Deeper and deeper

07/16/13

Today:

Deeper and deeper

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:34:37 AM

Good morning. Interesting worlds, lives and new friends last night. There seemed to be a lot of processing and releasing some old stuff.

We clearly remember a world that was very similar to this One but Our life was very different. There was still fear and pain but We had a lot more abilities and powers. Apparently part of that was showing Us that just having abilities and powers does NOT solve All problems. A bit like what We have been saying about money not being the answer. We must change on the inside in order for any real and lasting change to occur.

We also remember visiting a world where We can do no harm and everything flourishes in harmony early in the night. We really like this world and the other worlds We visited too. Even those which still have problems are a step forward in Our transition.

We just had a thought: “Our frustration comes from the mistaken notion that there is something which We must “do” in order for everything to be perfect”. Everything is All-ready perfect, We just need to enjoy it. This notion that We (mankind) has that there is something/anything that We “must do” besides enjoy is part of the game of separation. It is an important part. As We can never “do” enough it keeps Us busy and distracted. Trying to “do” enough keeps Us from real-I-sing who and what We really are.

Another part of what We were feeling over the weekend was the frustration of the head wanting “to do” while Our heart demanded stillness.

There is nothing wrong with doing. It is the notion that: We “must do” which causes difficulty. Mankind (for the most part) has this idea that more money will solve this. It is a belief and a mindset. More money will not “fix” it. A change of heart will enable Us to move beyond it.

We are having some great insights today. We don't know what “they” are but “they” are great! Partially, “they” are not something that needs to be remembered on a conscious level. It is about living multidimensionally. About not being focused primarily in limitation 3D as We have been All of Our lives. It is about being/staying in the now and letting go.

There are many ideas that come to mind and We can hold “them” as possibilities and simply ideas rather than plans and goals. Plans and goals do not really fit into staying present in the now. Or at least attachment to “them” does not fit in the now.

When We are in this frame of mind, We can sense change, shift and transition. We are much less frustrated. We are more content.

Let's see: We saw a new born moose on Our morning section today. This is the only time moose are cute and it only lasts the One day. Once “they” find “their” legs “they” begin to turn ugly and that is All there is to it.

On Our afternoon section We saw the sleeping boy because his bus was late “they” walked passed Us which “they” normally do not do. We are not certain but We think there was a sign of recognition from him. He just barely had his eyes open as this was not the normal route he walks to get from class to the bus. It was de-light-full to see him.

On route the interactive girl went to dream as soon as the quiet girl (who has really opened up after getting to know the interactive girl) got off the bus. After the interactive girl got off (last student in the afternoon) We went to dream. And boy oh boy did We ever go dream. Probably the deepest yet on the bus. In fact, We are still pretty much walking in multiworlds.

Walking in multiworlds is really hard to describe in limitation 3D language. We (humans) really do not have words for it. We used to call it walking between worlds (at least We think this is what that felt like as far as We can remember.) but that phrase is not really accurate. There is between and then there is “in”. Limitation 3D can not fully conceive of being “in” multiworlds at One time but that is what is beginning to happen. Or perhaps it is just the awareness that is beginning. Whatever it seems new and continues to take adjustment AND We likes it.

A day of waking

07/15/13

Today:

A day of waking

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:24:19 AM

Good morning. We are learning to live as expanding energy beans. This is taking a lot of adjusting as We have been mentioning. Last night We and Shadow were both quite restless. We do not really know what that is about except that We are learning to live in new ways. We are evolving and adapting. We kept repeating Our mantra: “Open, let go and allow.”

We barely remember anything else.

We keep getting messages/thoughts like: “We are living in a new world”, “We are transitioning” and such. We are reminded that being in a new/different world does not mean anything if We bring Our old mindset and beliefs. We are adjusting these and that is what We are going through.

