Starting the new year

08/12/13

Today:

Starting the new year

Wizard's Log Star-date: 04:53:09 AM

Good morning. There sure are some interesting worlds and people out there and We sure live some interesting lives. We just noticed that We have only remembered visiting human inhabited worlds recently. At least, everybody seems human to Us. We wonder what that is about? Are “they” human or just familiar enough and like Us enough (whatever that might mean) that We are assuming “they” are human. In fact, do We do that in waking too? We theel there is something to this.

Perhaps We often see non-humans and translate “their” image into human. Yes, We even feel that We have typed about this before. Again, We are aware that the world We woke in is not the same as the world where We went to sleep and dream. Our head and brain just translate it into that image and memory. We do not see the forest for the trees.

This relates to UFO sightings (or lack thereof for Us) and first contact. This may not be true for everyOne. We may be One of a few, or even One of many but We are probably NOT the majority. We are remembering who and what We are. We do still feel that everyOne is equal, everyOne is love but We may not All look and act as much alike as Our brain makes Us think that We do.

This could be much more important than anyOne real-I-says. We theel that the kids are shaking Us in Our sleep and begging Us to wake up and see “them” and hear “them” and listen to “them”. PAY ATTENTION “they” say.

Open, let go and allow. Or stay in the hologram. It is Our choice.

We theel this will be a very interesting year. If feels like Our new year is starting now. Perhaps, the Lion's Gate was/is the beginning of Our new year?

Something We noticed during the night and are reminded of by the emails We are reading: Our life has changed and changed a lot. Some/many/most of the changes are subtle but put together it is quite dramatic. The thing is that the change has been gradual enough as to not really be too noticeable during the process. In truth, We really can not even put words to the change, at least not yet. Think of a shimmering wall that fades in and out of focus and visibility with its shimmering. Think ephemeral and shifting and ghost images on an imaging screen like a computer monitor or TV. That is a close description of Our current world. Yet, at the same time it All appears the same and unchanged and just as solid and absolute as it ever did. The One thing that We are certain of (regardless) is that it is absolutely NOT absolute.

If We “try to imagine” what the real world is like We fall way short and limit the limitless. IF We allow it to reveal itSelf, if We allow Our imagination to flow free and reveal what IT knows that lies beyond what Our brain can conjure then it will truly make itSelf manifest in Our waking life. Or perhaps it will be that Our dreams take over Our waking. That sounds like a very good thing right now.

We are reminded to do what is in front of Us and let tomorrow (the next moment, whatever) take care of itSelf. Let go. We are letting go but Our brain/head is trying to cling to the old and familiar. That just does not work for Us anymore.

We are reading the latest from Suzanne Lie click here and it certainly confirms what We have been intuiting these last few days. We are (Our head is) still trying to plan and figure out what We will (want to) do around here before school starts. Now, the interesting thing is that right now and even in Our immediate future We are NOT going to do any of it. We are going to sit here on Our ass and drink coffee and read and type. THAT is Our current reality. Yes, We may go water some outside plants before We go to do Our dry run, but even THAT is NOT in Our now.

LET GO!!!!!

We decided to be (and enjoying being) outside and water the plants closest to Our cabin. It is quite nice outside even though it remains quite smoky. Our heartmind is happy to just be and do what We want, what strikes Our fancy but Our head is really having a hard time with this today. Our head wants to plan. It keeps telling Us that We will die if We don't do this and this and remember that and don't forget to..... and on and on it tries to go. We know these are lies and chains to keep Us fettered in limitation. We also know that We set it up this way and Our head and brain is/are only doing its job. As much as We hate the struggle and back and forth We know that this is NOT about killing the head, brain and/or ego. “They” are only doing the job that We assigned “them” (or relegated to “them” through neglect). We wish to honor and bless and appreciate and love “them” and set “them” free to relax a bit and do whatever “they” are truly meant for (whatever that may be at any moment). It may not be easy to do when it feels like “they” are holding Us back, keeping Us chained and Our wings clipped BUT (again) this is what We asked “them” to do for Us. (It seemed like a good idea at the time).

