Today:
A very hard day for
Us
Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:27:54 AM
Good morning. Lots of cleaning, releasing and setting
free in love last night. Tons of memories that have been running Our
life are coming up, mostly vague but some in gory details as
implanted by history. We got the distinct impression that many are
actually false memories but We have held onto “them” as Ours for
eons. There is something big about Czar Nicholas and other notorious
characters. We love You and set You free with love. We really did
want to stay in bed and dream but We know this process can go on in
waking and We do have things to do in this waking world even though
the important parts (things to do) are not what We see and perceive
on the surface.
Our
world is very, very different from what We see and perceive and that
is becoming an experience not just a philosophy. We are beginning to
allow OurSelf to access the real world but We must set these
frightening and painful memories free so that “they” no longer
bind Us in fear. We are talking to Our child within (Our
subconscious) to show it love and acceptance and to stop causing it
pain and begin acknowledging it. We want to allow Our child its
proper place in Our life. We are grateful for Our child within being
a part of Us.
This
has certainly been a powerful weekend. We have been theeling and
continue to theel that We should cut back to only working three days
a week. Financially this is scary for Us. It was scary when We did it
before too. These are more memories replaying. We will see how this
goes. We do want to follow inspiration.
It
was interesting during the night to wake to this cleaning and pony
hopping going on. We keep saying: “I love You” and doing the pony
hopping mantras. We are also hoping that this will set Shadow free
from the beliefs in aging and growing weak. We acknowledge Our fear
of immortality that is a result of these memories. We are sorry,
please forgive OurSelf.
During
Our breaks it became apparent that Shadow is really having a hard
time getting and staying on his feet. On Friday We both agreed that
he is done but We both wanted to take the weekend alone together (not
going anywhere just the two of Us at home). We spent most of the
time (from when We got home early Friday afternoon [or late morning]
up to this morning) dreaming together and telepathically sharing with
and comforting each other. We had hoped that he would recoup enough
to be able to stick around and NOT suffer but that is obviously not
the case.
During
the day the kids seemed to sense that We were hurting and were kind
to Us. Hard to explain but We definitely felt it. It seems that
more and more of Our life and process is hard to put to word(s).
After
work We talked more with Shadow and took him to be put to sleep.
Once We got him out of the truck he tried to walk and shortly fell
down after he had peed. Then, after We lifted his body and got him
back on his feet he was sooooo happy. Our first thought was that he
did not know what was about to happen. However, immediately he told
Us that he knew very well what was about to happen AND he was very
happy. All his life (at least until recently) absolutely everything
has been an adventure for him. He is now starting an even bigger
adventure. He seemed to suddenly grow taller and stronger. He knew
he was being set free with love. We had a lot of tears through the
whole process and had a lot of difficulty speaking. It is hard to
type this.
When
We got home We took Our time with doing everything that We usually do
when We get home from work. We had lots of tears and lots of
insights.
Good night AND thank You for playing.
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