We just remembered some stuff from last night: We experienced being Our others. We were living and experiencing in “their” bodies. We were kinda sliding around in and out of different bodies. It was quite and experience. Early in the night We spent a lot of time in world(s) where We can do no harm. It is really cool to be in these worlds but again it requires a change/shift/expansion in Our mindset and beliefs. We believe strongly in Our world the way We are experiencing it. In order for Our world to change first Our beliefs must change.

Letting go remains a real challenge for Us. It is (or certainly seems/feels to be) a crucial part of the new and We are really trying but We are also waking in between the old and the new. So, there is the challenge of still taking care of the old while embracing the new. This is NOT an easy balance to achieve, at least not for Us.

We have been doing a lot of feeling into and processing what We are feeling and going through right now. We recognize that Our feelings about Our gardening are a bit misdirected BUT We also recognize that We have worked very hard to maintain and preserve Our free time, Our time go in (with or without dreaming) and integrate Our multidimensionality. Our gardening (at least the way We did it this year) interferes with this. Or, We feel it does and that is somewhat the same thing.

We chose to do this to learn and We have learned and are learning. This is also part of Our transition and expansion. We see that We need to go about gardening a bit different next year. We were certainly correct about starting small but We should have started even smaller than We did. Hopefully some stuff will come back next year and thereafter with less need for attention from Us.

Another thing is that after spending the night mostly in worlds where We can do no harm and everything flourishes and live in harmony and co-operation and then to wake Once again in an apparent world of limitation and feel obligated to “do” anything is harsh. It is probably a good thing that We channeled Our feelings at gardening rather than possibly aiming it at the kids.

We are not saying that We want to escape. We want to integrate and learn to live multidimensionally even when being and doing in a 3D world. We continue to believe that it is possible to be in 3D without being stuck in limitation. We certainly do not seem to have learned how just yet.

We are in process. That is rarely comfortable just as anything unfamiliar in uncomfortable.

Fortunately, now days We recognize that something is going on, that the energies are having “their” way with Us, that whatever is happening and We do NOT scream and yell and throw a tantrum (much) the way We used to. We are not depressed or angry, We are aware and there is a huge difference.

Also, there is smoke in the air even though We did not notice it very much at home. Hot, smoky, overcast. All these too have a baring on Our emotions. Add into the mix that We are feeling what the masses are feeling and is it any One-der that We are feeling. Is it not a grand thing that We are feeling and not medicating?

We are in transition and that is causing change. As much as We want change We hate it and as much as We hate change We want it.

Something shifted for Us somewhere in the afternoon. We are not sure what, why and/or how but We appreciate it. It may well be the processing and typing We did about it and it may be the incoming energy eased up and it may everything mixed together. It is still hot and smoky but there is a breeze that is helping some. We have a little more physical energy than We have had the last few days (especially after work) but mostly We are more aware of and focused in (or out) multidimensionality and expansion. Again, hard to really describe.

Something else dawned on Us this afternoon. This (what We call life in limitation 3D) really is a game. It is imaginary. It is a fantasy, high drama adventure based on impossible rules and fundamentals. It is a holographic game and instead of being set up, run and played on a computer it is generated from Our minds (somehow) and We forget/forgot that We are the programers and players and servers and the whole shebang. If, when We wake (instead of seeing OurSelf as stuck) We can remember that We have (obviously) chosen/lived to play another day that just might put it All in a brighter perspective. We are the hero, the villain and the victim. We shine at this game, We really do.

More resting and processing

07/14/13

Today:

More resting and processing

Wizard's Log Star-date: 05:23:50 AM

Good morning. More play and more worlds. This time We were working in group homes and on school buses. We like that better than catering. In Our dream worlds We seem to enjoy catering too. We seem to enjoy whatever We do in most of Our dream lives. Perhaps it is that expanded perspective. However, when We wake We prefer some worlds over others.

In most of the worlds We played in last night (at least the Ones that We are aware of) there were youngstars from Our waking world. “They” did not seem much different from how “they” seem in waking, perhaps a bit more open. Sometimes, with some youngstars the version in dream is quite different, much more expanded than the version in Our waking world.