Our dry run went well and We got to meet a couple of the new students and get to know Our driver better. He is a bit pessimistic but then again, he still believes in an impossible world that is going (gone) mad. We theel that he and I will get along well and make a good team. We do have a lot of things in common here in this 3D world.

As usual We are pretty wiped out after a day in town especially a hot One.

Slip, sliding away

08/11/13

Today:

Slip, sliding away

Wizard's Log Star-date: 05:34:35 AM

Good morning. We received a lot of information and insights about Our transition(s) in Our waking world. We even remember some of it. The main point is to let go of old beliefs and limitations. We must be willing to change if We want to change. Imagine that. Change is available and there is a lot of support for the change available now. We must choose. We choose by Our thoughts, deeds and actions.

We live in a world of form and that is incredible. Creating form from nothing is no minor feat. Up until now form has been limited and We thought that was an attribute/requirement of form. Well, that is no longer the case if it ever really was. Now, form is becoming mutable because We want it to. We are expanding Our beliefs about form. Of course, we are also clinging to Our old beliefs like the drowning clinging to an anchor.

Letting go of Our limits and limiting beliefs is the next step. Everything is changing IF We want and allow it to. We play in form but We have forgotten it is a game. We have made it survival and a struggle to survive at that. It IS a game. We would do best to remember that. AND: We are changing the rules. It is actually a collective choice though few remember having made that choice. But, here We are. Those who are unaware seem to be experiencing some of the change in the form of sickness.

One of the things that We are experiencing is things that We used to believe had to be straight and rigid are now able to be curved, wavy and flexible. We are easily confused because the form around Us (Our body, Our structures and even nature) seems unchanged. It is changing slowly and gradually and basically unnoticeably. But it is changing none the less.

We have felt stuck (physically only) the last few days and this is part of it. Our plans and doings were based in limitation. “They” are part of expansion but by the time We next get to “them” (spring) there will be enough change that what We planned will look quite different. That is why We probably will be best off to stop and put everything away as We feel led to do. Even the putting away is different than We “think”. We would/will benefit from feeling Our way from now on. That is what We have been and are trying to do but it is new. Our head reverts to Our plans that are based on lies and limits. When “doing” it is easy to revert to letting the head take charge.

This is where We are and where We are going is much, much more. Truly: We can not even imagine what is in store. If We cling to Our beliefs, Our plans and Our limits the transition may be rough and troublesome. If We allow form to transmute it can be smooth and gentle.

There is much more to what We envisioned and experienced in dream. We are connecting deeper and deeper with friends and helpers and those We are releasing from “their” prison(s). It is a marvelous process and a fun time. Yes, for the newly freed it can be a bit scary too. That is why We are instructed to stay by “their” side 24/7. This requirement may change with time but would We want it to? Perhaps by then We will both/All choose to remain this choice for the fun of it.

Allowing the possibility and experience of staying beside sooooo many newbies is also an exercise in being aware of many versions of OurSelf. We (obviously) must multilocate to stay beside sooooo many newbies. Of course the newbies are also versions/parts/aspects of Our expanded Self.

We theel that All of this and the more (that is revealed yet hidden/submerged upon waking) will make it a little easier to let go. There is a lot to let go of. Much to allow.

We are walking in multiworlds. We are aware of subtle shifts and changes and phasing of form. These are some reasons why We feel stuck in Our physical “doings”.

Now is a time for shifting, changing and expanding on the inside. We know that when We return to the physical “doings” “they” will be there waiting for Us, maybe a bit different and that is okay. In fact, that is the point.

Oh yeah, We are finding that Our role as gatekeeper is also changing. We have typed about it but We feel that We want to be more specific: In the passed, as a gatekeeper We were stationed at the gateway, portal, whatever. We waited there for people (living and dead) who wanted to pass through from either direction. When anyOne wanted to pass through, We (or another gatekeeper) would escort “them” and walk beside “them” until “they” were familiar and comfortable with this new side of the gate.

Now, We are going into the limitation prison (imaginary and Selfmade yet very real) and leading people out if “they” wish to leave. When We do this We must agree to stay with the person 24/7 for an unspecified amount of time. This opens a lot of possibilities for Us to explore. Obviously, if We are escorting more than One person at a time (and We are) then We must be multilocating and experiencing many versions of OurSelf. It is quite exciting to be aware of doing this.

