Today:
More and more
multidimensional insights and experiences
Wizard's Log Star-date: 03:57:51 AM
Good morning. We wake to play another day.
We
visited several worlds where We are still working at places that We
used to work at in Our waking life. Again We met more old and new
friends and We are having a good time. Our new, close friend from the
other continues to make “their” presence known in Our waking and
dream lives. We like that. We feel very comfortable with “them”.
At some point We were wondering if “they” will show up in Our
waking, physical world but We get it that We would prefer to be more
in tune with multiD and enjoy “them” there.
It
is becoming clear that We are spending more and more time and
awareness in multiD and less and less time focused only in 3D. This
is what We have been seeking and Our change of thinking and beliefs
is happening. There is still more to come but We are well on Our way.
Limitation 3d is NOT Our only reality. We ARE grateful. We theel Our
children within are more comfortable and relaxed.
We
are looking forward to Our weekend but it is a different feeling than
it used to be. We are not as desperate to experience Our weekend and
get out of Our work week. We are actually feeling that We are
starting Our weekend this morning even though We are going to work.
That is a great feeling. Our waking life is becoming more and more
what We want and have been seeking for a long, long time.
There
is more and more that We are learning experientially about being
multidimensional beans. As We reflect on this We find that these are
not really “new” experiences
(except for the bus sooooo extremely cold and now so comfortably
warm). We have had fleeting experiences of multidimensionality All of
Our waking life. We just forgot and denied what these were. We forgot
so good that We completely forgot what was happening. It is Our
awareness that is shifting. Our awareness, Our thinking, Our mindset
and Our beliefs. This IS Our complete psychic change in progress.
Our children within ARE playing a big part. “They”
have been trying to get Our attention for some time. When All else
failed “they” threw a monkey wrench in the works (so to speak)
from time to time. For a long time We just fought and denied “them”.
Finally (only recently) We became aware of “them” and started
paying attention to “them”. The children on Our bus and even
other children that are in Our waking life (even if only to barely
cross Our path) are physical reflections of Our children within.
“They” actually are Our children within as is everything that We
see and experience in Our hologram. We are beginning to perceive Our
world as Our hologram but only just.
It does theel like Our newest, close friend is trying to
show Us what living in multidimensionality can be like, especially
the friendships and experiences of connecting closely with these
parts and pisces of OurSelf. We really like the sensory visions and
feelings that We are having. Thank You. Thank Me. We love Us.
More and more We are noticing subtle differences between
Our current, waking world and Our memories of (what We thought of
as:) that world. It IS a hologram that is changing IF We allow
OurSelves to notice it. We continue to find that We have done things
and have no memory of doing “them” because this is a different
world/reality/hologram than We are remembering. Hard concepts to grok
until We start with admitting that it really is possible. Not only is
the change possible but it is also possible that We are experiencing
this shift and change.
Have We mentioned that We really appreciate having heat
on Our bus? We had a great morning but We do not have much to share.
Probably because We started our weekend this morning and (again) We
are much more focused in multidimensionality than limitation 3D. We
ARE functioning fully in 3D but We are paying attention and
aware/remember much more of multiD. 3D words do not come close to
really describing multiD.
How can We convey being aware of and participating in
several worlds/realities at Once. What We do know (from listening to
Our multiworld girl) that is really hard to follow/read/listen even
if We do find words.
People living totally in limitation 3D can not
comprehend something being red One minute and blue the next and
someOne being 20 One minute and 12 the next and back to 20 (or any
other age). On Friday We rarely think of next Friday as tomorrow.
This is how her stories go and this is the simplest version.
To really talk/type about it sounds like lies or crazy.
It is each person's choice what/whether to judge it. We ARE entering
a time/era where everyOne has (or will soon have) the clear choice
and (ability to choose) whether We are crazy or aware of
multidimensionality.
We are theeling about trying to type up something
separate (like a “Night School”) but that will depend on how Our
inspiration goes.
When We returned from Our first break Our driver seems
mad about something. We theel that she is blaming Us for being two
minutes later than usual even though that is still eight minutes
early. We real-eyes that this is her m.o. when something has majorly
upset her and it probably has nothing to do with Us. We are only the
center of Our uni-verse, not hers. Throughout the rest of the day We
can tell that she is trying to be pleasant but something is really
bothering her.