This morning We are focusing on the now. We may do stuff with Our plants later or do other things or not. We are now and hopefully will stay now.

As We kinda surf the net and ponder Our now, We real-eyes that time is a major factor in Our life that often gives Us grief. Often We feel cheated by the way We seem to have to choose how to spend Our time. We feel that there is just (or does not seem to be) enough to do All that We might want to do. Part of that too though is about Our plans and expectations. Limitation is just such a bitch. We really do not enjoy being limited yet We also know that We are so used to it that We can only emerge gently without freaking out or blowing Our circuits.

We are also reminded that everything is perfect just as it is and this means changing and expanding. There is absolutely We can do (or not do) to change/alter/nullify the perfection, nothing at All. The choices are All about experience and We have eternity to experience everything that We want to experience.

We are learning through experience to do what We want in the moment rather than planning and following plans. This is a bit new to Us in some/many ways so it feels a bit uncomfortable.

One of the things that We have had to do is get comfortable with OurSelf and All that that entails. It is definitely an ongoing process and finding what All that entails is ever expanding and probably All-ways will be. That is part and parcel of infinity and eternity. There are sooooo many aspects of OurSelf that We were uncomfortable with it is a bit amazing really. We do find that when We find anyOne who is comfortable with aspects of “themSelf” that We are uncomfortable with in OurSelf, We really admire “them”. Of course, We real-eyes that We only see the surface of those people and there are probably aspects of OurSelf that We are comfortable with which those people are terrorfried of.

We went out and watered Our plants and find Our physical energy is really low. Not a problem.

It dawns on Us that some of what We have been typing may be confusing and vague. We are used to doing what We want to get done rather than what We want to do in the now. This is what We are learning and experiencing now. It is part of being expanded and being in the now. Getting away from thinking that there are things that We “must” do. That is very deeply bred programming and We want to grow beyond it.

The concept that in order to have We must let go is fairly new to Us (collectively and personally) and takes more getting used to. This also reminds Us that We are processing and integrating for the collective as well as personally. This is another part of what We are experiencing right now. The idea and belief that We must “do” is very deeply rooted and it is hard to release. This too is personal and collective.

The thing is that what We really want is far beyond Our physical abilities. By “doing” We can only imitate what We are actually after. New concepts and beliefs and “they” do not get assimilated in an instant.

Resting a lot

07/13/13

Today:

Resting a lot

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:47:13 AM

Good morning. More worlds and Once again We are catering in “them”. Catering must be in Our karma or something. At least this time We were having fun and making new friends. We were in a world with more freedom and less rules. However, We brought Our old rules and limitations with Us. Ah, sounds like the same theme We were exploring yesterday. The good thing was that though inside We were screaming, We were able to allow others “their” freedom.

We did some observing before jumping in and pouncing on others and real-eyesed that We were the only One having any problem with the freedom and liberty. All kinds of rules and taboos were being broken and We were the only One who noticed. It was not like open defiance or rebellion. It was natural AND normal. Of course We enjoyed it too but Our mind was roiling. It was welcome, We want to be free but We are sooooo ingrained to follow rules and be restricted. It is not easy to embrace complete freedom. It is nice and fun but not easy.

Again, the unfamiliar is uncomfortable until it becomes familiar. We can allow Our discomfort and go through the adjustment period or We can demand a return to the familiar. We are glad that in the dream AND in Our waking We are choosing to adjust.

We are taking Our time getting going this morning. Staying in dream, or expanded or zoomed out to be less focused in 3D and have a broader view and experience.

We returned to dream. It is getting harder and harder to distinguish between dream and waking and We like that.

We went outside to see what We feel like doing and the answer is: “not much”. Something in the energy today is saying (to Us personally, anyway) to take it very easy. We are way okay with this, partially because the projects We really wanted to complete this summer are complete. Now, We are kinda getting a jump start on next summer (or not).