This has resparked an interest in Our gatekeeper experiences and We are researching those passed dreams. We do not (yet) find the original typed up but it is very curious rereading stuff from back then.

We are finding that We are NOT focusing on any One thing today. We are flitting around in Our mind between many ideas and inspirations. We are clueless where this is leading but We are also certain that it is experiencing being in multiworlds. Fun IF We just allow.

In looking back for Our records of Our gatekeeper dreams/experiences We found something very interesting: We had thought that the mantra: “Open, let go and allow” was fairly recent, within the last few months at most. We found it mentioned back in early 2012. We have no explanation other than time travel AND the idea that what We remember is created and constructed to keep Us experiencing in a linear time perspective and is not really accurate or real.

We did find some writings We had completely forgotten about so that was interesting. We feel inspired to do a few little things around the cabin but not much. We tried to go back to dream but did not feel successful. Maybe We are All-ready there? We certainly are drifty.

Something just represented itSelf which has been coming up for the last several days and We keep forgetting to mention it here: We are learning and remembering how to live as love. We are love remembering itSelf and how to be itSelf. This may sound a bit odd but We certainly have forgotten. Who can deny this?

Also, We are aware that We are walking in multiworlds and it is difficult to focus anywhere or on anything. Open, let go and allow.

The Gatekeeper Series

As We mentioned yesterday or the life before: We were not really aware that Our gatekeeper dreams/experiences are a series.  However, from Our recent dreams We know that "they" are.  So, We have tried to find a record of that first Gatekeeper dream.  So far no success. BUT, We have found some references to it and We still have quite a bit of email and group discussion posts to read that refer to it.

We created a new label: gatekeeper for All of Our blog posts We have found referring to Our gatekeeper experiences.  The first reference that We can find anywhere is from April of 2009: "Another dream I've had is that I escort people (mostly living not just the dead) back and forth across the veil.  I was considered a gatekeeper in these dreams, but not the conventional idea, I was not guarding or blocking the gate, I was escorting people.  This could include the/a new earth." 

We are certain that We had typed about this dream before but it must have been in a private email that got deleted without getting posted here.  Or, it may be here and We are not recognizing it because Our dream recall and typing was quite different back then.

Here is something apparently written on February 13,2011:
"I think most of Us would agree that there is a border between Our
current reality and everything else. I started to say a boundary, but
I don't think it is that solid or prohibitive.
A few year's ago I dreamt of being a gatekeeper. This wasn't like
being a guard to keep anyOne in or out. This was being an escort to
walk beside people (both living and dead) as "they" crossed to the
other side of the veil (of forgetfulness) or the faerie mists. The
other side being whichever side "they" are not on currently.
Recently, I have been focusing on bringing things (objects as well as
ideas and knowledge) across the border into My current waking reality.
Yesterday I had another dream about being a gate keeper.
At the border, there is a machine (or a not-machine) that limits what
We can take across the border. And I was controlling this machine
because it was My limitator. It felt/feels like each of Us control
Our own limitator.
The purpose of this limitator is so that We don't give OurSelf any more
than We can handle. It was very clear to Me that I did NOT want to
turn the control to "Full Remembrance". The control is like a dimmer
switch and can be set to allow OurSelves to remember any amount from
One side to the other. The scale goes from nothing to infinity
(infinity being Full Remembrance) Even now I shudder thinking about
that setting.
I did open it a little more and today I have experienced remembering a
bit more than I did before."

And from February 14, 2011 (in reply to someOne sharing "their" dream):
"My theeling is that not everyOne is ready to cope with seeing a man
with a wolf's head or a wolf walking on 2 legs. I don't think I'm
ready for that. But, it sounds like You are. So, You could walk
beside a newbie (like Me in this instance anyway) and calm "them"
rather than "them" freaking out. That is exactly what I mean by
escorting, that was exactly what I do/did and really All that I did in
the original gatekeeper dream."