The older brother has homework again and this is really
upsetting him. He is on the verge (perhaps passed the verge) of
having another meltdown. We try to calm and soothe and help him as
We leave the school while also paying attention to the other four
kids on the bus. That is NOT an easy task. The boy who has been/is
telling Us about pretend worlds tries to get Our attention and when
We tell him he needs to take care of himSelf a while he sees that the
older brother needs Our attention and quietly looks at a book.
After a bit We tell the brother that We need to go pay
attention to the other kids but will return to sit with him after the
others are home. He tells Us to go ahead and move back with the
others and seems to go in and out of sleep. He flips from okay to
melting and back in seconds. When We try to find out what he needs:
One second he can tell Us something, the next he is nearly out of
control and the next he is talking about incidents that may have
involved Us and may not. He flips around in less than a breath. We
real-eyes that the best We can do is let him know that We care and
want to help and let him work his way through.
When the older brother tells Us it is okay to go sit
with the other kids We move back and talk to the boy with the pretend
worlds. We can pay attention to the preschoolers easier from this
seat. The other boy tells Us about this world and the pretend
version of whatever he just talked about in this world. Very
interesting that he distinguishes between these worlds while the
multiworld girl seems to slip around unaware of any boundaries or
distinctions between the worlds. Her version is probably more
accurate but his version is much, much easier to follow and accept.
After We drop the last of the other three students off:
the younger brother lays down in the seat (which Our driver will not
allow) knowing that We will sit next to him if he tries this. We sit
him up and sit next to him. He is playing. We let him play while
trying to set the prescribed boundaries. That is not easy for Us to
do but We do Our best. After a while Our driver signals that she
wants Us to curtail the play. We find a medium place and try to
explain to the boy that We need to learn to keep Our hands to
OurSelves on the bus. We phrase it as both of Us needing to learn
rather than pointing a finger and accusations and hard fast rules at
the student. He is disappointed but mostly cooperates. He has
started cooperating with Us in many ways (even when he does not get
his way) rather than fighting Us on everything the way he did at the
first of the year. Our driver does recognize this and allows Us to
work in Our way rather than the arbitrary regimentation that she is
used to.
We play with the younger brother without him touching Us
(as much anyway) for a while. His touching Us is not really
inappropriate but Our rules are strict to avoid even the appearance
of any impropriety. This is hard for Us as he is clearly starved for
positive attention. After a while he says that he is ready to sit
alone. We explain that as long as he does not try to ride laying
down or with his feet up on the seat (Our driver's rules) then We can
and will let him sit alone and he agrees.
Now We can move back to sit with the older brother who
is still vacillating between a slight melting and being barley okay.
He wants his homework and can not bear to look at it. After a bit he
holds/hugs Our arm and tells Us that he appreciates Us talking to
him. We try to explain to him that We appreciate him showing his
appreciation but We too must learn to keep Our hands to OurSelves on
the bus. He is disappointed but seems to understand. Even a quick
hug of Our arm is against the rules. We will probably continue to
allow these brief arm hugs but not allow “them” to linger too
long. We did tell him that We talk to him and pay attention to him
because We like him. He likes that. He seems to see his grandfather
as an authority figure more than a friend. We have no idea if he
ever sees his father. He does see his mother's current boyfriend
whoever that may be in the moment.
After We drop the brothers off Our driver does not say
anything (much to Our surprise) and We try to set it All free rather
than toss it All around (in Our mind) like a dog with a bone. After
Our regular potty stop at the gas station Our driver does try to be
upbeat and friendly. We are certain that something is really bugging
her that has nothing to do with Us or the students. We will probably
find out what it is next week, or not.
At home We take Our time bringing in and putting away
groceries and starting Our cran-raspberry pie. We decide to get Out
DVD of “Avatar” and watch it with dinner. As soon as the movie
starts We finally remember that the name of the planet is Pandora
(before it is mentioned in the movie). We go ahead and watch even
though Our main purpose was to remember the name of the planet. We
are really enjoying being more observant of the planet than We ever
have before. We are paying less attention to the plot and characters
and violence than before.
The
movie is great but Our dreams are calling.
Good night AND thank You for playing.
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