feel that We created this. It is easy to return to victim mentality. Accepting responsibility feels like We are a lot more powerful than is at All comfortable. That is what We must face and let pass through Us. This is a huge fear: to feel Our power and ability to this degree. It is much easier to blame and judge. We are walking through this and facing OurSelves. We are pony hopping through this. We try to comfort Our children within but Our A-dult needs attention too. The two brothers reflect the attention that We give “them”. “They” can feel Our angst and the younger brother tries to turn it on Us but then turns it around and helps Us on a subconscious level.

We spend the drive home going back and forth with Our head trying to sabotage Us and pony hopping. We are really trying to be gentle and loving with Our head. We start to demand that it stop but We quickly change to asking: “Please stop this”. We remember some comments from A.A.: “Why does My head continue to think that it can try to kill Me and get away with it?”. We ARE grateful for what We learned in A.A. Most people do not have that benefit. But: even with All We have We still try to play/claim the victim here. We can only imagine how hard this process is for those who have not had the benefits that We have had.

To accept responsibility for creating these incidents feels pretty overwhelming. It means that We really do create everything in Our world/life. Easy to say but not so easy to practice in the heat of the moment. Our head blindsided Us on these and it Allmost worked but what it really did was help Us see what has been going for years/eons/lifetimes. This also gives Us more empathy for Our others. We are sorry for how We have mistreated and abused and abandoned OurSelves. We forgive Us across All time, space, dimensions and reality. We love Us unconditionally and We thank Us. We really do see and even theel how this is working for Our best.

This continues through Our evening and We find a bit of multiD to play in. The back and forth carries right into time to go dream and the pony hopping is stronger than the sabotage. The defending and justifying and blame and judgment come up and the pony hopping responds. We love Us. We forgive Us. We thank Us. We return to the now.

Good night AND thank You for playing.