Progress not perfection

02/14/14

Today:

Progress not perfection

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:23:49 AM

Good morning. We woke pony hopping. We do not remember what We did in Our dream lives. We are still more in dream than awake and We will try to just drift and allow OurSelf.

It has been a rough week because of missing Shadow and there is other processing going on so that We are spending most of Our free time in dream. This is a good thing but We have not been very typative and We have gotten away from some of Our reading and listening to Our recordings. We are okay with that and when We aren't We pony hop that. Dr. Hew Len calls it cleaning on whatever comes up.

We love You and We thank You.

We are doing a lot of dialog with Our child within, Our subconscious. We do theel that how We treat the students on the bus is a big part of establishing a relationship with Our child within. Children are important to Us and that is how it should be and should All-ways have been.

The theeling that We will begin traveling soon keeps coming up. We really do not know what that will look like. We have a sense of several possibilities but do not theel that We are yet able to grasp the potential. We theel that anything We can conceive of with Our conscious mind is an extreme limitation of what is possible.

We are getting more and more insights. It is cold in the morning and then warms up as the day progresses. We accept responsibility for this. Our students continue to be a delight and We accept responsibility for this too. We recognize how We block Our own progress and We accept complete responsibility for this.

Good night AND thank You for playing.

Words continue to be hard

02/13/14

Today:

Words continue to be hard

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:26:11 AM

Good morning. We do not remember much about the worlds and friendships We explored last night but We had a good time and We feel a bit more rested this morning. We are pony hopping. We are changing. We ARE learning to live as love in the physical.

We still do not have a lot of words and We miss Our Shadow even though We have a strong sense that he is still visiting Us. He was a great companion.

The sense that We may be traveling soon is growing stronger but We also get it that there are many factors and options and none may look like We would expect if We design expectations around it.

As We ponder and cast about within Our mind We really find Our thinking changing. We really are beginning to live more in the now and less from memories replaying and looping. We are building a partnership with Our child within, Our subconscious. Though We have been somewhat aware of Our subconscious: We did not pay much attention to it. Now, We are paying attention and nurturing it.

It is clear that even though Our head is still trying to plan We recognize this sooner and pony hop it. We are also much more aware of Our child within and there is a dialog starting.

We do theel the way We pay attention to the children on Our bus and try to allow “them” to be “themSelves” (whatever that is) is a big part of making amends to Our child within. Now that We are more aware of him than We have ever been since creation We can begin to treat him the way We treat the kids on the bus.

The memories and reminders of living as One of the rich and powerful keep coming up. We keep getting insights about this. We are not sure whether the memories are the way things really happened or rather Our concocted version from Our projecting Our judgments onto Our world and it reflecting back on Us. We are owning and loving these memories and setting “them” free in love. We are asking Our child within, Our subconscious to assist Us with this process. When We have set these memories (and others) free then Our child within can begin to play. We CAN begin to play and live as Our true nature.

We ARE love. We continue to learn how to live in the physical and We MUST release these memories (that keep replaying) in order to live as love.

The memories include abusing Our power. This is actually impossible but that is what We incorporate into this impossible world We are imagining. What We think is real and possible, even the only thing that IS real and possible: is actually the impossible. What is actually real and possible is what We consider impossible. We are blocking OurSelf from experiencing what and who We really are with these limiting beliefs, blocks and counter intentions.

Good night AND thank You for playing.

Our subconscious, Our child within

02/12/14

Today:

Our subconscious, Our child within

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:00:00 AM

Good morning. We slept in a little this morning and that is nice. We are repeating Our mantra and pony hopping and We do not have a lot to say yet. We are adjusting to the change of not having Shadow here physically. We theel something new is on the horizon. Yes, that is All-ways true but this is bigger and more than usual and quite a big change for Us.

We are feeling more shift and change this morning and We really do not have too much to share because We are in flux.

We did not have much to say All day. We did a lot of pony hopping and watched another vid of Dr. Hew Len. We are getting a lot from watching and hearing him. More work with Our child within, Our subconscious.

The cold did trigger other/many fears for a bit. It is good to note that We recognized fairly quickly what was going on and began pony hopping. In the vid Dr. Hew Len did more work with the child within (Our subconscious) and We did the same. We can sense the subtle shifting that is going on.

Good night AND thank You for playing.

Finding patterns and memories replaying

02/11/14

Today:

Finding patterns and memories replaying

Wizard's Log Star-date: 02:49:36 AM

Good morning. We had a hard time sleeping but We expected that. We just woke from the most interesting dream (or reality) which We can not fully explain. We will give it a shot: It is a holographic program that projects a message on the wall that says: “To start weekend program Press Here” When You “Press Here” it shuts down Your own program until Monday morning. It had several different possible messages but each One actually shuts down and/or resets itSelf and the target who activates it. Kinda, sorta, maybe.