We are reminded that We are more and more walking in multiworlds and We may well find that Our focus is either nearly non-existent or that it is in a very different world. The difference is Us of course, but there are also worlds where We live and have a very different perspective, point of reference and All that. In a world where We live as who and what We really are, a lot (most/All) of the things We are doing are pointless EXCEPT for the experience of doing “them”. (Or the experience of NOT doing “them”.) There are just sooooo many worlds, versions of Us and possibilities in infinity and eternity. It really is hard to conceive of with Our 3D, limitation mindset.

We can feel into it and when We do We really likes it. So, whatever We do today is to entertain OurSelf and NOT to accomplish anything. We theel strongly that (for the most part) We need to leave Our plants alone until tomorrow. Who knows why????? We did get out Our potting soil because We have several plants and rootings and what snot that seem just about ready for transplanting. Some (onions rooted from the cut off ends store bought onions) will go in the onion tub outside. We do hope to find a good way to grow onions inside and outside year 'round. But, We just do not feel inspired to actually do any of this right now and We are learning to honor Our feelings and inspirations or lack thereof. Again, this is hard for the head but easy for the heart. It is the way of the heart.

We did some more painting and sanded the cedar board that We have for a top rail. We are not completely happy with the way the cedar piece is looking, but that may be because We would like it shiny and We do not have any shiny finish right now. We got the portal crosspiece stained with two coats and can put it up later today or tomorrow to decorate.

Again, We are mostly kicking back.

We are (strongly) reminded that All the doing may soon be a mute point EXCEPT for the experience. The experience is important, the results and outcomes are not.

Another day spent going back to dream. Something is going on, or something(s) need(s) to be dreamt. It's a beautiful day outside and We have been out several times and did a bit but We just wanna dream.

We are in transition. In order to change “the rules” We must change Our belief in “the rules”. We do not mean to try to destroy Our beliefs, that never works. We can however expand Our beliefs. The rules served Us well in Our explorations of separation and limitation (impossible but We imagined “them” into reality).

A transition of this magnitude does not come easily or quickly but it can happen smoothly and it will if We allow and follow Our hearts.

After choosing to stay home and lay low today We have read some articles talking about the need to do just that this weekend. We followed Our heart and We got confirmation. We do not exactly what is being accomplished this weekend but it is being accomplished beyond physical effort.

Doing nothing can be more active than doing something

07/12/13

Today:

Doing nothing can be more active than doing something

Wizard's Log Star-date: 05:58:44 AM

Good morning. More and more worlds. It is interesting how many worlds can have just as much stress and pressure if We allow it. It is kinda like Our recent dream life is showing Us that the difference is Us and NOT the world. That makes sense and it is a very important lesson.

We (personally) believe that We (All) see what We project. We see many people looking and hoping for world change before personal change. Many require it. If We see what We project then it would appear that We (personally) still hold to this demand too. It may be a minor part of Us or could even be a passive shadow/mirror but it remains a part of Us. This does NOT mean that We need to kill this part as We thought in the passed when confronted with such a monster. We use the word monster because in the passed this is how such things appeared to Us.

It is no longer so. This is a part of Our expanded Self that We can choose to accept or reject. If rejected this part will turn into an apparent monster for sure. If owned and accepted this can be an integrated part of Our whole. We choose to honor and accept this aspect. In ways this is now easy and yet in ways it remains hard because (to Our thinking) this part(s) remain in limitation and in victim mode and powerless. To Us this is sad. Just like the version(s) of Us (recently) that have been caught up in believing that “their” world can harm “them”.

This is the lie of separation and limitation. We have figured that there will All-ways be versions of Us that believe this lie. We can not rescue “them”, only love “them” and be available if “they” want out of this role and belief. The same with those We see in limitation 3D still clinging to old believes and demanding to be rescued. We must love “them” for “they” are Us. This is not an easy thing to come to. We can love “them” vaguely, generically and from a distance. But, to love “them” personally is much harder.