This is from "Night School" February 25,2012:
"Now, I experience being a gatekeeper in this (second) reality. There
is a new arrival, just appeared (as if from nowhere) right next to Me.
“I've only been here a few days, how can I help?” “Because that is
longer than 'they' have been here. Plus, You are a gatekeeper, You
All-ready knew that.”
“Does that mean You are new here too?” “No, I was much further in but
I came to You because of Our previous connection.” “So, because of Me
You are sort of back at the beginning”? “Not at All, I Am still
further in also. I Am both here AND there. Soon You will be too”.
“Oh”. What else could I say?
I try to comfort and reassure the new arrival. “They” keep fading in
and out. I Am told We All (usually) do that at first. There is no
rush, here We get to just be. Rushing is for other worlds.
I stay with the new arrival AND I begin to experience further into
this reality. I see people thinking thoughts, melodic thoughts that
turn into (or grow into) things. I real-eyes that this is a place
where whatever We think and feel becomes real. I real-eyes that We
could bring All Our old stuff/baggage with Us and set it up One more
time. We could, but We don't. I understand the reason is because
that old stuff/baggage is based in separation. Here We are
experiencing being connected. Old thoughts, feelings and questions do
come up because “they” are still familiar but “they” have no substance
here. Those old ways of thinking are not melodic, or at least not
harmonious and “they” do not take root. Again, here “they” have no
substance. “They” are fleeting thoughts.
I experience My houseplant growing and changing. There is a new set
of front steps that I have been imagining lately. “They” are large
and grand. These steps are alive, a bit like a serpent in the way
“they” move about. The surface of each step is large enough that the
movement is not a problem and somehow there is no question of falling
off. It is All-most like Once on the steps there is no off until You
get to where You are going. The steps seem to be made of living rock
and wood and flowers, lots of lovely flowers.
I start to ask the new arrival if “they” see any of this but the look
on “their” face tells Me “they” just need to be on the beach a while.
I can relate to that.
I send My attention out into the multi-verse. I see Me at many
gates/portals in many lands. In some I take new arrivals on a tour
(so to speak) of what is on the other side. Interesting to note that
the other side can be either side depending on where a person is
familiar with. In this world, I stay positioned at the gate/portal
with an arrival until “they” are ready to move on. Then I may pass
“them” off to someOne else to guide or if We are more connected (like
My other aspect who greeted Me) I may stay with “them” as “they”
venture in. I do All this at the same time as I venture into the
reality with My friend(s).
At this point I decide to get out of bed. There is no fear of losing
this reality as I wake and enter My current primary reality. I now
have both. The new/second reality is still less physical but not less
real. That has All-ways been My choice to make, whether to believe in
it or not.
I know now, that even if I do slide into My second reality as My
primary, I can AND WILL visit these other realities often. That is
part of what I do.
I AM a gatekeeper."

And a bit about Our gatekeeper dream the next night:
"Slowly I Am bringing in an awareness of more but that is happening
much faster in dream than in waking and I just have to be okay with
that. I was just a little bit miffed last night: in dream I took a
youngstar from My waking world to this new reality and the little so
and so fit right in, got into it, moved into My villa and started
roaming the land, went back and grabbed a couple of friends and
introduced "them" and took "them" deep into the reality and here I was
going: WTF, over. I quickly got it that this is common for
youngstars, "they" are not as attached to this reality and its laws as
Us oldstars. BUT STILL!!!!!!!!!!
I did learn a bit from the example however.
I Am also getting it that what blocked Me All this time was Me. I
would often bring a memory/essence of another reality with Me and
separate it from My reality. Because I did NOT see the other reality
and only barely felt it I didn't accept it as real in waking. I knew
it was real, but NOT that I was experiencing it in waking. Hard to
put into words. I called it: "That is just My imagination". Even
with as much work as I have done to get it that My imagination is
real, I still drew a line and that was My boundary.
I wanted these new realities to be as physical (from the start) in
waking as "they" are in dream and as this One is in waking. For Me,
that is NOT the way it is happening. I get the distinct feeling that
it needs to happen slowly and begin as a vague image in order for
Me/Us to adjust and get Our sea legs. Perhaps, after it is more
common it will happen quicker and easier, I'm quite confidant of this
and then We will add even more realities to Our awareness and begin to
live fully in multi-D but I can barely handle two at a time right now."

That is All I have found for now.  If I find more "they" too will probably get posted under the label: "gatekeeper".

