Lots of ponyhopping in 3D within multiD

3/29/2018

Today

Lots of ponyhopping in 3D within multiD

Wizard’s Log Stardate: 3:17 AM and/or NOW

Good morning. We wake to play another day. Reminder to Self: Celebrate!!!!! Only the divine exists. The divine is All there is, All that is AND I Am that “divine”. WE ARE. Celebrate.

Today: We choose to vibrate love: unconditional love. We choose to project and reflect unconditional love. We choose love.

We Allready ARE All that We aspire to be and much, much more. We are ‘tending to be less and We ‘tend very good. It is time to accept and own that We ARE unconditional love and everything that We desire flows from here.

We wake grateful and doing lots of pony hopping.

Our head is trying really hard to keep Us locked into playing the victim and rerunning the incident from yesterday. We keep pony hopping and setting it free and We keep jumping back into victim mode, victim mentality and victim defending. We forgive Us. Please forgive Us. We love You and We thank You. We love Us and We thank Us. We created this. We are NOT the victim of anything or anyOne.

We created our victim and victor world: Our world of separation and limitation. As much as We hate it: We wanna keep playing the victim. We forgive Us. We want Our pity. We forgive Us. We love Us AND We thank Us. Gratitude IS powerful. Gratitude and acceptance are NOT weak. That is One of Our many lies. We forgive Us. We love Us AND We thank Us.

We ARE changing the way that We think and We ARE grateful for that. We forgive Us. We appreciate Our process even though We would like to be done. We ARE infinite. We will never stop improving.

As We listen to Our “Vortex” meditation We get that well being IS Our natural state. We have created this unnatural world, life and state of being. We forgive Us. We love AND We thank Us. Please forgive Us. We love You and We thank You.

At base the dispatcher tells Our subdriver NOT to let her attendant make decisions about maintenance. We are standing right there and We are certain that she knows it and is saying it more to Us than Our driver. We are kinda shocked and Our head wants to go into defense. We ponyhop and ponyhop again. We just keep hopping while Our head keeps trying to attack and defend. This IS an old energy game. We created it. We take responsibility. NOT guilt: responsibility. Guilt is an old, tired and worn out game. Our head wants to play that game because it is the only game that Our head knows. We forgive Us. We forgive Our head. We love Us and We thank Us. We set Us free with love.

Our kids are great. Thank god for Our kids: a safe haven. Our head still wrestles with offense and We cling to it as We set it free. We ponyhop over and over. Thank Us. We love Us. All of Our morning students ride. Our separation kid has a little trouble. Our quiet kids are mostly quiet. One has started coming to life and wants to play more than sit down. We like to let “them” play and We havta have “them” sit down. We really are looking for a balance.

Our head does not do balance very well. Our head wants to cling to old behavior because it is comfortable because it is familiar.

On Our way to Our last student Our bus goes to engine power reduced. We feel vindicated. This is what We were trying to tell dispatch was gonna happen. We do NOT wanna play this game. Ponyhopping more. Dispatch says to finish Our route and go to shop afterwards. Maybe “they” will get it and maybe not.

Please forgive Us. We love You and We thank You.

We have lunch on Our morning break. We do not take time to grocery shop since Our break is short because of taking Our bus to shop. One of the drivers that We do not like gives Us a ride back to base. Wouldn’t Ya know it. We really are trying to give Us room to change and grow. We forgive Us. We wanna change AND We wanna cling to Our old ways and behavior. Our old ways do NOT bring freedom and joy yet “they” ARE familiar and We cling to the familiar. We judge others for the very same things. Mirror, mirror:

We have a standby bus with few seats for Our noon and PM sections.

Our noon kids do fine even though the rivalry continues.

We are concerned about the few seats for Our PM section. Two preschoolers do not ride and that helps. Two kids who do not normally get along do just great. We really ARE grateful. We sit next to Our foster kid for the first two stops. “They” are very quiet and do not object. We thank “them” and apologize if We are crowding “them”. We just let “them” be and move as soon as there is room. “They” seem to be in a good mood just tired and a slight cough.

We go into dream and multiD on the drive back. Our head still tries to cling to offense and wrestle with Our defense. We ponyhop and ponyhop some more. Ponyhopping does work. Our head has not foot to stand on when We take responsibility. We ARE responsible and We forgive Us.

We stop for groceries on the way home. We get the ham that We wanted and the ingredients for split pea soup.

Our head still struggles. We do theel that the best thing to do at work is to keep Our mouth shut. We have caused offense and We ponyhop. We wanna live by/as love. We do not theel like We are doing a good job of it. We recognize that We ARE making progress. This does not please Our head and neither does forgiveness, love and gratitude: the things that We wanna live by. We do NOT wanna just change Our outer behavior. We wanna change and grow from the inside out. This does NOT leave room for vengeance. We keep pony hopping All the way home.

We play Animal Crossing a little while Our cabin warms up. We have phi for dinner with more “Dr. Who”. Then We play in multiD a bit and now We ARE ready to let Our “Vortex” take Us to dream. We open and allow. We ponyhop. We breathe and relax. There is much for Us to gain. We forgive Us and We love Us.

Goodnight AND thank You for playing.