It seems that facing this is where We are at in/on Our journey. Even as We meet and connect with more and more youngstars (in waking and dream both with many) and We know that if We did get to know “them” in waking, most would also still be caught up in 3D. We are certain that there are rare exceptions but not the majority yet. Is this because the majority of Our projections are stuck? We can accept this or reject it. We choose to embrace as much as We possibly can. This is the only way that We can set “them” free.

We do not theel that We need to engage in words with these. Mental messages and heart messages will be much more affective. Dream work will be more affective. What We do NOT want to do is judge and reject any of “them”. We want to love “them”, even the unlovely. So, We see the opportunity that lies at Our feet and We accept it.

We had thought that We might spend a lot of this weekend in dream and We are good with that. Perhaps this is the course it will take. Recently, We have been caught up in Our physical doings around the cabin. Yes, We do want physical change and progress and We are doing that. We are doing well. The real change however is at a deeper level and that is what We really desire.

We are again reminded that We are masters of time. This is an aspect that We are still (somewhat) unfamiliar with and therefore uncomfortable with. We do recognize it though and are beginning to accept it. The aspect(s) of OurSelf that believes in and demands limitation and separation is still familiar. Perhaps this is why We feel some anger when it is reflected in Our face so much. We want to shake this aspect and that is not going to happen. Not now, now that We are expanding. To shake this off would actually be returning to this aspect. Pair-a-docks? Perhaps. The only way to be free is to accept, love, embrace and set OurSelf free without judgment. Detach with love.

We returned to dream and though We did not go completely into dream We did get some messages: Up until now We had thought that the many worlds We visit(ed) are different and expanded. This idea is somewhat amiss. It is Us and Our perspective that is expanded in Our dream life and therefore We meet others who are at the same or similar vibration. Another concept that is hard to explain in limitation 3D language. We (those focused solely in limitation 3D) have no concept of this and therefore no words to describe it. Of course this is changing and shifting and transitioning also.

Our current ability to plan has no place in this expansion until that ability expands also. Right now, All of Our plans are based in the impossibility of limitation and separation.

Just being aware that (in Our dreams) it is Us that are expanding, rather than purely and solely the world(s) that are expanding is mind and believe altering All by itSelf. This does shed a new light on everything.

We are again seeing signs that this is not exactly the reality that We went to sleep in. These different worlds and realities AND Our expansion are intertwined and entwined, a symbiotic relationship it seems. There are different worlds but there are All types of explorations and experiences in each world. All exist(s) in the same place and time for these too are illusions that We create(d). It can All seem confusing and paradoxical when viewed from a limitation mindset.

BTW: We theel that We got up from dreaming in a waking dream state and We hope to learn (a little more) how to walk in this state. Perhaps this can be compared to riding a bike with training wheels?

We got the rest of the uprights stood up on Our fort. There was a lot of breakage in the process of tearing down and putting back up, so We will probably want to add more uprights later. We have a bunch that We have not collected yet. Because the forest is now in full growth, most of this will probably wait until next summer. We will probably continue to decorate but Our focus will probably be more on Our faerie path and the little people's picnic table and such. But then again...... who knows. Typing this reminded Us of some dead stuff We have been waiting to move out of the way of the new shed. Maybe We will go take care of that. Then We will run some rope behind All the uprights to keep “them” from getting knocked over and this also adds more color.

We jumped through the latest hoop for unemployment. If there were many more We would not bother. This is a big reason why We do NOT try for more government aid or funds.

We did yet more rearranging under the tarps. This new tarp opens more room and especially with the 18' board under there We needed/wanted to make it easier to move around and do stuff now that We have the room.

It is a clear sunny day so far and getting warm again.

Oh, Our ultra-sonic bug repellers arrived and of course We broke the first One. We gave Shadow the unbroken One and it seems to be working for him. We repaired the other One for OurSelf but it has taken several tries to find something that actually works. It too seems to be repelling bugs quite well. That is why We were able to spend quite a bit of time playing on the fort.

We got some painting done and whatever else We did. We seem to have slipped another reality. So, We are off to dream.