From sometime long ago

We have no clue when We actually typed this but We shared it on April 24,2009:

" An idea had been mulling around in My mind the last few days, trying to find itSelf and take form.
It's about Me, it's about Us and it's about the YoungStars. It's about space, place and room to grow. It's about acceptance and allowing.
At first I thought perhaps it was about creating space and place for the StarChildren to learn, grow and express. But, nay, for it is about allowing the children to create "their" space and place to do and be what "they" feel "they" need or want.
Tonight I pondered in waking dreams where this might occur. In the Imagi-nation of course. It is the Imagi-nation where the student becomes the teacher, and the lessons come in the form of games.
As We use Our Imagi-nation to explore (and that is truly where All exploration is at its best) then We allow the child within Us and without to use the Imagi-nation also. As this thought was romping and expressing itSelf I Once more was riding a mighty dragon. This time there was a great troop of Us soaring thru the skies. No mission, no distinct purpose other than flying, other than experiencing.
I rested upon a mountain ridge and watched All My friends soaring thru the air along a massive mountain range. I was a dragon. Dragon is an aspect of Us, an extension of Us.
Where is this place? The Imagi-nation. It is here and it is now. "

Gatekeeper

08/10/13

Today:

Gatekeeper

Wizard's Log Star-date: 06:00:27 AM

Good morning. Lots more worlds and lots more friends. There were old friends from Our waking world that We have not seen since high school and friends that We have seen in waking but not actually met and even current friends from waking. What a nice variety. We know that this is about learning to live multidimensionally. In Our current belief system there just is not enough time and ability to visit All these worlds and have ongoing lives with All these friends. Yet, We know that We do. We experience it at night in Our dreams AND now We carry the awareness into Our waking.

We also had some insight into what is going during these current days of spending those dreaming too. Several times We have woken feeling totally exhausted. This is something We have not noticed in a long time until the last couple of days. We are very busy in Our dreams.

Last night in One set of dreams We were able to check friends out of “their” limitation prison but We had to take responsibility for “them” and stay with “them” the entire time. We are not aware of taking anyOne back. We were aware (in the dream) that this is part of the “Gatekeeper” series.

Our brain is wondering what today will be like. Our heart is happy to stay in the now. We are happy to return to dream life if We can. Our brain wonders about getting more projects done and/or getting everything put away (and ready for winter) before school starts. That is part of the old system of beliefs and fears. We can drag OurSelf back or We can allow this shift and transition. We choose new. We: open, let go and allow.

We would love to convey what We are feeling but We just do not have adequate words. It is expansion. It is letting go. How does it feel to let go of a long cherished belief? How does it feel to step through a door that can not be seen into something more than We ever imagined possible? We are in multiworlds, how does One describe that?

We returned to dream but did not go to sleep (or don't think We did). We kinda thought We might have some motorvation to do some stuff outside but it feels much more like We have decisions to make: do We want to walk in multi-D or remain in limitation? Of course Our heart longs for multi-D but Our head/brain/ego is afraid. One of the things Our head tells Us is that We have never seen the kind of change We are feeling right now and this is a lie, an illusion and a distraction. The truth is that what Our head wants to cling to is the lie, illusion and distraction. Yes, We have been here (or nearby) before but We have learned and remembered much since then. Plus, the energy and All that from and through Gaia, Our sun, the central sun and everything else is stronger and more supportive now. And, regardless everything is perfect just as it is. If We do need “to do” anything We will know. We can trust that but that is another issue We must face and walk through. Much is going on even though it might look like We are stagnant. We are anything but stagnant.

We are having a thought: “We have just enough energy to let go”.

We returned to dream again and again visited several friends in different worlds. Again We experienced introducing some to freedom and expansion. As You might well imagine this created a true link and bond with those who are willing to accept it.

On waking, We feel something different and can not place it. We are letting go and staying in the now as We mentally prepare to go to town. This will be a bit of a shift for Us from Our focus the last few days. We hope to be able to remain focused in multiworlds as We participate in 3D. We are reminded that it does not have to be ONLY limitation 3D.

We did Our usual Saturday trip to town. Our friends were also very low energy so it was a short visit. We got a few groceries and returned home for dinner and dreams.