We experienced this reality from the perspective of the programmer, the remote observer, the present observer, the controller AND the target All at the same time. Trippy to say the least. We are also experiencing something similar in waking. It is related to Shadow being gone from Our physical reality. We heard him several times during the night too. We experienced that like someOne feeling a limb that has been amputated.

Speaking of which: We had a bunch more insights around Shadow and Our current process. SITH teaches that Our life is actually memories replaying over and over until We get clean or to zero point or divine or whatever. We have been taught (in other programs/methods) to look for patterns in Our life in order to identify Our blocks and areas that We need to clean up. Now We see that these patterns ARE the memories that are looping. The difference is that We are not (no longer) “looking” for the patterns because We do not need to nor are We actually able to find “them” All. BUT: many are revealing “themSelves”. This is happening in waking and in dream. We also recognize that Our words fall way short of accurately describing what is happening.

Shadow All-ways had weak legs especially his back legs which correspond to “THE” legs on a person. (We think We have covered some of this a few days ago but there was more last night) From time to time in Our life We have had friends with bad/weak/missing legs. We have often been drawn to complete strangers who had some sort of difficulty with “their” legs. Our first clear memory of this is from junior high school. However, We have a vague memory of it from earlier. In Our twenties Our maternal grandmother had both legs amputated at the knees. (That is the memory that came up during dream last night)

We really get it that (even though We would have liked it to be different) Shadow needed to move on in order for his process and Ours to progress. We got the VERY strong impression that there was a youngstar that was waiting for Shadow's spirit to occupy its body. We also get the theeling that Shadow is both in that body AND free to explore non-physical realms to his heart's delight.

We are also even more aware being in multiworlds and being multidimensional since yesterday.

We just got it (remembered????) that in other realities Shadow did recoup and rejuvenate. We feel some of those but We especially feel Shadow in his non-physical body comforting Us and being playful. Somehow he is a much stronger connection (for Us) to the energy and/or spirit world than any of Our friends or family who have crossed over. We are feeling him, the youngstar, the Fae and many other energy species around Us coming and going. This is normal (for Us) in dream but it is much stronger in waking than ever before.

Good night AND thank You for playing.

A very hard day for Us

02/10/14

Today:

A very hard day for Us

Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:27:54 AM

Good morning. Lots of cleaning, releasing and setting free in love last night. Tons of memories that have been running Our life are coming up, mostly vague but some in gory details as implanted by history. We got the distinct impression that many are actually false memories but We have held onto “them” as Ours for eons. There is something big about Czar Nicholas and other notorious characters. We love You and set You free with love. We really did want to stay in bed and dream but We know this process can go on in waking and We do have things to do in this waking world even though the important parts (things to do) are not what We see and perceive on the surface.

Our world is very, very different from what We see and perceive and that is becoming an experience not just a philosophy. We are beginning to allow OurSelf to access the real world but We must set these frightening and painful memories free so that “they” no longer bind Us in fear. We are talking to Our child within (Our subconscious) to show it love and acceptance and to stop causing it pain and begin acknowledging it. We want to allow Our child its proper place in Our life. We are grateful for Our child within being a part of Us.

This has certainly been a powerful weekend. We have been theeling and continue to theel that We should cut back to only working three days a week. Financially this is scary for Us. It was scary when We did it before too. These are more memories replaying. We will see how this goes. We do want to follow inspiration.

It was interesting during the night to wake to this cleaning and pony hopping going on. We keep saying: “I love You” and doing the pony hopping mantras. We are also hoping that this will set Shadow free from the beliefs in aging and growing weak. We acknowledge Our fear of immortality that is a result of these memories. We are sorry, please forgive OurSelf.

During Our breaks it became apparent that Shadow is really having a hard time getting and staying on his feet. On Friday We both agreed that he is done but We both wanted to take the weekend alone together (not going anywhere just the two of Us at home). We spent most of the time (from when We got home early Friday afternoon [or late morning] up to this morning) dreaming together and telepathically sharing with and comforting each other. We had hoped that he would recoup enough to be able to stick around and NOT suffer but that is obviously not the case.

During the day the kids seemed to sense that We were hurting and were kind to Us. Hard to explain but We definitely felt it. It seems that more and more of Our life and process is hard to put to word(s).

After work We talked more with Shadow and took him to be put to sleep. Once We got him out of the truck he tried to walk and shortly fell down after he had peed. Then, after We lifted his body and got him back on his feet he was sooooo happy. Our first thought was that he did not know what was about to happen. However, immediately he told Us that he knew very well what was about to happen AND he was very happy. All his life (at least until recently) absolutely everything has been an adventure for him. He is now starting an even bigger adventure. He seemed to suddenly grow taller and stronger. He knew he was being set free with love. We had a lot of tears through the whole process and had a lot of difficulty speaking. It is hard to type this.

When We got home We took Our time with doing everything that We usually do when We get home from work. We had lots of tears and lots of insights.

Good night AND thank You for playing.