More focus in 3D today

2/24/2015

Today

More focus in 3D today

Wizard’s Log Stardate: 3:42 AM

Good morning. We wake to play another day. Reminder to Self: Celebrate!!!!! Only the divine exists. The divine is All there is, All that is AND I Am the divine. Celebrate.

We visited Our world/life as an immortal most of the night. Some of it was waking dreams and Our happy thoughts. It does All seem to be blending together more and THAT is a good thing. We got more insights into living as an immortal in a world populated mostly with mortals. Most mortals are afraid of being immortal AND of love. That IS Our projection of Our own beliefs and fears. So: We pony hop. We do not know why We are afraid or rather why We told/tell the stories that feed Our fears. Our legends and myths have served Us well to engender fear. We told lies and We believed Our lies.

We have long known that this part of Our life is about facing Our fears. Another teacher (maybe several teachers) recently wrote about Our deepest fears coming up for no apparent reason to be released. We are used to fear coming up for a reason but it is newish for fear to just come up for no apparent reason. This is part of Our transition. Once again: We face Our fear, We let it pass through Us. We acknowledge Our fear, We love Our fear and We set it free. We feel Our fear as it comes up and passes through. We can return here anytime We want. For now We set OurSelves free with love.

This is All about Our transition: nothing more and certainly nothing less. We have Allways been love and immortal and limitless but We have pretended (for sooooo long) to be what We are not that being what We are seems new and frightening. We told tales of misuse and abuse and retribution for Our (make believe) evil ways. We turned saints into demons with Our fables. We made creatures bringing Us love into bloodthirsty monsters. We played the game well. We truly ARE masters of the game.

Now: We remember separating with love rather than hatred and fear. However: We have only vague memories of how that evolved and Our memories of the evolution of fear and hatred are very, very clear and present. We try to complicate Our journey back to who and what We are. Theeling happy thoughts changes everything. However: Our head wants to keep Us in limitation where it thinks that We are safe. It is wrong but it is very clever and powerful. Our head is part of Us AND We ARE very powerful creators. We love Our head. We pony hop. We forgive OurSelves. We love Us and We thank Us. We set Us free with love. We feel Our head and ego cowering from this love. Amazing. We never real-eyesed that We are afraid of love. We do Our best to comfort these cowering, frightened children. We are calm and gentle.

The way We treat Our students on the bus IS a big part or integrating Our rejects and castaways. Perhaps this is why We resist waking each work day morning. We are afraid of loving and integrating Our rejects and castaways because of the lies that We have told. It’s complicated. A very intricate and tangled web to be sure. We can spend eons trying to unravel what We have created or We can just change how We think. Theel happy thoughts. Even if that is not the answer it is certainly a good place to start.

It seems that Our head likes to be afraid and does NOT want to face Our fears and let “them” pass through. It wants to wallow in fear and We real-eyes that We have created/projected a world that supports this. We are sorry for projecting this onto Our friends (which made enemies of many of Our friends). It’s complicated. We forgive Us. We love Us and “them”. We thank Us. We set Us (and “them”) free with love.

We real-eyes that Our head does NOT want to take Our changes, Our evolution into Our limitation world and implement/integrate “them”. It fears losing something/anything. We must reassure Our children within that nothing is being lost, destroyed or abandoned. This is a bit hard as most everything We read about changing and evolution implies (or demands) abandonment and/or destruction of the old. We created that old AND We love it even when We (think that We) hate it. It really is like killing Our own child or leaving Our baby on some strangers doorstep. We are NOT doing that but try telling Our rejects and castaways that this time will be different. Why should “they” trust Us? There is no (or damn little) evi-dance to support Our claim. Truth be told: We do not even know that We will keep Our word. We only know that right now: We love All of Our parts and pisces and welcome “them” home.

As We think about and wonder whether or not there be school today: We get the (very strong) impression that it does NOT matter. We Allways get what We need whether We likes it or not.

We are picturing, remembering and imaginating some of immortal friends. It is fun even if We are afraid of those worlds and lives. We fear AND look forward to experiencing (in waking) being limitless and immortal and living as love. It is interesting to be aware of how much We want AND fear this change and evolution. We embrace AND resist with Allmost equal strength. Perhaps We will be a bit more empathetic with Our others who experience the fear and resisdance too.

Our driver is out sick again and We have new sub-drivers so We have to stay focused mostly in 3D. The roads are still slick but the big problem is that many of the buses are parked in the wrong places (because We had state inspections yesterday) and Our bus is over at shop (but no One knew that until We searched All the barns and yard). We finally an available bus with a wheelchair lift but it needs a jumpstart. We left the yard forty minutes late and even with the slick road ended up only fifty minutes late to Our last school this morning.

Our noon section went smooth and We had time to go to shop and get Our personal stuff and starseats out of Our bus. This calmed Us because some years (for state inspections) personal items got tossed and We had left Our library books on Our bus since We did NOT know that state inspections were gonna happen. We did pretty well at not worrying and accepting/knowing that We do get the best for Us (All things work together for Our best) but there was still some doubt.

The kids are a pleasure but the morning kids were not happy about being late to school. We found out that Our newest middleschooler got switched to Our route and middleschool because “they” had been at the middleschool close to home and would ride the bus to school, go in the entrance and then out the back door and walk home. We knew “they” are a smart One.

The PM section went fine except that All the gradeschoolers rode (including the brand new kindergartner) which has not happened since before Xmas. The roads are slick and We do have some challenges getting up some steep roads. We have to pay attention to the roads and give the driver directions and do not get to pay as much attention to the kids as “they” are used to. We ended up an hour late getting back to the barn (mostly) because of the slick roads.

At home We did whatever and ended up ready for dream only half an hour late.

Good night AND thank You for playing.